posted June 19, 2002 02:02 PM         

I will look at those fragments as soon as possible.

posted June 20, 2002 05:45 AM         

Last night was my first dream in weeks that I can recall. A lady was dropping 100 dollar bills out of her purse as she paid for something, and several people were trying to steal them while I tried to grab them all to give back to her. Short, but weird dream.

posted June 21, 2002 04:29 PM         

1. In "real life" that guy is you, or rather that aspect of you (the masculine) which is "driving" your life. Perhaps this aspect of self is a bit run down at the moment, out of energy, or running low on motivation (gas). It could be that it will take some time or patience to re-activate this aspect of your self/life (huge line), and it is good that you are not too concerned! Patience. Could this be work related, or relationship related? Where were you going? How were you dressed? (even if you have to make a guess) Whichever, you cannot go wrong by being relaxed! ... ok, I am getting the impression that this may be related to work in some way, something is threatening to stall, the forces that were once motivating the situation seem to be running out, or there is a fear that this may happen - at least by others. Or maybe there seem to be an endless number of obstacles, perhaps people (cars in line). Just impressions.

Anything fit?

2. ? Not enough information. Although it seems that these large houses in your dreams are where you are learning or healing, similar to school symbology. These large houses with many rooms and people could represent your "group" and its collective work.

3. ?. This could be about your brother or yourself, but I get the feeling it is something about your brother that you could learn from. A chipmunk is a creature that is active both on and under the ground, possibly symbolizing a conscious to unconscious connection, albeit a "small" one, and the burrowing into the unconscious. It is also a wild animal, untamed, instinctual - so as a pet it may symbolize some small (but active) connection to the unconscious which is under conscious control. Perhaps being at your brother's house - in waking life - imparts to you some small amount of "control" of the masculine forces you seem to be dealing with. How do you feel while at your brother's house? Do you feel less forceful, less of the male/active influences? Do you feel more "natural" somehow?

All of these really are just speculation - you certainly did not give me much to work with! I kind of experimented with some over-analyzing to see where it might go.

Does anything stick?

posted June 22, 2002 11:44 AM         

1. My job is running smoothly. I am definitley in "waiting" mode on the relationship (sigh). So, that may be it. Also, I've had a sudden need to "finish" my home - paint, furniture, etc. I just had some furniture arrive yesterday and realized I'm not done yet. Any chance that could be it?

2. The learning process certainly hits home. I've been reading up a storm!

3. I forgot to tell you, this is a different brother than the one I am close to. I have a lot of tension with this brother, and I don't recall much of this dream. I think there may have been an intruder involved. I recall feeling calm and not troubled at all.

I'm still not recalling much. I know last night I dreamed about Bush in one instance and Gore in the other. Essentially, I thought that they needed some guidance!

Thanks for the info. I think you did well based on what I could recall!

posted June 24, 2002 09:43 AM         

I was at a party at a beach house. Several of us (men and women) are on the side of the house where it is dark - most of us have drinks in hand - I am also carrying a beige/brown blanket - I don't recognize anyone - we are in a line of sorts and traveling to the backyard to get into the house - it is brighter in the back - there is a "fork in the road" so to speak and the person in front of me - who I believe is a man - goes to the left which is more obstructed and he has to go under a tree and it is darker - the path to the right is bright but it is a steep sandy slope - almost everyone is going right - the person behind me seems annoyed that I have paused to decide (I believe this is a woman) - I go left - the ones behind me go right - I walk into some webs under the tree - I go a little further and the webs are worse so I back out (I'm thinking to myself "how can there be webs when that guy just went through here?) - I drop the blanket on the ground/patio and a dark brown spider crawls out - my first inclination is to step on it but then I remember the goddess lives in everything and I elt it live - then two or three more spiders crawl out and I watch them all go over the edge of this patio and disappear - I think they probably went under the patio - I feel calm - I step over the blanket and proceed to the party.

So, what do you think? Was it a fork in the road? BTW, in real life, I am afraid of spiders and webs!

posted June 25, 2002 01:40 PM         

Interesting dream! There are so many details! You have come a long way.

If you do not mind, I would like to have Seeker look at it before I give you my opinion (which is not completely formulated ). I think a female perspective on your dreams might help.

Thank you!

posted June 25, 2002 04:26 PM         

That's fine with me. My dream book wasn't very helpful, but I felt like this dream had some significance.

BTW, I did a lexi of your name. You are an interesting soul!

posted June 26, 2002 09:58 AM         

Hopeful, all these men and women at the party represent you, with different energies and experiences. Most of them are parts of you which have experienced various situations.
Are you feeling that you are just drifting along, more like living life on very superficial terms..the party with the glasses in hand represent that..taking refuge in temporary pleasures, even when you are aware that this is not what you really want. You are aware of the path you are to follow(bright light in the backyard), in the back of your mind and do tell yourself that you have to set yourself on that path.The hitch comes in because you realise that the path is a lot of hard work (steep path).You go against your inner self's guidance and move towards the path you have traversed several times in the past but realise that the path is not what it used to be, it gives you no respite, inspite of the security it represents(blanket). The woman and others behind you go to the right, this is actually you going on the right path.
You are going through contemplation now, but the right path will draw you towards it and you will go towards it.
Hopeful, your dreams all indicate that the spiritual s-elf in you has been calling you. You can no longer turn away from it, you are aware of it too, but are scared as this means a different kind of life, from what you have been used to.
Are you a worshipper of the Goddess, your dreams clearly indicate that you worship a female form which has already aligned itself with the feminine energies in you.

Ra, Hopeful how many marks do I get ?

posted June 26, 2002 10:03 AM         

Hopeful, all these men and women at the party represent you, with different energies and experiences. Most of them are parts of you which have experienced various situations.
Are you feeling that you are just drifting along, more like living life on very superficial terms..the party with the glasses in hand represent that..taking refuge in temporary pleasures, even when you are aware that this is not what you really want. You are aware of the path you are to follow(bright light in the backyard), in the back of your mind and do tell yourself that you have to set yourself on that path.The hitch comes in because you realise that the path is a lot of hard work (steep path).You go against your inner self's guidance and move towards the path you have traversed several times in the past but realise that the path is not what it used to be, it gives you no respite, inspite of the security it represents(blanket). The woman and others behind you go to the right, this is actually you going on the right path.
You are going through contemplation now, but the right path will draw you towards it and you will go towards it.
Hopeful, your dreams all indicate that the spiritual s-elf in you has been calling you. You can no longer turn away from it, you are aware of it too, but are scared as this means a different kind of life, from what you have been used to.
Are you a worshipper of the Goddess, your dreams clearly indicate that you worship a female form which has already aligned itself with the feminine energies in you.
One more thing, when you go on this path, you are going to forgive a lot of people no matter how hurtful they have been in the past(the spider), as you will be seeing God in all things.

Ra, Hopeful how many marks do I get ?

posted June 26, 2002 02:26 PM         

I wrote my interpretation last night, and I will copy it here without changing it so you can see the similarities and differences. You mentioned things I did not (I love the "taking refuge in temporary pleasures"!!) and I mention things you do not, but taken together I think they provide a fuller, more complete picture! They are certainly complementary!

Here is mine:
There are two paths, each of them leading to a celebration (party) of new awareness (beach house). You are approaching from a less aware state (dark side of house), but do realize the destination - the only question, which path to take?

Going left symbolizes moving into the unconscious. This path is dark (unconscious) and "more obstructed," especially with spider webs, which are not noticed intil walked into (unconscious pattern).

Going right symbolizes moving into consciousness. This path is bright (awareness) with a steep (progressive consciousness), sandy (beach sand symbolizes new awareness) slope.

The symbology accompanying these directions - right and left - is very appropriate, as you can see.

Why do you feel you chose to "go left"?

It seems that in choosing the path into the unconscious you encounter various "threads" of unconscious material. Again - as in other of your dreams - there is a tree providing an obstacle - the webs are "under" it. Again, the unconscious. The webs indicate subconscious patterns that are either driving or impeding your current situation. They also elicit in me a sense of karma. The further you go, the worse are the webs. Such is a life - the deeper you investigate, the more you become aware of the myriad complexities involved in the making of it.

Perhaps the "guy" you followed was an illusion. Or perhaps it is a simple message that you will meet your own barriers regardless of the path.

Why did you drop the blanket on the ground? The blanket could symbolize something that gives you comfort, something that covers or hides, or some aspect of your personna. It's brown color suggests it is something of a "grounding" nature, or something fertile, or perhaps just neutral. Whichever, it is a feminine symbol, especially in this context, and is related to Gaea - the goddess principle of the planet. Also related to goddess energy are the spider's webs - the goddess Arachne, weaver of life/fate. And there is the spider itself which in many cultures is symbolic of the mother goddess. It is no wonder you "remember the goddess lives in everything"!! And let us not forget that you are on the "left" path, the unconscious, the receptive, the feminine! Also, the spider itself is dark brown (unconscious, feminine)!!!

In this context, I believe the spider has a dual symbolism, representing both the positve (goddess) and the negative (possessiveness/"poison"). Dropping the brown blanket may symbolize the dropping of some aspect of your personna, or the release of something that brings you comfort, yet also covers/hides you. In doing so there is a release of some quality of the spider - perhaps possessiveness or ruthlessness - and by choosing not to kill it, you have chosen to release it from the unconscious and therefore not to suppress it, but to transform it (into goddess energy). More material (other spiders) or more energy of this nature is then free to be released.

Releasing and leaving behind this energy pattern, aspect of your personna, or thought-form, is cause for celebration indeed! - You proceed to the party!

See what I mean? They complement each other well - I think!

Hopeful?

posted June 26, 2002 02:55 PM         

Ra - I will post your lexi here. The last couple of days, I have spent part of the time with my mother in the hospital. She was having follow up tests after conquering esophageal cancer 2 1/2 years ago. I saw your letters posted on a lexi thread, and I wrote them down and did this lexi at the hospital. I'm curious as to whether it has any special meaning for you? I got the sense it was tapping into prior lives??? I've only been doing lexi's for a couple of months, so feedback is helpful! BTW, my mom is still clear!!! She is in the top 1% for this type of cancer. Amazing. Here is the lexi:

U ARE AN OLD SOUL
U HAVE RA'S EAR
U ARE TOLD TO HEAL OTHERS
U DO SO wiTH EASE

U ARE ABLE TO READ OTHERS
iT iS UR TRADE DEAR BLES-SED SOUL
U SHARE UR TALENTS wITH THOSE iN NEED

U LEARNED A HARD LESSON
"ABORT HATRED iN ORDER TO SOAR; END
A HARSH TiRADE; DO NOT STEAL
OTHERS SOULS; LET OTHERS SOAR TO-O"

U HEARD RA'S TEST -
U DARED TO BE A HEALER
U ARRESTED HATE AND
ALTERED UR HAND
U LEARNED HATE iS NOT SET
IN STONE
U LEARNED TO SOAR

U ARE of THE SUN -
UR HEAT HEALS
U LET OTHERS LEAN ON U
U AND RA ARE ONE

U ARE RA

posted June 26, 2002 10:30 PM         

Hopeful, that is fabulous!

Yes, there is meaning, and indeed you tapped into some previous lives!

Amazing!

posted June 27, 2002 01:04 PM         

As for my dream:

Seeker - I like the part about the people at the party being different parts of myself. That rings true. Also true that for some time I feel even though my life is packed, it is superficial as the thing I want most (marriage - children) is eluding me. I've only had a strong desire for family in the last couple of years, and that is part of what led me down the spiritual path.

I have been reading many, many things re Egypt, Greece, ancient pagan (god/dess) and wiccan religions, and yes, I am drawn to the Goddess. I have really just begun but seem to be on an accelerated path for some reason.

Speaking of paths, the left one seemed less exposed to me but also less traveled - so that in a sense it was more of an adventure/an exploration. The right path did make me nervous not so much because it was bright but because it was so steep. I think I went left because I wanted to go the less traveled route - possibly the spiritual route? So, I'm not sure which path is the "right" path for me? Did I make the wrong choice in the dream? Am I not being diligent enough about pursuing my intuitive/spiritual side in real life? Still trying to tie that together.

Ra - the unconscious v. conscious re the paths feels right to me. Is it possible I am traveling both paths?

Please expand on the webs eliciting karma! I am delving into these concepts which are new to me.

It is possible the guy I followed on the left path was an illusion - it was more of a "sense" that someone went that way. I'm not sure why I dropped the blanket, but it was intentional and I may have been thinking it had spiders in it. I"m glad I didn't run from or kill the spiders and glad you think I am (finally?!) tapping my feminine/unconscious side.

The idea of the blanket covering/hiding me also rings true. I was definitely wary of the exposure with the right path. The idea of venturing onto the spiritual path is unsettling as I"m already becoming aware of "being" more aware and I realize it will affect my current friendships/relationships - yet at the same time, I feel ready for my spiritual side to open up.

I really like the interpretations! They do complement each other and, as you can see, have given me more to think about.

posted June 27, 2002 01:55 PM         

BTW, did you notice the lexi - "a harsh tirade; do not steal others' souls." It is no coincidence that this showed up! It is a direct reference to the lives I led in which I deceived so many, and I am reminded of it often. The more I am reminded, the more I remember, as more of the "players" in those times are being met, again. It is a wonderful thing!

Hopeful, I get the feeling of karmic influences in part by the placement and context of the webs but also by ... well, just feeling, intuition - by the same means in which you are expanding. The left path is symbolically feminine which contains within it the intuitive forces. You have chosen this path, the intuitive, which will also necessitate the exposing of latent energies of self, both positive and negative.

I will also say that I feel the spiders somehow relate to your current efforts with lexis, and that perhaps the development of this sort of talent will induce the intuitive forces within you. And it is not so much an induction of the force as it is a recognition and trust in it. You have the intuition, you must only learn to trust it, to follow it. Doing a lexi with both right brain (logic/problem solving) and left brain (intuition/feeling/emotion) processes may well be what you need to grow in both directions!

Anyway, this karmic feeling I get seems to be related to your progressive realization of just what is really happening "behind the scenes" of your life. I think you are going to begin becoming aware of more than just bits and pieces of information - you will begin to see the patterns that lie behind the structures, the karmic patterns that have set your life in motion ... or something like that.

posted June 27, 2002 04:09 PM         

The quoted part of your lexi is exactly the part I thought came from past lives. Interesting, huh? I really enjoy doing them and am glad you think they are helpig me to tap into and believe my intuition.

I'm still not sure why I seem to be on an accelerated path, but the answer will come when it is ready.

The dream interpretations have been a tremendous help in letting me know that something is happening and that I'm heading in the right direction. Thank you!

Hopefully, I"ll have another dream for you soon. It's been rather quiet again this week.

posted June 28, 2002 01:27 AM         

You will be drawn to the right spiritual path..no two ways about it. You soul has agreed about this and probably had also anticipated the obstacles, due to which marraige etc has been put off. You are not the only gal, facing this, believe me, there are several others too.
You will have to find ur spiritual goal, before you start a family, it is better that way, your mind will be at rest.

All the Best,

posted June 28, 2002 10:45 AM         

I dreamed about diagonal crisscross webs and spiders again last night. I think I have the meaning of this one down!