posted October 25, 2002 12:57 PM         

ALL I DO IS ROLL AROUND IN MUD ALL DAY

I AM NO SINN'R
I DRAW MY MIND
I AM NOt LASY
I AM SAD

MY LAD IS MIS-SIN'
MY LAD SOLD 'IS SOUL IN A DUAL
MY ARMS AROUND LAD MOLD 'IM tO ME
MY SOUL MINDS 'IS SOUL

RAIN IS NOt A NOISY SOUND
RAIN MINDS 'IS SOUL
the LADY LANDS 'IM At MY DOOR
I AM IN 'IS ARMS SOON
I MARRY MY LAD

LAD'S SOUL IS AN OLD SOUL
MY SOUL AND LAD'S SOUL MOLD AS ONE SOUL
OUR MARRYIN' IS ORDAINeD

posted October 25, 2002 08:37 PM         

Thank you for posting that. It does give me an idea, but it will have to remain a secret for a time.

posted October 28, 2002 10:12 AM         

I know I've been having some intense dreams, but I can't seem to wake myself up enough to write them down or to hold onto them after I wake. I will keep trying and if I can retain even one, perhaps that will lend some insight.

posted October 31, 2002 10:48 AM         

I was at an amusement park. I was with a small group of people - I'm unsure of whether it was composed of men and women or just women - I think it was all women. We were standing in front of the Zipper (do you know that ride?) and someone dared me to ride it. I said I would and persuaded a girlfriend to come with me who was a little reluctant. We were watching the ride - and she noticed one car was turning upside down a lot. The car had two men in it, and I said that one of the men was making it turn on purpose - that the cars don't turn that much on their own. She still seemed uneasy - and I was a little nervous but I was also looking for the adrenaline that comes from being a little out of control. The others seemed impressed or amazed that I was willing to go on this ride.

no hurry...

posted November 01, 2002 10:50 AM         

Part 1: This part is sketchy, but I was traveling I believe with my mother around the city looking for the Sag. It had an astral feel to the travel, and we did not find him. My mother called my dad and told him I was going to spend the night at their place.

Part 2: My high school girlfriend was driving me from the city to our hometown. Before we left the city, I mentioned maybe we could swing by the Sag's place to see if he was there. She didn't want to take the time. I thought to myself it would be easy to stop by and then we would just have to loop around to catch the expressway, but I kept silent and did not press the issue.

Part 3: At my parent's house, my father has made up a queen size bed for me. The sheet is hanging lower than the colorful quilt on top of it, and in front of the pillows are two large stuffed animals - cats or panthers maybe - pink with white furry whiskers. They are set perpendicular to each other, with the one on the "T" slanted at an angle towards me. My mother is weepy and says "oh look - your father made up a bed for you before he left for work." (like he had gone on a night shift) I picked up the cat on the slant and held it to me. I felt very safe and loved.

So, that was the dream. Ra - my father died 4 1/2 years ago. Last night, after being told Halloween was the night of the thinnest veil and the easiest time to communicate with spirits, I meditated and asked my father to come to me in my dream and give me some guidance as to the Sag. Afterwards, I was filled with energy. I was trying to read this Paul Brunton book I picked up at the library yesterday, and the idea of writing the Sag a "good-bye" letter kept popping into my thoughts. I finally put the book down and wrote the letter, and then the excess energy seemed to leave. I have not sent the letter yet, but I believe I will next week.

So, that was my evening! Thoughts?

posted November 03, 2002 03:15 PM         

I will look at these tonight.

posted November 04, 2002 01:31 PM         

The amusement park suggests that you may need distraction/variation/variety in waking life. It also suggests that perhaps you need to challenge yourself, or push yourself into doing something you would not normally do ... and this is precisely what you do in the dream. The girlfriend is probably a reflection of self, that aspect of self that is "reluctant." The uneasiness and nervousness stems from the "challenge" and is exacerbated by the actions of the men, who probably represent the Sag. I think a part of you is "impressed or amazed" at the relative fearlessness that yourSelf is showing.

This dream seems to be a prelude to the letter you have written.

I will have to leave dream #2 for tomorrow. It certainly is quite a dream though, considering your request beforehand! I would like to look at it a bit more closely than I was able to last night. Your father is definately here with you and listening. Do not limit yourself to Halloween - there may be some truth to what you heard, but this applies not to you! YOU can do this whenever you put your MIND to it. YOU have the power to thin the veil at will, you need only to "practice."

posted November 05, 2002 01:32 PM         

Dream#2

Part 1 - this part contains both of the basic elements of your request and reflects your situation with the Sag, ie "looking" for him. The astral feel of this part, plus the spending the night at your parent's place, suggests the entrance of your father's energy into your sub/unconscious.

Part 2 - is also a reflection of the situation and emphasizes your sit and wait attitude, with the added longing undertones.

Part 3 - the message from your father is here, but I feel that this is more of a preparation for further communication. I do not perceive a particular answer to the guidance you have asked from him, but I do perceive that he is ready (or you are ready ) to guide you through the use of unconscious forces (made bed for you) but perhaps that you must embrace a slightly diminished emotion concerning the Sag (pink, instead of RED) so that you can more clearly ascertain the message/guidance. Feel the softness of your emotions instead of the intensity of them, at least while pursuing guidance through meditation or dreaming.

Keep asking for him, he is here and he will help - but you must prepare yourself, as you have been doing! The letter is a great start, whether you send it or not. In fact, if you cannot bring yourself to send it - burn it ritualistically.

How do you feel about my thoughts? Do you feel there is anything more to the dreams? Am I missing it? (as far as you feel)

posted November 05, 2002 03:40 PM         

I think your dream interpretations fit the situation very well. I haven't been able to "feel" the Sag at all lately - which has what led me to search for guidance. In addition, the synchronicities regarding him seem to have ceased. Thus, I can only conclude that my urges to send this letter should be satisfied, and so I will send it today. Then, I will continue to sit and wait, but I will try to keep the psi (?) channels open. I am curious whether any of these recent events tie in with your "secret?"

I like what you said about Part 3 - about softer emotions. Perhaps I have been too emotionally invested in the Sag, and by loosening up I am surrendering to the will of the uni-verse. I'm not sure - as you know, I'm rather new to this path. I started reading Bailey by the way and find the book intriguing. I doubt you consider yourself as such, but I do consider you a "teacher" as you are much farther along the path than I. So, I appreciate your perceptions.

I will continue to seek guidance from my father. I am a bit frustrated that guidance seems to be elusive - if there at all - in my dreams. Somewhat like the Sag!

I went back and read this entire string yesterday, and some of the frustration left as I realized how far I have traveled in such a short time.

I remain...

Hopeful

posted November 06, 2002 10:24 AM         

This morning, I had another thought about that third part of the dream. The lights were dim and the room was warm. I felt very nurtured. Is it possible that my father was trying to tell me that there is a rough time coming but I will be okay and all will be well? That is what struck me this morning.

The first year after my father died, I felt his presence very strongly. Then, I wondered whether he was there or whether I was just conditioned to feel his comforting presence during times of difficulty (it's that psych major in me - which duals with the philosophy minor. Now...how did I end up in law??!) Anyway, after the past few months, I really feel that he is trying to comfort me...and that's why I can feel him again now.

I'm going to email you. I know you can't respond, but I was confused a bit by the Sag's reply. I did a lexi last night which told me it's not over. Just wondering what you think about keeping the psi channels open in light of the exchange (which will be in the email). Thanks again...

posted November 06, 2002 01:50 PM         

Peace to you, Hopeful.

posted November 18, 2002 10:40 AM         

The Sag and I somehow had a working relationship, and I called him to see if he was coming in as he had been missing. He said he'd been sick and he would be in.

I was standing next to a male friend/co-worker at a drafting type table, and Sag walks in with a little girl who seems sad and very serious. She is wearing a knee length dress with ruffles - it is 2-tones with some pattern all over and some frills and the bottom. I saw the little girl first and then Sag who looked terrible. I pretended to be "interested" in my friend, and i slide onto the stool next to him. Sag is wearing light colored khakis and an open necked light colored oxford type shirt - he looks very pale and thin.

Later, my friend - who is also Sag's friend - comes to tell me that he is going across the street with Sag and the girl for pizza and would I like to join them? I say no, that I had something else to do. I am feeling wary and cautious of the Sag, who just seems drained.

There was not much color in this dream - in a sense it felt etheral - it felt as though I was looking at a reflection in water - it was not overly bright - more like flourescent lighting

The little girl did not speak at all - she seemed "old" - Sag was taking care of her and she was very attached to him [I had the sense this little girl is me] - I asked my friend how old the little girl was as I was thinking she was 9, but my friend said she was 3 or 4

That's all I recall. I woke up in the middle of the night and had to write it down. Thoughts? Questions?

Thanks...

posted November 19, 2002 01:27 PM         

Last night -----------------
The working relationship reflects your desires at working at the relationship and, of course, his "missing" from the equation. I suppose there is something of a vague positive here, as he does come in, and being sick is a temporary situation - but this is a stretch and I do feel it as something more of the future rather than the near present.

The girl may have a multi-leveled symbology, the first of which I see is a representation of you. I believe she reflects your feelings about the Sag when you think of the wanted relationship - attatched, but "sad and very serious."

She could also represent an undeveloped aspect of the Sag that needs to grow before he can become "well" enough to pursue a relationship with you.

I also get the impression that there is a past-life undertone to the Sag-girl (you) relationship, one of pain and sadness. Of course, I have no proof of this, only my impressions - which are coming FAST - but I feel that this past-life was a father-daughter relationship, the mother having tragically died - I get the impression of severe illness - and a void was thus created within the father/Sag (which could be unconsciously activated when in your presence in this life). Again, impressions - the girl WAS very attatched to the father, and took upon herself many care-taking responsibilities as she watched him slowly diminish into an emotionally empty being, unable to love even his own daughter (or at least show it) - but she understood and loved him unconditionally, and cared for him, until he withered and died. - late 1800s, dare I say Chicago? This girl was aged/matured beyond her years, to be sure, and after her father's death, I get impressions of orphanage/Catholic/nun (nun not necessarily the girl).

Where did all of THAT come from? Is it pertinent? Does it mean anything to you? It could just be my run-away imagination, but it does not feel like it.

--------------------------

After that, I could write no more. I must say that the visuals accompanying the description were vivid and strangely ... realistic, as were the emotions.

What do you think? Honestly. You will not crush my ego if you tell me that the impressions do not strike a chord in you.

posted November 19, 2002 05:28 PM         

My mother always told me I was "born old" as I always seemed so mature - even as a child. I was always particularly close to my father in this life - which I think also ties in with your impressions. He was a strong Catholic. I've never been fond of organized religion, but I do feel a sense of peace when inside a Catholic church, which may have come from the past life vision you had.

As for the Sag, I did "recognize" him before he and I were even introduced. I do feel that I've known him in a previous life or lives. We do have a strong mental connection - as he has called when I've thought about him or written after I've written him notes that I then burned in the fireplace. I asked seeker about that little girl, and together with yivy's lexi about that other dream phrase, she feels the little girl is me and that, in a sense, I've "loaned" that little girl out to try and help/stay connected to the Sag and that I MUST get her back! I will say, that did hit a strong chord with me.

Even before this dream, I had boxed up most of the things I have about the Sag and put them in my closet. I wrote the good-bye letter and have made no effort to contact him by phone or mail. However, after I did this I could feel him more strongly than ever, the signs about him suddenly appeared again and now...this dream. I am confused, but I also think I do need to get that little girl back.

I am getting some information that he and I may be twin souls - and I think that also ties in with your impressions. I am receiving a message that I must let go and continue further along the path if I am going to re-unite with him. I have had the impression before that our past relationship(s) did result in separation which caused sadness.

There is another part of your impression that struck me. My great aunt was a teacher in Chicago in the era you mentioned. She had a difficult relationship with her father. I don't know how he died (we have not been able to determine yet), but he left the responsiblity of the land and finances to her rather than her brother. She tried to help out with his farm and went home often to oversee finances, and I believe he always kept her at a distance. She died about 3 months AFTER I was born, but there are many, many, many similarities between the two of us. I've often wondered if somehow she "stepped in" or guided me somehow. The akashic reader I saw last summer told me we were definitely from the same soul tree and at first did think that I may have lived as my great aunt but then changed her mind (when i clarified that she died after I was born).

As for the Sag, he grew up on the east coast, but he is the only member of his family who chose a college in Chicago and has stayed here.

I am very drained (which I'm sure you have picked up on) and I have accepted that I need to let the Sag go in order for us both to move forward. I am trying to just focus on my reading and meditation for now. I will continue to ask my Higher Self for guidance in my dreams, and maybe one day....as I am confused why on the one hand I feel I should "let go" and on the other I receive signs. Why the dichotomy???

I am also curious what you thought about the etheral feel to the dream. It was almost as though I were looking at a reflection in a pool - that if I dipped my hand in, it would melt away.

Thank you Ra -

posted November 21, 2002 01:32 PM         

sVirgo, very interesting. My only advice would be to do what is in your heart, and do not put conditions on life as they may be related in your dreams, although your first dream IS interesting! You never know how things will play out.

posted November 26, 2002 08:26 PM         

dream 1 - I was being driven my my mother to a farmer's market where we were going to look for candles - she's worried about being late - I keep telling her to relax and to slow down - it's a big car - 4 door sedan type - we stop the car next to a fruit stand and park - at the stand that woman is selling blueberries and some kind of sweet cake also with blueberries - we buy some things and wander on foot into the market - my mom is still nervous and rushing a bit and I continue to try and slow her down [Ra - I had the sense that my mother was actually me]

dream 2 - I walk into the bathroom and I see a bit of cleanser on the counter - I wipe it up but a bit spills on the floor and is foamy - then I notice there is a small puddle of foamy water on the floor - I look at the faucet, and I realize it is running and some of the water has spilled over the sink and is running down the counter on to the floor - I know it is the left tap that is on and I try to turn it off with my mind

dream 3 - this is more of a frag, but I was involved in some gardening activity with a group of women - I was debating whether to actually participate and was being encouraged to do so.

No hurry Ra - I have very limited computer access this week.

posted December 02, 2002 01:37 PM         

Are you okay emotionally?

posted December 04, 2002 01:36 PM         

1) You are looking for some inner resource, some inner bit of light which you feel you need to activate, and you feel you are running out of time/patience. Your dream ego is telling you what you consciously know but still have difficulty fully embracing - "relax and slow down." It is suggested that this is a mental matter concerning the "bearing of fruit" of ideas/thoughts/concepts (blueberries).

2) The bathroom is a place symbolizing cleansing, preparation, and release - all of which seem to be represented here. Perhaps this has to do with your efforts to cleanse/purify self, finding that these efforts are taking you to the very roots/foundations of your unconscious self (bathroom floor) where the overflowing emotions, which you have consciously tried to control, are unconsciously collecting - but perhaps with the unforseen benefit of cleansing those unconscious foundations/emotions (foamy) and drawing your attention to them. The left tap could symbolize the feminine/receptive/intuitive forces from which these emotions are unconsciously overflowing, the mechanism involved in the release. The control of this mechanism is the mind, and this mental manipulation no doubt reflects your growing awareness of these things as well as the conscious work you are doing in this area.

3) The message of this fragment fits well with the preceding dreams. This seems to be a communication from Self encouraging you to continue with your growth-oriented activities. Gardening suggests growth/fertility/connection with natural forces along with order, symmetry, and the growth/cultivation of ideas/concepts. This could also be a reflection of some waking life activity you are considering - if so, it would seem to be beneficial.