posted February 14, 2008 07:31 PM            

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I was with you up until this last post (HSC).

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At least it got you off the fence,
to admit that you were with me all along.

Better late than never.

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"You haven't gone far enough
until you've gone too far."
~ Mars/Merc in Sagittarius

posted February 14, 2008 07:43 PM            

I am a fan, of course. I think you have a great mind. As you already know I'm not exactly loyal enough to just go along with everything, though. I have to keep some semblance of integrity to myself.

quote:

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"You haven't gone far enough
until you've gone too far."
~ Mars/Merc in Sagittarius

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I guess that's appropriate.

quote:

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At least it got you off the fence,
to admit that you were with me all along.

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To be fair, I was also a bit for 26T. I can see what you're saying, but I can also see where her consideration of what you said lead her to say the things she said.

I think for anyone to really consider the meat of what you said in your first post they're automatically going to head down that path of seeming to psychoanalyze you. It would be tough to avoid. We're all experts on our own opinions, so of course that will come across condescending at times.

posted February 14, 2008 07:59 PM            

I think you have a lot to teach us.

posted February 14, 2008 10:47 PM            

I also think that NosiS was asking
because he liked what I wrote,
and wanted to encourage me
to let my light shine.

posted February 14, 2008 10:48 PM            

To answer your question:

I had my doubts.

I didnt feel like making more excuses for myself
(even if they were pretty damn compelling).


Or hurting people's feelings any more today
(however original or accurate my observations may be -
and you know I do say so myself).

And, to be completely honest,
I did it because of what Marty McFly says;
because I'm tragically ahead of my time.

Or not.

I don't know anymore.

Maybe this isnt my crowd.

Maybe I'm not myself.

Maybe both.

posted February 14, 2008 10:49 PM            

I want to apologize,
but I dont know yet what to apologize for.

Or what to defend.

I feel sad.

I feel remorse, mercy.

I feel like I exaggerate my sufferings unforgivably.

I dont know what to do.

I'm such a baby, lol.

I just. . .

I dont know when its okay to cry,
and when its self-pity.

If we could open ourselves, and let it go...

Let the tears pour for days and days...

Would we purge ourselves?

Or just create a channel for infinite grief?

posted February 14, 2008 11:35 PM            

I agree this thread has been quite beautiful. I thought that HSC's edited post was brutally honest and I, for one, truly enjoy reading those the most. I didn't mean to say that he shouldn't have edited it (although I disagree with the edit) but, as HSC has already responded, to inquire why he did so. I totally agree that the right to edit posts is legitimate and often necessary.

By the way, HSC, I'm not a girl.

I'm not gay, either. (Not that there's anything wrong with that!)

posted February 14, 2008 11:48 PM              

quote:

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If we could open ourselves, and let it go...

Let the tears pour for days and days...

Would we purge ourselves?

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It can work. It has for me.

If you can learn from it afterwards it works real well.

posted February 14, 2008 11:50 PM              

"I won't presume to speak for anyone else, but would simply like to point out, that I have thanked my lucky STARS for the ability to edit here. (And I'm not talking about the times I've used it to be an a--, either.) If it's not too crazy..I'd like to just openly defend the right of people to edit their posts without cause..please? It's hard enough admitting the mistake and correcting it..without also having to explain it, further spotlighting the lesson already learned..as evidenced by the editing."

posted February 14, 2008 11:52 PM              

quote:

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Real people make mistakes. Real friends know when to let it go.

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posted February 15, 2008 12:16 AM              

not talking about the art (how could anyone - or me at least - judge art?) but the feeling. your words were clear and i felt something which seems to resemble what you describe.

i'm not sure if i have to thank you for that

posted February 15, 2008 01:30 AM            

You could open yourself up and drown in your tears because there is never ending injustice and pain in this world, this country, down your street,and probably in your own family, if i had to guess. But what a waste! That's not what you came to this earth to do. I don't know what you ARE here for, Steve, but i do know that you have a beautiful, capable mind that could be of service to you and SO MANY OTHERS! You may very well be sensitive and easily wounded, but all that really means is to bandage up more heavily before you go out(or something glib like that ) Stop reminding yourself and everyone around you and get your armour on instead and go live. You have so, so much to give the world.

posted February 15, 2008 02:43 AM              

Your brother who loves you dearly,

posted February 15, 2008 09:39 AM            

Sorry, I forgot you were a boy.
I think I knew that, once.

26T,

Thanks.

Praecipua,

Thank you.
That's all I wanted.
And I'm not sure you should thank me either.

valcap,

Very thoughtful post, thanks.
I need to look into armour, I guess.
Protections spells and pouches maybe.
I don't know...
I dont seem to have it built in like some people.

posted February 15, 2008 09:46 AM              

http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum17/HTML/001711.html

HSC, sorry to hijack your very interesting topic.

posted February 15, 2008 09:49 AM            

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Actually, I'm a man

At least, after more than twenty-and-a-half decades of living I would surely hope so.

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posted February 15, 2008 09:59 AM            

Disarm you with a smile
And cut you like you want me to
Cut that little child
Inside of me and such a part of you
Ooh, the years burn

I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my choice
Whats a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you

Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one whos left alone
Ooh, the years burn
Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn

I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my voice
Whats a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you

The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you

posted February 15, 2008 10:14 AM            

I meant two-and-a-half decades of living...lol!

I was so serious as a child, too! I've long felt that I hardly was able to have a childhood or that, at least, I didn't find myself enjoying it enough.
I'm still working things out from those experiences and I realize just how difficult it really is each day. I only meant that I'm a man as far as my coming of age goes. As you are, as well.

Off to work now...