posted September 17, 2018 03:43 PM
oh lala...you're very sweet
and you're right...out of all the men I have dated, if I could call only one a keeper, it is this guy
it's funny that you mentioned he seems like a dream...I had a major crush on criss angel (a magician in las vegas) when I was young and I used to dream about him a lot!...then years later I met A who was born on the exact same day (different year)
they're not the same people of course but the vibe is very similar with the exact degree of their suns!
I think what we had was love or attraction at the first sight
from than very first day he didn't quit pursuing until I agreed to date him
but then after we had gained absolute mutual trust, slowly he began to enlighten me on his past...a troublesome childhood and the majority of his youth due to his parents' conflicts and finally a divorce...and him falling into a lifestyle of modelling (easy money for him) which was followed by constant opportunities for drinking, partying and more than a hundred meaningless one night stands..I guess pretty much what's described in this thread as the "dark" side of sagittarius lol
by the time we had gotten together he had changed a lot and already had found a decent career ...but there was still one thing, he is on meds for his bipolar disorder and he says he has to take them forever...he took himself off of them for a while during the time we were separated and he had to be hospitalized
currently he's been back on them for years now, but he says the meds wear him out and mess with his daily life, so he really can no more work or go to a job
I didn't break up with him for this reason, but my friends and family constantly kept telling me that I didn't have to be with a person who isn't in his full health...I had no problem with his illness, in fact my moon in pisces might be just the right one for him (I know I don't HAVE to be with ill people because of my moon, it's just that if there is one moon sign able to be happy with almost anybody and love them unconditionally, it's pisces)...the reason we agreed to separate was that I wanted to go to europe to study, and he said he wanted to stay "home" forever!...weird thing for a sagittarius to say, I know, but I think that his moon exactly conjunct saturn in capricorn had the best of him most of the time....he said he loved to travel but only when he was financially secure....I did not have enough money to support the both of us, and I did not like his constant habit of borrowing money from people...so that was when we ended things!
his saturn is on my NN...I read that this synastry aspect makes it difficult for a relationship to properly take off the ground, especially at the beginning....that was the case for us....after we went through more than a year with his friends trying to break us up, dealing with numerous girls obsessed with him finally leaving him alone, and then my family and best friends all suspicious of him, we learned that we were at different roads in our individual lives!
he's moved to another state and lives in a cottage in the country far from the noise of the city and spends most of his time reading (he was always a bookworm)...years ago when he was in high school he invented something industrial which made him and his dad super rich, but then a business partner scammed them and took away most of their money...he said he didn't even bother to take the guy to the court even though he would have definitely won, because he's experienced enough of that life!
we speak every now and then and it always ends with me telling him "again with marriage and kids!..this is why I always slip away from your hands!"...he knows very well I am not ready for that yet...I'm not that rich yet either and therefore cannot be in a codependent relationship with him...
perhaps if I were a multi millionaire, we could both retire and then travel the world together...maybe even go to the mysterious mountains of kashmir and tibet!....but right now, we're in totally different places, although our hearts are always close...
this was the summary of my relationship with this "dream" guy!
on this website which is an index of a couple's happiness, he and I score 31/36...the highest out of almost 20 composites of the relationships I have had! http://vedictime.com/en/tools/compatibility
Varna Kuta 0 / 1
Vashya Kuta 2 / 2
Dina Kuta 1.5 / 3
Yoni Kuta 3.5 / 4
Grahamaitri 3 / 5
Gana Kuta 6 / 6
Rāshi Kuta 7 / 7
Nādi Kuta 8 / 8
maybe I am being greedy and wanting something even better!...and maybe I am taking this for granted because it is just "too good"...but all I know for now is that I cannot force myself into something when I don't feel ready for it in my heart!
Dear lala, thanks for taking the time and reading this...I wish for you to meet the man of your dreams, very soon! 