posted July 29, 2022 07:02 PM            

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Originally posted by aquaguy91:
There was a period of a few years where I went out almost every weekend and forced myself to talk to people, particularly women, to get over extreme shyness and introversion. That was traumatic for me because most women are rude and antisocial in club/bar scenarios. I also took dance classes and did a number of other things to try to meet people and improve my social skills. It makes me rage when people question how much work I have put in to correct this area of my life. You people don't have a ******* clue how hard I have worked and how many nights I have ugly cried into my pillow out of frustration and despondency. This area of my life has caused me so much heartache and grief. You have no idea how hard I have worked and how defeated I feel that things really haven't changed. It's so easy for you arrogant people to sit back and judge when you have no clue how bad this stuff has messed me up. You just don't have a ******* clue.

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posted July 29, 2022 07:06 PM            

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posted July 29, 2022 07:14 PM            

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Originallyposyed by aquaguy91 Life is so ******* unfair.

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Yep and then we die👽
Whoopie do dah🥵👽
Feeling very gloomy and
dancing with the grim reaper
too much today has not helped
me hold onto hope and optimism😢👽
I am tired of feeling tired of
helping and not being appreciated👽
I am not coping well at
this time👽
Been planning my suicide
just in case I cannot be cured
of the multiple rare cancers.
Yet here I am trying to help you
and all I get is grief
for my efforts😢👽
Why should I care about you⁉️
You do not care about me,
only mostly yourself
and seem to believe that no
onee else has ever had your
problems nor could
anyone ever possibly be on the
spectrum like you👽

You are not special and nor am I.
We have afflictions and that is that.

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posted July 29, 2022 11:45 PM            

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Originally posted by aquaguy91
I'm on the spectrum. Life is in extra hard mode for me. Period.

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So please do not say that I have no
idea what it is like to live on
the Spectrum aquaguy9😢👽

You are not the only person
suffering with being on the spectrum.

I really hate letting folks know
these things about me because
it does not help them accept me.
My initials BFW gave kids and adults
excuses to further find ways to
degrade and humiliate me.
BFW became abbreviations for such as:
Big fat Witch 😢(long red hair did
not help them accept that red hair
does not make
one a witch.)
BFW bearded freaky witch😢👽
And others😢👽
At an assembly in high school
I was even sarcastically
awarded the award for having
the ugliest legs in school😳🤬😭
My legs look weird and are
dwarf proportioned.
The stigma of having birth defects
never left me even in high school😢👽
So do not think that I am incapable
of understanding your pain.
I do feel it far far too well
and do muchly understand.
Please pardon any typos or weird autofills.
Rant over must go vomit ugh.
Bad bad bad day😭🤮

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posted July 30, 2022 09:38 AM            

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Originally posted by aquaguy91:
On a humorous and somewhat related note, one of my 70-something relatives who is a widow made a Facebook post yesterday complaining about younger men hitting on her on Facebook. The worst part was all her friends around her age who commented to say they get the same thing. That shows you how desperate young men are. Some of you think it's just me who can't get women. Oh no! It's a problem for a lot of guys. And stuff like that is proof.

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posted July 30, 2022 10:22 AM            

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Originally posted by aquaguy91:
On a humorous and somewhat related note, one of my 70-something relatives who is a widow made a Facebook post yesterday complaining about younger men hitting on her on Facebook. The worst part was all her friends around her age who commented to say they get the same thing. That shows you how desperate young men are. Some of you think it's just me who can't get women. Oh no! It's a problem for a lot of guys. And stuff like that is proof.

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A lot of men are attracted to older women without having to be ‘’desperate’’ just because older women isn’t your cup of tea doesn’t mean other young men seek out older women for a ‘’desperate’’ reason. You said it yourself older women are more mature, wiser and calmer than younger ones. I mean you are in your early 30’s maybe you should try something new like go more out on dates with women in their late 30’s to 40’s? You might find something better there.

posted July 30, 2022 12:44 PM            

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Originally posted by aquaguy91:
I just live in reality. It wouldn't be common for men to pursue women double their age if they could easily meet women their own age. That's just. A. Fact. Sorry, if the truth is offensive. That's not a slight to older women. For one thing, most young men want children. You can't have children with women in middle age and beyond.

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I see you have ignored my long post about being on the spectrum👽
Disturbed because there are indeed more people on the spectrum than you⁉️👽
Are you unable to believe that another on the spectrum can understand you⁉️👽
Or does it make you feel less important as a person on the spectrum to meet another on the spectrum
who actually has for+67 years,
twice your young lifetime to date

Has had and still has a life much
much harder than you may be able to understand.
Want more details⁉️
You sound like being on the spectrum is
some kind big honour and that your
hard life to date is beyond the ability
of anyone else to understand
because your life
and miseries are the most horriffic of
anyone on this planet
You have repeatedly told us so👽
Therefore being that you claim to be
honest,
well golly gee wiz-bang wowsers
it must be the truth😎

The award is to you
for recognition for the achieving the
highest position of being the human
with the most horrible existence possible
Enjoy your miseries.

Yeah I am in no mood to enable anyone in their desires to achieve total self destruction.
Suffice it to say
I refuse to enable you.

posted July 30, 2022 01:05 PM            

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Originally posted by Lexxigramer:
Cancermoon83Well said😎

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posted July 30, 2022 03:30 PM            

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Originally posted by Cancermoon83:
Thank you Lex!
It's just that I really wish Aquaguy91 finds love in his life,and I believe he will,but I don't think he is open to advice.I have replied to other posts he made before and he doesn't seem to listen to anything I say.There are so many women out there with a high sexual drive,but he seems to focus on the wrong women,I don't know,maybe it's bad luck.

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He does not pay attention even
when asked to please read something.
He does not give attention to
things here that he should.
Very egocentric with blinders.
I really wish he read and
understood
my long post about also being
on the spectrum.
But seems he has absolutely no
desire to actually try to get
to know me or
anyone enough to realize that
we do care💙😢
and that he ignores others
because of course,
only he has ever felt so badly.
He dare not admit otherwise
or he could lose his fragile grip
on his beliefs
that cause him to feel that he is
special and unique in his misery,
and then might not be able to feel
that sense of exclusivity
he needs to to feel deeply in order
to convince himself that he is alone👽
He imagines that he is the only one
and it makes him feel special
and unique in his miseries👽
It is not a contest
but It am fairly sure that
my life to date has been
far far more trying and nightmarish
than he could understand
nor is willing to try to see
through another person on the
spectrum eyes so to speak
to realize that his miseries are far
from unique and special.
I highly doubt
he could have survived a version
of my life to date.
I barely have👽
But admitting that he is not
the only person
on the spectrum takes away
his concept that
only he is the only one on it👽
He is indeed lonely and
miserable😢💙
But to what degree in reality⁉️
His constant use of hyperboles
makes
it impossible to know reality
from
fantasy or gross exaggerations.
But it is the illogical
egocentric self centered
me me me sense of
exclusivity that is the most
disturbing👽😢👽😢👽

Okay must go
as he detests my
anylitical thinking and all.
👽
And my energy is drained again👽

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posted July 30, 2022 03:54 PM            

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Originally posted by aquaguy91:
Also,
That phenomenon of people taking what they can get goes both ways. I remember getting a decent amount of attention from age appropriate and looks matched girls when I was in high school more than a decade ago. That was before smartphones and Instagram. Girls were way more down to earth back in those days. I know because I lived it. Now someone will try to deny that is an actual thing. Lol

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Sadly that does not appear to be anything that will change for the better👽

Asking again that you please kindly 💙
take time to please read my
long post/mini biography
condescended version
of my horrific experiences
of being on the spectrum for
more than twice the sum of your years
of your young lifetime to date.

Or do you not care that there
are others on the spectrum⁉️
many who have suffered in silence for the most part⁉️
🤢🤢👽👽👽👽👽

posted July 30, 2022 04:17 PM            

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Originally posted by SleepyDiary:
There are attractive women from mid 30’s to early 40’s that can bear children and also haven’t had it yet. Like damn just try it out you might find an amazing relationship with someone older.

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posted July 31, 2022 06:03 PM            

Something I came across.
If it offends you
I am sorry😢

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You have to learn the difference
between someone disrespecting you
vs you feeling disrespected.
Emotional ears hear from a place of
Offense.
Sometimes it is
not what
they said,
It is what YOU
are triggered by.
And unless you know
your triggers,
and are able to stop a
lashing out at others,
You will see everything
as a personal attack.

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