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Topic: Feminine sexuality makes no sense to me
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aquaguy91 Moderator Posts: 12752 From: Uranus Registered: Jan 2012
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posted July 23, 2022 11:49 AM
One thing about me is I'm very sexual. I want to have a relationship with a woman that is full of polarized, sexual energy or nothing at all. It's not that I'm all about sex. That's just a big part of my nature and I'm not going to dim my light and hide who I am to please women who swear they love sex just as much as I do. It's just everything about it has to be controlled and contrived with them. And as a guy you get shamed and gaslighted when you don't follow the script that upholds their egos and their need to not be sl***. Here's another thing about me.... I dislike when women start off from jump street saying, "I like to wait x amount of time for all that." Nothing turns me off more. I want my intimacy with a woman to transcend all that nonsense. I want a woman to value my opinion of her sexual decisions with me over people she isn't considering having sex with. It all is so stupid to me and I don't care to be a part of it. Exchanging sexual energy is what makes me feel emotionally connected with a woman. Period. I don't think my emotional needs are any less valid than a woman's. Yet, women are so arrogant as to always condescend and talk down to guys for being sexual. How is that conducive to building trust and intimacy? How does that lead to a good sex life down the road when women suddenly decide "Okay. I can have sex because I have waited long enough to meet other people's expectations"? When I feel sexually rejected, I lose trust and interest in a woman.IP: Logged |
aquaguy91 Moderator Posts: 12752 From: Uranus Registered: Jan 2012
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posted July 23, 2022 12:01 PM
I have my Taurus Moon and Gemini Mars in the 3rd house of communication. There's a reason I said sexual energy instead of sex. It's not that I expect a woman to just jump into bed with me, not at all. However, I do expect that energy (the way we communicate) to be there between us from day 1 or I'm not even interested enough to maintain contact. Yet, my communication style is almost universally seen as bad and undesirable by women. It hurts and confuses me so much. I don't understand how someone can look at me with a straight face and say they want that energy from me way down the road when it is okay for them, but I'm bad and wrong for being that way in the way that is congruent with who I am and how I'm feeling in the moment. I resent that so much. I hate it. I'm me. I don't know how to be anyone else. I'm so tired of always being treated like I'm wrong. I'm so tired of people invalidating my feelings and experiences.IP: Logged |
aquaguy91 Moderator Posts: 12752 From: Uranus Registered: Jan 2012
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posted July 23, 2022 12:09 PM
And one thing I want to make clear is I'm not saying I have an issue with women being honest about their feelings and unique needs. What I have an issue with is how women shame and get nasty. That's why guys are so emotionally stifled and it's so hard for us to open up! We get shamed and ridiculed by women when we reveal ourselves and are vulnerable. Women are just as guilty of treating men badly as we are them. It's time for society to acknowledge that fact. I have been so emotionally damaged by women that I'll never be able to love and trust again.IP: Logged |
LEXX Knowflake Posts: 9754 From: Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat.......& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted July 23, 2022 02:26 PM
Wow aquaguy91 💙You feel about women as I also feel😳🤪😡 Hence I have never been close to any woman for the most part. I do not understand them sexually at all👽👽👽 Yes I am female but never fit the typical stereotypical concept of what people ascribe to being the!ale. Women are like another species to me👽 I totally get what you have said and have seen it in actin. Sadly even then I cannot totally b?ame females. See how society has marginalized and used them and controlled them and is still doing that even legally😡😢 Men too have gotten psychologically and emotionally raped by all the crap and stereotypes ascribed to them😢 Cultures are to blame, religion too. Sadly I see no fixes for it all. If I were younger and healthy and I could easily see us as being good friends or more😎 Yes it is not the sex it is that meeting of minds and being in perfect sync in common minds and interests and definitely open minded and free about sexuality and now it is to be both a physical and intensely emotional and like as near to being telepathic as possible😎💖💞😎 I think perhaps most folks do not love themselves and sadly do not truly respect themselves😢 Society has really *flucked humans up both men and women from the their births😢🤬 Knowing myself well I can tell you there must indeed other women out there who think like you and I but where they are I not know yet.👽 In real physical life offline women usually do not like me. They say I think like a guy. Huh👽 So not getting into their games and all makes me an alien in their eyes. Forget talking sex with them in my experience because no matter what I try to say or discuss or share experiences of....... my views on Psychosexuality freaks them out and oddly most men too👽 quote: ]The most important psychosexual needs included: conversation, tenderness, emotional closeness (empathy, understanding), sexual contacts and physical closeness
Okay I did it again ranted on😳I sincerely hope that you find the person who is in perfect sync with you in in all ways💞💖🥰 ------------------
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LEXX Knowflake Posts: 9754 From: Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat.......& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted July 23, 2022 02:31 PM
Kindly pardon any typos and strange autofills 👽IP: Logged |
aquaguy91 Moderator Posts: 12752 From: Uranus Registered: Jan 2012
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posted July 23, 2022 03:04 PM
Thanks Lexx, For me it has never been about objectifying or being disrespectful or anything of the sort. I just see sex as something to be freely shared and given when one wants to be close to someone. For me, it's giving that person an opportunity to be close to me; to take our connection to the next level. I just don't understand why that is such a f###ing insult to most women. I have been rejected for who I am my whole entire life and it is very hurtful and confusing. I legitimately do not understand where women are coming from emotionally when they act that way.IP: Logged |
aquaguy91 Moderator Posts: 12752 From: Uranus Registered: Jan 2012
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posted July 23, 2022 03:13 PM
The sub communications women send out to me are "Be the way I want you to be at all times or I'm going to emotionally abandon you and ice you out." From my perspective, that is very manipulative and mean. That's how women treat me. That's how women have treated me my whole life. My mom treated me that way. Every single female I've ever been involved with has been emotionally abusive. They're all that way. IP: Logged |
aquaguy91 Moderator Posts: 12752 From: Uranus Registered: Jan 2012
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posted July 23, 2022 03:16 PM
Emotionally manipulative. Secretive. Full of hidden emotions and motives. No transparency. No trust. These are all things that come to mind when I think about women.IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer Moderator Posts: 8273 From: Here since March 24th.2005/..& Have been Lexagramming going on 2/3 of a century to date! LEXIGRAMMING.♥is my Passion! Registered: Feb 2012
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posted July 23, 2022 11:37 PM
I hope you do not think of me as being like the vile women you speak of👽I do know what you mean though about the games👽 Trouble is too that as you must know there are a lot of guys who are players and use women👽 So I suspect that you are being judged because of crap other men do to many women and girls.💙😢 My first ex was like that. And a Heroin addict and emotionally abused me and almost destroyed me psychoLogically😢 The second was I discovered to my horror a pedophile 🤬 who molested my son when he was a child🤬😢 There are also the brutal rapes to me as a child and other abuses from men and women too with the abuses from women being sexual too👽🤬🤬😢 But I perhaps trusted too easily and did not judge men for what the others did. That led to me enduring more abuse from both men and women👽 Sadly though in my experience except for my husband of 25 Years to date, most men have been not so nice.👽 Men do head games too.🤬 I do not know if there is an easy fix ,when a woman or a man is treated horribly by the opposite sex😢 Your mother just like mine started me down the road of not trusting women👽 Again I sincerely wish you luck in finding a person you sync with perfectly  IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer Moderator Posts: 8273 From: Here since March 24th.2005/..& Have been Lexagramming going on 2/3 of a century to date! LEXIGRAMMING.♥is my Passion! Registered: Feb 2012
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posted July 23, 2022 11:57 PM
quote: Originally posted by aquaguy91: Emotionally manipulative. Secretive. Full of hidden emotions and motives. No transparency. No trust. These are all things that come to mind when I think about women.
Do I seem like the vile women you have encountered?👽 I hope not😳 Again I am not judging you or all men However these days I avoid women and men in offline life. Too ill to deal with head games from any human being these days no matter what gender or orientation etcetera. If I were not ill and was out and about I fear that it would take more these days to gain my trust than it use to take when I trusted too quickly and completely 👽 Interestingly what you said is how I feel these days about the entire human race. But yes women were always the worse🤬Thank you for sharing again aquaguy91 
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aquaguy91 Moderator Posts: 12752 From: Uranus Registered: Jan 2012
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posted July 24, 2022 07:36 PM
Lexx, No. I don't think badly of you. In my experience, older women are less insane and neurotic. I think those qualities are more pronounced in young women today for a lot of reasons. I've noticed something else. I meet a lot of married women who I have obvious chemistry with who will go so far as to warmly hug me in front of their husbands. One even gushes about how amazing my cologne smells and said she would love to smell like me all the time. Mind you, other women never act that way. Just married ones lol. But it's funny because all of these women are with guys who are more feminine and smaller than me. These guys usually have a lot of money though lol. My point is these women are living inauthentic lives. They really want to #### a tall masculine guy like me but choose security with the rich guy. And nobody's happy. I'm not happy. I'm sexually frustrated. The woman is sexually frustrated. And the guy probably is too. Lol humans make no damn sense if you really think about it. IP: Logged |
saronna Knowflake Posts: 1583 From: Sydney Australia Registered: Jan 2010
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posted July 24, 2022 08:26 PM
I'm so sorry lexigrammer you are ill. Wishing you luck & get well soon hugs.❤️IP: Logged |
saronna Knowflake Posts: 1583 From: Sydney Australia Registered: Jan 2010
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posted July 25, 2022 02:07 AM
Me too lexxigrammer I'm too ill for head games. It takes me alot to trust. I'm a pretty guarded when I love someone. There's someone I want to date my twin soul but he's looking to date other people & I can't I'm so sick.IP: Logged |
aquaguy91 Moderator Posts: 12752 From: Uranus Registered: Jan 2012
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posted July 25, 2022 05:09 PM
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Lexxigramer Moderator Posts: 8273 From: Here since March 24th.2005/..& Have been Lexagramming going on 2/3 of a century to date! LEXIGRAMMING.♥is my Passion! Registered: Feb 2012
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posted July 25, 2022 08:06 PM
I haven't ever fit in with the stereotypes societies love to foist on us that vary from culture to culture radically and have done so since the dawn of humankind👽Even in my childhood I was not like other children male or female👽😎 Probably Autism and Dyslexia and birth defects from the DES exposure made me be not like others👽 also so much illness when a child, body braces, radiation and much more👽 It took a long time to power through all of that but I did at least for about from 1968 to 1989 I became very strong Professional power lifter and arm wrestler against both men and women for Gold's Gym😎 So all in all of my 67 years to date About 21 years were my healthy fit happy attractive peak😎🌈🥰💞 But even at the gym women refused to work with me except one, Boom Boom Mancini's sister😎 Yeah that is before your time but good memories for me even though women did not like me or avoided me. Weirdly with my over 4 feet long bright auburn hair the Lesbian and Bisexual women thought I was a fem and gay because of my muscularity. So I ended up making enemies in the LGBTI etcetera groups👽 Oh well 🤪 ------------------
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Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 74285 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted July 26, 2022 08:35 AM
Women are weird. I think they are more complicated than men because they are more hidden. A man will tell you as he sees it, usually, but a woman is more likely to play games.Some women are more men like and vice versa. I find men so much easier to deal with than women. ------------------ Want to Read Simple, Fun,Sexy Articles on Astrology? Check Me Out, DUDE. http://www.mychristianpsychic.com/
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Dumuzi Knowflake Posts: 4037 From: Registered: Oct 2018
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posted July 26, 2022 11:14 AM
i mean is it really that messed up for someone to want to get to know you before they let you stick your dick in them? you're acting like it's weird and wrong to not want to do something intimate with another person before there's any connection theresex doesn't form a connection just on its own having it, sex can be completely meaningless but like wanting it to matter and wanting to be sure of the other person beforehand isn't weird or wrong people like you are why i don't bother with dating at all, i don't want to deal with the expectation that i went on one date and now i'm supposed to let a stranger **** me because of the implications they read into a single moment i'll pass and if caring about what's between me and someone i let inside of my body makes me a vile woman (you sound really ****** up btw lex, calling women "vile" for wanting to connect to someone before ******* them as if things like pregnancy etc dont exist) then so be it you're literally exactly who i try to avoid by not dating at all because i have no desire to be pressured into **** im not actually ok with just because someone sees it as an obligation after a couple dates meanwhile we barely know each other IP: Logged |
aquaguy91 Moderator Posts: 12752 From: Uranus Registered: Jan 2012
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posted July 26, 2022 11:22 AM
quote: Originally posted by Dumuzi: i mean is it really that messed up for someone to want to get to know you before they let you stick your dick in them? you're acting like it's weird and wrong to not want to do something intimate with another person before there's any connection theresex doesn't form a connection just on its own having it, sex can be completely meaningless but like wanting it to matter and wanting to be sure of the other person beforehand isn't weird or wrong people like you are why i don't bother with dating at all, i don't want to deal with the expectation that i went on one date and now i'm supposed to let a stranger **** me because of the implications they read into a single moment i'll pass and if caring about what's between me and someone i let inside of my body makes me a vile woman (you sound really ****** up btw lex, calling women "vile" for wanting to connect to someone before ******* them as if things like pregnancy etc dont exist) then so be it you're literally exactly who i try to avoid by not dating at all because i have no desire to be pressured into **** im not actually ok with just because someone sees it as an obligation after a couple dates meanwhile we barely know each other
Go back and read my posts again. I have no issue with women doing as they see fit. What perplexes me is how a lot of women (most in my experience) have a very ambivalent attitude towards sex and men in general. Frankly, it doesn't feel good to be around that. Like I said in another post, it's not just about the physical aspect of sex. It's about the vibe of intimacy and emotional warmth.
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aquaguy91 Moderator Posts: 12752 From: Uranus Registered: Jan 2012
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posted July 26, 2022 11:28 AM
Dumuzi, You're proving my point. You talk about sex like it's a bad and nasty thing that you loathe and despise. This is exactly what I'm talking about. It's not the fact that you're saying you'd rather wait, but rather it's about how you describe sex and people who like it like they are a disgusting disease. Why can't women reject sex in the short term in a way that leaves men feeling good about themselves? Why do you have to attack and be nasty and judgemental? IP: Logged |
aquaguy91 Moderator Posts: 12752 From: Uranus Registered: Jan 2012
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posted July 26, 2022 11:37 AM
Dumuzi, You're the only one mentioning timeframes (you specifically mentioned a few dates). I never mentioned having any expectations for how many dates I go on with women before I expect them to sleep with me. It's all about the vibe. The only thing I care about is do I feel like she wants to #### me? If the answer is no, I'm not interested. I need to feel that from a woman. Like I said, it's not just about the actual physical act of sex itself. If I feel that intimacy and attraction there I don't mind to wait. But a woman who only meets sexual flirtation with hatefulness and boundaries is no fun. And my question to them is why are you even wasting my time if you aren't attracted to me? I'm flat out not interested in relationships where I can't be myself. I'm just not interested.IP: Logged |
aquaguy91 Moderator Posts: 12752 From: Uranus Registered: Jan 2012
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posted July 26, 2022 11:45 AM
Dumuzi, What I'm saying is it's not a good look when a woman becomes instantly defensive when the topic of sex comes up in any capacity. It's not about "she wants to wait and I don't." It's more like "Damn. I don't think this woman really likes sex or men and it would not feel good to be in a relationship with someone like that." At any rate, I most likely wouldn't ever get my needs met long term because nothing about the way she discusses sex or physical intimacy suggests she would really like any of that.IP: Logged |
aquaguy91 Moderator Posts: 12752 From: Uranus Registered: Jan 2012
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posted July 26, 2022 11:57 AM
What I'm saying is women are capable of communicating boundaries in a way that also communicates "Hey I'm attracted to you and want to **** you when I feel safe." What's so hard about that? The lack of that vibe is more of a red flag than women outright not having sex. It's the ambivalence or outright hostility to sex in general.IP: Logged |
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posted July 26, 2022 12:43 PM
aquaguy91 😎 I totally get what you have been saying😎 Sad that others see only nasty etcetera👽 And people who feel dirty and guilt from sex are really messed up to say he least. Arrested development at 12 or so👽 It is really amazing that the human race has made it this long😳👽You know what makes sense to me⁉️ To realize that loneliness and aloneness are not the same thing😎 One can be perfectly content with themselves and not feel lonely; in fact one can be so very lonely, lonesome and sad whilst in a relationship😢 Too many people live like that👽😳 So aquaguy91 keep on living your way and loving and respecting your wonderful self and do not ever settle for make do or second best because you do not want to get stuck in that kind of trap. Again wishing you much luck in love and may you find the right person for you who will be your best and trusted friend and companion💞😎 My grandparents taught me that concept💞 As folks get older sometimes illness etcetera hit one or both of them and sadly sexual intimacy can slip away😢 However when other relationship is not just about sex but deepest shared intimacy which does not always include sexual contact. then that deep loving friendship of one's lover best friend mental and yes spiritual equal come together to create a wonderful secure and always real and honest connection that cannot be broken by age or illness or anyone💞😎 Pardon any type please. ------------------
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posted July 26, 2022 12:51 PM
quote: Originally posted by aquaguy91: What I'm saying is women are capable of communicating boundaries in a way that also communicates "Hey I'm attracted to you and want to **** you when I feel safe." What's so hard about that? The lack of that vibe is more of a red flag than women outright not having sex. It's the ambivalence or outright hostility to sex in general.
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Dumuzi Knowflake Posts: 4037 From: Registered: Oct 2018
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posted July 26, 2022 05:24 PM
quote: Originally posted by aquaguy91: Dumuzi, You're proving my point. You talk about sex like it's a bad and nasty thing that you loathe and despise. This is exactly what I'm talking about. It's not the fact that you're saying you'd rather wait, but rather it's about how you describe sex and people who like it like they are a disgusting disease. Why can't women reject sex in the short term in a way that leaves men feeling good about themselves? Why do you have to attack and be nasty and judgemental?
i happen to enjoy sex a good deal and have a high sex drive, however i've been sexually abused and raped and i have no desire to let someone i don't really know touch me like that i know that when people ask me out they want sex they often make that clear and so i don't go out to avoid that sort of issue i'm not being judgmental i said the statements you make are the reasons i avoid dating because it's a common expectation i'm responding to your tone which is you being unable to fathom why someone might not be sexual with a stranger right away
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