posted October 28, 2008 09:47 AM         

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But seriously, PA, have you ever considered writing an erotic novel?

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Well, I figure a career with Hallmark is out, so................. crushing as that has been my lifelong dream.

I have actually thought about it - for a milisecond - then had a good laugh for taking myself so seriously.

posted October 28, 2008 09:49 AM         

Ahhhh, Jethro..........

posted October 28, 2008 09:50 AM         

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Mmh, I am maybe very arrogant, but I actually EXPECTED something like this turn up.
Do we really need astrological proof? (I mean sure it is nice and entertaining to see the story get untangled astrologically) But how could there NOT have been such aspects?

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The astrology just covers those self-doubts that we are both quite renowned for.

posted October 28, 2008 09:54 AM         

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Oh wait she said Rafe isn`t hers anymore, so I guess you are allowd to do this.

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posted October 28, 2008 09:55 AM         

You know, what?
Now that i have looked at the synastry with Rafe, I`m almost scared to look at what would turn up in my synastry with Julian Sands.
Do I really want to read that we killed each other in a past life?
Or did something even worse?

And why can I always hear the crackling of flames and have the smell of burning flesh in my nose?

posted October 28, 2008 09:59 AM         

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Why not write one for your own entertainment? Read: MY entertainment.

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Okay - I shall start on the erotica. Well, later tonight in my dreams. I have very weird dreams when I have a fever. Very very odd - far stranger than usual. I'm hoping it involves Colin. But with all this talk it will probably be Rafe. Damn! He's embedded in my brain. It's the slowest, cruelest form of torture. Somewhere in a CIA torture chamber someone is having The English Patient played and replayed until they can't stand it anymore. Should only take one viewing from my experience. If that!

posted October 28, 2008 10:01 AM         

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Neptune and Mars are Quintile on my chart ~ so I find this kind of fantasy escapism is a creative aid.
Quintiles are tricky numbers. Like Grand Trines. Getting them moving. When talking to Miss Meta, bold there so she will be able to flick through and read it, where she has a leaning towards Cardinal and Fixed, I have a leaning towards Fixed and Mutable. There is a lot on my chart that is indicative of my inertia problems.

I don't feel I am wasting my time on this thread at all. It pulls things into focus.

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The Mutable/Fixed combo seems... difficult. How does that affect you? How do you deal with it?

posted October 28, 2008 10:02 AM         

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Meta,

I agree, I cannot feel any connection to RDJ and Jude in THAT particular imagery we develped here.

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posted October 28, 2008 10:04 AM         

Maybe everyone falls asleep, so the police can arrest the criminals. After waking them up and forcing them to watch the rest of course.

posted October 28, 2008 10:05 AM         

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And why can I always hear the crackling of flames and have the smell of burning flesh in my nose?

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See, it's the effect of The ****ing English Patient!!!!!!!

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EVery year around SAmhain it is the same. He will re-emerge and I can smell burned flesh, which is pretty strange to put it mildly.
All becuase of that stupid dream I have had when I was a child. Must have seen something bad in TV.

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posted October 28, 2008 10:07 AM         

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Maybe everyone falls asleep, so the police can arrest the criminals. After waking them up and forcing them to watch the rest of course.

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ROFLMAO.

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I am your Earth-angel? Really?
I am feeling very special now.
But I want to know why. Youc an`t just say, in time. NOW. Me impatient Sagittarius you know?

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posted October 28, 2008 10:08 AM         

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Repression & her best friend Self-Control
I don't think I'm repressed. I think I'm self-controlled. Maybe the line is more blurred than that and I am flattering myself, there's a chance.

My good friend

Chart ruler, twin to the Moon, is working in harmony with Saturn on my chart. This is my sensible side, reponsible, mature, "now calm down mother, you are getting yourself upset", that kind of thing. Actually she is Leo Sun with Cancer Venus. Oh, I know those temperamental Lions alright.

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Your chart ruler is Pluto too? We're very similar. But you seem much more level-headed than i do. You don't seem like you get overly emotional about things. You feel like water but you don't FEEL like water, do you know what i mean. You possess reason and that's not common among sincerely sensitive water people... do you know what i mean? I wasn't trying to insult you.

HA! Your mum has Sun in Leo and Venus in Cancer? I like her already!

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But this is another one for Miss Meta, there is a dangerous side to the chart where

is in Sesquiquadrate to Moon/Pluto.

I'm still working out what the Sesquiquadrate is all about, but I think that is the potential for temper rage that I try and avoid. It's a powder keg, that shouldn't be lit. To make fireworks, not a gun. Finding a way to channel that energy is essential. Creativity is very helpful for that, see Quintiles above.

They all tie in ~ the Sesquiquadrate, to the Quntiles (to Neptune and Jupiter) to Sextiles. One of those easy to hide parts of the chart I am still working on, really. Tapping into the energy in a positive, constructive way, not allowing it to carry me along in ways that are destructive.

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Your chart sounds pretty loaded. You have that darkness lurking about, that destructive tendency but you seem focused not to fuel it. Not to duel on the powerful lure these aspects have- why? Is this where the reasoning comes in? Too level-headed to light a match around this gas stove?

posted October 28, 2008 10:10 AM         

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Julian is the same. I do not want him there, still he is.

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posted October 28, 2008 10:11 AM         

I even had the birthmark as a child. Until long into my puberty. A big burning mark on my lower leg (I think the right one).
And I have been totally scared of fire from a very young age on. Just panicked. I still feel the panic inside, if there is a fire, that seems to be not completely under control, and i wouldn`t dare to go near to it. Especially not campfires. *shudders*

And one time in school, when we were watching "the name of the rose" there was a sequence when someone was threateend to be burnt, I completely lost it. I ran out of the classroom because I could not only SMELL t he fire, I felt it on my skin.
That was so horrible.

And when I was very very young I would always dream that our home would be incensed and we would burn, if I didn`t wake up my parents. It was really horrible.

posted October 28, 2008 10:13 AM         

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Oh, I think Meta will be hunting you down for this´.
Oh wait she said Rafe isn`t hers anymore,s o I guess you are allowd to do this.

But seriously, PA, have you ever considered writing an erotic novel?

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I said he isn't mine- that doesn't mean i don't want him. However, synastry speaks for itself. I'm not going to blow a fuse if it turns out he was madly in love with one, or both, of you. That's just how it is. I'll have to shoot down my jealous, possessive tendency and be rational about it. BECAUSSSSSEEEE, like i said, he isn't mine.

posted October 28, 2008 10:14 AM         

I am not sure. Maybe I am wrong and both were there, and I just focused so much on Ralph.
But I don`t think so. Let`s ask PA.

posted October 28, 2008 10:15 AM         

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The way I see it - Rafe's mine anyway. No matter which way you look at it.

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posted October 28, 2008 10:18 AM         

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Meta,
I am not sure. Maybe I am wrong and both were there, and I just focused so much on Ralph.
But I don`t think so. Let`s ask PA.

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posted October 28, 2008 10:19 AM         

regarding Julian:
Yes, there is something cold about him. Like I described my reaction to him in one of these posts here.
But also sexual.

And as much as I feel a certain detachment, and coldness surrounding him, our synastry is pretty hot I`d say:

His Venus conjunct my Moon
his Venus trine my Karma
his Mars conjunct my Mars
his Mars ocnjunct my ASC
his Mars sextile my Pluto
his Pluto square my Mars
His Moon opposite my Sun
his Karma conjunct my IC
his Karma opposite my Pluto
his Karma square my Venus
his Juno trine my Pluto
his Juno conjunct my SN
his Juno conjunct my DSC
his Eros conjunct my Sun
his Eros opposite my Nessus - ah there he is again.
his Psyche conjunct my dr Eros
his dr Venus opposite my Venus (and square my Pluto)
his dr Mars widely conjunct my dr Venus (4,5°)

and so much more

Don`t udnerstand that seriously. But I only scratched the surface so far.

posted October 28, 2008 10:20 AM         

Pluto/Moon Trine Saturn says a lot about me ~ that's the sensible part.

I don't feel watery? That's probably because I don't have any water planets. Everything is below the surface (Pluto).

But on the draconic chart I have 7 water planets.

posted October 28, 2008 10:21 AM         

I have had similar experiences to you in relation to fire. Especially large fires - in particular explosions. They make me want to run out of my skin. I can't explain the sheer terror. Watching 9/11 live on TV - I had nightmares for the next three years. And that's no lie! Every night - I used to dream I was in one of the towers when it was collapsing. And would wake up with the sensation. Even in my head - I can hear the sounds. There's no way to describe that.