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Topic: Calling fayte.m
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D for Defiant Knowflake Posts: 1236 From: Registered: May 2006
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posted September 21, 2006 04:18 AM
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D for Defiant Knowflake Posts: 1236 From: Registered: May 2006
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posted September 21, 2006 04:43 AM
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D for Defiant Knowflake Posts: 1236 From: Registered: May 2006
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posted September 21, 2006 05:03 AM
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fayte.m Knowflake Posts: 5820 From: Registered: Mar 2005
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posted September 21, 2006 08:51 AM
What a surprise. How nice of you. Who am I? Someone who cared and was trying to help. Sorry if I offended you instead. I put alot of thought and caring about you, worry about you into my replies. You do not know me either it seems. Only a small part of who I am is here at LL. You may not like or approve of me, but I am me. Not you. I did my very best to understand you. Good luck in your life. I am done trying to help you. If that appears like pushing you away...then so be it. I do not have the free time or energy to try where my care and advice is unwanted. I am only one person and YOU are not the only one out there I care about and tried/try to help. Seems you have forgotten how many times I defended you and tried to cheer you up. I did the Lexigram things becauise I thought they could help and you seemed interested in Lexigrams too. My Lexigram passion was not meant as yelling. Just making firm points as succinctly as possible as to how I feel about Lexigrams. Sorry it offended you. That was not my intentiion at all. Thank you for the wake up call. I shall not be so quick to jump in with both feet to try to help as I did with you. I use to be a doormat. Perhaps I have swung too far the other direction. But I had to do that or I would be dead by now. You do not know how beaten down I was before. Good Luck in your life. But do not expect any more from me. You have made it quite clear how you feel. And I am not going to reply in depth to your above posts. You have your opinions and judgements of me it appears, I shall leave it at that. I shall not try to help you, nor judge you, nor voice my opinions anymore to you, nor do I need to defend myself or explain myself to you. Good luck. IP: Logged |
fayte.m Knowflake Posts: 5820 From: Registered: Mar 2005
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posted September 21, 2006 08:56 AM
BTW.... I NEVER considered you weak! If you thought I felt that way or I phrased something in a way that made you think so. I am sorry. But you weak? NEVER! Good luck.IP: Logged |
silverstone Knowflake Posts: 1305 From: Registered: Mar 2006
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posted September 21, 2006 11:28 AM
Fayte- You were helpful D- This is unfair to Fayte, don't you think? I believe she was being helpful. silverstone ------------------ The only other sound's the sweep Of easy wind and downy flake. The woods are lovely, dark and deep. But I have promises to keep, And miles to go before I sleep, And miles to go before I sleep.- Robert Frost~ IP: Logged |
fayte.m Knowflake Posts: 5820 From: Registered: Mar 2005
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posted September 21, 2006 11:33 AM
silverstone Thank you.
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Mirandee Knowflake Posts: 2046 From: South of the Thumb Taurus, Pisces, Cancer Registered: Sep 2004
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posted September 21, 2006 12:55 PM
Fayte I think you are a terrific, loving and caring human being and I admire you greatly for that and all you are. It's the loving and caring enough to help that should be noted. Better to care enough to attempt to help in what may be seen as an imperfect way than not to care at all. Bless you for being you.
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hippichick Knowflake Posts: 1084 From: The Ether Registered: Jan 2006
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posted September 21, 2006 01:34 PM
Just a reminder to all who are posting on this thread.The original topic stated a diagnosis of bi-polar. While I liked the original rant, was all over the place, but poetic and creative as well, you have to consider what may have been going on in her mind at the time, and also at the time of the responses. I never thought it was a suicide note, just a rant! In my profession I see that bi-polar is NEVER easy to live with, I have a bi-polar friend as well-------never easy to live with. FAYTE: You have handled yourself with poise and grace---as those who post on a public forum should! ------Like I mentioned in the other thread---when one puts something out there, one should expect all kinds of things in return!!!!! IP: Logged |
Gooberzlostlovefound Knowflake Posts: 1136 From: and the embers never fade in your city by the lake Registered: Jan 2002
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posted September 21, 2006 02:00 PM
D for Defiant~Fayte was trying to help you. Sometimes when we share our problems or reach out for help, we don't always get *exactly* what we're looking for. Sometimes we don't get even a morsel of what it is we're looking for. Especially on an internet forum, where others do not know us well enough to gauge what would be truly helpful. No one can ever really understand us, it's true. And that reality can be very depressing at times. BUT...we are lucky to have others who care enough to *try* to understand. To go on and on, dissecting and criticizing Fayte's response and tearing it down...when she was only responding out of KINDNESS and a genuine desire to help....that's just bad form if you ask me. I am truly sorry that you've suffered so much in your youth and also currently. I hope in the future you can appreciate kind gestures. to you, GLLF IP: Logged |
fayte.m Knowflake Posts: 5820 From: Registered: Mar 2005
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posted September 21, 2006 02:28 PM
Thanks Mirandee, hippichick and Gooberzlostlovefound I lost sleep over worrying about DFD. I felt I HAD to try to help. I may seem brutal and blunt to many folks but I care very deeply about folks and while I am far from perfect. I want to help. I remember too damn many times when there was NO ONE there for me. I cannot stand by and just watch. If that makes me bad or weird or even interferring in some folks eyes... Sorry. I know too well what it is like to not have someone to reach out to one in need. And having helped pull some folks back from suicide's brink....I cannot assume someone is not serious at the time. One never knows unless the deed is done...and then it is too late. YOU ALL! ------------------ Age is a State of Mind. Change Your Mind! ~I intend to continue learning forever~Enigma ~I am still learning~ Michangelo The Door to Gnosis is never permanently locked...one only needs the correct keys and passwords.~Enigma The pious man with closed eyes can often hold more ego than a proud man with open eyes.~NEXUS Out of the mouth of babes commeth wisdom that can rival that of sages.~Enigma In the rough, or cut and polished..a diamond is still a precious gem. -NEXUS- IP: Logged |
sue g Knowflake Posts: 8511 From: former land of the leprechaun Registered: Sep 2004
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posted September 22, 2006 05:26 AM
It is admirable to want to help....and kind.....and good....But we cannot "rescue" others....even as mothers, at some point we have to let go and let God, as the saying goes. Nobody with a feeling heart would condemn anyone for trying to help another in trouble....but sometimes by "trying to hard" and being forceful in our approach, we push the other way... I think this is what D for D is trying to say. As I can see both sides to this story, I think it only fair that I speak out for both parties.... Good luck to both of you.... x IP: Logged |
Mirandee Knowflake Posts: 2046 From: South of the Thumb Taurus, Pisces, Cancer Registered: Sep 2004
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posted September 22, 2006 09:37 AM
I don't really see that others here are being unfair to DFD, Sue. We have just let Fayte know that she is appreciated because we know how much it must hurt to be told these things after investing so much time being a friend to DFD. As friends of Fayte we are just attempting to sooth her hurt, not attacking DFD in any way. I know you must understand this as you seemed to be very appreciative of those who came onto your mother's funeral thread and supported you after after DFD questioned and upset you as she did. You responded to those friends with a lot of thanks for supporting you. "Supporting" was the word you used in your thank you responses. In every instance there is two sides to the story. I am mindful of that and I think we all are. However, I feel that if DFD felt this way about Fayte's attempts at helping her through this time in her life she should have emailed Fayte about it privately rather than place it on a public forum. This IS a public forum, Sue. People will respond to what is posted here in a manner they judge for themselves to be appropriate. You may not agree with what others deem to be an appropriate response. Which is okay. You are entitled to your opinion. But I don't feel that we who are supporting Fayte and attempting to soothe her hurt should be told that we are not being as fair as you in doing that. Especially when it seemed to be for you the appropriate thing for your friends to do on your mother's funeral thread. IP: Logged |
D for Defiant Knowflake Posts: 1236 From: Registered: May 2006
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posted September 22, 2006 09:45 AM
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D for Defiant Knowflake Posts: 1236 From: Registered: May 2006
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posted September 22, 2006 09:51 AM
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fayte.m Knowflake Posts: 5820 From: Registered: Mar 2005
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posted September 22, 2006 09:58 AM
Thank you very much Mirandee Yes DFD that would have been proper. If you had something to say PRIVATELY I would have given you that opportunity. I am just me. Trying to help the best I know how. I could just ignore and not care. Just chit chat about general things and happy stuff and all. That would make my life alot easier. I do not have to try helping or listen. I have a life too and because I try to devote time to listening/helping...I am wrong and bad and deserve insulted over and over? I am just trying. Sorry I do not have a degree or perfect wisdom. Maybe I shouldn't try in the cyber world anymore. At least not on forums or by any other cyber method. It is all so different and well accepted when I am in person with the person(s) and can touch them. I shall consider staying with in real life with trying to help from hereon perhaps. Too much duplicity and head games online. IP: Logged |
The Virgin Knowflake Posts: 149 From: Registered: Jul 2006
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posted September 22, 2006 10:24 AM
Hi Fayte.m, I don't really know you-I've seen your name and have read a couple of posts but other than that...I've also read a couple of D for Defiant's posts before this one. Anyway, as I was reading the begining of this thread quotes and all, I didn't find anything wrong with what you said or asked. It was clear to me you were trying to help her and it's clear she doesn't want your help. It's sad you had to be raked over the coals just because you reached out to another human being but you did the right thing, Fayte.m Take Care. ------------------ Sun Virgo, moon Pisces, Libra rising,mercury venus 12th house all conjunct, Mars Leo. IP: Logged |
D for Defiant Knowflake Posts: 1236 From: Registered: May 2006
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posted September 22, 2006 10:35 AM
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D for Defiant Knowflake Posts: 1236 From: Registered: May 2006
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posted September 22, 2006 10:43 AM
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fayte.m Knowflake Posts: 5820 From: Registered: Mar 2005
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posted September 22, 2006 10:59 AM
The Virgin Thank You!DFD. I did not intend to add more fuel to all this and while I could reply line by line to all your accusations, I see no point in doing so. You and at least one other will see things as you wish to see them concerning me. So as briefly as I can be.... Yes I was indeed sarcastic! quote by me: "What a surprise. How nice of you." Your reaction caught me by utter surprise! Quote from DFD: quote: "And this person expected appreciation and gratitude from the other simply because, according to her- she TRIED to help. And now she didn't receive what was perceived as she deserved, she became angry because she thought she deserved credit for trying to help. Helping others, while not using more appropriate approaches, and still wanted credit. This is a dodgy attitude."
>>>>I expected nothing in return DFD. Including what you are doing to me now.<<<<< Quote from DFD: quote: "she became angry"
>>>>Angry? No. Surprised? Shocked? Saddened? Yes. But anger? No. When I asked if you were an adult I honestly did not know your age for sure. If you were a minor I would not have replied the same way. That was not being sarcastic, it was determining your age.......I needed to know if you were a very intelligent teenager or a highly educated adult. Not sarcasm. Posting is glitching...continued next post.
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fayte.m Knowflake Posts: 5820 From: Registered: Mar 2005
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posted September 22, 2006 11:00 AM
Quote from DFD: quote: "and was enraged because she didn't get the credit she wanted because she "tried to help someone", is anything but worth my respect."
>>>>>Again....I was not expecting or requiring anything back. And definitely Not angry or enraged. If I were either, I assure you...there would be no doubt. I would tell you if I was either! I am rather bewildered and surprised and wondering why you suddenly out of the blue have decided to consider me your enemy. How odd. And after all your posts about me... I felt I should say something. So yes I am speaking to you again. You are coming in with all guns blazing at me. If someone did that to you how would you feel? Would you stay meekly silent? Few would. Thanks again folks! We cannot please everyone. We can each only do our best.
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Lialei Knowflake Posts: 1265 From: Registered: Jul 2005
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posted September 22, 2006 11:09 AM
DFD, you've expressed your opinions, as you have every right to do. I think it's more often helpful to discuss things (offenses, intrusions, etc.)rather than to supress them just for harmony. Honesty is best in the long run.Yet, you are picking apart her posts in critical analyzation, it seems while for the most part overlooking and not trying to understand why she was so passionately moved to respond to you as she did. (for instance that she might have felt an affinity with you and a deep nerve in her might have been triggered for having a similiar relationship with her own mother)...And dismissing the care that moved her in the first place. If you're going to show a fair presentation, why not show her words of care and encouragment as well? Which were many, all over LL. Those were left out here and so not fair to Fayte. You've made some judgements of her here as well...conclusions of her entire character, which go much deeper than just how she expresses herself. As for what Sue wrote about 'forceful advice that wasn't right for me' and so relating to you... well, when you know something isn't right for you, then that's all that matters. Take it or not...then go on your way as you want to. Fayte has given me some advice I've greatly appreciated and has helped, and also other advice that I knew pretty immediate didn't correspond with my own Truth. Regardless of whether it was 'harshly' direct or more gentle (there's been both), I kept in mind that it was because she cared, otherwise she'd just be indifferent. In the end, I decide for myself...and I've always sensed that Fayte respected that. When you're not taking into consideration also the bigger picture of care in the intent, and you reject someone so superficially as their 'approach', without appreciating that they cared at all, then you are rejecting an entire heartfelt Being, for only a fragment of what they have shown you. Which it seems is what is going on here, DFD. And that's entirely up to you. It's your freedom to choose who you associate with or not. No one is taking sides, but of course those of us who appreciate Fayte as an entire Soul are going to witness such public accusations and respond. Try to manipulate it into something other than it is--that we're painting you as the ungrateful insane one and Fayte the respected one...but regardless, it's just a simple and natural response to what appears as injustness and nothing so elaborately contrived.
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Lialei Knowflake Posts: 1265 From: Registered: Jul 2005
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posted September 22, 2006 11:17 AM
Ok...woah. I've just now read your most recent posts here, DFD. Guess you posted while I was writing. Wasted and ruined your Friday night? Wow, poor you. Who gives a F*ck about anyone else ay? Think I'm done here, feeding into your self-indulgence. IP: Logged |
noreenz Knowflake Posts: 1077 From: Registered: Feb 2004
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posted September 22, 2006 11:17 AM
whoa, too much dramaLive and let live. Fayte- I just now saw your request for an email. Funny thing is, I emailed you about 6 hours ago. Noreen IP: Logged |
silverstone Knowflake Posts: 1305 From: Registered: Mar 2006
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posted September 22, 2006 11:19 AM
D, You have no right to tell Fayte she is paranoid. Truthfully, I don't see what Fayte did to deserve this. With all respect, may I ask what it is you are trying to achive by insulting Fayte? quote: - She's not only narcissistic, grandiose, even histrionic and paranoid. And I'm letting her wasting my time.
quote: - I thought she had claimed that she was not going to speak to me again?
Is this really the way you treat people who help you? I understand we are on a forum and it is much different than on a one-on-one, face-to-face discussion. Please understand what I am trying to tell you. Seriously, you need to really think about what you are doing Silverstone ------------------ The only other sound's the sweep Of easy wind and downy flake.
The woods are lovely, dark and deep. But I have promises to keep, And miles to go before I sleep, And miles to go before I sleep.- Robert Frost~ IP: Logged |