posted October 12, 2006 04:18 AM         

I had been wanting to say that, I think this is ironic. Basically I am writing this post because of only one of the other individuals here, and not about replying to all those who had asked me some questions. But, anyway...

Mirandee,

Not exactly about myself feeling misjudged and misunderstood "just like the way I misjudged and misunderstood Fayte", but only about being judgmental, making one's own (often biased or partial) judgments and misunderstanding in general.

Ra,

Thanks for the kind words. I didn't thank you in time, and I feel rather guilty about this.

Azalaksh,

If you asked me what my "expectations" of LL were, I would say just being honest with oneself and with other people, that's it. No identity games, no conceited attitudes. I don't have sufficient time to further clarify right now.

What really urged me to post again in this negative thread is that I find it truly bizarre and ironic that, an individual (whose username I am not going to mention in this post), whom I shall refer to as "this person", and probably TP as its abbreviation- who had never spoken to me here at LL previously, suddenly started a thread "calling me" and criticized my starting this thread. My unwise and hurtful behavior aside, this person and I had never communicated before this thread was started. And then, this person came to this thread urging people not to participate in this discussion in order to boycott this thread- which, believe it or not, would have been the result I would have liked to see as well, since I really didn't want this to become a lengthy, if not "eternal", quarrel, and in the end I really had no further intentions of criticizing Fayte. Thus I would have liked this thread to die down. But this person came here and told others not to come back here and post? This person, who started a thread about my mischieve all of a sudden, with whom I had never formed a dialogue here at LL? I'm not being dramatic, I'm telling you exactly how I feel- I've been sensing something fishy. Like, this person was perhaps a double/multiple poster. If this person truly wanted peace, then one of the rational tactics would have been anything but starting another thread asking for trouble; if this person truly wanted this thread to die down, what had to be done would have been anything but coming to this thread himself/herself and with a post "urging people to post no more".

And should I post and address to this person, he or she succeeds in what he or she has been wanting. I simply feel that something's not right.

posted October 12, 2006 10:20 AM         

Please just shake it off, let everything roll off your back. Move forward.

You are one very talented, gifted young lady. You have a lot to offer others especially once you get past a few obstacles, which will happen in time.

Please aim your sights high, and always look to the bright, positive side of situations/people. You have been very blessed........which I know is probably really hard for you to understand at this time.

posted October 13, 2006 04:12 AM         

I was very surprised to see your post for me just minutes ago. I'm overwhelmed by your praise and your unexpected kindness. I don't know what to say. I am truly grateful for your kind gesture, and I'm astounded. Especially after all those nasty things I've said and done, whether two years ago or the past few months.

I think I've learned a few lessons this time around- but not in one of the most ideal ways. It's odd that, had I not started this thread (which had been ill-designed- so to speak), I wouldn't have known that people had been feeling that I used LL as "my own blog", and that the incidents and experiences I related were "dramatic, theatrical"...that they had been feeling that what I said all sounded like "made-up elaborate stories". I must bear in mind that, from now on I should refrain from discussing matters that concern some of my most intimate and private areas.

Thanks to those who have been kind, and also I should learn more about humility, tolerance, compassion and not taking things for granted, including individuals who try to be helpful but who also have their own human qualities- what most of us call "flaws"; I should cut down criticism, but replace it with more praise, encouragement and appreciation

posted October 14, 2006 10:49 PM         

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Thanks to those who have been kind, and also I should learn more about humility, tolerance, compassion and not taking things for granted, including individuals who try to be helpful but who also have their own human qualities- what most of us call "flaws"; I should cut down criticism, but replace it with more praise, encouragement and appreciation

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