posted March 28, 2011 08:47 AM            

I feel really ineffectual and no matter how much I try that nothing gets anywhere.

It's not as if I need to slow down. I don't need that, I need to build my life and it's not going anywhere

posted March 28, 2011 08:53 AM            

CAPPY NOW!!!!!!! But I don't seem to have the option of Neptune later, and the cappy now isn't seeming to work.

posted March 29, 2011 03:25 AM            

Saturn is a big meanie... trying to teach me that I can have everything all at once and that I need to be patient. Not one of my strengths..

posted March 29, 2011 09:13 AM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
Maybe, it never works out,even if you are not numb.
Maybe,life can't workout.
Maybe,that is why we find Something bigger than ourselves.

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I am not numb now, I woke up when Pluto left Sag and that's why it hurts so much.

I am numb to my Neptune, but then I always have been ever since I became self aware when I was a toddler... I'm not creative, I'm not psychic, I'm just well none of those things they say Pisces is except for a dreamer and a emotional sook who cries over everything.

posted March 29, 2011 09:37 AM            

Perhaps,*I* can give you some of my Neptune

posted April 02, 2011 12:48 AM            

Cappy sun guy had sun cj my venus/deja and nessus trine my mars/neptune.

I severed the friendship early 2010 after he led me on, went out with someone else and then denied leading me on. (I don't have a good run with Cap males lol).

A year or so after he broke up with her, he is now going out with one of my now ex good friends who knows I how much I hate him.... She hasn't spoke to me in two months now so I guess it's really over..BUT

But then I looked at the charts
His Nessus cj her Venus 1deg
His Mercury cj her Deja 2deg
His Nessus cj her Mercury 4deg
HIs Eros trine her merc exact
His Psyche cj her Pluto exact (generational for 1990 ppl)
His Nessus sq her Psyche 3deg
His Sun opp her Eros 3deg
His Sun opp her Chiron 1 deg

Her Nessus does trine his merc, but then so does mine...

She has Eros cj Chiron
He has Deja cj Chiron

I can't get over the whole Nessus cj Venus ...I wouldn't wish that one anyone, well excepting these people.

I feel better because Saturn comes to every relationship and those puppy love chemical wont last and then the real people begin to show...

Thank you for helping me to realise that Nessus & Deja are stronger than what I first knew, because now I see Deja in my life all the time.

posted April 03, 2011 03:29 AM            

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Originally posted by Anglerfish:
I went astrostalking and now I have astro-schadenfreude. Scorpio Rising FTW... ahahahahahahaha

She has Eros cj Chiron

I can't get over the whole Nessus cj Venus ...I wouldn't wish that one anyone, well excepting these people.

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She has Deja cj NN. I wouldn't want that.
So his Merc hits her Deja/NN.

The lesson, Never get on the wrong side of Scorpio rising who can astrostalk you...

posted April 03, 2011 10:16 PM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
What would Deja conjunct the NN do,Angler? What does it mean when a planet/asteroid conjuncts the NN?
Thanks ,Sweetie

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So here is what NN is Aqua is supposed to be like and how it should work for me.
http://www.mooncatsastrology.com/astro/lunarnodes.htm
"*North Node in Aquarius

You are learning to embrace all people and give to society in this life. You will make fortunate contacts with people who are eccentric, ingenious and/or humanitarians."
http://www.mollysastrology.com/astrology-tutorials/nodes
"North Node in Aquarius, South Node in Leo

With South Node in Leo, ego drives are very powerful, as the soul craves recognition and respect. Thus, at times you can be dominating, demanding, and willful. The North Node in Aquarius indicates that you find the respect and approval you want only when you work from a sense of equality with all creatures, inspiring rather than dominating. Because you, more than anyone, understand the value of appreciation, you are a natural born appreciator of others and can motivate others to achieve their best, especially when you work together for a common cause. Being involved in groups and humanitarian causes is very good for you."
http://www.cafeastrology.com/articles/northnodeinaquarius.html
"A tendency to become overly attached to the drama of romance and personal relationships, to be willful and overly focused on getting what we want, and to resist being "one of the crowd" in an effort to stand out as unique and special, are some of the issues this position suggests. With this position, we need to let go of our fears in relationships by offering freedom to our partners instead of expecting our partners to act as we want them to act, to accept that we are all equal and that we can still be special if we belong to a community, to move towards greater impartiality, and to cultivate sensitivity to the needs of others. By letting go of the strong desire of getting what we want in the here and now, satisfaction will come more easily as we find that we get what we need. Our personal relationships and romances will suffer when we take things too personally, and expect others to follow a certain script that we have unconsciously written for them. Learning to let go of the need for drama and attention, and moving towards a more objective approach to our lives, as well as cultivating true friendships, will help us to achieve a greater sense of balance. Our relationships with others as well as our relationship with ourselves will benefit."

posted April 03, 2011 10:35 PM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
Deja is the energy of the victim. Not to be too graphic but Deja is the energy of rape,as I see it.
Deja is the person who lies down to be raped.
Of course, this does not have to be literal nor is it,usually.

However, Deja is the energy of the rape victim.

Deja does not deserve to stand up and push the aggressor away.
Deja submits from weakness and from a general sense of worthlessness in the face of power.
It's own power lies broken on the floor .
It was shattered at some previous time,probably.
The shattered pieces of Deja make one a continual victim of others Nessus(the abuser energy)

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So... add them together. If NN in aqua is destiny and being all Aquarian (groups, organsations etc) and add it to deja. Every time she will be victimised as she tries to reach her NN. She has to pull deja from her nodes of destiny.

"Being involved in groups and humanitarian causes is very good for you" but will set off her deja.

I have problem with my relationships/self esteem because of deja but my nodes are fine...

posted April 07, 2011 08:25 AM            

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Originally posted by Anglerfish:
I need to learn that not everything is my fault. It's really hard.

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OH MY GOSH
This is so true.
I am learning it ,too,if that is any consolation (((Angler)))