posted May 01, 2023 08:34 PM            

I COULD FEEL IT IN ME WATERS!

posted May 02, 2023 08:27 PM            

I had a better time sleeping but woke up at 4am. Then dosed back off around 5:30am.

posted May 02, 2023 09:14 PM            

TMI, but I've had blood in mine, since Sunday.

A neighbour two or three doors down (a lot of space here), said that Cutie was on her porch, over an hour ago, when I was still trying to sleep. I just walked down there, and couldn't see him.

I contacted the dentist again, last night, through their form, because they hadn't contacted me. I thought they wouldn't, at this point, so I was just trying to fix my schedule, so that I'd be ready for another dentist. They ended up calling, as I was falling asleep, and too tired to talk to anyone. They're closed tomorrow, so I'll contact them, and try to talk to them on Thursday. But this vet visit was almost $200, and this was dad's last day on mail bags. A guaranteed route. I don't know what's going to happen now.

Dad just said that he saw Cutie next to the garage, in the next driveway, where we've always fed him when he's been outside. So, he's around, thankfully. Just not wanting to be grabbed. This cat who was all over me, all the time, is now out in the rain and cold, living in the woods, or the trees on the other side of the garage.

posted May 03, 2023 03:18 PM            

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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
Mercury will be in retrograde from April 21 until May 14.

This Mercury in retrograde will be in my 2nd house coming back to aspect my natal Saturn by opposition.

Saturn on my Mercury could mean a number of things;

1.My communication style is critiqued
2.There is some training that i will have to undergo or be required to give.
3. There is limited time to do administrative tasks
4. There could be delays in travelling i.e. construction on the road/detours or obstacles on the path to a destination
5.Travelling with an authority figure and having little to converse about.
6. Not a great time to tell a joke in a meeting, one may be misunderstood and get backlash.
7. E-mails don't get to their destination on time. Restrictions in being able to go online.
8. Communication gadgets malfunction or are slow to charge or start-up. Issues with software that will need repairs.
9. Communication with siblings/neighbours impaired or postponed. Can't get ahold of either. Or when i can, the connection is bad or there is limited time in being able to pass a message on.
10. Documents due for signing are delayed.
11. Information systems shut down and have to be backed up or supported manually.

I haven't been able to communicate with the Virgo (Mercury Sun AND Moon) since the eclipse. The network connection has been bad on his end. He is not even receiving my phone calls or messages.

It has established a little bit of distance between us (arguably). As i started to wonder if the interest had waned? But then again, i do have defensive Mars in Cancer in my 4th house arcing to interact with my natal T-square (and conjunct my moon). So its not a very confident time.

I think that everytime transiting planets go into my 4th house, I start to reflect on the past. And much of that reflection is actually quite negative i.e. how i messed up on something,wasted an opportunity, regressed on something or acted in an unwise way etc.

There is a lot of self-blame that I am dealing with at the moment with my Mars now in 4th going towards my T-square and conjunct my Moon.There is heightened sensitivity and personalizing a lot of things for sure.

Guilt over actions when younger where(instead of boldness ) there was timidity or even downright fear to act at all. Situations where i felt victimised or intimated but couldn't speak up. Feelings of insecurity surrounding how safe my then environment at home was. Resentment for certain family member's actions from the past. The usual Cancer stuff.

I am feeling a little more vulnerable to emotional triggers and hurt. Tears will surface quickly in this transit as sentimentality reigns supreme. So i think i will not be posting as much or interacting here because of that. Something written online could unintentionally hurt me and then have me in my feels.😶

I woke up at 3am today (Saturday). This is odten a strong indicator of anxiety levels rising. Mars on my T-square often results in this. As does Mars on my Sun/Nep/Jup triple conjunction. Being offended by something/ someone will trigger a nasty reaction. This is especially so when trans Mars squares Asc/Dsc.

The transit intensities this coming week and gets exact on the 29th of April. There is an event we (at work) are preparing for and so the added emotional flux here is expected since I am the programme manager.

I just hope that i am able to control my feelings and not feel like writing everyone or everything off because of hurt. As Transiting Uranus will be working on my Venus too(relatinship challenges, changes and estrangement). I have already spoken of the distant feelings between myself and the Virgo.

At the same time however, I also dont want any domestic changes right now i.e. unwelcomed guests. I just want to be all alone.

See you on the other side of this charge y'all 👍🏿👍🏿👍🏿

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I knew it. I didn't get paid this month end.There was a delay in my salary from the organization I work for.

Transiting Mercury(retrograde) opp my natal Sat(ruler of 11th house of liquid gains).

Typically this delay will have me pulling from my 8th house (Savings or money put away). Bit i told myself to hold out.

Mercury retro transiting the 2nd house is opposing my Saturn in house 8. Challenges to house 8 would often suggest that I re-think my 8th house money plans. NO!

posted May 03, 2023 03:56 PM            

Finally took a nap, because I was feeling ill. Cat eating, which is good. Cat had something else going on, not so good.

Dad finally texted over an hour ago. At 6:30, when he left, he slid and fell in driveway, cut forehead on glasses, went to closest VA clinic I’m assuming, for emergency stitches. Or the ER I was in once. He went back to work before 3pm.

posted May 03, 2023 08:46 PM            

I got to work early but I will not have make up on my face. Not even skin care.

posted May 03, 2023 09:37 PM            

He found them, and when he couldn't stop the bleeding, so he went to the VA clinic, but they don't do stitches. So, he had to drive himself to the ER. They walked him right in. It hurts. He took some pain medicine he had in the van, but it only helped a bit. He says he's fine, but that's a scary cut, and he also hurt his shoulder. He said that I can call him Nickenstein.

This is what gets me about when, late last year, someone kept talking about Karma, and were responding to me, for some reason. I didn't know what they were talking about. Like I deserved bad things happening to me, because I'd disagreed with them. So, what did my dad do to deserve this? Lost his route, because of what other people did. Slid and hurt himself badly, as he's rushing around making next-day deliveries.

He just told me that when he removed something from it, in the ER, blood came squirting out and hit the nurse. He apologized to her, but he's laughing, and I'm freaking out.

posted May 04, 2023 12:23 AM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
Jesus, I went back to sleep, because I was too tired and depressed to get up, and didn't get the full story. He was making a delivery, and slipped in someone's driveway. It's bad, it's all up from his eyebrow, well up under his hairline. He said he was holding things up against his head, but couldn't stop the bleeding. He really hit his head. He got into the van, and hadn't realized that he was missing his glasses and phone.

He found them, and when he couldn't stop the bleeding, so he went to the VA clinic, but they don't do stitches. So, he had to drive himself to the ER. They walked him right in. It hurts. He took some pain medicine he had in the van, but it only helped a bit. He says he's fine, but that's a scary cut, and he also hurt his shoulder. He said that I can call him Nickenstein.

This is what gets me about when, late last year, someone kept talking about Karma, and were responding to me, for some reason. I didn't know what they were talking about. Like I deserved bad things happening to me, because I'd disagreed with them. So, what did my dad do to deserve this? Lost his route, because of what other people did. Slid and hurt himself badly, as he's rushing around making next-day deliveries.

He just told me that when he removed something from it, in the ER, blood came squirting out and hit the nurse. He apologized to her, but he's laughing, and I'm freaking out.

Pluto has been square his 0 degree Taurus Sun. I don't know about the rest. I don't really care.

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Am glad he is fine. That it was a slip and fixable.🙏🏿

Tau/Sco/Aqua/Leo people around the 0-3 degree mark will likely be going through the most during this transit (including personal planets and Asc).

An acquaintance i know who is a Leo (born July 25th with 1degree Leo in his chart) has diabetes. This transit hit and he got complications with this existing disease.

Diabetes is a manageable condition. But i don't know whether he was taking it lightly and Pluto surfaced issues that he was originally downplaying? Nevertheless however, he doesn't sound well on our WhatsApp exchanges.

posted May 04, 2023 08:59 AM            

Part of my survival tactics as a child was to take responsibility for things that weren’t mine. Like my mother’s depression and alcoholism, because if it was my behavior that caused it then it could be fixed by my behavior as well, right? If I only behaved like a good girl then she would love me and stop being depressed and drinking so much. And my fathers anger issues… If only I could make everything perfect, he wouldn’t get angry and start a fight with my mother and hit her. I told myself these lies to make myself believe I had control in a situation that was beyond my control. And now I’m trying to purge myself from this crap and it is lonely and hurts like hell…

posted May 05, 2023 12:52 PM            

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Originally posted by Stawr:

One thing I realize working with a bunch of women. I need to be properly caffeinated. Because I pick up on all those passive aggressive, hostility and condescendence.

Because I'm actually a b!+ch too. I am just pretending to not be one, because I am at work and we are suppose to be professional. What a concept right?

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posted May 05, 2023 01:26 PM            

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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
@PlutoWasHere

Hmmm....I wonder what your chart looks like?Trans Saturn on Moon sounds like external pressure i.e. added administrative issues at work/home. More responsibilities in the career and perhaps a change of status that puts more on your plate at home?

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posted May 05, 2023 01:30 PM            

Also, the other guy I felt more on the heart level, this one -more emotional-mental understanding and relating, but still crappy communication.
I have started to have too many people in my head. Thanks to Uranus and Jupiter I guess. It’s not that fun giving me emotional and mental mess, almost headaches.

posted May 05, 2023 06:58 PM            

My cat George, is still sick. We keep thinking that he's okay, and then he vomits and stops eating. Dad called the vet again yesterday afternoon, but they haven't called back. ???

Dad hit his head badly, in a fall on Wednesday. He said he must have been stunned, because he got up without his glasses and phone. He had blood shooting out of his head, when he went to the ER, and this man decided to go back to work after he got stitches. He fell hard, and hurt his right shoulder, too, so I guess it's a good thing he wasn't slinging mail bags. They have him doing next-day air shipping parcels. He said he should be home in a couple of hours. I hate being here alone, with a sick cat - I'm really worried, and ****** at the vet - but I'm also grateful that dad still has work. He cut up one of these special plasters I had, after getting burned really badly, in 2019. I only realized later, that this plaster was also stuck to his stitches. I hope it doesn't cause a problem.

Dad also found out that there is some sort of insurance at work, that might be able to pay his ER bill. He's an independent contractor, so he didn't think he had anything like that available. A woman in the office, suggested that he look into it.

My cat Cutie got out last weekend, but I just managed to get him back in, because he was outside, sleeping, and after being startled initially, he walked up to me, and I was able to pick him up. My baby. I've updated social media posts, and need to text a few people next.

I slept last night, which is unusual for me, and full moons. I guess exhaustion took over, plus relief at seeing Cutie at the edge of the woods. I also thought George was okay. This eclipse was in my first house, but I can't remember anything else.

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George just ate a little blob of cream cheese, but refused more.

posted May 06, 2023 05:20 AM            

I looked at your chart. I was looking for markers of what you just wrote and found some interesting ones.

The Moon(which often represents the Mom or early nurturing) is in the whole sign 12th and squares Neptune.

To me, this often suggest a Mom(Moon) who was (for whatever reasons) limited in her ability to fully care for you or be there for you. In this case, it was alcoholism.

And because the Moon rules the Mc, I wonder if you have experienced the same and/or similar type of loss(12th) in your career? Maybe changing jobs often or working in a remote area/ country where you are inaccessible to loved ones or feel a sense of isolation/being unloved or lacking a sense of inclusion in the community ?

Saturn rules you Ic and Sat conjuncts Mars- defensive in your close/ intimate associations. Do you live alone? Or prefer to? The ruler of the 7th house partnerships (Mars) is conjunct Sat. You have very high walls and can close others off. You prefer to be independent of needing others-this perhaps as a defense to when you needed others early in your childhood and they let you down?

Chiron in 7th also re-emphasizes this inability to fully trust and be dependent on relationships or opening you up to them.

Venus ( in addition to being the ruler if the 1st house, is also the general indicator or relationships & financial stability) is in the 8th house of upheavals.

Financially, you go through reversals of fortune. Financial stability is hard to come by. Sun rules your 11th house of liquid gains and is placed in the 8th house of upheavals. Sun also rules the Father, so this suggests an unpredictable Father.

With the added opposition fron Uranus in 2nd, you are constantly feeling like your life is in upheavals and crisis mode. Psychologically, you prepare for the worst. And this "survival mode" instinct , keeps you from settling down and letting go. You fear collapse is just around the corner.

As said earlier,Uranus opposes Sun. The father was unpredictable (reiterated by Uranus). And this may have influenced your personality to adjust to chaos at home (Uranus in 2nd). Was it violent? That is likely too- as Saturn rules the Ic of emotional security conj martial Mars.

What you have done is just survived thus far. So the Pluto transit retrograde to oppose your Sat/Mars going back into your 4th house, will highlight the themes of childhood where this current stressful psychological state that you have been living (thus far) comes to a head.

The Mars transit will have you on edge for a few weeks. And with that anger will be memories of childhood experiences. The anger you feel will also be directed to the parents and how unfair your situation was. But it may be exploding on to your career (in some way) through conflict with a senior.

Pluto will address these emotional issues once and for all with the retrograde i.e. You have to cut something off. Something from your past(4th) has to die.

Either you cut them(parents) off you OR you find a way to dissociate from the past? For some,it may even mean leaving the state of birth or the homeland /country permanently.

posted May 06, 2023 06:14 AM            

Last year right after my birthday I also contracted Covid which brought on a nasty long Covid cough lasting for months… almost a year.

posted May 06, 2023 06:56 AM            

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Originally posted by Hikaru29:
My birthday just passed..it was on 29 April. The following afternoon I started to feel weak and I later developed a fever. I’ve not had a fever for yearssss so it’s really weird. Right after I recovered from my fever I mysteriously developed hives on my legs and I’m now still on medication for it.

Last year right after my birthday I also contracted Covid which brought on a nasty long Covid cough lasting for months… almost a year.

I wonder why I’m so “lucky” to have fallen ill right after my birthday and 2 years in a row at that! Which transits should I check?

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posted May 06, 2023 07:33 AM            

The Moon square Neptune indeed feels very accurate when it comes to my mother and alcoholism. Maybe, transit Pluto in the last degrees of my IC sign, is an indicator for my mothers death. I always felt responsible for her and she is literally the place that I come from.

Work has been extremely stable and a very nurturing environment. There can be stress sometimes but the people I work with have mostly been very protective of me. This is how I see Cancer MC play out for me. There has not been any unexpected job loss (yet). I think that would be a huge blow to my self esteem but there are a lot of jobs available right now and I’m sure I would have a new one very quickly with my job experience and education.

I come from a working class family and my mother was really bad with money. We lived from paycheck to paycheck. I was able to get a good education and I’m very organized when it comes to finances. I also have a job that pays relatively well. I’m very financially secure right now with enough savings to last me at least 3 months with no other income and I own my own home. I have a Taurus Venus and Jupiter conjunction in the 8th house. I feel that I have had my fair share of luck in the financial area and I’m very self sufficient. I see my Uranus in 2nd house as a desire for financial independence. I paid for my own education, insurances, clothes and more ever since I turned 18. I bought my first home at 24. However, a few strokes of bad luck could always change it all, but it’s useless to worry about that now.

posted May 06, 2023 02:41 PM            

Also, for example, my friend’s cat refused to eat wet food for years. Eventually, they figured out why. Her mother had been feeding the cat usually after she put her lotion on. It turned out she was putting her oily lotion fingers in the cats food…

posted May 07, 2023 02:14 AM            

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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
What was happening in the 6th house?

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I’ve nothing in my 6H. It’s Scorpio with Pluto in 5H and Mars in 10H. On the day I fell sick, natal Pluto had a quincunx from transit Sun/Saturn. Natal Mars had sextile from Sun/Mercury, Pluto semi-square. These are all the close orbs.

posted May 07, 2023 08:26 AM            

I wish I could wake up 2 hours before my friends do. I get so mad when they wake up after me.

I will even look at my phone like "hint hint please stop talking to me." I will even pretend to fall back asleep sometimes.