posted September 01, 2023 09:48 PM            

But I am just really questioning a lot and why I am doing this?!

Venus stationary rx squares my ruling planet Mercury Taurus. (I just read an interpretation that says to avoid heavy commitments at this time)
Venus is conjunct my SN "Defining yourself based on your relationships with others can be a tendency with Venus conjunct South Node." I think I am doing this.

posted September 02, 2023 05:07 PM            

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Originally posted by Librapurr:
Full moon and Mercury on Venus. I mistook CBD with thc. And that was horrible. I felt I could die inside my head and nobody could help. Like my breath could stop and I needed to make sure I was still breathing and it was hard. Going from body to mind and the opposite, rational and feel, trying to sort what is real. Acknowledging many of my restrictions and diseases are in my mind, but if I could get rid from all bad illusions, I needed to give away my comforting ones also. Losing control and try to grab some.
Horrible. It could be expanding consciousness or a way to insanity.
They shouldn’t sell it that easy. I don’t think it’s for everybody.
I need to get ready for a small trip, but I still have problems to function and feel disoriented and very out. It’s already almost a day passed and It’s still there though not as strong as yesterday 😟😨

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posted September 03, 2023 11:54 PM            

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Originally posted by PlutoWasHere:
Transit Moon in 8th house
Unfortunately no luck with finding out more about my brother’s bank account. I’m going to contact the police again, hopefully they can help. The inheritance is the last thing I need to do to finish everything with my parents passing. Except the emotional baggage of course. That will still need a lot of work.

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I am sorry for your loss as well

posted September 04, 2023 12:31 AM            

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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
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[b]@hypatia, that is rough. I am very surprised that you were able to write all that down.Condolences ❤

With regards to your prog Moon @10Virgo?Bingo!!! That's what I was looking for. Sat retro transit likely hit your prog Moon closely (at some point) and Sat on Moon tends to(ime) impact the Mom or one's relationship with the home-life(which is another manifestation I see here).

I see Sat(in the first instance) being symbolic of the passing away of your Mom. When you spoke of how the idea of not having the person whom you've known since birth around anymore, I thought of Sat. To Me that's a growing pain🙏🏿

It's interesting also that transiting Sun in Vir was conj natal prog Moon in Vir. This perhaps to highlight the spotlight (Sun)being on Mom(Moon) during this point of transition?

Your Dsc ruler (Merc) by transit retro Vir 18 is opp your natal Moon in Pis 21(whole sign 4th house).I just recently learned that the house of "death" may not be the 8th(as I long thought) and is likely the 7th🤷🏿‍♂️. But more on that later.

Trans Mars conj Mc opp IC would be indicative of the activity & adjustment you had to do towards her passing.And is also indicative of the action to be taken to organize the funeral etc.

With a passing, there is the heightened sensitivity too that one feels which is expected .As well as an ego wipe-out that happens because people will(for now atleast) rally around you as you go through grief. That to me aligns with Nep-as Nep is also indicative of loss.

The Ic(home) degree connects to retro Nep in Pis by an out of sign conj. As well as the square aspect with your Asc in late Sag. This passing will change you(Asc) as a person.Loss usually always does.

With the moving in happening during the Nep retro close to the Ic, my guess is that there are things that will surface about your partner only after he has moved in. Right now, you won't be able to see them.

Much of what has been said above will apply to the moving in situation too I.e.

Saturn on prog Moon-sharing living space with someone makes any place feel "smaller".

Trans Merc (ruler of Dec-partner, co-habitor) hits natal Moon in 4th.Trans Mars(ruler of your Ic) opp Ic(home). A busy home life. Domestic/home issues taking priority.

There's a lot going on right now. And the added Ven/Mars square to retrograde Ura Tau, would suggest a very busy period of coordination (Ven) and running around to get things done (Mars) for both the funeral and the home.

There may be disruptions around this period that cause volatile emotions to surface-Mars on Ic by transit as well as Ura on natal Mars ,can have a short fuse.Irritability can abound.[/B]

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I mean I have IC in ARIES which is part of why I attract aries rising so much and bc my venus and mars fall in their 5th and trines their AC and that forms and Grand trine with my AC but if they are an early degree aries riser it will conjunct my IC.

So tr neptune is in my 3rd house but it is squaring exact my AC and DC right now and this whole situation has brought me closer to my siblings and feels completely out of my control.

It is interesting that transit SOUTHNODE is conjuncting my PLUTO.

The first thing I felt when she passed away was anger, fitting with IC in aries and tr mars conjuncting my MC. I cried on and off through out the day but once she passed I remember feeling distinctly angry.

Its interesting you are saying the 7th house is the death house and would love to hear more about that, at the time of her death the event chart has tr URANUS conjuncting by 1 degree the DC angle with PLUTO ruling the chart in the 3rd house and my brother was with me. I was TERRIFIED she would die and I was going to be ALONE when it happened and THANK GOD my brother arrived on time and we were together when it happened. Its also true my mother lost her ability to speak with this disease so Pluto in the 3rd also fits that and her fingers were impacted too.

OMGGGGG my father has Northnode in ARIES at 25 degrees and tr NORTHNODE is in ARIES at 25 degrees!!!!!!! and he is a widow now; he was a caregiver and super close to my mom, together for 45 years. This is crazy! He is meant to start a journey around independence and being alone, he has always been a relationship guy but I know my mother was indeed his soulmate and the love of his life and I just assumed he would eventually find someone new but with his northnode return in aries exact at time he became a widow maybe he is suppose to have a different kind of chapter in his final years. My mom was the driven force in our family you can say. He is meant to explore more who he is now outside of being married.

ALSO the ruler of the DC in the event chart is VENUS RX which was opposing EXACT her natal VENUS; again supporting your theory about the 7th house and death. I mean the 7th rules situations that are outside of our control! Is that why?

Here is the EVENT chart of her passing:

posted September 04, 2023 12:57 AM            

TR URANUS is exact on his Ascendant and is squaring his chart ruler VENUS in LEO and opposing his MARS conjunct URANUS on this DC. DAM***N I just realized tr Uranus is hitting his angles and his chart ruler and activating a tsquare, that is A LOT! interesting enough 12th house ruler mars is involved and this is a psychotic break.

God I hope this is just a covid related psychotic break episode that will pass and not the start of severe mental health issues.

Interesting enough he has lost a TON of weight from actively working out by dancing daily and reports he is addicted to dancing, he got surgery on his hair and has hair now filled up, like it looks good I feel, he removed this vain on his nose too that never bothered me and had no idea it bothered him and has worked on his style etc.. so fitting too of tr uranus activating his AC and chart ruler venus in leo etc..

I truly hope this ends up being a blessing and he gets on meds for his anxiety as he has refused to get on any meds and he gets panic attacks some times including this past day.

Here is his chart with transits:

posted September 04, 2023 02:00 AM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
I am sorry for your loss as well

Did they pass away close to each other?

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posted September 04, 2023 07:24 PM            

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Originally posted by PlutoWasHere:
Thank you, hypatia. My father died late 2017 and my mother last year, so 5 years apart. Not really close but still a bit raw though.

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yeah that would feel close to me, like F!!!!!

posted September 06, 2023 12:53 AM            

TR VENUS no longer retro and now direct is exact opposing her VENUS! interesting. When she passed it was exact opposing her venus but retro.

Tr moon was opposing my chiron at the start of the celebration of her life and now I am still up just reflecting on the celebration of her life and tr moon is now opposing my chart ruler Jupiter conjunct Uranus in the 12th.

posted September 06, 2023 01:45 AM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
May my beautiful mom who was an angel on earth rest in peace.

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posted September 06, 2023 11:06 PM            

Thought waved over me, what would Anakin Skywalker's chart look like in transits, progression etc at the key moment his metamorphosis from sweet Anikin to heinous Darth Vader would take place.

I looked at the Lucifer asteroid 1930 just afterwards. 19°7 rx exact in transit with the retrograde chiron in tr. In a (sometimes) blood thirsty sign, aries. They are chasing behind the collective NN. Like in the film scenes. Weird as it sounds. I sense something in Force occurring soon.
*Retrogrades are inwardly felt. Thus those feeling they are back pedaling from their heart center, feeling a split between light/darkness. This is powerful inward feeling for those at any crossroads.

Air signs (±Aries) might be highly sensitive atm and working more into the dense unknowns.
I feel some might face light VS dark. - which lord to serve.

Anyway on a personal note, I feel the "strangeness in the air". This is all I have except the tr chiron I believe does square my n. Mercury. This too is bringing a suffocating energy. Decompression chamber of sorts.

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posted September 06, 2023 11:18 PM            

So I have been dealing with my mom passing away while all that was coming down too, it has been a TRULY insane week (8-30-23 to 9-06-23). All of sudden today everything is finally settle-ling down and I am no longer in this crisis mode, his out of the hospital, got his truck back, renewed his car registration, will get dog back tomorrow and already made a connection with someone who is going to give him some work but his business closing is definitely a huge chapter closing and when he had the psychotic break it felt like a rebirth for him (at least some aspects of it).

My mom's celebration of life was beautiful yesterday and today was the burial and now it feels like I am no longer in crisis mode and things are slowing down, settleling down, concluding, moving along one way or another as is strangely meant to be.

So yep I get now why people are concerned with URANUS transits, at least the hard aspects to personal planets or angles you sure feel it, it does shake things up. Its definitely the planet of TURNING POINTS if you ask me, things happen with URANUS when it hits personal planets or the angles and your life does change and will never be the same even if is brought forth through some kind of crisis.

For my ex transit URANUS was hitting exact his Ascendant while it opposed exact his mars conjunct uranus and squared his chart ruler VENUS and tr PLUTO is conjuncting his MC by 2 degrees and this did lead to his business closing down and a scandal that will pass and get resolved but he will have to find another source of income or rebrand his business and do things truly correctly and by the book if he continues with it but I think he is meant to let that business go so he can find his way which is apparently another way. I feel since PLUTO has been conjuncting his MC he has been outgrowing his business and his heart has not been in it.

So URANUS and PLUTO on his angles, it was a Sh*t Storm but I think its happening for a reason, he needs to stop eating s*it and start taking himself and his life more seriously.

For me it has been tr URANUS hitting my IC and MC rulers which conjunct in the 8th (VENUS conjunct MARS).........my mother passed away represented by ruler of the 4th Mars and this disruption with my ex has led us to having a serious conversation about transferring the lease to him when I get back this month and selling him the house or signing it over to him which is very much an 8th house conversation; in the next 6 months it will be a focus to finish severing the ties I have with my ex and to put closure to joint finances issues I have been avoiding dealing with to give him time to get his sh*t truly together.

Tr URANUS squaring my venus and mars in the 8th has also led to my new boyfriend moving in but he also needs to figure out some important things and I am providing support right now, we shall see what happens next year if we stay together or if I move back to FL. I don't know what the future holds, I am going to let things settle more and wait and see and re-evaluate later on how I feel about staying with him in Colorado.

For now I just want to take it day by day. I will visit my dad/siblings every other month, continue to pursue my FL license and see how things go with Scott and us living together and take it from there

When Uranus hits the angles or angle rulers things do change radically for sure and that is a turning point so buckle up there will be some interesting weird unexpected bumps on the road but it will be okay.

posted September 07, 2023 05:07 AM            

I’m a Taurus stellium and Uranus has been a roller coaster ride so far.

posted September 07, 2023 10:39 AM            

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Originally posted by Stawr:
That's a good point Librapur. Sometimes weed can put you in a weirder headspace. But I swear I'm also more psychic when I have it too.

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It’s interesting about psychic part. I could see it can improve some abilities if your mind and soul are at the right place. But not for everybody.

posted September 07, 2023 10:58 AM            

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Originally posted by Hmmm:
go to a hospital if it's not going away... i got pyschosis/schizophrenia this way and i think if i went and got help earlier it would have made a difference

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