posted May 09, 2023 02:05 AM            

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Originally posted by Hikaru29:
I’ve nothing in my 6H. It’s Scorpio with Pluto in 5H and Mars in 10H. On the day I fell sick, natal Pluto had a quincunx from transit Sun/Saturn. Natal Mars had sextile from Sun/Mercury, Pluto semi-square. These are all the close orbs.

Last year same period, I had Transit Sun/Moon/Uranus sextile natal Mars and Transit Mars conjunct natal Mars. Close orbs.

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posted May 09, 2023 02:41 AM            

At the time of the excursion, trans Venus was opposing my Sun. Oppositions are extremes. And with Venus(pleasure) involved, this isn't surprising.

Financially, things are still not good. So this is not great(given how indulgent i inwardly feel). How do i want to spend money I dont have?

posted May 10, 2023 09:57 PM            

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Originally posted by PlutoWasHere:
I just realized that my biggest issue is that I don’t feel safe with other people. I don’t trust them to have my best interest at heart. I’m always guarded, I never ask for help, I never really open up. I’m too afraid to be vulnerable. I have felt so betrayed by my parents and their inability to be there for me, I have had a complete emotional shutdown to protect myself. I’m surrounded by so many lovely people in my life right now but I still struggle to connect because the mother wound is so incredibly deep and makes it difficult for me to trust. Well, at least I’m fully aware now. Doesn’t solve the issues, but it’s a start. I always was vaguely aware of my difficulties with trust, but I now see it touches the core of everything. It really smacked me in the face.

Jupiter conjunct natal Chiron
Mars conjunct natal Mars/Saturn
Saturn opposite natal Moon exact
Chiron parallel natal Vertex

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posted May 10, 2023 10:02 PM            

Cutie is okay. He's trying to get out again, but seemed to enjoy the weekend indoors, just chilling on the furniture.

Dad is okay, but exhausted. He napped most of Saturday, and had to work Sunday. He's now taking Fridays off, because Sundays are busy for next-day deliveries.

There are things I want to talk about, vent about, "I wish I'd done this or that". But not here, not now. I saw a twitter comment from a woman who said she was in the mood to just drive late at night, stop at a diner, talk to total strangers, get to know them, exchange chit chat with the waitress. I am, too. I can relate to her a lot.

posted May 11, 2023 07:41 PM            

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http://www.nytimes.com/2023/05/11/well/family/heather-armstrong-blog-dooce.html
http://jopiazza.substack.com/p/how-will-your-obituary-define-you?fbclid=PAAaZ-jWgJSu3GXTwSA-gXpgzoBsJaYRvKRUcCY9IZAP9p0cM85Wie93dK6eY

Every time I read a toxic comment on a woman’s social media I think about how Armstrong was utterly eviscerated for her writing and her personal life.

When she split from her husband her fans went nuts. often in hate-filled diatribes against her in comments on the website Get Off My Internets.

She sunk into a deep depression and was very honest about it on her blog. So then the commenters on GOMI mocked her depression. One said:

“Heather needs to get the f**k over her childhood trauma. Like dude, you’re 43 and you’ve spent half your life in therapy. You have a f**king sweet life.”

“The hate was very, very scary and very, very hard to live through.It gets inside your head and eats away at your brain. It became untenable.”

This hatred directed at Armstrong is important to note and to remember. It’s toxic and it is also the norm for women who write and put themselves out there on the Internet. When we write about Armstrong and her struggles with mental health we would be remiss to ignore these kinds of comments and the reality of their impact.

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Just the other day, I was thinking about a former friend who went after my mental health. I didn’t know, until a mutual friend asked me if I was okay. The other friend got the reaction she wanted, when I hadn’t wanted to fight, and her response was smug satisfaction. Just like my sister.

posted May 13, 2023 07:20 AM            

Sun rules the 5th and is in house 9. Some change of overall perspective (9th) as well as increased pleasurable activity (5th)?

posted May 13, 2023 08:17 AM            

Well some of the other kids fess up that the bracelet broke and they hid parts of it around the classroom. I let the teachers/director know but I could only find the dolphin bead.

posted May 13, 2023 04:23 PM            

My seedlings didn’t take the second time, most of them anyway. The first lot died just before my birthday, because I left them outside, and forgot to water them. Vettigo, and my birthday, leaving the house, etc.

posted May 14, 2023 08:47 AM            

We are going to get tea brunch event today.

posted May 14, 2023 10:45 AM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
I feel the same way. I have been wanting to say more, but also not. I think this is one reason that I've surrounded myself with pets: because I was moved away from anyone I knew, all the time, but you eventually lose them, too, and it's just as hard, if not more.

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I think a lot of issues are rooted in protective strategies we develop as children. We’re so vulnerable as children, it’s necessary to develop certain coping mechanisms when you grow up in a challenging home environment.

posted May 15, 2023 04:22 AM            

Lots of things breaking, delays and rude people have been testing me. So much frustration! I blame my Mars return. I have my natal Mars conjunct Saturn so I have been confronted with a lot of frustrating events because it reflects my own inner tension. It’s teaching me boundaries and fighting for what I deserve. But it’s so draining… I really want to just lie down and take a week long nap.

posted May 15, 2023 05:29 PM            

There has been delays in my payment at work. This triggered all sorts of fears for me and (add to those) additional concerns that my life was still financially insecure. God damne it! After all these years. Still....

So a thought came to me.An extraordinary idea that is so unconventional, so outrageous, I sat in my chair thinking about it and pondering the outcomes deeply.

The idea wiped away all my thoughts of my current situation,clarified the next step. And got me feeling excited about the coming years.

As an Aries Asc, I am always concerned about chasing "destination happiness". Always looking to follow that shiny object to wherever it leads. And not being settled long enough to ground myself anywhere.

People call it "chasing buterflies" or "chasing wishes" or "pots of gold at the end of rainbows " etc. The resolve sweeps me off my feet and knocks the wind out of my chest. So intense it becomes, so urgent it is. I must follow. I must.

So i expected this Jup transit to my Sun to be supplemented by travel. But that didn't happen.Instead, what happened is that this idea hit me. And with it, my world expanded. It expanded in a way that was like "ofcourse!" And as i sat on my couch, I realized i had more options after all.

I think that this is the Jupiter transit trine to my Sun. That is the energy. The clarity of thought, the expanded view and with it, the unfolding self that knows it can be "more".

I am so bursting with energy, I can't sleep. Its late here but i can't sleep. That's why i am writing all this so that the words don't escape me.

Sun rules my 5th and is in the 9th. What i spoke of earlier in a post was how i expected to have more faith etc.

Qoute :"Jupiter is almost out of Aries. 🙏🏿. It's been good. Jupiter is now in exact trine to my Sun/Nep combo.A higher propensity to gamble or take chances. Increased self belief. With Neptune there, it's a little bit of delusion too.

Sun rules the 5th and is in house 9. Some change of overall perspective (9th) as well as increased pleasurable activity (5th)?

Will see.

Yes to all this.Is the idea a gamble? Yes.Is there a change in overall perspective? Yes. There is longer term planning and a vision of "what will be".
Is there pleasurable activity? Yes. It feels like i have fallen inlove. I am so excited i can't sleep.

Is it delusional? Probably. Had to talk to friends after the idea hit me to stay grounded and feel like i am not flying away with myself. But even after talking to them, the enthusiasm didn't wane.

I'm sorry to sound cryptic.But i feel it too premature to share.Too fragile to shout out loud. So i have to cover it. Atleast for now.

Wow. Am shaking.This is what "alignment" feels like. Its exhilarating. I don't feel like i even need the money that i am supposed to be paid (which is still outstanding) lol.

Mars in Cancer is not too far behind from transiting Jupiter . I have not been triggered by anything as of yet. When it moves to square natal Pluto, I am not so sure if that will stay constant though.

Trans Jupiter will square trans Plu in house 10. Then move to oppose natal Pluto in 8th (exact). I am going to see the tangible effects and benefits of Jupiter. I just know it.👌🏿

Jupiter will retro on my Sat/Ven conj in Sep 5. Then cross my prog Sun/Mars square. Venus in Leo will precede that and retro on my Sun/Nep 24 July (when Sun enters Leo and opposes trans Plu) . The retro ends on my natal Sat/Ven by square too. BEAUTIFUL!!Let it rain cash/ opportunities & exciting ideas🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿. I want it to.

For now, Trans Mars in Cancer will move to Leo soon too by next week. This will opp trans Pluto and square my natal Pluto. Anger? Or increased energy to tackle big projects? Yes. Perhaps both.

posted May 17, 2023 05:56 PM            

And they keep changing the passwords for things so then I can't get any of the electronic work done on my paid time.

Venus oppose Uranus and Neptune
Saturn square ASC