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Topic: Upcoming birthday and a hope for a better year.
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rajin
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posted February 05, 2011 11:22 AM
  
Thanks Ami,
It has been hard for us, and I don't know how much we can bear and go through without breaking down.IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted February 05, 2011 02:26 PM
Rajin
I am a medical intuitive.I just discovered this ability through realizing I could feel people's conditions.
I do NOT have a bad feeling about your dad?
Have they FOUND cancer--this time or just suspect it?------------------
Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man.
You have to be strong enough to be gentle.Peace through strength,ALWAYS
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rajin
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posted February 05, 2011 06:27 PM
Ami,
He was diagnosed in 2008 and underwent radiation and hormone therapy/ They stopped his hormone therapy in April2010. Now his PSA levels are creeping up, it is still within range of normalbut one surgeon thinks that it going up means it is coming back.
I dont know how many bad breaks am I supposed to face. I am crumbling now I cant keep on going down and try to get up again and again.
Sorry for sounding so depressed but I have not had a good life for the past 7 years and I cant take any more knocks now.IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted February 05, 2011 06:50 PM
I am so sorry ((((Rajin))) 
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Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man.
You have to be strong enough to be gentle.Peace through strength,ALWAYS
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Ami Anne
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posted February 07, 2011 09:20 PM
Bump 
Thinking of you,Rajin!
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Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man.
You have to be strong enough to be gentle.Peace through strength,ALWAYS
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rajin
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posted February 07, 2011 10:27 PM
Thanks Ami.Sorry I have not written, just not in the right frame of mind. Right now it is wait and watch for my dad. makes me feel helpless that I cant do anything.
No other good news, I guess the guy has decided to give up on the realtionship. Maybe what Lucia says is right, I drove him away with my obsessive behaviour and I need to work on myselfrather than blame him.
I could do with some good news and someone to stand by me, I have been fighting battles all alone for a long time and am tired now.IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted February 08, 2011 08:54 AM
I don't have dire feelings about your Dad,Rajin.
Sometimes ,diet can make the PSA go up.
As far as the guy, IF you were too obsessive and then pulled back,he would have still come back.
I think he ,still,will.
A Libra and a Pisces guy is a special animal when it comes to commitment.
You have to work with what is there.
If you still want him,you can have him,*I* think.
I have another student in my school who is doing great  ------------------
Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man.
You have to be strong enough to be gentle.Peace through strength,ALWAYS
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rajin
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posted February 08, 2011 12:56 PM
Thanks Ami,
It is the waiting that kills me, not knowing what will happen next, that feeling of helplessness.
Is there anything in my SR chart that says I will face a lot of losses this year, Ami? that is my biggest fear.IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted February 08, 2011 01:01 PM
I am not good with SR,Rajin.Maybe,someone else can answer ------------------
Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man.
You have to be strong enough to be gentle.Peace through strength,ALWAYS
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rajin
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posted February 08, 2011 01:06 PM
no problem Ami. i understand what Lucia and CCm are pointing out and asking me to do, but the heart is a whol e different animal, that refuses to listen. I have not kept in touch with him but I have not forgoteen him either and I cant seem to turn off my emotions that fast.
what do I do? What does he feel about me, I have no idea?IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted February 13, 2011 09:58 AM
Rajin
How have you been ------------------
Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man.
He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city
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rajin
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posted February 13, 2011 04:29 PM
Thanks Ami for keeping an eye out for me. I am OK. I am planning to go home soon to see my dad and try to bring him back with me if he needs treatment. Have not been sleeping well worrying about him. It has been a bad time emotionally.
No news from my guy, he probably got scared of my intensity and decided to walk away. Cant blame him, maybe I was the one who was wrong wanting to know him better and hear his voice and eager to be in touch with him, trying to share his pain and wanting to help him. It probably came across as being needy or controlling. I dont know how to act cool, that's all. I cant hope for a 4th time now
It would have been bad any other time too but now it is just bad because i feel battered on all sides.IP: Logged |
EverEvolvingSpirit
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posted February 13, 2011 05:48 PM
Hello, Rajin,I'm sorry if I was too hard on you, sometimes when I clearly see whats best for a person and they won't see it my exact way, I get frustrated. It's me and the issue I have to work through. I hope you and your dad are well and you will be in my prayers  IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted February 13, 2011 06:06 PM
How long has it been since you talked to him ,Rajin?
I ,still,don't think it is over ,not the way you expressed love for him.
Perhaps, you don't want to hear this as you want to let it go.
I am thinking your father will be OK,Sweetheart ------------------
Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man.
He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city
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rajin
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posted February 13, 2011 10:33 PM
Hey EES,
No worries,You are right in some way. I have always been an optimist and hapy person, someone who draws people to her because of her passion for life. After he broke my heart so many times I have been afraid to hope for anything good. It scares me when something good happens as I think it will soon be taken away from me.
As for me being obssessed with him, it is not so much obsession as worry. I lost one of my best friends and grandmother, one to an accident and one to old age.But I had put off meeting with them because I was busy and thought could do it another day and I lost the chance of seeing them alive for the last time. So now I make it a point to call people and keep in touch as much as I can. I guess he felt threatened by it and went away. I dont want to miss the chance to tell people that I love them and carry that regret all my life.
Thanks Ami. It is 3 weeks since he wrote to me and now there is silence on his part. I am still having a small part of my heart that hopes he will come back.Dont know how.
Pl. God point me in the right direction.IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted February 13, 2011 10:35 PM
He will come back (((Rajin)))
Sit tight.They love you have for him is NOT one sided
That is MY feeling.------------------
Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man.
He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city
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rajin
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posted February 13, 2011 10:54 PM
Thanks Ami,
You are a psychic, Ami. I hope your intuition says the right thing and is not clouded by your affection for me and your kind heart. You dont want me unhappy so is your heart seeing something that is not there?
God bless you for being you.IP: Logged |
specialistangel
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posted February 13, 2011 11:08 PM
Ami Anne (sorry to intrude in this topic) but I think it might also be NOT one sided for you, too. Although perhaps sometime in the future, it will be. IP: Logged |
rajin
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posted February 13, 2011 11:12 PM
what is not one sided for Ami, specialist?I was asking her if her intuition might be coloured because she cares for me.Otherwise she has no reason to take sides.
Not meaning to be rude, I just did not understand what you said.IP: Logged |
specialistangel
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posted February 13, 2011 11:40 PM
What exactly didn't you understand, of what I said? I'll try to clarify, if I can. I know it's difficult! But, just ask me, and I'll try. IP: Logged |
rajin
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posted February 14, 2011 03:01 AM
hi specialist,
Wh did you say it is not one sided for Ami? She is not taking sides, she was just telling me that her intuition says that what I feel for the guy is not one sided. She has never met the guy or me for the matter, so there is no reason for her to take sides. That is why I wondered why you thought Ami had a personal interest or was biased in her verdict.
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Ami Anne
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posted February 14, 2011 08:17 AM
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Rajin
When I am close,I cannot,always,"feel" right.
However,I got a strong sense of a year for your father.
That does NOT mean he only has a year. All *I* saw was a year.
I saw it as a map before me.
Again,just cuz what I SAW was a year does not mean he ONLY has a year.
OK??
I cannot see things sometimes.
Some things are blocked for God's reasons.
Let your guy realize he misses you.I think he will contact you,again
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Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man.
He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city
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specialistangel
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posted February 14, 2011 08:30 AM
rajin, are you a guy or a girl? I can't really tell on here, it's odd. can you tell how I am?I know I've been spending a lot of time on this message board but that's because I've been discovering some pertinent discoveries laterly, and so I am on here, ALWAYS IP: Logged |
rajin
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posted February 14, 2011 10:10 AM
I am a girl. I don't know who you are, I assume you are a woman.
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Ami Anne
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posted February 14, 2011 10:14 AM
He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city
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