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posted November 22, 2008 12:24 AM         

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Oh yes, remember how PA put that post up a few days ago about things you want for Xmas? Well I never got around to it but I would love to turn 15 and be sent to Birmingham to sit next to JT in school. With the knowledge that I have of him, maybe I could've nailed him before anyone else Two geeks in a pod

Sun opp Saturn, feels very awkward. Mind you I do have Saturn in Cancer in the 4th, rx, 29th degree, which makes me feel insecure and sensitive. Aqu Sun in detriment too, 10th house. I hide my sensitivities from everyone. Most people see the Aries front or Aqu coolness but inside, I tend to lack confidence. I have got good self worth but strangely feel restricted. I also self censor. When I was a teen, when I was least comfortable, in my early teens I had t-Saturn conj Sun and opp n-Saturn and I was so gangly and awkward with poor coordination. I was the nerd, the one that the boys all thought was ugly. Just like them really. I still feel like that but I now know what to do and how to hide it really.

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posted November 22, 2008 12:26 AM         

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He's got Chiron in 12th/Pisces and Mars, chart ruler in Pisces dwad. And that's about it....

EDIT - his Neptune is unaspected except from a sextile to Pluto, trine to Chiron. Never thought about that.

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posted November 22, 2008 12:31 AM         

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Mr PA and I both have dark hair and we both have hazel eyes. His are more green. Mine are different - one is brown-grey, the other brown-green.

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I think maybe when I was younger, yes, with Sean Young.

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posted November 22, 2008 12:34 AM         

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When we lived in Sydney we would go round to the rallies for a bbq every (******* ) weekend!!! Do I sound happy about it! It would consistent of the same timeline of events every single Sunday. Agghhhh! I was dead bored every time. How to kill an Aries spirit? Bore them!

Eventually I just said to Mr PA that he could go, I couldn't stand it anymore.

We live quite a number of hours away from everyone now.

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posted November 22, 2008 12:34 AM         

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I still feel like that but I now know what to do and how to hide it really.

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I vaguely remember you saying something like this a while back and being surprised. I thought how can this person who has so much knowledge and confidence, ever feel like this...

I bet you would surprise a 'few of those boys' if they met you today!!!

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posted November 22, 2008 12:38 AM         

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Well I think I've outstripped them in terms of appearance now. Sorry not nice to say but I've seen a few on Facebook and really not good, girls included. However I just don't care. I don't live in my hometown anymore and hopefully won't go back either (Mr 23 doesn't seem to be keen to go back).

The problem is that if you see them, then the old school structures go back up and they'll try and pigeonhole you in that role again. I wonder what all those kids that went to school with JT must think. That must be utterly bizaare for them. He said that he had a crush on a girl at school and she didn't give him any time. He said that he'd like to go back and see her, see what she's thinks of him now. All done with a bit of understandable haughtiness. Read it in an interview somewhere. BTW that's where I think JT's drug problems stem from - lack of confidence, the outer not matching the inner.

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posted November 22, 2008 12:39 AM         

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I think a lot of people hide their sensitivies. Either that or there are the ones that wear and offer them so blatantly that they use them to manipulate. I hate that - that whole attitude where someone presents themselves are more sensitive than anyone. It's their attempt to keep everyone in their order and control.

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posted November 22, 2008 12:44 AM         

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posted November 22, 2008 12:46 AM         

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I don't have anything to do with anyone from school. I hated school. I was very shy as a kid and any kind of bully can sense that a mile away. They see that quietness as weakness. I've never been weak but I'm not a fighter either.

LOL - my children are role-playing right now. They're playing babies and one of them is the policeman. LOL! Apparently the idea is that if you're an annoying baby you go to jail. ROFL.

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posted November 22, 2008 12:48 AM         

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Role playing Monopoly eh?

Where's you Chiron BTW PA?
Mine is in the 1st house, Aries square Saturn.

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posted November 22, 2008 12:48 AM         

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Eventually I just said to Mr PA that he could go, I couldn't stant it anymore.

We live quite a number of hours away from everyone now

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What a perfect arrangement!! I've been thinking the same - giving a nice healthy distance between folk

Definitely a way to kill the Aries spirit - LOL!!!!

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posted November 22, 2008 12:49 AM         

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LOL I live about 1800 km away from my rellies, I go back to to see them!

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posted November 22, 2008 12:50 AM         

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That's interesting. I had a very strongly Scorpy influenced friend who was the same. She'd claim she wanted a truthful reply but when it was offered would remind me how sensitive she was. LOL! Make up your mind! I mean, I have been known to be somewhat tactless at times (NNNOOOOO!!!!! :laughing but I was always walking on egg shells with her. Too much hard work. I never felt I could relax and just be me. And that's not how I want to be. Especially with friends.

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posted November 22, 2008 12:53 AM         

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Chiron is in Aries in 12th house, conjunct Ascendant (1 degree), opposite Uranus (exact).

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posted November 22, 2008 12:54 AM         

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Your Chiron tells the story I think.

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My partner has this. I know what you're saying. She's damn lucky I have the patience of a saint!!!!

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posted November 22, 2008 12:57 AM         

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You are patient Koi Must be all those years of teaching or something.

OK hopefully catch you soon Koi.

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posted November 22, 2008 12:58 AM         

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PS PA - watching kids roleplay can be very entertaining!! That's when they need to be filmed to be shown when they are adults

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posted November 22, 2008 12:58 AM         

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I think in general we have to have some patience with partners. In other situations you usually get to see the best of someone because your time together is fleeting. But then when you're with someone, especially living with them, you get to see the worst of them also. I think that's where people who work together and then mate have problems because at work you can see the best of each other and then it doesn't quite equate in day-to-day life.

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posted November 22, 2008 01:00 AM         

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Yes, missing the video camera. Would be a good investment I think. Had a conversation with one my children's teachers this week. One of my little ones was very openly sharing some of our familial bad habits and I put my hand over her mouth mockingly and made a quip to him. I then proceeded to inform him that it was okay because the children role play school at home and I know all the teachers' bad habits! LOL!

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posted November 22, 2008 01:01 AM         

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Koi - yeah good point, especially raising it at 21st birthday parties

PA - maybe that's the problem with celebs when they get together as well, the see REALITY.

It's also the fusion or work and reality as a whole that must be suffocating for people who work together that get together. Personally, I don't think I could ever get involved with people I have worked with. Private life should remain private.

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posted November 22, 2008 01:02 AM         

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Yeah, I'm not sure about that Chiron of mine. I think because it's conjunct Asc I may "appear" wounded to others in some way. I'm just reading online that apparently that Chiron-Uranus opposition reflects an addictive personality.

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posted November 22, 2008 01:02 AM         

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You can just get a digital camera PA and do it on there. It'd be good for them if they ever want to do acting or something, they can see themselves acting. Who knows where SLB would be if he had an SLR!

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