posted August 20, 2009 04:41 AM         

8th! Hello lady! *jumpy up and down wave*

Well you could do worse than a visit Unmoved... you could do with a bit of fun and he sounds nice.

Git yoself to Seoul and find yo Soul baybeh.

Mmmhmm. I like this thread.

posted August 20, 2009 10:29 AM         

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Hmmmm...I wondering if maybe a vacation to Korea is just what my friend Unmoved needs. (No reason for that in particular!)

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Was going to say the same thing lol!

posted August 20, 2009 10:29 AM         

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Hmmmm...I wondering if maybe a vacation to Korea is just what my friend Unmoved needs. (No reason for that in particular!)

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I was gonna say the same thing LOL!

posted August 20, 2009 08:48 PM         

Update: He then gave me his available days on IM. I wonder why we are treating IM as this huge thing... and when I say "we" I mean HIM. heheh So, we might have our first IM conversation this Saturday or Sunday. I've just emailed(facebook) him asking him whether Saturday is good for him.

I am getting bored. (I'll elaborate)

I mean...

I have a feeling that he knows exactly how I feel and is just having fun at my expense, playing hard to get. I mean... REALLY, the men these days!!! He doesn't know that my concentration span is questionable, and I pray that I never lose interest in him. If he clearly isn't interested in me, by all means, let my feelings be fickle. Actually, he should know how absent-minded I am because I once said something "bad" in the lines of "I forgot you..." Not in those words, but close enough.

*shakes head*

Actually, his behavior only makes sense if he is savoring the attention I am giving him, as if enjoying how the tables have turned. This would mean that I did hurt him in the past, and if so, I will gladly suffer all his foolishness to make up for what I did to him, unintentional as it might have been. But, I can only take so many mind games before I get fed up. I hope he relaxes after a while.

Then when he had given me his available days, after I told him mine first, he says that the ball is in my court. This shirking of taking the lead of his makes me think that he wants me to be in charge. I was just thinking that since he is Aries, and very Martian, that he would like to take the wheel. Oh well...

speaking of wheels... Wheelsofcheese, I am glad you like it here.

Ag! Thinking about him is making me feel not so nice today. That's a bad sign. I hope the IM fixes this. He is lowering my vibration. Maybe it is his fear (or mine come to think of it) that I am feeling. Fear is such a slow and heavy vibration...

Later.

posted August 20, 2009 10:42 PM         

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Actually, his behavior only makes sense if he is savoring the attention I am giving him, as if enjoying how the tables have turned. This would mean that I did hurt him in the past, and if so, I will gladly suffer all his foolishness to make up for what I did to him, unintentional as it might have been. But, I can only take so many mind games before I get fed up. I hope he relaxes after a while.

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Eh, another reason his behavior might make sense is that you two are communicating via LAME internet tools. I know this is completely not your fault and you do not have the opportunity to hang out in person and make out.

But...online chatting is not as natural for many fire people as interaction that involves lots of emotional cues.

On the one hand, internet/text messages can be emboldening...people who would NEVER have a nerve to touch a guy's stubbly cheek, look deep into his eyes, and say, "Hey, I like you," can send a text or IM and then agonize with their friends while waiting for a week for said guy's totally careful, guarded, unspontaneous response. More people confess their like this way than in person, I bet.

On the other hand, doing any of this via Facebook etc forces your interaction into the abstract--forces him to think un-Aries-friendly thoughts about the exact nature of the relationship and how he feels and how you feel and what might happen and what you really mean and what happened in the past....when a huge part of what he likes about you is probably your extreme beauty and sex appeal and how excited he feels when you're in the room...things he frankly does not get to experience over Facebook. Instead, over Facebook, he has to worry about how he might be coming across and worry about what you really mean, etc.

Go easy on him. He might not be playing games...he might just feel nervous, weird, or uncertain. This is NOT the best set-up for wooing an Aries man, especially when you have a complicated history. So be his friend, be fun and funny, and be reassuring...keep the way you even THINK about him (even just secretly to yourself) warm, friendly, light, relaxed, and forgiving, till you have a chance to hang out in person again.

posted August 20, 2009 11:12 PM         

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Eh, another reason his behavior might make sense is that you two are communicating via LAME internet tools. I know this is completely not your fault and you do not have the opportunity to hang out in person and make out.

But...online chatting is not as natural for many fire people as interaction that involves lots of emotional cues.

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and make out, eh? Yes, I actually become a little useless at communicating on a personal level via internet because I rely so much on body language. Worse for him, actually because he is the repressed type that would probably communicate through action. He is the type to paint his emotions on canvass than to speak about them, and if he couldn't express them artistically, then physically would be his option. His last option would be the written word.

As for him, the reason I seldom consider that he might be uncomfortable is because he never acts it, so he must hide it well. Come to think of it, he doesn't text much... He is a caller.

hmmm...

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On the one hand, internet/text messages can be emboldening...people who would NEVER have a nerve to touch a guy's stubbly cheek, look deep into his eyes, and say, "Hey, I like you," can send a text or IM and then agonize with their friends while waiting for a week for said guy's totally careful, guarded, unspontaneous response. More people confess their like this way than in person, I bet.

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It's part of why I am waiting to see him. I want to say it to his face, because I am a thrill seeking idiot who revels on putting her neck on the line. Nah... It's because I want to see his facial expression when I say it, amongst other reasons.

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when a huge part of what he likes about you is probably your extreme beauty and sex appeal and how excited he feels when you're in the room...things he frankly does not get to experience over Facebook. Instead, over Facebook, he has to worry about how he might be coming across and worry about what you really mean, etc

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I didn't think of this. Good one! I've never thought of him finding me physically attractive because we've known each other since the beginning of puberty and those days were rough. i seriously always think of him liking my mind, or whatever.

Hmmm...

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Go easy on him. He might not be playing games...he might just feel nervous, weird, or uncertain. This is NOT the best set-up for wooing an Aries man, especially when you have a complicated history. So be his friend, be fun and funny, and be reassuring...keep the way you even THINK about him (even just secretly to yourself) warm, friendly, light, relaxed, and forgiving, till you have a chance to hang out in person again.

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Lucia23~ You have fixed this, not the IM. I always think the worst of people. Yeah, i must just relax. Not him but ME!

posted August 20, 2009 11:47 PM         

I am not always confident about him. I am always second guessing my feelings for him, probably an attempt to convince myself not to like him. I think though that 10 years (and more) is enough for me to stop denying him, so I am going to own it and do what I need to do. I also want to do the right thing though, so no dodgy text messages with double meanings, vague messages due to fear, etc, which is what I did last time. It probably ****** him off making him stop communications... who knows... who knows because he won't explain why he just stopped talking to me. Or he hasn't yet found the opportunity??? Also, he might have found a text to be disrespectful, seeing as we have a long history. I don't know. I just got confused when he said there was nothing to forgive when I first emailed(facebook) him last month.

I am going to do this properly. I am afraid but I don't care. Before everything though, I need to hear him out because he definitely has something up his sleeves. I can just smell it.

I know what I have to do. March 2010... yep.

I think also, that he is subtly telling me to wait to see him because I would have sent an email long time ago, but I stopped in my tracks because something about how we speak is telling me to wait for when he gets back. Yes, I am getting that undertone from our talks. So, let me just trust him and wait.

posted August 21, 2009 12:38 AM         

Or, maybe he can visit?

posted August 23, 2009 06:22 AM         

eh.. he forgot about the birth data.

posted August 26, 2009 03:37 PM         

To quote:

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This influence usually arouses your interest in finding or enjoying a partner and contributes to the physical side of a sexual relationship. But its energy may cause discord, especially if there are hidden tensions in the relationship. A reasonably healthy relationship will have little difficulty during this time. But if your relationship is in trouble, you will probably have arguments and other forms of discord, all arising from unexpressed sexuality. If you are not currently involved in a sexual relationship, you will probably be inordinately attracted to find a partner, without being very discriminating. Therefore this is not the best influence under which to start a relationship, since it may be based only on physical attraction.

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Ag! And he was out today getting his drink on. Since he's not a drinker, I bet he can't handle it when his testosterone levels increase due to ungodly amounts of soju! And theres this girl, that likes him, and this girl is tenacious. She's been asking him to help her buy a guitar. As if! I mean... go to the guitar shop, lady! There are experts there.

Give me strength!

Ohm yeah... I am venting!

LOL

Then another horoscope:

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Today during the day you feel impulsive and willing to act rashly. Your moods change so quickly that you surprise yourself as well as others. You may be with someone else who is like this, usually a woman. Probably you will be impatient with your normal routine and want to do something completely different. Assuming that the "something different" is within reason, it is probably all right to go ahead. In fact you might as well not bother trying to be disciplined and responsible for the next few hours. If you have work to do that requires great concentration, you won't be able to keep your mind on it, or you will do a sloppy job. Usually this is not a sign of conflict, but if someone is trying to hold you back from expressing your impulses, you may get angry at him or her.

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Oh, no!

I need to relax. I need to deal with the fact that he's snogging (and more) other people. How I am going to get used to this idea is a mystery.

Oh, and this is one of my horoscopes:

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At this time feelings, desires and moods pull you in a direction which is not very beneficial for you and could easily undermine your self- confidence. It is hard to say what form this actually takes. Maybe you buy some clothes in which you look a bit strange, or you challenge someone to a game which you have absolutely no chance of winning. One way or another you could be subconsciously determined to make yourself a laughing stock or show yourself up. It is possible that you do this not to yourself but, unintentionally, to someone else - particularly women and children who are close to you are potential victims. Fortunately, this influence is very weak and lasts at most half a day.

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Well, then!!

posted August 26, 2009 08:53 PM         

It's ok. I was out of line. Sag foot in mouth disease as usual. I'm sorry. I didn't mean it the way it sounded, I swear.

Unmoved,

posted August 27, 2009 06:19 PM         

Nah, I freak out pretty much about anything when the old hormones are acting up. It is just that this time I am freaking out about him.

I bet he frequents LL, the b@st'rd, otherwise how the heck does he know the level of my "crush". He quoted the lyrics from a song called Crush by Anthrax earlier today. The whole thing got me wondering if I was being watched.

The song is rather dark but the lyrics are beautiful.

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I've been waiting for today (Crush on me) I can't touch you when you're far away (Crush on me) Nothing makes me feel this way (Crush on me) Except hate but that fades away (Crush on me)

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Well, if he is stalking me through the net, at least he will know the extent of this thing. I don't mind being stalked by him, if he ever was.

Maybe it's that friendly email I sent him recently because I was feeling happy. Knowing me, it was probably less friendly and more freaky. I just want to be his friend right now, to get to know him better so I am doing just that. (or am I getting him to know me better?) Whatever the case may be, I am trying to make up for lost time, regardless of how far away he is.

I am going to meditate on my life now.

Cheers.

posted August 31, 2009 11:17 AM         

He is so wise. I wonder if he knows it.

And... wise is so Hottttt!

posted August 31, 2009 06:10 PM         

GO FOR IT GIRL!

posted August 31, 2009 11:12 PM         

Yes, that video is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen, especially since it mimicked our lives in the beginning stages.

Well, he is now updating his status updates with songs and I pretty much guess or google and review the songs that he uses as his status. It's our little game now.

Today our IM was much better and we ended up speaking from 12:45 to about 19:30. There was a break of an hour long, during which time I tried to do as much work as I could considering that my heart was fluttering all the way. He is very well read also, so he gave me a lot of homework as books to read, and we discussed this and that. We laughed a bit too, which was welcoming.

Oh, in the middle of it I asked him about his birth data, which he forgot about still, so he had to send an email to his mother as I waited for him to do it. That was funny.