posted September 02, 2009 07:45 AM         

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It makes me smile

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Me too.

I just woke up, and missed him online. His greenlight was there, but as I said, "greetings" he was gone. but it's all good. I didn't have much to say anyway. So, yeah...

posted September 02, 2009 09:35 PM         

I know at some level he knows how you feel...he must feel the same way.

posted September 03, 2009 03:24 AM         

We have a winner. Birth data acquired!! Finally!!

I haven't looked at it. I am still looking at this Natal chart, but I posted it ASAP.

Asteroids

posted September 03, 2009 06:33 AM         

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Oh this is so ON!!!

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You just reminded me of a friend of mine.

posted September 03, 2009 09:55 AM         

What it represents:

AC~ The Ascendant (or rising sign) is often considered the mask one wears when meeting others. Perhaps it is most aptly thought of as the automatic responses to one's environment. The Ascendant shows our natural defenses and how we cope with day-to-day issues. The energies of the sign and condition of the Ascendant are most overt and obvious to others. The Ascendant shows an individual's first, natural reaction to new people and situations.

DC~the Descendant reflects our relationships with those around us and what we project onto others: what we need from them, want from them, what we are willing to take from them. The Sign that rests on the Descendant, then, reflects the character of our connections with those around us

IC~ the Imum Coeli (or I.C. for short) is the point of the Zodiac at which issues of security and foundation converge. The Sign that rests at the Imum Coeli in your astrological chart, then, reflects your approach to attaining security. If planets come near this angle in an astrological chart, efforts of those planets are concentrated on sustenance and comfort. A very private point in a chart, the efforts made on behalf of the planets near the I.C. may be unfairly ignored. For example, if the Moon falls near the I.C. in someone's chart, they seek emotional connections through their family relationships.

MC~ This point represents your public persona, different from your Ascendant in that it's not exactly about the way you are initially perceived, but more about how your career and social standing reflect upon your place in the world. The Sign that rests at the Medium Coeli in your astrological chart, then, reflects your perceived public persona.

Saturn~ In astrology, Saturn is associated with restriction and limitation. Where Jupiter expands, Saturn constricts. Although the themes of Saturn seem depressing, Saturn brings structure and meaning to our world. Saturn knows the limits of time and matter. Saturn reminds us of our boundaries, our responsibilities, and our commitments. It brings definition to our lives. Saturn makes us aware of the need for self-control and of boundaries and our limits.

Sun~ The Sun is our basic identity, and represents self-realization.

Vertex~ a point of karmic or fated connection. Some consider it a point of "wish fulfillment". It is perhaps most widely used in synastry. The Vertex is said to be activated at major turning points in our lives, most notably when we meet a significant other or end a significant relationship, and some believe it is triggered when there is a birth or death.

~The Conjunctions~

The Math-

posted September 06, 2009 08:29 AM         

After I pressured him to get the birth details, I assumed he assumed that I wanted to do a reading for him (not to astro spy on him as this was my motive) so I have been looking at his natal chart, emailing him when I am inspired to do so.

We haven't said much to each other, and I haven't had the energy for it anyway, so yeah... we're in a dry spell. Yes, a dry spell is a few days/hours of not speaking, in my twisted, little world. I can't help it if I want it all, and if I want it NOW. Unfortunately, I don't have that luxury.

Anyway, I just want to remain liking him. I know this sounds strange but after reading his chart, it is more cemented that he requires some loyalty, and so I need some patience. The thing is, just as he needs some attention to be satisfied, so do I and well, if I feel neglected I usually just stop communications. He has not neglecting me, far from it, but it sucks that he is in another continent because communications seem rather empty.

I can't get no, satisfaction" . Oh, I am not depressed about it or anything. I am just seeing the possibilities and I am living the least potential for this union. There is just so much more that could be going on, good or bad- not this neutral, lukewarm stuff.

Let me post his natal, so you can see what I am dealing with. He has one of those charts that make me say, "You know... I have 12th house action, but thank God I don't have that chart!" I have seriously not seen such a huge case of imagined fears and heaviness(but then I haven't seen that many charts that I cared to analyse as much as this one). Talk about being one's own enemy. I hope he has learned to control his energies though. Wow!

posted September 09, 2009 06:08 PM         

I am looking at his Solar Arcs for the year that he invited me to his house for his birthday party, and what I am seeing is almost heart breaking. This is the time when I had no clue that I liked him.

Here are the aspects which made me understand the damage that could have been caused to this dear man. Of course, I do not blame myself, but I do empathize deeply.

In his chart:
saMars was conjunct nVenus
saNeptune conjunct nDC
saNN conjunct nAC
saUranus conjunct nNeptune

prVenus semi-square nMars...

What breaks my heart about all of it is that saNeptune on his DC. Unbeknownst to him, I did feel something, if only briefly before I left his place. He probably called himself delusional and whatever because after that I went on "platonic" mode.

posted September 16, 2009 05:46 AM         

How's about a little "care package" from home? Some of his favorite foods/snacks he might be missing, burn him a cd, send him some pics (a few oldies and a few current of you). Just an idea, ya know...

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Haha, my mum sent me a huge parcel of cheese and chocolate when I was there, for Christmas. I didn't know what it was and put it under the tree, unfortunately my apartment has under-floor heating like most places there.... haha, nightmare! It was like chocolate/cheese fondue!!

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Teheh

posted September 20, 2009 10:15 AM         

So, he aint getting spices, and goodies, just for that statement. How dare he?! So, due to that, I am going to talk to people, yes... people other than him. People who appreciate me and people who would rather have me speak to them than other people!

Agh!

posted September 20, 2009 03:00 PM         

get well soon, please! You need to be at peak condition, if you know what I mean.

posted September 20, 2009 03:11 PM         

My Cancer Moon can't take that cr@p.

Gosh, I am so mad!

I was actually about to ask him what the heck that meant, when I decided that I was not going to have an IM fight with someone in Korea. Really! So, I'll talk to him when he comes back.

Actually, it all started being weird after we were talking about his new laptop, which was very pretty and I was excited for him because I like new shiny electronics. Then he said, "You'll play with it when I get home" Teheh

I then laughed and told him that it sounded [wrong]... Then he admitted to realizing the unintentional double meaning, and then the conversation went south. Then he just went offline without saying goodbye. I went to sleep.

After getting up, we chatted for a bit, a little strained, and then I said that I must eat. He agreed saying, "Go eat, Go talk to people..."

posted September 22, 2009 12:02 AM         

A tender, touchy Cancer moon lady is also highly intuitive and sensitive to IN PERSON vibes and atmospheres (especially if there's any Pluto business in her chart too.) You won't know what things are REALLY going to be like now (at the stage you're both at) with this guy till you are together in the same place.

posted September 22, 2009 12:59 PM         

Your words helped a lot though. He is no longer cut-off until next year, thanks to you and Lucia.

*sigh* lol what a trip this has been. I wish it could end now!

Lucia23~ It is definitely frustrating, and you know what? I should essentially not take anything personally, but that is so difficult. I agree, the only way to suss things out is when he is in my vicinity. I am not too effective over the net with matters of the heart, or even generally. So... it is difficult. The thing is, I don't want to forget him again and remember him when he is in London, or wherever he goes next. I have a habit of being absent-minded. I file things away and forget them, and the importance of these things doesn't change matters much. So, I would rather just not do IM at all, but I will lose touch with him otherwise. We email regularly, on top of IM, but he hates email but he encourages me to write but we have an agreement that he responds whenever, just as I write when I feel like it.

Again, you have calmed me down. Thanks guys!!

fatinkerbell~ Re: your question regarding which type of school he teaches, I have no idea. I know that it is young children, therefore it is not a University. I will have to ask him. I am still slightly hurt to send him Prestik, but if he needs it, then it is definitely something I would send him if he ever endears himself to me again, which could happen in a week or so... heheh

This is what I know of his teaching situation:

His teaching hours are odd. They seem to happen in the afternoon or night, or something because when it is 7am here, which is 12 midday there, he is still only heading to school, or haven't left for school. He leaves school for home at around 2-3pm South African time, so this is around 9 pm or so in Korea. So it is very strange hours.

I say this because we sometimes chat during what he calls phone call classes, where the lessons are done via telephone, and this occurs at the end of his school day. This happens at around 2pm S.A time. Then he usually goes home and gets home at around 4pm S.A time. So, I don't know what's cutting there.

One day he was preparing a class and it involved the different uses of musical instruments... So, it is definitely young kids. I can bet it is primary school kids.

So... ??? hmmm...

posted September 22, 2009 04:30 PM         

Thanks, dear. Yeah, I needed some time to breathe.

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i hope you two can see eachother soon and share some eye contact and smiles..

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