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Holy, you guys writing a book?

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Nah, just decoding the universe.

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Nah, just decoding the universe.

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posted August 14, 2012 02:55 AM            

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I kinda feel like I am floating in the zero gravity of imagination here.

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Totally. The Brahmins v. Untouchables, it's always the same clash...

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It reminds me of ...what's the word? Dematerialization?

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So the bottom line is..."Can consciousness be destroyed, are we finite or infinite?" When I think of destruction, in general, it's weird how biased I am against it, because I simplistically equate it with my own demise.

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Maybe we'll model ourselves after bumblebees, yet.

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Did you happen to see that documentary on Dr. Burzynski? The very same people at the FDA who were plotting to prove that his medicine isn't effective later filed patents for his exact medicine.

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I'm having trouble figuring out the difference between that virtual world, and this one (the internet.) The parallels might just be too close, as far as my understanding goes

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Well that settles it. Animals are more considerate than my children.

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The Sag Sun thread knocked my socks off...I've never noticed that much resemblance between people with the same key placements.

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Hope you are staying nice and cool through this weather. I made this awesome concoction I called "Refreshing Drink" last night. It was amazing:

Simmer and stir Simple Sirup -
3 cups Sugar
1 cup Water
1 Lemon Zest
2 cups fresh Mint Leaves

Cut up and/or add to pitcher -
2 Asian Pears, sliced
1 peeled Cucumber, sliced
1 hand full of Cilantro, whole
1 Lemon Juice, sqweeshed

Fill pitcher with Ice
Poor Simple Sirup over ice
Poor 3 cups of boiling water over ice
Stir
Drink and be like, "OMG!" hehe.

posted August 14, 2012 11:37 PM            

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Well with Moon in Aquarius, that has got to be one of the best feelings =)

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Sort of like my Aquarius Mercury is weaving a magic carpet for my Pisces moon to glide around on.

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The majority of participants attributed tasks like security and repair to the short haired robot and tasks like housework and child-care to the long haired robot. It appears we are already infecting robots with sexism. lol

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Maybe! I wouldn't know what to do in that situation, where I was asked to assign jobs to robots. I'd be like, "Can I just leave this lab? This is too wacko for me." I, too, probably would choose "girl" robot for "girl" job, just like everyone else, if I were coerced into answering.

Hmm....

It's fun to think about how to go about programming a robot.

I guess one of the hardest attributes to infect robots with might be inertia. Doing nothing...or knowing the optimal thing to do and not doing it. Although I guess baggage software would be easy enough to develop. Like every traumatic issue the robot undergoes diminishes its performance potential according to some brilliant failure algorithm. But it wouldn't be the same as people and our hapless addictions to suffering.

Another thought: they should also make robots in assorted sun signs, at the very least. Don't you think? Some astrologers act like Capricorns are already half-robot.

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I hope the age of Aquarius brings with it the destruction of dualities and the rise of polarized unities. Perhaps in a thousand or so years creation/destruction will be as blasé as hot/cold.

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Do you think that duality is more of a mental construct than an objective reality? Is real reality more like a continuum? Not hot versus cold, but everything by degrees.

I see a lot of glitches in critical thinking caused by people's apparent need to polarize. Or failure to realize that you can talk about something without talking about its real or imagined opposite. Maybe that's something like a gestalt....understanding the whole as a thing PLUS its counterpart.

That might be an underlying factor in overconsumption, now that I think of it. Hyper-polarizing and subconsciously wanting to double everything.

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So the men are used for sex and the women work all day... I could get into that. =)

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She never sought him out though, because there is some sort of taboo regarding anything outside of the AMA's approval. Even when the possibility of recovery exists.

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I'm so sorry to hear about your friend's mom...'hope she recovers.

Another parallel between people and robots: we are programmed to be programmable. Our schooling drills that receptivity to brainwashing into us. It's horrific how that plays out with people essentially dying because they can't fathom just how big the lies are, about that state of the medical industry.

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AMAZING!!! Thanks for that!

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It certainly does sound fun, but it is the worst kind of lie in my opinion....We become the lie. (puts away SOAP box)

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No no! I loved the sermon! Encore! That was so good.

Looks to me like a downward spiral: the more we pursue satisfaction in fakeness, the faker that satisfaction gets, without our realizing the source of it, because we tricked ourselves so convincingly into thinking we are happy.

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Oh I want to try that! It'll have to be a stealth operation because my kids always try to eat the pears before they get ripe, putting them back in the fruit bowl with little bite marks.

Need new pear hiding spots.

It's so fun talking with you...thanks for helping me see or try to envision the future, this is a wonderful education.

posted August 15, 2012 03:56 AM            

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Hi Xiiro! How's life?

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Sort of like my Aquarius Mercury is weaving a magic carpet for my Pisces moon to glide around on.

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I'd be like, "Can I just leave this lab? This is too wacko for me.

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I guess one of the hardest attributes to infect robots with might be inertia. Doing nothing...or knowing the optimal thing to do and not doing it. Although I guess "baggage" software would be easy enough to develop. Like every "traumatic" issue the robot undergoes diminishes its performance potential according to some brilliant "failure" algorithm. But it wouldn't be the same as people and our hapless addictions to suffering.

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Don't you think? Some astrologers act like Capricorns are already half-robot..

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I see a lot of glitches in critical thinking caused by people's apparent need to polarize. Or failure to realize that you can talk about something without talking about its real or imagined "opposite." Maybe that's something like a gestalt....understanding the "whole" as a thing PLUS its counterpart.

That might be an underlying factor in overconsumption, now that I think of it. Hyper-polarizing and subconsciously wanting to double everything.

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Another parallel between people and robots: we are programmed to be programmable. Our schooling drills that receptivity to brainwashing into us.

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It'll have to be a stealth operation because my kids always try to eat the pears before they get ripe, putting them back in the fruit bowl with little bite marks.

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posted August 15, 2012 08:40 AM            

I had no idea my post got posted, the connection timed out when I hit send, and I went to bed. I'm a little mortified that I put a laughing emoticon right next to a sad emoticon (smacks forehead), used quotation marks too much, and left some other mistakes.

Tidying that up now, & will see you again later.

Have a good day!

posted August 17, 2012 10:40 PM            

Happy new moon to you! I hope you're having a fine evening so far.

I'm writing this from my country home. The second floor is the main floor, and there are big windows all around. You can see for miles in all directions except the east, where the near forest blocks the view.

We had the most spectacular sunset tonight, the sky was totally red, followed by lightning flashing miles to the south in the most colorful, incessant, and house-rattling display I have ever seen. I thought I was going to die. "This is it! Aliens, drones, or HAARP....it's all over."

As usual, I am still ticking here, though.

That's my cheery, anticlimatic story about tonight.

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GOSH...does it get any better than that, though? Living in rural Hawaii, planting stuff? I think the land there will be lucky to have you.

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It's okay, thanks. I love being in the country. 'Had some friends over a few nights ago to watch the Perseides meteor shower and fell in love with the starry sky all over again.

And I love the forest. We have these cute, tiny, bright orange salamanders (or newts, I dunno) running all over. My daughter collected 32 of them in her shirt, which she converted into a salamander-hammock, the other day. I love good, wholesome hick fun like that. Something about salamanders, I love. Maybe their bounciness and legendary invincibility to fire.

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Ha! I wonder if the robots will acquire that addiction by way of religion, the way so many of us do.

Come to think of it, religion is so much like an internalized computer program, or virus, that I get cross-eyed thinking of how extensive that whole analogy could get. *Skipping that.*

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Even if you programmed a robot to respond to a past action in a remorseful fashion, the element of regret would be difficult to convey digitally.

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Maybe just give the robot multiple personalities and schedule them to fight when one personality violates the principles of another. That should rev up the internal stress mechanism creating at least a crude parallel to regret.

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I wonder if that ever happens to us, the universe resets constantly, but it is completely outside our capacity to comprehend, so we just don't notice?

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You worked in the gaming industry?! I'm floored! I wish I could pick your brains about that for a long time. Please, feel free to allude to it at every convenience

As for the universe resetting...yeah, I suppose it could!

Pardon the tangent but while trying to envision how this could work, I was reminded of some of my eccentric Christian friends who have this extremely flexible concept of reality as well. "God can do anything, he can fake the Big Bang, he can make Ice Ages come and go in twenty-four hours, he could have just yanked Atlantis off the globe."

They just give the finger to science, which is both backwards and refreshing. Sometimes it's nice when the Christians and New Age types bump into each other in far-out regions of thought.

Most of my friends up here are Christians, oddly enough, so they are on my mind.

Anyway...if the universe just reset today, this is actually my first day alive, and my memories just feel old and real. Like my mind can telescope backwards into an imaginary past. I'm just getting a feel for the idea and already it's uplifting. The past loses its gravity...which makes me realize that I'm the one assigning gravity to it all along.

Hmm!

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I was going to ask you if you thought that! Ah, nice talking to a psychic. I didn't have to ask.

It's comforting, in an austere kind of way, to think of how nobody and nothing escapes the imprint of the galaxy.

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I believe the universe is an indescribable slurry of multidimensional data and part of the creative beauty of beings is our ability to find complex patterns in the mush.

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That is a gourmet meal of a sentence right there! I wish I grew up reciting that instead of junk like the Apostle's Creed, which only gave me spiritual indigestion.

Re: The Holographic Universe

I've watched the first three videos. LOL about the "futuristic" graphics and music from the early 90's (?) But yes, several VERY compelling points.

Some questions on one point: if external stimuli is all a deception, would you prefer to think we are all caught in the same matrix of deception, or is the existence of other people part of the deception? Did your experiences with drugs give you any insight on that point? For example, it seems that you and Pat were able to collaborate to create external stimuli together privately, apart from the general matrix of deception. But maybe all of that was just you and your whole universe inventing its own rules and people?

Tumbling down into the rabbit hole....

More to say in this chat-a-thon, but my husband is coming back from our other house soon and I gotta bolt. To be continued....

posted August 18, 2012 02:07 AM            

I was contemplating the fact that you occasionally open your responses with Namaste and shedding light on my reluctance to respond to the greeting. To greet people by recognizing the God in them and offer the presence of God in one's self in return, says so much about the word's originating culture. I pondered a good response this time and landed on "Aloha e komo mai", which roughly translated means "I joyfully share of life energy in the present with you, welcome home". It really is a bummer how limited and sterile the English language is.

A happy New Moon to you as well! You have such a great literary gift, you do a fantastic job of writing in pictures. I enjoyed your story of the evening's events and the description of your home. Sadly , no aliens though.... Perhaps next time =) I do the same thing with earth quakes. I catch myself listening for them, sort of hoping for a real rumbler. When I was younger I used to walk through the streets and picture what they would look like under water. There is some morbid fascination in me for apocalypse.

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It's okay, thanks. I love being in the country. 'Had some friends over a few nights ago to watch the Perseides meteor shower and fell in love with the starry sky all over again.

And I love the forest. We have these cute, tiny, bright orange salamanders (or newts, I dunno) running all over. My daughter collected 32 of them in her shirt, which she converted into a salamander-hammock, the other day. I love good, wholesome hick fun like that. Something about salamanders, I love. Maybe their bounciness and legendary invincibility to fire.

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God it sounds idyllic. It's nice that you have neighbors who are bearable to spend the evening with. How was the meteor shower? By the way, I have never seen a salamander, and when I was first learning about mysticism, I could never understand why salamanders were attributed to fire. Thanks to the internet, I was able to finally resolve that mystery years ago. All the salamanders in the pictures are so cute. Unless they are special Super Model Salamanders, I assume their cuteness is a general happening.

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Maybe just give the robot multiple personalities and schedule them to fight when one personality violates the principles of another. That should rev up the internal stress mechanism creating at least a crude parallel to regret.

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I love this TED talk: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UyyjU8fzEYU

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Anyway...if the universe just reset today, this is actually my first day alive, and my memories just feel old and real. Like my mind can telescope backwards into an imaginary past. I'm just getting a feel for the idea and already it's uplifting. The past loses its gravity...which makes me realize that I'm the one assigning gravity to it all along.

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That is a gourmet meal of a sentence right there! I wish I grew up reciting that instead of junk like the Apostle's Creed, which only gave me spiritual indigestion.

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I've watched the first three videos. LOL about the "futuristic" graphics and music from the early 90's

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Some questions on one point: if external stimuli is all a deception, would you prefer to think we are all caught in the same matrix of deception, or is the existence of other people part of the deception? Did your experiences with drugs give you any insight on that point? For example, it seems that you and Pat were able to collaborate to create external stimuli together privately, apart from the general matrix of deception. But maybe all of that was just you and your whole universe inventing its own rules and people?

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It sounds a bit like "you don't know what life is about but we do, so just listen to us.." No thanks. I don't assume God is anything comparable to anything I can comprehend. So isn't it best to just enjoy my experiences in the unfolding present, than to make up obstacle courses I can toil through to prove my allegiance? It's a bit like honoring the air by punching one's self in the gut, to pay for each breath (regardless of the ritual, the air is free to breathe).

In Buddhism there is a term "If you meet the Buddha on the road, cut his head off". It means: if you objectify God, the object you worship is an idol. It is best to destroy the idol and be free from your attachments.

posted August 22, 2012 07:25 PM            

Sorry for taking this long! My husband came up for a hillbilly holiday with the family and monopolized most of my time. (Did I mention he's a Leo? "The King has arrived, life can begin now...." )

Where were we?

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"I joyfully share of life energy in the present with you, welcome home".

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That's lovely...do Hawaiians really use that?

I hope Namaste hasn't bothered you. I use it because I love Indian culture and just like the flavor of the expression, especially when I am emotionally moved by something profound. 'Last time I said it to you, I was fresh from viewing part 3 of the holograph movie, and stirred by the discussion of atavistic knowledge, the Kabbalah, ancient symbology. I thought of you as connected to all that...and used "namaste" (in my admittedly obtuse little way) to connote recognition of your timelessness, and mine. It's poetical for me. I guess it could sound high-falutin' and corny, now that I think about it.

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Thank you! Occasionally I think that my ordinary life is worth telling as a story...mainly because I am here in the country.

Last night, we uncharacteristically left some full trashbags outside in the bed of my husband's VW pickup truck. Come morning, one of the bags had been dragged off to the forest, so we assumed it was a bear. One of the first things I did today was go down to the truck to analyze long, black hairs that were stuck to it. Hair from a herculean raccoon who can haul 15 pound trash bags? Nah...Pony hair? No....

Bear hair.

So then the kids wanted to go play in their treehouse right near where the bear left our trash. I had this argument with them about whether or not bears can climb trees and eat children, which ended with my 7 year-old laughing and running out the door, refusing to take me seriously no matter how hard I tried.

So...there's that....

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Sounds beautiful, though. I guess if you saw it underwater, that would mean you were still alive. Maybe had the foresight to get into your scuba gear.

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Spectacular...some of those falling stars would cover a big expanse of sky and it seemed like the sky was talking in semaphore or something.

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Quite synchronistic of you to mention this to me, since I keep stumbling into discussions of it, and I'm just trying to get a handle on the matter. The woman in the video seemed to switch back and forth between left brain scientist and right brain...spiritualist? I love that she got a standing ovation.

I wonder if astrology speaks to these differences. I consider my sister extremely right brained, she is schizophrenic, with sun/moon/Mercury in Cancer. She is left-handed, a musical and mathematical genius, and an emotional train wreck.

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OK...What's your favorite game and why?

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It makes me wonder why scientists who subscribe to the idea of a holographic universe are not interested in investigating astrology. Holographic reality is an old concept "As above, so below". Sometimes it seems science is just catching up to a lot of the older views. Too bad they can't then turn around and say, "OOoooh so THAT's what they meant". They have to pretend like they made it up on their own.

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I copied all of that because it's worth repeating! I know, right?!

One thing I would love, LOVE to see would be science coming up with a rational explanation for astrology. I thought I achieved this once when I was high as a kite, and to this day I regret throwing out my notes when I sobered up. It was all numerological, in essence. Which reminds me, I meant to ask you about this:

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I wonder if the number two, in numerology, is suggestive of that basic Me v. Not-Me tension? From what I've read, "2" people are intuitive, like custom built to resonate with someone else...but that just scrapes the surface of what I am curious about.

Are you very interested in numbers?

Re: Apostle's Creed

It's Catholic mumbo jumbo, recited by rote, at every mass. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Apostle%27s_Creed

Re: "Sublimely ghetto" holograph movie

I can't believe how awful the "music" (I use the term loosely) is when they are discussing the infinite dimensions of reality in musical terms.

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YES. Strange how people are so attached to their obstacle courses.

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It means: if you objectify God, the object you worship is an idol. It is best to destroy the idol and be free from your attachments.

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I was initiated into this line of thinking by RW Emerson; I was obsessed with his writing for a few years. At one point I had the final lines to his poem "Give all to Love" ricocheting through my mind:

Though thou loved her as thyself,
As a self of purer clay,
Tho' her parting dims the day,
Stealing grace from all alive,
Heartily know,
When half-gods go,
The gods arrive.

(Only I replaced the "she" with "he"...and used this to overcome a love addiction.)

Wishing you happiness and extra good fruit, tonight and always.

posted August 23, 2012 04:43 AM            

We must be in sync, I checked this thread and noticed you updated it, but when I clicked the link, your response wasn't there. After refreshing a couple of times your message popped up. It appears I checked the thread as you were writing your response. (Twilight Zone Music).

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"The King has arrived, life can begin now...."

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That's lovely...do Hawaiians really use that?

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Namaste doesn't bother me, it is a beautiful greeting. I was apprehensive to respond, because words like Namaste and Aloha are abused often in CA. The apprehension is my personal issue, based on the local new age movement's disingenuous abuse of almost everything great about multicultural spirituality LOL. Please feel free to greet me in whatever wonderful way you see fit. Having Saturn influenced Mercurys, we are both cautious about which words are most appropriate for communicating the feeling we want to convey. I understand you mean what you say. =)

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I had this argument with them about whether or not bears can climb trees and eat children, which ended with my 7 year-old laughing and running out the door, refusing to take me seriously no matter how hard I tried.

So...there's that....

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Spectacular...some of those falling stars would cover a big expanse of sky and it seemed like the sky was talking in semaphore or something.

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I wonder if astrology speaks to these differences.

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Fire/Water = Right Brain
Air/Earth = Left Brain

It would certainly be an interesting thing to investigate.

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I consider my sister extremely right brained, she is schizophrenic, with sun/moon/Mercury in Cancer. She is left-handed, a musical and mathematical genius, and an emotional train wreck.

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OK...What's your favorite game and why?

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The Legend of Dragoon - This is an Oooold game, but the story is amazing.

and (so many people will hate me after admitting this)

Final Fantasy 10 - There were several games in this series and all were known for being amazingly innovative for their time. When I first started playing video games, FFX was the most recent released and I played the crap out of that game. The previous games were just too graphically unattractive or magically awkward for me to get into.

Here's a cinematic from FFX of one of the main characters performing a funeral over a mass grave. Yuna's Sending

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In high school I designed my own gematria/alphabetology based on a formula I called a "star bridge" you could use the code to deconstruct people's names and discover more core energies within that person:

I don't have any examples of the actual alphabet, it was pretty though. It was also a lot more complex than the above picture displays, but all that info is in my old journals stowed away somewhere. I totally feel you, I had notebooks filled with shapes and sigils, all configured in different ways. Pages and pages of twisting the universe around like a Rubik's Cube in the hopes of finding some semblance of order.

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Though thou loved her as thyself,
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OH GEEZ the name I go through life the most with has every letter relating to spirit! Two spirit of spirits, one spirit of water, one earth of spirit, and one water of spirit! As you may or may not know I'm native american and part of our beliefs involve medicine people...I happen to be one of those people! Or I'm supposed to be, at least...man sorry but I dip in here and there, and though I try to refrain from commenting, that caught my attention!!!

EDIT! Omfg I went through the letter dropped from my full name to make my used name and it's all fire of air, fire of fire (2), air of fire, and spirit of air.

posted August 23, 2012 09:44 PM            

Seriously? Xiiro's system sniffed out that you are a medicine man? That IS wild!

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posted August 23, 2012 11:01 PM            

I posted a long message over half an hour ago and it still hasn't appeared. I know I made some mistakes that I want to correct, but the message is stuck in the Twilight Zone again.

Going to bed now, I hope my message comes up tonight. Please excuse the errors. (I'm guessing this short post will fly through ahead of the long one.)

Edit: Yep, it did.

posted August 24, 2012 06:51 AM            

As I was saying...

Hi again Xiiro,

Hope this post finds you happy. SO much to say, but I will try to condense everything. First....

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LOL! Oh thank you. I get the feeling that everyone must scratch your fur, because you are so smart, it's like you roar and everyone comes running. ....I mean, don't they?? At least at Lindaland, everyone s your comments, because they are majestic.

Yeah...and my hubby *tolerates* attention okay. LOL.

Anyway, not sure who is lion whispering more here, since I am Leo rising and dazzled by the fact that you are regaling me with stunning videos, groundbreaking theories, arcane information, and Hawaiian hospitality on top of everything else.

Thank you!

And so kind of you to put us in the same boat with our Saturn-Mercury issues, when you have the glorious trine, and I have the awkward, stuttering along opposition. I'm convinced that it shows every time I try and get a word out.

Today's post is especially difficult for me to write since I am overwhelmed. That FFX video is so damn beautiful I can't stand it. I haven't looked at any video games since the late 90's, and I had no idea anything like that existed. I am just blown away. Why would anyone hate you for liking that...what's not to like?

Several thoughts:

* I was wrong to suppose that gaming was only about violence and idleness. That place was some kind of wonderland, full of meaning. A repository of genius. I feel like a native of that mythological realm, automatically. How amazing that they could do that.

* Funeral rituals ought to be that beautiful. And there ought to be real magic involved...spellwork or rain dances, I don't care, as long as it works. None of this moping around a pit staring at a coffin, a flower arrangement, and some guy mumbling dead prayers. It's insane how boring we have let ourselves become.

* Pardon me for stating the obvious, but it sucks how good rituals are so hard to come by in our culture. I'm the type of gal who could really get into a good, deep ritual....if only I could find one. Maybe this is part of the reason I watch Bollywood films. They often have Hindu temple scenes, religious dances, extravagant weddings with elephants, a billion flower petals, and the woman all rigged up with gold chains all over their faces.

* Finding Nemo has a good ritual scene http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gITf-xoWgfc

* Finally, can you tell me more about your gaming career, what the best part of the job was?

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Aw! I hope so. I'm starting to think that there is some mechanism in people that is only powered by starlight. It wakes up and starts working only when it sees the stars. Sailors talk about being out in the ocean with the starlight so bright, you can read by it. Imagine that. I think that's one reason sailors are so cool.

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In high school I designed my own gematria/alphabetology based on a formula I called a "star bridge" you could use the code to deconstruct people's names and discover more core energies within that person:

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Blink. Blink.

You did what?

How on earth did you hold this all together? I'm looking at the ingredients going into this star bridge... You have the aesthetic of a star expanding out concentrically, color-coded, number-coded, element-coded, alphabet coded, and you can mix that all together in your own personal way to arrive at an energy reading for a person? Holy smokes! And going by RedScorp's analysis, it's dead-on correct! WOW. Can you demonstrate more of how that works, please?

Do the five elements correlate to Chinese philosophy, or is this something that came to you as you were smoking galaxies?

Do you have synesthesia?

Are you a genius?

Do you mind rapid-fire questions?

The star bridge actually reminds me of the way this child prodigy multiplies (first five minutes): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OR36jrx_L44&feature=related

For him, the geometry and colors are tools he uses to play with math and science concepts; for you, it seems they serve more as psychological tools. I'm wondering if the spatial properties of the geometric forms calls upon the right brain to get into the act, lending a sort of spiritual framework to the logical material you are playing with. The boy in the video claims that his math ability comes from the fourth dimension, and I've seen him say elsewhere that he can also think in the fifth dimension. Whatever that means. And you also seem to have a working knowledge of higher dimensions...is that accurate to say?

Pardon me if this sounds pedantic (or more pedantic than usual), but I am mesmerized by how the formalization of a personal way of thinking can take a person so far in life. There is the added mnemonic value of wanting to remember a system, because you created it. There is the ability to categorize things that other systems of categorization would reject. There is freedom to capitalize on emotional "triggers" that would have no meaning for other people....I think OCD has the rudiments of genius in it for that reason, but it's left usually fallow, treated as disease more than something potentially larger. And I'm thinking of Nikola Tesla (who was also obsessive-compulsive) and how he seemed to speak his own language to himself, and through that language, he could speak with the universe more intimately and gather some of its secrets. I think we all ought to head that way.

Did any of that make sense? See, I'm wobbly on the esoteric stuff.

Mozart said, "What is genius? It is love, it is love, it is love."

It seems to me that your love of people, your love of the rhythms of life itself, crystallizes in these beautiful graphs you create (I'm thinking of the duad graph as well...and the journals you alluded to) and it's no wonder to me that being so much of an artist, you are also exceedingly gracious and articulate. And a vegan.

It all comes together reminding me of a mandala...a brighter one than I usually get to see.

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Funny, I just take it as a given that you stumbled across some of the Mysteries in all your efforts. You know? "Knock and the door shall open."

posted August 24, 2012 10:52 PM            

my fire got the best of me and I stopped journaling just before entering the Fire Gate. LOL At least I documented all the Spirit and Earth realms.

The star bridge is an astral journeying tool as well as gematria system. When you move forward along the path, you Face a certain series of "Gates" or puzzles (Heaven, Earth, Fire,

Wind, Water). Each gate is a koan and once it has been comprehended, the traveler discovers they have solved something within. When you move backward along the path, the gates change (Lake,

Thunder, Mountain, Earth, Heaven). Each Letter on the bridge carries with it a specific experience or energy.

Here is a chart of each letter, some of their values and an example of how the gematria worked.

posted August 24, 2012 10:53 PM            

Spirit Realm

A - Spirit - Gate of Heaven
Element: Spirit of Spirit
Value: 0
"A" is the pure conscious, living force out of which all objects spring. It has no comprehensible face, because it is the possibility of all faces and no faces (it is the universal "what"). When this letter appears it represents a connection to something beyond one's conscious self. It can also indicate a state of non-participation or "not-being-here-ness".

The Gate of Heaven is a koan of vast space. Similar to contemplating this final poem of Zen Master Hoshin. It was customary for these poems to be 4 lines long.

"I came from brillancy
And return to brillancy.
What is this?"

When the scribing monk asked where the third line was, Hoshin roared like a lion and relinquished his body.

B - Stirring
Element: Spirit of Water
Value: 1
"B" is the potential force within all objects, out of which evolution unfolds. It is not our evolution, but our undefined potential to evolve. This is the force of evolution before it can be shaped by one's conditions. It is our first moment of self-awareness while the self is still unconditional (in essence this is the first condition, the universal "who"). This energy is the water waiting to nourish, banked in the oceans, clouds, and tear glands of people listening to a well played symphony. This energy is waiting to be molded and channeled. When this letter appears it represents a potential spiritual birth. It however does not call us to prepare, it calls us to accept that we are perfect in our present state. It can also indicate a feeling of aimlessness and a need to be pointed in a direction.

C - Acceptance
Element: Spirit of Air
Value: 2
"C" is the recognition of environment which springs into existence simultaneously with the realization of self. It is the energy of duality (internal vs external) and it declares external equal to internal. It is symbiosis and the force of nature which requires reliability in exchange for nourishment (the universal "how"). When this letter appears it represents a need to reach beyond the self in order to progress. It is a call to look outside the self in order to qualify and define the self. To appreciate, value, and find beautiful the opportunities outside the self. This energy calls us out of our personal space and invites us to personalize our environment. It can also indicate an obsession with the support or company of others. Part of acceptance is experiencing one's environment on uncontrollable terms (the terms of all who are not self). Moments of loneliness are present to help us develop a relationship with our self.

Ch - Breakthrough
Element: Spirit of Fire
Value: 3
The energy of "Ch" is discovered when one steps away from the interplay between self and environment. It is the comprehension that all experiences lead to learning (this is the universal "Why"). This energy has viewed life from a different perspective, knows what it wants, and is prepared to put its plans into action. When this letter appears it represents a time for stepping out of old patterns and participating in the many opportunities available. it calls us to "Just go for it!". It can also indicate neglect due to taking opportunities for granted. No work is required to achieve in with this energy, Unlocking abundance is as simple as stepping away and looking at the situation honestly.

D - Manifestation
Element: Spirit of Earth
Value: 4
"D" represents the actuation of the objective spirit realm. It is the symbols we rely on to comprehend energies beyond the physical. Astrology, numerology, archetypes, deities, angels, 11:11 on your alarm clock, all are objectified earthly representations of something much greater. In the scheme of life, "D" is the moment and location of birth which determines a person's chart (The universal "when" and "where"). We anchor our paradigms to these spiritual energies, and they force our reality to appear 3 dimensional. This energy is the spiritual architecture which connects our mundane experiences to a broader picture. When this letter appears it represents a state of being aware of the present moment. One is aware of their surrounding influences and walks their path with open eyes. Your world talks to you and you listen. It can also indicate a feeling of being doomed by one's circumstances. A person can feel as though their fate is already written, because they put too much weight in symbols. Remember 4 is an unstable shape, it is constantly cycling and the same goes for "D". Today a sparrow is your guru, tomorrow, just a bird.

posted August 24, 2012 10:54 PM            

E - Earth - Gate of Earth
Element: Earth of Earth
Value: 5
"E" is the monarch on their throne. Not caught in the 4 elements, but risen above to tend the elements from the throne of spirit. This is the playful, creative, and essential energy we call "nature". It is celebration of life and a desire to live, the aspect of objects which desires to participate. This energy teaches us that we are at our highest potential when we are natural. When this letter appears it represents being on the right path, and enjoying what life has to offer. It indicates that one is an active participant in the creation of their experiences, not bogged down by the strong currents of life's elements. It can also indicate a bossy or manipulative person who forces their world to submit through domination or subversive tactics. This person can be like the great and powerful Oz, hiding behind the spiritual curtain and poking at the four elements from a strategic perspective.

Gate of Earth is a koan of receptivity. One must comprehend that our physical world is an indestructible, impenetrable, spiderweb thin blanket, resting upon the contours of the spiritual realm. An atomic explosion can not breach it and no excavated depth can uproot it, it will always follow the contours of its conditions and is therefor perfectly receptive.

F - Formation
Element: Earth of Fire
Value: 6
"F" is the active culmination of natural conditions, it is the accumulative aspect of nature. This energy creates a feeling of resonance between objects and inspires them to collect. This energy is meticulous and leaves no stone unturned, it is the call of the wild that reminds us of where we came from and inspires us to organize. When this letter appears it represents a state of finding one's place in the world, discovering one's people. It calls us to become a nourishing supportive force, an organizing factor in a grander functioning collective. It can also represent a person who has become just another brick in the wall. This person has been leached dry of nutrients and now simply functions as dust.

G - Density
Element: Earth of Air
Value: 7
"G" is the organization of forms based on the relationships of conditions. This energy is the contemplative aspect of earth, the tree in the forest, the rock in the pile. It sounds similar to "F", but "F" is a proactive, problem solving, energy focused on producing a healthy form. "G" is a natural participant of that form, the work is done, now the only thing left is to be one's self and relate with one's conditions. When this letter appears it represents one's natural place in a system and the call to be observant of relative conditions as they arise. It is a challenge for one to rise to whatever occasion is apparent. It can also indicate a person who is overwhelmed by their environment. A person who is driven mad by an overwhelming attention to every detail. This person can feel alone in a crowd, out of sync with the world due to their own objective nature.

Gh - Tangible
Element: Earth of Water
Value: 8
"Gh" is the manifest function of a grand system. This energy is the wheel put in motion, and the karma which results from that motion. Where "F" is the functioning parts of a cell, and "G" is the cell itself, "Gh" is the blood which oxygenates the body. This is the systemic aspect of nature which connects the most miniscule particle to the vastness of the universe. When this letter appears it represents a sensitivity to one's actions and their effects. A heightened understanding of the systems which allow our world to grow and function. This is a state of connectedness to nature and comprehending the actual gravity of one's presence. It can also indicate a person bogged down with responsibility and battered by their own decisions, but afraid to change their situation. A feeling that one is stuck with their choices and a victim of their situation.

H - Adaptation
Element: Earth of Spirit
Value: 9
"H" is the discrimination of systems based on their benefit, natural selection. It is referred to as "Adaptation", because the parts of an object which are beneficial are accepted in a healthy system, where the flawed or obsolete parts of a system are rejected. This energy is not just the process of investigating and discovering the best in an object, it is the desire to do so for the sake of systemic evolution. When this letter appears it represents an energy of honing one's self. It indicates an expansive perspective with a desire to grow ever closer to the spiritual realm. It can also indicate a feeling of never enough, over-use of discrimination, judgmental views, and self righteousness.

posted August 24, 2012 10:54 PM            

I - Fire - Gate of Fire
Element: Fire of Fire
Value: 10
"I" is the embodiment of causality. It is the spark of will, drive, and purpose within all objects. This energy exists at the center of a rock and repeatedly resonates, "I am this Rock, I exist to do This, Now". This represents one's genetic code and the individual steps(mutations) that code endures on its path to growth. This energy is one's ordained presence, "I am me, this is what I do". When this letter appears it represents determination and drive to uplift one's self. A constant desire to exist on higher ground and share one's light and warmth. It can also indicate a parson who is dominating and severe. A person who has difficulty seeing the reality or validity of other objects. This can be a time where one seeks to shine regardless of the consequences and before all consideration.

Gate of Fire is a koan of reliance. The brightest star requires an equal storehouse of fuel. The human body must eat to continue functioning. Existence thrives on the back of sacrifice. This gate manifests when one crosses from the Earth Realm to the Fire Realm.

J - Rising - Gate of Mountain
Element: Fire of Fire
Value: 20
"J" is the embodiment of causality. It is the spark of will, drive, and purpose within all objects. This energy exists at the center of a rock and repeatedly resonates, "I am this Rock, I exist to do This, Now". This represents one's genetic code and the individual steps(mutations) that code endures on its path to growth. This energy is one's ordained presence, "I am me, this is what I do". When this letter appears it represents determination and drive to uplift one's self. A constant desire to exist on higher ground and share one's light and warmth. It can also indicate a parson who is dominating and severe. A person who has difficulty seeing the reality or validity of other objects. This can be a time where one seeks to shine regardless of the consequences and before all consideration.

Gate of Mountain is a koan of stillness and completion. The great mountain rises to the heavens and is witnessed by all, but exists content in its perfect place. Its celebrity does not come from its actions, but from its presence. This gate manifests when one crosses from the Fire Realm to the Earth Realm.

K - Knowing
Element: Fire of Air
Value: 30
"K" is the embodiment of enigmatic brilliance. It is the light which shines in all corners and radiates into every hidden place. Here is the capacity for undefinable truth, the capacity for experiential knowing. When this letter appears it represents a state of uncovering truth, transparency, exploring the unconventional, and healing one's fears/ignorance. This is lends a lidless eye, obstructed by nothing, and cutting through all illusions. It can also indicate a person who refuses to see the value of privacy. A person who is blinded by the bright light of truth. They may act on what they see, without consideration for another person's circumstances. This can indicate paranoia, a feeling of being watched, or a feeling of exposure. A chick will die if it is not allowed to break free from its egg on its own. Respect and scrutiny go hand in hand.

L - Understanding
Element: Fire of Water
Value: 40
"L" Expresses the nebulous warmth which is generated from understanding. Understanding arises when we see how much we share with others after everything has been laid out on the table. The result of witnessing truth is equanimity and compassion, because we are all subject to truth. After "K" dissolves every wall, "L" is free to experience unconditionally. When this letter appears it represents an experience of discovering goodness in unlikely places. In accepting ones situation and embracing one's circumstances. This is a person who exudes welcoming, love, and warmth because they have comprehend and support one's true nature. It can also indicate a person who is unwilling to embrace caution, a person who neglects the body, a person who seeks to sacrifice their self.

M - Spiraling
Element: Fire of Spirit
Value: 50
"M" represents the desire to turn in or return to the island of one's self. After experiencing equanimity with one's environment, one realizes that all answers can be found within. This energy is the reason why it is important to turn in. This is a place of healing and growth. When an animal is sick, it seeks solitude. When a seed is ready to sprout, it devours itself. Here is the call to return to one's self for nourishment and recuperation. When this letter appears it expresses an energy of withdrawal for the sake of learning or healing. It is a reminder that the purest way to experience life is through consciously abiding in one's self. It can also represent a person who is reclusive and secluded. A person who feels as comforted only when they are alone and therefor seeks to cultivate loneliness. However when this person is alone, they squander their energy on paying attention to things which busy them from actually facing their self.

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O - Air - Gate of Wind
Element: Air of Air
Value: 70
"O" is the embodiment of mentality and communication. It is the voice in our head and on our tongues, the pictures we see with our eyes open AND shut. It is the ongoing narration and description of everything we experience. It is the story we tell our self and others. "O" represents how our world shapes us through repeated experiences and how we weather our world in return. When this letter appears, there is an proficiency with definition and thoughtfulness. The capacities for contemplation, eloquence, and observation are endless. One may also observe details in the world which are easily overlooked by others. It can also indicate a person who is lost in their head, someone who expects the world to work a certain way and refuses to accept those who don't abide by their rules. This can be an energy that superimposes their ideals over the real world and refuses to accept anything outside the box.

Gate of Wind is a koan of gentle penetration. The wind does need to force dust across a road, it gently dances the dust along. In this way one must learn the joy of conservative effectiveness. This gate manifests when one crosses from the Fire Realm to the Air Realm.

P - Change - Gate of Thunder
Element: Air of Air
Value: 80
"O" is the embodiment of mentality and communication. It is the voice in our head and on our tongues, the pictures we see with our eyes open AND shut. It is the ongoing narration and description of everything we experience. It is the story we tell our self and others. "O" represents how our world shapes us through repeated experiences and how we weather our world in return. When this letter appears, there is an proficiency with definition and thoughtfulness. The capacities for contemplation, eloquence, and observation are endless. One may also observe details in the world which are easily overlooked by others. It can also indicate a person who is lost in their head, someone who expects the world to work a certain way and refuses to accept those who don't abide by their rules. This can be an energy that superimposes their ideals over the real world and refuses to accept anything outside the box.

Gate of Thunder is a koan of initiative and arousal. Thunder startles us and wakes us from our routine, it also warns us of pending storms and gives us an idea of how long we have before the storm reaches us. This gate manifests when one crosses from the Air Realm to the Fire Realm.

Q - The Quest
Element: Air of Water
Value: 90
"Q" represents the universal and undefined question within all objects. It is a wonder that is rarely concluded, in fact it is The Wonder of our world and the Wonderful notion of reality. This awesomeness leaves us with only the urge to collect more data. When this letter appears it represents an energy of Awe in one's life, an experience of the great unknowable flavor of reality. It can also indicate someone who is constantly hungry for data, a person who looks everywhere but discovers only questions.

R - The Answer
Element: Air of Spirit
Value: 100
"R" is the remedy to "Q". It is the universal and undefined answer within all objects. It is the answer to every question and the conclusion to every endeavor. This energy connects to the comprehension that there is only one self, but we each perceive self differently. One thought, but we each perceive thought differently. One feeling, but we each perceive emotion differently. etc... "R" is pure clarity, the wisdom that differentiation is a personal game and the comprehension that we are all seeking to describe the same, single, thing. When this letter arises it represents a feeling of being okay in one's skin. An understanding that constant questions complicate simplicity. Any question that comes to mind is easily answered just by asking one's mind. The dialogue of one's mind becomes a tool for wisdom, a direct line to the divine. It can also indicate a person who takes life for granted, who has unrealistic expectations and sees life in an overly simplistic way. This person may see the easiest resolution to any problem, but they can lack the wisdom of seeing the appropriate resolution.

S - The Game
Element: Air of Earth
Value: 200
"S" represents the rules and obstacles created to initiate learning, experience, and growth. It is our game of life and the character we play. This energy takes complex energies and disperses them into lesson plans, quests, and interactions to facilitate our best growth. When this letter appears it represents a challenge to play the game as it has been dealt. "S" can represent a person who is proficient at seeing the twists and turns in life, as well as their value to those involved. It can also indicate a person who is caught up in the rules of their life, a drone or a sheeple. It could also point to a person so caught up in the drama of their life they miss the lesson.

T - Letting Go
Element: Air of Fire
Value: 300
"T" is the comprehension that Questions, Answers, and Games are all illusions. The wisdom that if it can be defined, it must be released. The core of this energy is impermanence, the understanding that nothing lasts forever, nothing is ultimate. Only through releasing our attachment to defined reality, can we experience life in its purest form, "as whatever happens now". When this letter appears it represents an abiding in the present moment without attachments to the past or future. This is an energy of freedom from suffering through embracing liberation. It can also indicate a person who fears liberation, a worrier, a planner, and someone who goes to great lengths to insure possession of specific objects or views. They make strong excuses for their actions, but know deeply that release is the only resolution to the suffering of attachment.

posted August 24, 2012 10:55 PM            

U - Water - Gate of Water
Element: Water of Water
Value: 400
"U" is the embodiment of emotion, sentiment, and impression. Where air outlines and defines our world's dimension/scale; fire names and individualizes every object in our world; and earth provides sensory data like taste, smell, texture, and sound; Water determines what that data means to us, how that data impresses upon us, and how specific data causes us to link to or recall data from previous experiences. When this letter appears it represents an energy of charged emotion and sentiment, sensitivity to one's experiences, and an ability to extend one's experience beyond one's self. It can also indicate a person drunk on emotion and haunted by experiences. Someone overwhelmed with external impressions and prone to instinctive reactionary attitudes.

Gate of Water is a koan of depth and current. Water extends to the darkest realms and can pull one into the arms of darkness with little effort. Regardless of depth however, the water remains sound, without reservation. Water goes wherever it is needed and adapts to its environment by changing physical states, constantly fluctuating. This gate manifests when one crosses from the Air Realm to the Water Realm.

V - Vibration - Gate of Lake
Element: Water of Water
Value: 500
"V" is the embodiment of emotion, sentiment, and impression. Where air outlines and defines our world's dimension/scale; fire names and individualizes every object in our world; and earth provides sensory data like taste, smell, texture, and sound; Water determines what that data means to us, how that data impresses upon us, and how specific data causes us to link to or recall data from previous experiences. When this letter appears it represents an energy of charged emotion and sentiment, sensitivity to one's experiences, and an ability to extend one's experience beyond one's self. It can also indicate a person drunk on emotion and haunted by experiences. Someone overwhelmed with external impressions and prone to instinctive reactionary attitudes.

Gate of Lake is a koan of pleasure and tranquility. The lake is still on the surface, but teaming with life, she is reflective AND transparent. Just as the lake ripples beneath the breeze, our feelings are stirred by thoughts. The state of our feelings mirrors the state of our mind, when one is still, so is the other. This gate manifests when one crosses from the Water Realm to the Air Realm.

W - Instability
Element: Water of Spirit
Value: 600
"W" represents the impermanent and inter-existent quality of reality. Your body is composed of the food you eat, that food is composed of water, soil, air and sun, the water came from a hose, the hose a stream, the stream an ocean, the ocean a storm, the storm a cloud, the cloud evaporation, evaporation a child's saliva on a pop sickle...etc. All objects contain no actual object-hood, they are composed of endless conditions which connect through the entire system, your body IS the child's saliva and therefor, is connected to everything else. When this letter appears it represents a state of coexistence or "inter-being". It is the comprehension and experience of being everywhere at once, every time at once. This energy calls us to step out of the rapid river of our mind/emotions and observe safely from the shore. It can also indicate someone obsessed with loss, death and the fleeting quality of life. This person may experience great fear in the face of their own non-existence.

X - Transformation
Element: Water of Earth
Value: 700
"X" is the embodiment of metamorphosis, the changeable nature of reality. This energy is the fresh, the new, sprouted from the remnant dregs of the old. Thich Nhat Hanh used the phrase, "No mud, no lotus". It means our muck nourishes us to bloom into something beautiful. This energy regenerates, recycles, re-purposes, and reinvents. When this letter appears it represents a time of change, someone who walks in the flow of change. A person who "goes with the flow" and sees the self as a reinventable resource. This person can be one way today, and manifest in a completely different way tomorrow. It can also indicate a manipulative person, a con-artist, someone who uses their external projections to influence others.

Y - Beckoning
Element: Water of Fire
Value: 800
"Y" represents the consciousness's eventual desire to leave the physical world. This energy is the path of age, maturity, decay, dispersal, and wisdom. It is the retreat of life back to its source. As winter approaches, the animating energy of the tree retracts to its source and the tree's leaves are rendered mulch. This energy is also connected to memory and the retreat of information into one's center for later use. When This letter appears it represents a time for embracing maturity and release, past experiences and the end of familiar patterns. It represents a time when the spirit gains strength over the physical. It can also indicate a person who has given up on life. Someone who seeks death or destructive habits. This could represent a person who chooses to harm their self over embracing their world and experiences.

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That FFX video is so damn beautiful I can't stand it. I haven't looked at any video games since the late 90's, and I had no idea anything like that existed. I am just blown away. Why would anyone hate you for liking that...what's not to like?

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I was wrong to suppose that gaming was only about violence and idleness. That place was some kind of wonderland, full of meaning. A repository of genius. I feel like a native of that mythological realm, automatically. How amazing that they could do that.

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Funeral rituals ought to be that beautiful. And there ought to be real magic involved...spellwork or rain dances, I don't care, as long as it works. None of this moping around a pit staring at a coffin, a flower arrangement, and some guy mumbling dead prayers. It's insane how boring we have let ourselves become.

* Pardon me for stating the obvious, but it sucks how good rituals are so hard to come by in our culture. I'm the type of gal who could really get into a good, deep ritual....if only I could find one. Maybe this is part of the reason I watch Bollywood films. They often have Hindu temple scenes, religious dances, extravagant weddings with elephants, a billion flower petals, and the woman all rigged up with gold chains all over their faces.

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Finally, can you tell me more about your gaming career, what the best part of the job was?

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Part of writing lore has to do with populating the world with and designing items/characters/places pertaining to your story. So when you write a story about an enchanted sword that found its way into the belly of a dragon, you can then tell all the non-player characters to tell that story to your players. You can then design a deep cave, put a dragon in it, and when a player kills that dragon, they can actually get a sward which summons a fanged bunny minion to their aid (if that's how you wrote the story). The capability to actualize all the silly stories in my head was fun.

Events are when instead of spending the time to populate the world with your story, you create a character to look any way you want, enter the game, and get a whole bunch of players interested in participating in whatever quest you are inspired to send them on. At the end of the quest, you can even turn your self into a giant cabbage, Exclaim that they have foolishly helped you complete your potion for becoming a nature god, and fight them until you are defeated (showering them with rare rewards for their efforts). I enjoyed interacting with players a lot and making the world seem as unscripted as possible.

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I'm starting to think that there is some mechanism in people that is only powered by starlight. It wakes up and starts working only when it sees the stars. Sailors talk about being out in the ocean with the starlight so bright, you can read by it. Imagine that. I think that's one reason sailors are so cool.

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I'm thinking of Nikola Tesla (who was also obsessive-compulsive) and how he seemed to speak his own language to himself, and through that language, he could speak with the universe more intimately and gather some of its secrets. I think we all ought to head that way.

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I believe our perceptions and mechanisms are so unique, they would be alien to anyone else who inhabited our system. Too much is repressed in people based on our projected idea of external expectations. The beginning of that lesson for me was a great Aha moment. When I was in high school, my parents put me in therapy. I forgot what I was talking about, but I ended sentence with, "But everyone feels that way". When my therapist responded with, "No, everyone is not the same inside, we all feel differently about similar experiences" something just clicked. Prior to that I believed everyone functioned in the same way I did. and felt guilty when I didn't meet the same standards others did. Was that a coherent response to your statement?

By the way, my teddy bear is named Niko (short for Nikola Tesla), because he is my dream guy HAHa.

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Originally posted by Faith:
It all comes together reminding me of a mandala...a brighter one than I usually get to see.

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Originally posted by Faith:
Funny, I just take it as a given that you stumbled across some of the Mysteries in all your efforts. You know? "Knock and the door shall open."

I wish I had been your friend back then...amongst other things, maybe you would've given me the courage to keep my own crazy journals instead of scrapping them, and I could explain my thoughts a little better now.

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Okay I am going on about nothing now, tiredness has caught up with me. ttyl =)