posted February 24, 2014 03:41 PM            

Still...I see you two don't mind hugs...so I'm hugging you both! I was relieved to hear you won't be leaving us!

And yeah, I'm glad you are becoming more of a go-getter! I was thinking the same thing recently...that I may not always feel great...but sometimes I can actually accomplish more when I don't have to worry about coming down off a "high." Like, when I am miserable, might as well clean the fridge, because I have nothing cheerier to do.

(But then, it often surprises me how much cleaning lifts my mood! I forget my sun's in the sixth house! )

This Pluto-Uranus transit is just plain hard. But we're all strong and will make it through better than ever! I think!

12muddy, what is chainmaille?

And you are moving back to your home country? Wow...best wishes with that! Are you looking forward to it?

I just want to agree with you two about Doux~ so elegant. She also has to deal with some unsettling moods yet still goes out of her way to make others feel better. Scorpio gets a bad rap...they have a lot on their plates (I am sorry to say this, but I'm glad I wasn't born a Scorpio, it's such an intense calling) but do care about others and shoulder their burdens.

Kinda like Capricorn =)

I don't have much news...my friend Xiiro is teaching me more about astrology and I'm learning so much it's a bit scary and disorienting. Especially when I'm talking to other people and mentally re-translating everything into astrological terms. I think I'm going overboard at this phase in my learning process but can't seem to stop (9H Jupiter.) It's a little worrisome. Hopefully my friends can forgive me; I feel like I demand too much from people.

Like even here...this post is kinda long.

But I haven't chatted with you two for a while and had some catching up to do! And Rie, I wanted to encourage you and say that I know how you feel. Forum life is rough for sensitive people. Too many vibes, too much chaos sometimes.

But I do hope we get to chat again...whenever you are up for it!

<3 Hugs!

posted February 26, 2014 12:10 AM            

ah, chainmaille is the art of joining/weaving jump rings of various sizes into many items. I’m so obsessed with it right now.

Thanks Faith =) we’ll spend at least a few years there, I think. As you probably know from the way I talk about my culture, I have a "tiny" chip on my shoulder. I know that it isn't all horrible and I should not define it by my bad experiences, but those experiences exposed me to the bad sides of it and yeah.... This would be like a "journey" - to explore the more beautiful aspects of the culture and hopefully that would balance my views/thoughts of it. We’ve been weighing the possibilities for a while and like he says, with this little journey, my 4th house mars will finally be at rest. He’s been “feeling” enamoured by the idea of living with me in our home land – transit Uranus is now only a little away from the IC. His moon/venus/mars are opposed by all of this pisces energy, he’s been talking about running barefoot n feeling the energy of the land n a bunch of other romantic n spiritual-sounding stuff.

Learning more about astrology is great, it sounds like you’re really enjoying it I’ve read a few of Xiiro’s posts n although I don’t know much about astrology to comment, I’ll say that his “style” doesn’t seem doom-and-gloom, which is very refreshing n interesting. Hope you’re having a great time, Faith.

Hehe, I’m sure you’re nowhere near as demanding as you think though.

posted February 26, 2014 04:32 PM            

Faith, wow, you're just so sweet as always. *hug* Thank you. But sadly, it's not like that, it's not that easy. It's all because of something I've said, and now they're not talking to me anymore. And that hurts. I really miss them.

Can't say any more, because I've already said too much that's actually not respecting their privacy.

posted February 26, 2014 09:06 PM            

But I think Leo and Cap are two of the most loyal signs in the zodiac so when someone else isn't as loyal or tolerant it really stings.

I'd love to Skype, on the one hand, but on the other hand I always have kids running around, so I seldom get on the phone. It's pretty difficult for me. Let's keep in touch and then when they're older...yes please!!

muddy, I love the chainmaille. SO neat. And I would love to wear those earrings! Did you make them?

Thanks for explaining about going back to your home country with your hubby, that makes the story more romantic and dramatic in my mind. But I'm glad you're not leaving N. America just yet. I dunno, you kind of warm the continent up.

Xiiro's style is great, he's very positive and good at bringing concepts to life in an unmistakable way. I guess being kooky is just hard for a Rabbit, and the more into astrology I get, the weirder I feel! LOL

Thanks for saying I'm probably not as demanding as I think, though. I'll try and remember that!

posted February 28, 2014 01:45 PM            

First of all... thank you for your kind words, 12muddy, Faith and of course meissieri.
I appreciate them a lot.
And I think you guys are really sweet as well, all of you. *blows kisses*

I've decided to post a reply on here because... I need some hugs!!!

Nah but seriously. Rie knows about my issues - I'm dealing with what seems to be pretty severe health problems (might be chronic - stomach issues ) and I've been feeling quite low for several reasons.

Don't worry though, I'll try not to pollute this thread with too much negativity! Haha.

But you know, some support from time to time won't hurt.

There's a Full Moon tomorrow!
That means I won't be able to sleep tonight, hahaha.. *nervous twitch*

Sooo yeah.
Hope ya'll are feeling well.

posted February 28, 2014 03:21 PM            

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling bad! I so seriously hope that it's nothing chronic or incurable. Hope you find the path to healing very soon.

I've been scared for my health lately, too, but I just...ignore it. Except I wake up in the middle of the night petrified. (For some reason, all my worries really come alive at night...I am practically a different person at 3 am. Very Plutonian at that hour.)

So anyway, let's get better, but if we can't right away, let's at least commiserate! And try to stay positive, right?

Thanks for coming to see us, I'm sure meissieri and muddy will send you good vibes, too!

posted February 28, 2014 09:51 PM            

Have some cookies

I’m sorry to hear about your health. Yes agree with Faith, I hope that things turn out ok. I know how it feels to deal with health problems. It’s something that I can’t really control n sometimes I feel “flawed”. Used to feel quite resentful. But looking on the bright side other parts of me are working well and I’m grateful for that.

Hope that you’ll eventually feel better =) <hug>

Rie <hug> Idk what’s going on with your friends, but I hope that it’ll work out. Talk to you on skype soon <3

Faith, probably a health check will put your mind at ease. Not knowing what’s going on can drive a person up the wall hehe.

Oh those are pics of the chainmaille items I found on the net. I’m still doing beginner’s projects heheh in the future I hope that I’ll be able to make one of those pretty treasure chests. They look so damn awesome <salivating>

Ah so sweet of you to say that <3 Makes me feel all warm n fluffy =D

Romantic. Oh yes he is, he’s extra romantic, dramatic, flamboyant when he has some kind of “ulterior motives” lol I won’t be surprised if the next thing he suggests is raising our kid there <shudder>. Following my miscarriages I’ve been advised to go back to my country n maybe we’ll have more luck there. So yeah...

posted March 01, 2014 06:05 AM            

You want hugs you can get 'em, girl! *hug* Faith & Mudders would say the same thing! Again, you know I'm sorry about your health and the struggles they give you. Getting that kind of news really shakes you up bad. I hope they'll turn out okay too, or at least not so bad.

Wow, full moon already??? Good luck everyone! Was it in Pisces? Then my Mars/7th ruler will get a hit. Pff, not looking forward to that, transiting Neptune's doing enough already. You guys all have mutable in your chart, right? Ugh, let's all hope for the best to get through it. *holds hands*

Muddy, those cookies look delicious. Doux is a lucky lady. And yes, I hope we'll talk there soon. I added you on two different accounts, as I keep mixing up passwords and ended up using two email addresses. Yeah, Mercury in 12 unite, right? :|

Wow, you, too, Faith?? Sorry about that, the health problems. And ohhh... I was thinking of a video chat, but of course, you have your kids bouncing around, they need your attention. Yes, sure for the future!

posted March 02, 2014 02:33 PM            

Douxie should read this!! I really hope she will, soon.

posted March 04, 2014 07:32 AM            

Thank you all for the support, Faith, muddy, Rie & teasel. *blows kisses*

Faith,

I am so sorry to hear about your worries.
The night is the worst! They say that's when the devil reigns - at night. I think it's because it's so silent, and usually we're faced with ourselves, no distractions. All you can do is either think about stuff and psych yourself out, or numb yourself out... or, if you're in a good place, just be grateful for your day and maybe pray or relax.

I hope it's nothing serious for you, though? Anxiety attacks are really awful. *hug*

Muddy,

I am sorry to hear about your past miscarriages and health problems. *hug* You're so strong. I hope things are better now?

Thank you for the cookies! I wish I could eat them, but I'm afraid they'd make me sick.

I have chronic gastritis:http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gastritis
Now, it may not sound that bad (not like stomach cancer or anything, thank God.. but it can lead to it, unfortunately) but whoa, that thing really hurts, and the bad news is that it's supposedly uncurable.
I was supposed to take medication for it but 1. I can't take antibiotics because my body doesn't accept them 2. They would be pointless anyway, because even if they reduce/cure the Helicobacter pylori bacteria, the symptoms are likely to stay.

So I'm pretty much left with no treatment, little information about it and no way to cure it (not yet, at least).
People say it's possible to alleviate the pain with a special diet, and I hope that is true.
But for now... I can barely eat, I have chronic stomach burns/pain, nausea and head aches, leading to fatigue and what not. Sigh.

Oh and while I'm at it, I was told by the dentist today that I have an infection at the root of one of my teeth that's causing me pain (it's under a crown) and I have to go see a specialist and pay a ton of $$ to treat that tooth because it's such a delicate matter... and they're not sure they can cure it either, in which case my tooth will have to be extracted. *shakes head in terror*

Needless to say, I'm really not feeling positive or well about my health/body.
It may not seem like much but it really makes me depressed.
It really is true, body and spirit are connected. When the body's in pain, ya can't help but feel low. Well at least that's how it is for me, lol.

Teasel,

I would like to hear some ideas/advice, if you have any. Although my situation may be a bit too complicated. :/ I don't know.

Thanks for offering. <3

I don't have your email though.

Rie <3 Thank you for the welcome.

It's a sweet little spot here.

Am waiting for your email. =)

posted March 04, 2014 01:14 PM            

Then your tooth, too, oh man. Life's really hitting you from all directions. What are you going to do? It is pretty expensive... but maybe it's good to get things over with instead of walking around with that kind of pain for who knows how long.

Let's hope that diet will help, even if it's just a little. Take some of the pain away. *crosses fingers*

And yes, I told you. We all need some girlfriends we can trust and come to <33
Heh, I knew you were going to like it here. ^^ Please do stay haha. You got us here *hug*

posted March 04, 2014 06:46 PM            

If there's a cure, I haven't heard of it.
I've read that symptoms can naturally get better but they usually come back.
We'll see...

Yeah I'll definitely deal with that tooth, haha. No way am I gonna walk around with that pain, like you said.

Gotta deal with things as much as I can.

Thank you so much for the support. <3

I read your email but too tired to reply tonight, but I'll get to it ASAP.

posted March 04, 2014 07:36 PM            

Thank you <hug> Things are ok now. Doctors told us that early miscarriages are quite common. If I can’t have a successful pregnancy, we’ll adopt. But considering my age and physical health, that’s quite unlikely.

I have regular check-ups for my kidneys and so far there’s no further complication. So yeah, not too shabby for now hehe.

<more hugs> hang in there Doux.

posted March 08, 2014 09:25 AM            

I'm feeling better now. The pain has calmed down a bit. Still not comfortable with eating, and I get frequent headaches and a lot of fatigue mainly, but at least I don't feel like I'm dying of pain, lol.

I am glad to hear that things are going well for you, for the most part at least. *hug*

Hope it stays that way!

Take good care of yourself.

Hope Rie and Faith are doing well, too.

posted March 09, 2014 04:29 PM            

But... I've been busy, not feeling too good, was soooo tired yesterday all of a sudden. So I'll be honest I'm not at my best.

posted March 10, 2014 10:07 PM            

It must disrupts your life n your plans a lot. I hope that things will work out well for you.

Thank you. You too <3

posted March 27, 2014 06:30 PM            

Muddy, yeah, I get busy a lot and sick. Today again. Thanks so much. It's one of those days I don't feel too strong, though. *hug* You're sweet as usual.

But I got an email from my teacher and I passed my Business Correspondence exam!! Getting the certificate soon!

posted April 01, 2014 09:43 AM            

I haven't seen Doux around, and I haven't been posting much lately, either. Still, I keep thinking about you all and hoping everyone's health is holding up.

It's been a long, hard winter here. We got so much snow and ice, lots of tree branches came down and many tree trunks split in half. I think the ice seeped into the roads and created giant potholes. This is a pretty affluent area but you wouldn't know that from looking at our roads! Giant craters everywhere.

My husband and I have been talking about VACATION almost non-stop. Dreaming of sailing to the Caribbean, watching travelogues that take us there! So that's where my head has been.

Also for once I have been more disciplined with my diet. I'm trying to eat mostly raw food (aka "rabbit food" LOL) because it givces me more energy and better moods. This damn cardinal cross in the sky has been making me feel edgy...to the point where I feel immature, because I feel like going on rants about stuff the way I did when I was ten years old. But the diet helps stabilize me and makes me feel...like I can be happy, independent of whatever else is going on.

So that's all my news that I can think of!

Hope you ladies are all A-OK. Stop in now and then, alright? Let's keep this little coffeehouse of a thread open.

posted April 22, 2014 04:31 PM            

Thank you! It was a lot of hard work, but I'm glad I made it. I had 9/10 for the grammar and sentences and 6,8/10 for the letter. Weirdly enough, I had opened another Business English book that morning just to read something new and studied hard on letters of complaint. Guess what was on the exam? Just spooky! Such a coincidence.

How's the Cross affecting you now? It's exact, ohoho. Wow, it's that bad for you, too? All of these nerves, it's crazy! Of course you and your hubby want some time away from it all. Hmm. If you could choose, where else would you want to go? Just a lil' fantasising to distract yourself, haha. Caribbean sounds nice. Mmm. Warm. Just relaxing on that boat.

Ahh yeah, I hope Doux is holding up, too. Haven't talked to her in like, 2 weeks? Crossing my fingers for her!

It's still winter over there? Ice too? Wow. Yuck, those trees didn't damage anything I hope??

Haha it sounds so cute when you say that, the rabbit food. Myeah, same here, so nervous the whole time. It's like everything makes me just so upset. Please let that Cross go away quick. >_>

I know, long time no talk. So I wanted to show you a sign of life. It hasn't killed me yet, but it's doing a lot to me internally. I've had professional help for about 2 months now, and it's loosened up a lot of bad things I repressed. But at least I'm working with it, right?

posted April 22, 2014 04:38 PM            

Domestic, perfect now that the sun's finally in Taurus.

Turning this...

... into this:

posted April 22, 2014 09:38 PM            

The eggs look so tasty <drool>

Taurus season, no wonder why I've been craving sweet treats lol I have just eaten a whole cheesecake haha.