posted July 11, 2013 04:37 PM            

Composite:
Have you seen that big thread in Astro 2.0 about "The most loving relationship of your life" where RunAroundScreaming says that sun, Mercury, and Venus all conjunct in composite is as good as it gets?
Even though you have these planets over a 10 degree orb, I still think it counts.

And I've read that what you want in composite, for a lasting relationship, is a concentration of planets in one point. Which of course you have in Scorpio. Which is cool.

Do you two work together?

For some reason Cancer Mars in the 7H just sounds sweet to me.

And your composite NN is conjunct my moon so maybe that's why I'm happy hearing about how well you two are doing.

Synastry:

Tell me, do you and he have any telepathy going on? Linda Goodman says sun conjunct Neptune makes you able to tap into each other's thoughts a bit. True, in your case?

I like your moon opposing his sun...opposites attract you know. And my brother and his wife have the same Aries-Libra opposition with their suns and they are soul mates.

His Venus-Mars trine your stellium. That sounds so good!

Do you two have any Juno contacts?

K, well, I've got to do some actual housework for once but it was nice talking with you. 'Will post my charts or whatever I can muster up, when I get more time.

posted July 13, 2013 12:21 AM            

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Originally posted by Faith: You two have been alluding to these stories and I don't know what you're talking about ..

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<grin like a cheshire cat> oh yeah we have ourselves a writer, a story-teller in here

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Originally posted by Faith: Yeah, me too about the secrets, even though it bothers me that I feel I can't be 100% up front with everyone. I think my 12H Saturn is extra influential in my chart because it's in mutual reception with my sun. Hence all the buried stuff.

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With all of your air influence, aqua mercury and 11th house Gemini mars, I think I can see the need to be upfront with people. Hehe with your 12th house Saturn and pisces moon in the 8th, your mind and heart is probably like a deep ocean. Do you feel that other peole may not understand? Or do you feel that you may not be able to put your secrets in words?

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Originally posted by Faith: Wow!! Is that from Venus on the ASC, like it grants you the power to just plough through life like that? I feel very limited, very bound to others' expectations.

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Hmmm my mercury is playing tricks on me again. Too many jumbled thoughts lol.

I’ve just read my post again and my god that came out way more intense than intended lol. Didn’t mean to sound like I give the whole world the rude finger haha. Nah I’m not that detached, I do care about other people's feelings and welfares. I try to be fair to others and take them into consideration coz I feel connected to people and the environment around me. If I know that I've hurt someone, I normally won't be able to eat and sleep in peace.

Only when other people’s expectations start to limit my power of expressing myself then they become shackles. It’s a fine line, but I’ve been quite ok at walking that line.

Venus on the asc grants me the power to enjoy life. As long as I don’t hurt other people on purpose, it’s all good to me.

My past experience shapes the person who I am. It shapes the way I think and act. The freedom to live, love, be myself and the power to make my own decisions were not given to me at birth. Side note: to me these are "rights" and I respect other people's rights to choose, which is why I didn't feel bad when I asked people out/confessed my affection and they didn't feel the same.

Anyway back to the point. Now that I have those "rights", yeah I’m making the most out of them. Don’t want to live a life of “what ifs”. If I have to die tomorrow I won’t have many regrets. Funny how sometimes I feel that with Saturn, I have all the time in the world. But at the same time, I feel that my time on this earth is too short. I live and savour each moment.

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Originally posted by Faith: I used to have an extremely powerful connection with color...seeing certain colors would flood me with emotion. I remember being about four and seeing a string of green Christmas lights, glowing against the white paint of a door jamb. I stared at it for a long time, with tears in my eyes. I didn't have the words but I remember the feeling enough to suspect that I actually thought I was re-visiting heaven or something, communing with this otherworldly light. I was often tearing up when staring at colors when I was little. It seemed normal to me but now I notice none of my kids ever do anything like that.
I still have very strong color preferences and will scrap a picture if I get one color a little bit "off" and can't fix it. I doubt other people even see what I'm seeing; in fact they've told me they don't know what I'm talking about when I try and describe it.

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<3 faith this is so dreamy. I don’t think I know any kid who does this either. I certainly didn’t. There is a certain dream-like quality in the way you relate to the world around you. It shows in your words.

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Originally posted by Faith: But here, I'll try harder to get it right. There is something about me that I like very much and this is as good a time as any to reveal it. I can strongly connect with a very wide range of people. People might brush me off at first because I look plain and don't talk much but eventually I end up with a strong, balanced rapport with mostly all of the people I deal with in real life. It's just a matter of time. Perhaps that balance is coming from me doing the "grounding." Earth signs tend to offer that grounding, but maybe with my other elements I add flexibility (air), some excitement (fire) and compassion (H20) and it makes me "whole" in a way. Thinking of my splash chart like a circular island now, a whole unto itself that can carry the weight of others who may be missing elements or whatever.

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Speaking of compassion, have you ever felt that you’re somehow “responsible” for the sufferings of others? Or does seeing other people sufferings affect you a lot?

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Originally posted by Faith: it's hilarious how much I feel like I GET you, and I don't get him at all.

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Well sister it’s coz we speak the same language. LOL j/k bad joke lol I couldn’t help it, what can I say, I love to pull the gender card. HAHAHAHA.

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Originally posted by Faith:And your composite NN is conjunct my moon so maybe that's why I'm happy hearing about how well you two are doing.

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Aw faith <3 this makes me grin

Oh we don’t work together, our jobs are quite different.

About the composite, I’ve seen different opinions on its importance compared to the synastry. And I don’t know what to think lol but it’s great to know that the sun-mercury-venus conjunction is good for couples. We have 2 moon oppositions but those are fine, we both have moon squares in our natal charts.

Yes about the telepathy. And juno, mine squares his venus/mars. His juno sextiles my sun/mercury and conjunct MC. I have quite a few love asteroids in libra 9th house all fall into his 9th house. Some of them conjunct his 9th house libra sun. Ceres conjunct sun.

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Originally posted by Faith:

K, well, I've got to do some actual housework for once but it was nice talking with you. 'Will post my charts or whatever I can muster up, when I get more time.

Adios

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Oh yeah I'll be waiting for the charts. I'm super curious to see what can attract and bind a person with a splash chart hehe

posted July 13, 2013 12:28 AM            

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Originally posted by meissieri:
I'm having trouble posting again, but I'm working on a reply to both of you (yes, 3-parters probably)

Here's hoping I'm getting it posted soon!

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posted July 13, 2013 06:29 AM            

Haha, as long as you still like that cat, right? Aww, I'm a major dog person, too. Those Newfoundlanders look so cute! Like this big fluffy pillow you can cuddle real nice <3 Never had one, though, just seen them from afar. Are they good with children?
Mine's an old, moody little yapper, but I love her anyway. It's nice to have her sleep under my bed (she loves the dark corners away from everyone). But she can look at me in a way that's just so paranoid and distrusting. It scares me a little, haha.

A yacht? That's really nice. How often do you cruise? Finding someone to take care of your pet really is a lot of trouble. No, I wouldn't take such a small animal with me either. That thought is just too scary. Very responsible choice there! Big family and dog on board... should be so cosy. Keep imagining the good stuff.

Ugh, Pluto-Uranus hitting that T-square. How long will that transit last? Shame you'll have to sit that one out. You haven't been snappy here, though, if it helps.

Pluto 3rd house, yeah, I can see it. I imagine you'd be powerful and convincing in whatever you say. Interesting thing to have... But it can become quite awkward, too, probably? Especially when you didn't mean it to be said so strongly.

Yes! I've always thought it sounded suspiciously like a Venus-Neptune harsh aspect or Venus in Pisces. I do agree that it makes you very patient and easy-going with pretty much everyone you meet - I do want to give everyone a chance at first. I've been called "too sweet" quite often. I think I wouldn't have minded so much if it wasn't my chart ruler or in that bloody T-square. Couldn't Mercury have gotten that knock instead? It's not just the romantic aspect that's so bad, there's a whole laundry list more. The escapist behaviour tendencies, the danger for being addicted, denial, deliberately doing things to look as unattractive as you feel (so at least you have a reason for why nobody loves you), making excuses for everyone because you want to believe in them, etc. Ugh, it suuuucks! And it's all just so you can forget that loneliness.
Then again, it gives me sympathy for people nobody else would even look at, which has given me the chance to get to know some genuinely sweet souls. I swear, the amount of cr*p some of them get (sorry, Randall!), it gives me palpitations and shaky hands just by typing this out.
So, does this feel like your Venus-Neptune?

Juno conjunct Juno sounds good! Mutual commitment, yay. Is it conjunct my Ascendant? I thought it was like 10 minutes too wide. Thanks for saying I come across as dedicated. Teachers have said so as well, and I do think I put my all into it when something means a lot to me. It feels lazy to come down there with some half-hearted effort. I want it to show

Yes, Sun-Moon is a great buffer I especially like it when I'm the Moon.

posted July 13, 2013 07:16 AM            

I've had boyfriends who were a player, had mental issues and stalked me, or were emotionally abusive. With another, everyone meddled so much that he ended up wanting out, he couldn't handle it. And with one I just wasn't ready and jumped into things. I hated having to break his heart, he was sweet, but I really couldn't do it at the moment. The good guys really seem to pop up when I'm somehow not ready to date them. Or when I'm with someone else already - there was one guy, but I was deeply in love with him, so it didn't even occur to me. I was too loyal to my boyfriend at the time. I hate it (but I think that's more the Venus-Uranus square, Venus 12th house, maybe even Venus-Juno).

Edit: Having only three planets on the Western half doesn't help here. Unlike many others around me, I don't have the contacts and learnt to take care of things myself since forever. Those three planets feel like the only parts in my life that I don't have to fight hard for. My mother has always been there for me (moon), my imagination runs wild 24/7 - no lack of inspiration there (Neptune) and my life really picked up once I went to college (Jupiter). I've read an article on leading vs following that described me exactly like that, having most of my planets in feminine signs but on the more "pioneer" half of the chart. I can't rely on help (it rarely comes) and I have to work double as hard to get the accomplishments as others do.

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Take your time! I have been ridiculously talkative lately and started up conversations on several threads...now I can't keep up. So it will take me a while to catch up the way I want to as well.

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Thanks. I'll get back to all of it, just one at a time. Ahhh that is annoying! Too much goodness to reply to!

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Yes, well, Jupiter is ruling my 5H (Sag being on the cusp) so that can explain the largeness of my family. I don't know how to say this without sounding weird and conceited but I felt very strongly that I needed to have cute children. And I think many people would say I succeeded with that! So I believe Venus has to be near enough to the 5H cusp to affect my kids' looks.

I never considered how the foreign names match my 5H Sag! LOL...yes, you're right, that is fitting. Also, my first son is a Sag, and yes there are some pretty strong Neptune aspects in the bunch (Neptune is conjunct my Sag son's SN, conjunct another son's ASC, etc.)

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Ahaha, that sounded so oddly cute. Proud mother ^^ Don't worry, charm is something to be proud of. Neptune on the SN, hmm, he must be a really sweet, artistic boy. Head in the clouds type? Wow, how interesting to see your children taking over those parts of your chart. Do they match some of your husband's as well?

Ahh, the Grand Cross can be tricky to get through. Shame people couldn't handle the Gemini Mars. Oh, but I love it, actually! It's my favourite Mars sign together with Scorpio. Gemini people always have something to say, carry conversations like a pro and their play banters are gold - whether I'm sparring (lol) with them or as an outsider looking on. Very entertaining! Gemini really has a special gift to get everyone involved in the talking. I blame Mercury conjunct my DSC ruler for that.

posted July 13, 2013 07:22 AM            

Aww, thank you. That's sweet about the zing and exciting posts. I'm just a little more proud of a 1st house Eros than I should be :P

Saturn on the IC is not as good as it sounds. Neptune doesn't bother me, I'm a major dreamer and forever confused anyway, but Saturn restricts a lot. It feels like having Moon conjunct Saturn all over again. Even when I'm breaking down, I'll try to keep my emotions in check and think of all of the consequences in a form of "tough love". Talking about my emotions so freely feels weird, as if it comes straight from a film or something. It's getting better slowly but steadily, but you might have noticed I have a very limited way of expressions. The others still feel a little alien to me. I tend to feel them better thinking of old memories and experiences. You put on a tough face not to be a bother, just so you can be as mature as people expect from you, etc. Thank God for my Moon-Mercury trine, it gave me a medium to explore my emotional range and grow to be okay with being dramatic and OTT now and then. Neptune really saved me here from becoming too hardened.

posted July 13, 2013 03:28 PM            

Fabulous conversation here...imagine if we were all talking in person, like at a coffee shop? That'd be A LOT of talking going on!

I will need a few days to catch up!

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Sorry- I just tried posting my charts here and can't get them to post right, still need to figure out the new photobucket. 'Will try again when I get more time.

posted July 13, 2013 04:57 PM            

We'd be that annoying group that won't leave way past closing hours.

Anyway, it's getting late here. Goodnight! Next few posts up soon. I have way too much to say to you, too, Muddy!

Have a gorgeous sundown:
One of my favourite moments lately. It felt so calming and peaceful. So happy I got to watch it. <3

posted July 15, 2013 08:42 AM            

Rie <hug> ahh, I read your description of your venus placement. It must have taken a lot of effort for you to overcome the effect of the T-square. I love that you are so empathetic <3

Now knowing that you like making little snacks for guests, I want to live in your kitchen haha. Your diet lists kinda made me drool so I just had to make a salad with chicken. I’m eating it now lol.

Digestion problems? Yes. With his virgo emphasis in the 8th house and sun in fall, he often has digestion problems =(

My juno is at 23’37 sag, I think it trines your sun then <3

Libra Ceres 21’22, Libra Eros 20’48 , conjunct your Lilith and eros <3 and conjunct Faith’s Libra pluto haha

Love your photo Rie <3 Send you two some photos of sundown <3

I took this photo when I was 16, lol my friends and I wagged school that day and we went to the beach. The beach was 25 minutes away from the school and we often just took the train. Later on I got a job at a place near the beach and although it was only for a short period of time, it was one of the happiest times in my life.

This one was taken when I visited my home country.

I find sunsets beautiful, but there is something sad, slightly bittersweet about watching a day ending. It’s like watching a lover walking away. I’m at my happiest when the sun is high, when life is at its busiest. My mind is often high-strung and busy. One of the reasons why I have troubles sleeping sometimes. It’s a bit difficult to put my mind to rest.

posted July 15, 2013 02:56 PM            

Thanks, that means a lot to me. Not sure if I've overcome it, maybe I'm going back and forth. Nice thing for you to say I'm empathetic, as the empty leg is in Pisces! I try to be gentle, but sometimes... let's say I'm bitter for a long time towards those people we talked about.

Haha, I'm sure there's a good spot next to my dog's stuff~ You wouldn't get hungry. Chicken salads... now you're making me drool. Are you a fan of dressings on it?

Sorry about your husband's problems. Is he someone who bottles up his stress? An 8th house sun won't help much here I'm sure.

Yes, it does! And you have it conjunct your Mercury, that's so cool! You definitely found a man who fits that well Hehe, yes, the three of us have a huge Libra planet-asteroid stellium together. I like it! Guess that's why we get along so well.

Oh, my God, those pictures are sososo gorgeous! Wow, you really are a fantastic photographer. You could teach me a thing or two

Thanks! Glad it got you excited to post some of your own work.

Okay, excuse my flailing here:

Sundown and then that boat all dark because of the angle you used. I love it. I can see your 12th house Sun coming through! And birds <3 Of course you'd want to go there. Shame you can't visit anymore. But this picture's a great memory of it, isn't it?

posted July 15, 2013 10:20 PM            

It’s understandable to have bitter feelings. It’ll take a while to heal <3 give it time, sweet.

Haha I’m uncreative when it comes to making salad dressings. I just mix olive oil, lemonade and a bit of herbs in it. Do you have any nice recipes ? I’d love that place in your kitchen haha. It doesn’t take much to make a cap happy lol warmth and food and lots of love hahahahahahha

My husband doesn’t bottle up his stress. He just had a hard childhood and it has caused his health to be kinda delicate, which is weird coz he’s considerably strong. We avoid sour, spicy foods and avoid drinking/eating hot and cold foods/drinks at the same time.

Thank you <3 the best tip is to take lots of pictures and choose the ones you like hahaha. May I see more of the photos you took? I’d love to see them

Photos are always associated with memories. I like when I look at old photos, they always bring a sense of nostalgia.
Sorry that you have troubles sleeping too. Ahh. The restless mind of mercury in mutable signs.

posted July 17, 2013 06:32 AM            

12muddy, good luck with your new job...being a nurse sounds ultra stressful to me but you are a Horse (yes?) and you seem to handle it like it's easy!

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We'd be that annoying group that won't leave way past closing hours.

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Yes! But we'd only annoy the management, everyone else would want to listen in because we're so interesting

I'm posting my charts here and will be back in a little bit with some longer replies. Brace yourselves!

^ I forget to include some asteroids, but his Juno is around 21 Taurus (conjunct my south node and trine my Juno.)

I don't have his exact birth time, but I know he was born around 3 or 4 am. Once, when I drew up our charts, I saw an exact moon-Pluto conjunction (his moon) but now I don't know how I arrived at that; probably just a mistake. Still, his Libra moon is close to my Pluto and must be making some key aspects to my air and fire planets.

When we got together and very quickly got married, t Pluto was conjunct our Venus-Saturn conjunction

^ Exact Cancer Mars-Lilith in the 12H (people don't really understand our chemistry) squaring Libra sun-Venus and all of that squaring my natal sun. I'm staring at that and thinking, well, the tension is plain as day.

But here's what I love:

posted July 17, 2013 07:48 AM            

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Hehe with your 12th house Saturn and pisces moon in the 8th, your mind and heart is probably like a deep ocean.

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I guess everyone has this ocean? But with me...I think you can see that when you're talking to me, it might be a little more obvious. In real life, a lot of people, including men who seem rather tough, will tear up when they talk to me, because when I'm there the conversation naturally flows toward deeper things. It's not something I deliberately orchestrate, but I'm just very open and accepting.

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Do you feel that other people may not understand? Or do you feel that you may not be able to put your secrets in words?

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People who are empathic and intuitive pick up on the fact that I am hoarding a lot and they will respond to the subliminal stuff. Have you found it to be the same way? Certain people can "read" the 12H/Pisces/Neptune story between the lines very well. And some, because of synastry, reach that hidden part of me, but we always touch on it in an abstract way, not directly. I need subtle communication for that, I need to feel it's all done in whispers or by mere suggestion...or through outright psychic signals...it's too delicate to touch with words.

Putting secrets into words is definitely not my forte, especially with my Saturn-Mercury opposition making me tongue-tied half the time, and often insecure about how I speak. How about you, can you articulate the deeper stuff when you want to?

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Didn’t mean to sound like I give the whole world the rude finger haha.

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LOL Oh it didn't sound like that at all! When I said that I am too limited, I meant that I think I am too self-sacrificing. So I WISH I had more of your determination to do what you want.

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Venus on the asc grants me the power to enjoy life. As long as I don’t hurt other people on purpose, it’s all good to me.

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The power to enjoy life...ahh! Is there anything better? =) I have Venus trine ASC so I get a little bit of that. Also Neptune and Jupiter trine ASC which is probably why I'm so affectionate. Like I send my friends cards and will just put heart stickers all over the envelope and not care what anyone thinks, I just do my thing. And people get used to it, they know I'm weird, it comes with the package.

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My past experience shapes the person who I am. It shapes the way I think and act. The freedom to live, love, be myself and the power to make my own decisions were not given to me at birth. Side note: to me these are "rights" and I respect other people's rights to choose, which is why I didn't feel bad when I asked people out/confessed my affection and they didn't feel the same.

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I LOVE THAT. It's just amazing to me, how resilient you are. I wish there was a movie about your life, I would probably be crying happy tears by the end, where you meet The King, get a great job, build lots of great friendships and leave the painful past behind! <3

I love memoirs and autobiographies and might cry at Rie's story too!

And I love crying! lol

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There is a certain dream-like quality in the way you relate to the world around you. It shows in your words.

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Thank you! Um...Neptune aspects most of my chart, maybe that's it?

I wanted to comment more on this, it occurred to me as an afterthought that I should have mentioned Aldous Huxley here. Have you ever read The Doors of Perception? In it, he talks about experimenting on himself with the drug mescaline and how it affected his understanding of color dramatically. When I read it years ago, I got the impression that especially when I was young, the way I saw color seemed to be like how he saw it when he was on drugs. He says certain artists seemed to be able to see color in this almost spiritual dimension, too. Artists including...as Rie might appreciate...Vermeer!

^ Says Huxley: "Yes, a Vermeer. For that mysterious artist was truly gifted - with the vision that perceives the Dharma-Body as the hedge at the bottom of the garden, with the talent to render as much of that vision as the limitations of human capacity permit, and with the prudence to confine himself in his paintings to the more manageable aspects of reality."

What interests me is that these different ways of seeing are possible. You have your synaesthesia, some people see auras, and I see a kind of spiritual signature in the different hues. But I can't articulate it well, it's like a pure emotion which, when I try to develop it into a thought, evaporates.

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Speaking of compassion, have you ever felt that you’re somehow “responsible” for the sufferings of others? Or does seeing other people sufferings affect you a lot?

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Definitely, this is very, very true. How about you?

And Rie, if you're reading, I'm wondering how you would answer muddy's questions, too.

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Well sister it’s coz we speak the same language. LOL j/k bad joke lol I couldn’t help it, what can I say, I love to pull the gender card. HAHAHAHA.

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ROTFL! Seriously though!

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Yes about the telepathy.

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*getting on my knees and begging for details*

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Originally posted by 12muddy:
I have quite a few love asteroids in libra 9th house all fall into his 9th house. Some of them conjunct his 9th house libra sun. Ceres conjunct sun.

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Wow, and Ceres conjunct sun...which one of you is Ceres? To me that sounds like a great aspect, maybe just because it sounds earthy and I'm an earth sign.

No worries if it takes you a while to reply to this, I understand!

Rie, I'll be back later today with a post for you, I'm taking my kids out for breakfast now.

posted July 17, 2013 04:39 PM            

Have a nice breakfast, both you and your children! ^^

posted July 17, 2013 09:50 PM            

And I'll post a picture of myself next time I know we're both online at the same time, then I can take it down fast. I LOVED your pics, I don't know what you're talking about with 12H Venus making you less attractive or something- nonsense!

See you later!

posted July 18, 2013 07:13 PM            

I'll be back as soon as I can. And yes, hope we'll be online at the same time soon.

posted July 19, 2013 05:38 PM            

I am right now, if it's convenient?

posted July 20, 2013 03:39 PM            

Edit: Rie, I posted my pic for a little bit, hoping you were around...then I saw the photo thread.

Kerosene makes sense here:

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I just feel like we should not encourage these types of threads if there are users who actually think it's okay to save pictures of others and distribute them around the internet..

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posted July 20, 2013 04:22 PM            

And yesss hi Muddy! Enjoying the weekend?

posted July 20, 2013 05:12 PM            

Ugh. THANK YOU! I've beat myself up over all of those details so often, you have no idea! Gahh, it means so much to me that they can even cover up any confusing parts! I tend to stick to what only the character would know, see, hear, etc, and I use it a lot in how they make choices... even if they're wrong. So happy someone can appreciate that! You probably have seen that I'm lucky if one person reads it. Yeah. I've been thinking of finishing some stories. Would you like to read one? I still have your e-mail, so I can send it to you. It's pretty hard to really get into the fandom though, so I don't know if you really want to do that.

Yess, Neptune is good for stories. What kind of things do you read? It's weird... I'm not a reader myself, not books. Online, though, then I can do it for ages.

LOL. I laughed so loud at your reactions to horror films. Imagine our faces with our square moons. You're all yelling your lungs out and I'd be all, ":|... Oh my God, did he just get a knife twisted all the way through his stomach asdfghjkl". Eh. Too bad we don't live near each other. I'd want to see this, haha!!
Yeah, sports matches do seem to make you scarily competitive. That kind of energy rush going through you, omg. I remember people shouting at soccer matches to "kick 'em in the head, that'll keep 'em down". Lol, I don't think that'd be good advice.

The Saw ones do get extreme - even I had trouble watching some of those torture scenes and I can stomach quite a bit. Those explosions and all are quick at least. Does that make it easier for you? Those torture scenes end up being like fifteen minutes of screaming and cussing and whimpering. All done for shock of course...

Glad you've mellowed down, though I think there's always a reason why you get mad. Not always a logical one, but still. Erratic? Does your anger flare up? Sounds hard, trying to remain consistent with how you react. *sigh* Yes, the internet makes it just a little too easy to remain bitter with being anonymous.

You're right, it's going to take some time. When you've been going on for so long and then try to change, it'll be a while to grow out of those feelings. Actually, I think I do cuss sometimes. I just try to tone it down? Yeah, it's the Libra/Virgo/Leo ego. Thanks <3

Jupiter square Pluto, ouch. Does that make any Pluto side in you even stronger?
I can tell you do <3 I mean it in the nicest way possible, it's obvious you've gone through a lot and have learnt from it. The life experience for someone my age, it's amazing. You know, I've been ready for years. It's just frustrating to still not see it happening. If it's not unrequited, it's someone already in a relationship (of course I'd back off), or they're gay or having so many personal problems that romance is like the last thing on their mind. (This is why I chose not to confess to a guy I was interested in a while ago. Good thing, because the feelings have faded. Pfew, dodged a bullet there. Could've gotten very messy!)
Ahh... now I really want to read that article! Makes a lot of sense, though. I'll hold onto that thought now that I'm still in love limbo Again thanks for your advice and encouragement. Your Aries Moon is sooo shining through, a real leader!

Okay, first part is up. Then I saw I forgot one of your other posts, which will get a reply too! (One on page 2) And the pic spam. It's not going to be chronological, so I'll try to use quotes or something so you can still keep some sort of track of it.