posted July 21, 2013 08:55 AM            

Thank you, I like taking picture and messing them up with photoshop haha.

Being a nurse isn’t that bad if one can manage not to soak up other people’s bad feelings. I don’t know what I am; the truth is still out there I guess. Yes I’m a horse born in dragon hour. Although I don’t think that the description fit me, according to various feedbacks from other people I act very “horsey” indeed. Plus I have big moles on my feet, which only add to my wanderlust and need to roam.

Lol what’s with leos and caps and getting married quickly? Extra-cap YTA and his gorgeous leo wife is another leo-cap couple who got married at lightning speed.

About the synastry, I love that his moon and Neptune fall into your 3rd house. Does he talk to you a lot about everything? With your pluto in his 3rd house I imagine that you get the upper hand in every little lovers’ argument kaka.

Tension, yeah I guess I can understand what you mean. Does he “like” the tension? Fire leo sun and libra moon with cancer ascendant, to me he sure sounds like a difficult person to understand.

The composite is interesting too, the planets cluster on one side of the wheel. Moon in the 5th must be nice, does it help to smooth things out ?

I hope that I don’t come across as nosey (well I am sometimes) but I’m curious about your story of how you and your husband got together. With your Uranus in his 5th house, packed 4th house in composite, it is quite apparent why you got together so quickly. He has 12th house Uranus that falls into your 12th house. Uranus really keeps its reputation of bringing sudden changes haha. My husband’s sag Uranus in 11th house and my cap Uranus in 12th house and we got together rather quickly too.

Yes I definitely agree with the idea that everyone has a deep ocean. When I meet people whose vibes I can “get”, then I’ll be able to have glimpses of their depth. It used to confuse me a bit when I couldn’t “get” people, kind of like “I know you have a whole rich inner world, why can’t I feel it”.

I think I can understand why people feel at ease around you. To me you don’t seem to send out brass and vicious vibes. Lol it’s not like I haven’t seen you in a midst of a debate.

Wow your pisces moon really shows with that need to communicate via psychic signals. I feel like with you, feelings are somewhat intangible, like smoke... and can’t be touched by physical touches. Yeah I understand why you feel bothered that you can’t be upfront 100% with people now. It is not easy for some people to “catch” your “channel”.

Faith you definitely don’t sound tongue-tied or insecure to me <3

I communicate via every route available. Although with 12th house mercury I often withhold my words on topics that I consider important. But with 3rd house moon, my thoughts and feelings pour out of my every pore. They swirl like a tornado above my head, pop up like road signs and flash like those multi-coloured lights in a circus. People see/feel/hear me filtered through their own perceptions, so yeah some get me some don’t. With the deeper stuff I definitely prefer to just say what I think/feel. My emotions/feelingsthoughts usually can be put into words.

Faith that is so cute lol I love that you spend time on those little details. Small details can really make a difference. You’re weird in a good way, I like I like Everyone is weird to a certain degree. And I think that your weirdness is admired and loved by many Speaking of cards, do you like writing little notes too?

About empathy, I used to feel “guilty” when bad things happened to people. When I was a kid I used to cry and wonder why I had a lot of food and so many people didn’t, why I deserved a better chance... Then I stopped coz I realized I wasn’t doing myself or anyone any good. Now I feel bad for the bad things that happened to people and try to do what I can to help and ease their sufferings, but their pains don’t affect me the way they did before. I’d love to hear your and Rie’s experiences on this matter.

Ah, you make me smile again. In all fairness, I’m a slow learner. I’m the kind that like to dig a hole and fill it with cr*p then jump in. A big part of that “resiliency” comes from friends and loved ones.

Oh dear, he dosed himself on drugs? What a way to transcendent oneself. At first to me he sounded like a typical druggie who says that they met Jesus after they’ve eaten a bag of shroom. But after I’ve asked brother Google I think I get what you mean. Here it says that psychedelic drugs can cause one’s aesthetic responses to be higher. Hmm it certainly sounds like your experience with colours. Being able to see the spiritual sides of colours is really great. My synaesthesia doesn’t really have that much of a profound effect. Hehe when you can put your emotion into words please tell me. Hehe just joking, I know what you mean, I know that these sorts of things slip through our fingers and are meant to be felt, not defined by words.

Haha about the telepathy, I think you, Rie and I have it going on lol When I posted my picture I thought “Hmm wouldn’t it be nice to see Rie and Faith too” and the next morning I got to see more of Rie’s photos. I have to say that Rie’s adorable, especially in the second pic. Such a cheeky, flirty smile, and that “look” in those eyes <3 See, I sent my thoughts to you two and you caught them kaka.

Between His Majesty and I, we read each other thoughts very well. When we were in a long-distance relationship, although we just met, we felt very close and would know if the other was sick/felt upset... I’m ceres, I’ve read that ceres is about nurturing, and it is true in our case, although so many other aspects in the synastry can point to it.

posted July 21, 2013 10:40 AM            

I think one reason why you don’t get a lot of views and comments is that there isn’t much exposure. It seems like Fanfiction.net is a big site and it receives a lot of traffic, so you may want to check that site out. Sorry for bringing it up again.

That email account has gone mad. I’d love to read another story <3, please send it to I read fanfics without knowing the original stuff so keke I’ll be ok. Slowly I’ll get into the fandom lol it’s pretty addictive.

Hehe yeah Neptune is great. I like a wide variety of books, especially naturalist books. fantasy or historical fantasy and anthropology. Oh yessssss I know what you mean about reading for hours online. I “discovered” fanfics when I was 17 and my god, I can’t even describe the feelings. I looked at thousands of stories and I went nuts with excitement, it felt like finding a gold mine with a dragon sleeping in it.

Haha that story about the hard-core soccer fans is funny. I know, sports change people for the worse haha. I’d certainly love to sit down, watch a movie with you and scream your ears off. It’s ok, with all of your virgo and libra placements you definitely can endure. Yeah, that rush of excitement, I feel it the most when I spar or fight, a good rush of adrenaline is addictive.

Yes, Saw is definitely extreme. Lucky you, you can handle it. I’m a huge wuss and watching torture scenes is just something I can’t do, not in this lifetime kaka.

Yeah I’ve mellowed down, but still there are certain parts of me that remain the same. It’s probably from the pluto square that you mentioned. Pluto trine my Saturn-chart ruler too. I seldom get angry, I don’t even get annoyed often. But my anger flares in less than half a second if the right buttons are pressed. Then I’ll want to cause serious damages. But yeah, I let go when I can. At the end of the day, those people aren’t worth it.

I understand your bitterness. We let go if we feel that it’s ok to do so and we’ll do it in our own time. I love that you try and make an effort. Love yourself first and share that love. Hehe I was in similar situations too, unrequited feelings. But looking on the brighter side, you won’t have to live with regrets and what-ifs. And yes, it is frustrating after trying and trying and not getting any results. But to a certain degree, I think that results are not the only things that “mark” our progress. You make an effort and you mature and grow. These things can go without noticed. You may find that through all of these ups and downs, tears and pains, you’ve grown into a stronger person. I can definitely see it. You’re sweet because you don’t want to hurt others like you were treated. You’re mature coz you know when to confess and when to stop and think things through. Those little things will be very helpful when you find someone special.

posted July 23, 2013 09:12 AM            

Thank you muddy! I love reading your posts, and I want to tell you that you caught a lot of stuff in the synastry and composite charts that I totally missed! I'm going to wait a little while to reply, I don't want to swamp you.

Hi Rie! I love your posts, too

'Will be replying to your last post to me soon, now that you seem to be caught up.

posted July 25, 2013 04:40 PM            

Aww, I'm so happy you mentioned that story as it was such a bumpy ride to get it done.

No, it's okay, nice of you to say that.
Lots of heartbreak was over that one and the little people who read it. In that anon community, people were constantly asking for something based on BR (have you seen the film, by the way?) and that gave me the confidence to show it at fic communities, relieved there was interest after all. I was so nervous about the criticism I was going to get... then I found out that the non-reaction was way worse than any remark could have been. It's like presenting the result of months of hard labour you're proud of and then hearing the crickets. I had dealt with housing stress, friends stress and illness in the meantime, so it was a huge deal for me to even get this finished. And of course the one person reading it disappearing halfway through (never been mad at her for that, she was really busy, just sad that I was going to miss her great comments!). Suddenly I'd post chapter after chapter without anyone clicking on it. Very disheartening to keep going. One or two of these requesters leaving me a comment would've made all of that worth the effort. Silly me, I kept thinking, "Maybe they'll show up once I have it finished", in true Neptune delusion style, just to reassure myself. They never came. I wasn't expecting much (true, there isn't as much exposure as in some other fandoms), but you'd think at least those hardcore requesters would say something, right? Just a, "I had been waiting for a fic like this, thanks!" would've been enough. It's not what people say, it's what they do or don't say.

Oh well, I'm used to being ignored by the majority everywhere I go. Fanfiction.net's rules didn't allow that fandom, otherwise I would've posted it there.

But at least someone who does appreciate it got to read it now. Haha, the gore... it helps with my Venus-Nessus. I channel a lot of dark thoughts into writing, watching horror or action films, etc. As long as I do that and vent, I don't end up getting nasty, even if it's by accident. It doesn't occur to me.

Pretty much like Faith said. (Hi there! ) Uranus here stirs things up quite often! At my last job, I got into some backhanded stuff with people not writing me down as having worked that day, so it made me look as if I cut off work all the time. Even showing my agenda with the few times I'd missed didn't prove them wrong. Still don't know how that could've happened, but thank God it wasn't a job I loved - that happened two years later. Both definitely involved a lot of opposition. My mentor during my time there was just bad. Never available for help, unsupportive, blamed me a lot. I admit it's very, uh, convenient for me to be taking a four-year university ed. This job is better-suited for me with my health and if it gets too much for me, I can still work from home.

Faith, can I ask you if you still work from home? Or stopped working altogether? With your 5 children, I bet it would've been tough to juggle both (not that children alone won't be).

SIX PLANETS IN THE 12TH HOUSE?! Wow. How would they get by every day? Do you remember anything about what they said about it? Mind blown, yeah!

posted July 25, 2013 04:58 PM            

Ohwa, you're very active! Even a little like Gemini... it was in the 3rd house, wasn't it?

Really? I suppose lots of things overlap but yeah, that's not what you want to stumble upon when googling. Brother Google shows you everything, even what you weren't looking for. Especially that. Do you want to tell me more about that synesthaesia. I imagine a 3rd person feeling is a bit odd to get into at first. Are there specific things you see for some sounds? They show some sort of, uh, movement? Almost like you're in a film 24/7. Obviously, I know nothing about this, but I want to!

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I feel a bit of each aspect. With venus on ascendant I’m naturally a pleasant, cheerful person. The crooks that I dislike may want to argue that point lol. I’m a bit vain, I look into mirrors and reflective surfaces a lot. I don’t deny myself pleasures (with Saturn on the ascendant, other people had done that to me lol). A lot of things make me happy. I do what I want, whenever I want and however I want. As for love, I searched for it for quite a while. As soon as I felt any kind of connection, if I liked that person I’d ask them out. Just didn’t want to let the chance slip by. With Neptune/saturn on venus and the squares to the moon, I do lose interest quickly if I feel that there’s something “missing”.

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Your posts are really coherent and neat. The last few ones in particular, like you've had some moment of clarity recently. *grin* Ahhh stuttering. Same here. Sometimes it's from excitement, actually, there's just so much fun things to say and *clamp*. I can see the need for colours in paintings. I wonder if your synesthaesia shows you the way here.

Lol yes I'd love some of your air too, Faith. But in our defence, we do have an active 3rd and 12th house. It's probably not as strong as having it in an air sign, but it may be some sort of safety net anyway.

posted July 25, 2013 05:59 PM            

The dunes that you go through before reaching the beach. This part is definitely worth seeing and very refreshing to walk or bike through.

The beach itself when it's quiet and calm. <3

A hot day with a lone sailboat cruising around.

Again the dunes and its view from the hills. The view at night was amazing with a little streak of sun filtering through those thick clouds.

Boat trip through the city.

posted July 25, 2013 06:14 PM            

Or over here.

The beach again as you arrive.

The path leading up to it. Again, you don't even have to get to the beach itself to get to enjoy all of this wonderful nature. I'm blessed to live close to here. My 4th house Neptune is doing a happy dance.

posted July 26, 2013 08:29 AM            

Oh I HAVE to get to a beach soon. I just need it. So peaceful and restorative (I'm a Rabbit. I NEED these things. )

I just have one pic handy in photobucket...this is just a small part of the beautiful view, if you are standing on the balcony to my house in the country.

I miss that place! We're late getting up there because we just bought a boat and have to get it set up in a marina, plus do some sailing here.

We thought our rural property was doomed to get wrecked by gas drilling companies (most of the properties surrounding ours had leased their land) but...miracle of miracles...the gas companies decided to NOT renew their leases and have left the area!

It still seems too good to be true.

Talk to you both later!

posted July 26, 2013 03:57 PM            

WOW AT THAT VIEW!! I would never close the windows nor the curtains! It's so wide and just... oozes freedom. Sorry you can't be there already! I totally get why you love it!

Will be great to get back to after the sailing. Pfew! Glad that company isn't coming back! The thought of them putting a drill into that land... you must be very attached to it. Fingers crossed it'll remain this way.

Since I know very little about Chinese astrology, could you tell me more about the Rabbit? (Or Horse for Muddy hehe). I'm not much further than being a double Snake. It's all still a little blurry to me.

posted July 26, 2013 07:32 PM            

I love Chinese astrology~ haven't you studied it much yet? As requested, here's some information, better than I could describe it:

Rabbit

Snake

(I love this line: "Most people are secretly or hopelessly in love with Snakes. Gather those frustrated folk you know and most likely, they are probably in love with a Snake." )

Horse

posted July 27, 2013 10:43 PM            

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Those Newfoundlanders look so cute! Like this big fluffy pillow you can cuddle real nice <3 Never had one, though, just seen them from afar. Are they good with children?

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I know, they are just adorable! And yes, they're good with children. The tragedy is that they have a short lifespan. Usually they die of heart disease. I think modern dog food may be the culprit...it doesn't seem right that they should all die pretty young.

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Mine's an old, moody little yapper, but I love her anyway. It's nice to have her sleep under my bed (she loves the dark corners away from everyone). But she can look at me in a way that's just so paranoid and distrusting. It scares me a little, haha.

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Awww My cat doesn't trust me 100% of the time, either. Maybe because I have accidentally stepped on her a few times...she just runs under my feet.

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Ugh, Pluto-Uranus hitting that T-square. How long will that transit last? Shame you'll have to sit that one out. You haven't been snappy here, though, if it helps.

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I'm so bad at knowing how fast Pluto and Uranus move...and they go retrograde, adding to the difficulty...but I suppose this will be making my life extra weird for the next few years. Thanks for saying I haven't been snappy! LOL I don't usually get that way online, I either dismiss an annoying comment or sort of buckle down for a serious battle of wits. (In which, yes, I sometimes totally lose! LOL)

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The escapist behaviour tendencies, the danger for being addicted, denial, deliberately doing things to look as unattractive as you feel (so at least you have a reason for why nobody loves you), making excuses for everyone because you want to believe in them, etc. Ugh, it suuuucks! And it's all just so you can forget that loneliness. Then again, it gives me sympathy for people nobody else would even look at, which has given me the chance to get to know some genuinely sweet souls.

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^^ All makes perfect sense and I can totally relate. 'Had to copy just to emphasize this again.

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Oh, I'm such an emotional eater sometimes! I try not to binge too often, though, it's tough for my body to digest all of that. (Do your husbands have this problem too with their Virgo emphasis?)

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You are nice and trim. And...is it just our sun-moon conjunction?...I'm earnestly agreeing with you about so much. I also binge sometimes but then feel bad. Actually, a binge for me would probably seem like just a regular snack to most people, but my digestion is so finicky that three cookies before bed would make me feel as yucky and guilty as if I ate a whole cake.

Not quoting your list of favorite foods, just saying it sounds yummy. Yummm

My husband eats a small breakfast and lunch and then usually has a big dinner. I guess that is typical. He's in very good shape (reflecting generally good habits) except for a paunch (showing that he sometimes just walks around munching whatever he finds in the kitchen.)

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It's... odd having the rulers of romantic houses all in very, uh, non-romantic ones (5th in the 3rd, 7th in the 11th & 8th in the 12th).

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Hmm...couldn't that be romantic, though? Like 3H can mean finding someone you mentally connect with, 11H could mean "friends first," and 12H is just very deep in my opinion.

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Or when I'm with someone else already - there was one guy, but I was deeply in love with him, so it didn't even occur to me. I was too loyal to my boyfriend at the time. I hate it (but I think that's more the Venus-Uranus square, Venus 12th house, maybe even Venus-Juno).

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Ugh! Well that does sound super frustrating. I can see how those placements are relevant; I think "too loyal" is also a second decan Cap thing. I feel so bad for people who are dating because it all seems so difficult! It really was for me, anyway. Even listening to my (single) best friends' dating experiences is depressing. What I hate is when guys leave her hanging...like they ask her out and forget or stupid stuff like that, then try and sweet-talk their way out of trouble. Gross.

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I can't rely on help (it rarely comes) and I have to work double as hard to get the accomplishments as others do.

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No fair! But I admire your work ethic and willingness to do that double effort...it has to pay off sometime, I just know it!

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Shame people couldn't handle the Gemini Mars. Oh, but I love it, actually!

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Thank you thank you! (That's one "thanks" from each of the Gemini twins. ) I'm self-conscious about it, especially since it is in my 11H (way obvious) and tightly quincunx my sun, sextile my ASC. It just seems like an abnormally loud Mars.

Well everyone has some problem right? We can be cheery about that...we're all just human.

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It feels like part of you is forever stuck in the house of the South Node (in my case friends, social circle, the big dreams and wishes). It explains the trouble I've had with friends (Mars here really doesn't help - yes, it does give you some nasty conflicts). I want to go off on my own and become the cool, super independent type who embraces her own efforts and hobbies (5th house), but the fear of being alone, of knowing that none of these friends will be supporting me in my new projects always holds me back.

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<3 That sounds so hard, but I admire you for writing such a perfectly clear portrait of your situation. I think 5H NN seems like it could be very exciting...your karmic assignment is to party! LOL

Can you tell me about things that you do or have done that make you feel like you're embodying that NN energy?

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All of those toxic friends had their Sun, Moon and/or Venus in Aquarius....Maybe I'm just not meant to have a close relationship with them.

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Hmmm! That's really strange to me~ how did you end up with all these Aquarians in the first place? Well...I have Aquarius Mercury and so far so good with us.

I believe that we can benefit by being around people whose sun is conjunct our NN, but maybe in your case the "help" will come from a professional associate and not someone you have to get emotional wound up in...something like that?

The only person I talk to on a semi-regular basis, whose sun is conjunct my Scorpio NN, is my brother. I adore him, he's great, but our synastry is kind of weird and we can end up over-talking about trivial things. I think his Aqua moon may be conjunct my Mercury, but I don't have his birth time.

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Talking about my emotions so freely feels weird, as if it comes straight from a film or something.

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OMG I can relate! I think many people could! Yeah, actually, back when I used to try and talk about sensitive issues with people...I've sort of quit, as I said in the beginning of this thread...I know I was looking for some kind of movie scene to model myself after, because it just felt so "not like me" to be letting it all out.

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Neptune really saved me here from becoming too hardened.

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I love that.

I checked out the Astrology Place link on Saturn/IC and feel like I got a glimpse into your world. I know you said it's not all good, and I believe you...but the article ends optimistically: Emotional security comes with age. !

@12muddy

'Will reply to you next week!

posted July 31, 2013 06:14 PM            

Hope you both had a good weekend. ^^

posted August 01, 2013 05:31 PM            

And yes, I still have some getting back to do as well. I have your e-mail! I'm busy typing up that story so I can send it to you. ^^ (It was still on my phone.) Thanks for posting it again, though. Hope it's okay...

Maybe I'll have some more questions on your chart later.

posted August 02, 2013 02:14 PM            

Rie, no worries, I completely understand that it's just more of an effort to put together a long response post. I've been here a while and been in that position quite a bit. Take your time, I'm not offended!

Muddy, I owe you a long post...but I'll try and keep it short...no really, this time I will!

Cheers~

posted August 06, 2013 04:03 PM            

But...well... not anymore....

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Being a nurse isn’t that bad if one can manage not to soak up other people’s bad feelings.

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Can you manage that, usually? I think it's a special skill that doctors and nurses have, or develop. Caring while not absorbing everything without filters.

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Plus I have big moles on my feet, which only add to my wanderlust and need to roam.

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LOL I never heard of that before. Moles making people antsy to travel. I love it!

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About the synastry, I love that his moon and Neptune fall into your 3rd house. Does he talk to you a lot about everything?

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OMG yes. And THANK YOU, I think you solved my riddle, because I never paid attention to that before and couldn't figure out why that happens. I thought it might be our NN-NN conjunction...still might be...but there's more to it that I couldn't put my finger on.

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With your pluto in his 3rd house I imagine that you get the upper hand in every little lovers’ argument kaka.

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Does he “like” the tension? Fire leo sun and libra moon with cancer ascendant, to me he sure sounds like a difficult person to understand.

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I wouldn't say he likes it, but he is naturally very intense and there's no way around it. He is hard for most people to understand, but he can be super clear and also friendly whenever he wants to be. As for me, I've just gotten used to him. He's normal to me because I'm around him so much.

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Moon in the 5th must be nice, does it help to smooth things out ?

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I guess so (?) Something is smoothing things out because we do have a lot of good, easygoing times together.

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I hope that I don’t come across as nosey (well I am sometimes) but I’m curious about your story of how you and your husband got together.

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We met through a very peculiar (Uranus) group of super religious people (I suppose religion is more 9H, but could be 12H when the spirituality is real.) Pluto was transiting in Sag, right on our Venus-Saturn synastry conjunction. It was all about religion and then our shared goal of establishing a big family (4H NN in composite, that totally fits!)

I'm not religious anymore, which causes trouble between us, but only once in a while. He's used to it. And I like to think that I am making him less religious as time goes by through the sheer force of my persuasive logic.

^ Well a girl can dream you know. LOL

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Yeah I understand why you feel bothered that you can’t be upfront 100% with people now. It is not easy for some people to “catch” your “channel”.

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Thank you thank you for seeing that!!

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Although with 12th house mercury I often withhold my words on topics that I consider important. But with 3rd house moon, my thoughts and feelings pour out of my every pore. They swirl like a tornado above my head, pop up like road signs and flash like those multi-coloured lights in a circus.

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SO COOL, both the way you describe it and how I see you living it!

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About empathy, I used to feel “guilty” when bad things happened to people. When I was a kid I used to cry and wonder why I had a lot of food and so many people didn’t...I’d love to hear your and Rie’s experiences on this matter.

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I was more sensitive as a child, too. I am still extremely sensitive, to the point where, if I hear about someone's misfortune, I cannot disengage from it. It becomes my misfortune. Adding to that, I deliberately bleed into other people sometimes; for example, I have this odd habit of watching YouTube videos about tragedies like children dying of cancer. And I know it will bring me down for a long time (the duration depends on just how sad the video is), but I do it because I don't want people to suffer alone. They ask for witnesses by posting to YouTube and I feel like I'm doing something to help by watching. This is my form of "prayer." Sometimes I say to people, "I'll pray about that," because either they ask for prayers or I just feel like using the word prayer. But what I mean specifically is, "I will empathize, I will try and share your emotional state for a good long while, and hope this somehow ripples out to you so you feel can feel less alone."

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When we were in a long-distance relationship, although we just met, we felt very close and would know if the other was sick/felt upset... I’m ceres, I’ve read that ceres is about nurturing, and it is true in our case, although so many other aspects in the synastry can point to it.

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So cute! I only had strong telepathy with one ex...although my husband and I can be so much on the same wavelength that I know what he will say next, know what will make him laugh, etc. I think that just comes from being around him for so long, and noticing patterns...not being in his head or "of one mind."

Ceres in synastry, oh I wish I had a book on that! So interesting. My Ceres is conjunct my youngest's sun and he is probably the most clingy child I've had, and I totally love it! He's like a little monkey baby hanging onto me.

So much more to say...oh I wish we had that coffeehouse and could all talk in person! But I will leave it at this for now. I only asked one or two questions so you won't feel pressure to write back with a long post. Though I love hearing from you both.

posted August 07, 2013 03:36 PM            

Wow, it could've ended that badly? That would've been scary to sit there waiting for it, whether they were going to go through with it or not. The cattle will live now.

About the Chinese signs, they all were similar to a Western one, weren't they? I think the Rabbit was Pisces? That suits your Moon. I did think, "Hey, that's like her" while reading that article.

Oh, dear, that article on Snakes. I must've missed the memo on all of these people helplessly in love. I have been with other Snakes. "The Snake is a nice oversexed normal human being."
Lol, off to a good start!

Funniest thing is, I'm actually very much scared of snakes. Can barely watch them on TV. A friend in college once asked me why, "they don't even have legs". Well, they can still kill you even without those legs! Me and my four limbs won't even save me from a bite.

posted August 07, 2013 03:40 PM            

Hahaha, yours, too? It's like they don't know you're there. They have a better memory than expected.

Fingers crossed you'll have a smooth ride anyway! Or as smooth as possible. Yeah, I can only say this about your online posts, but I haven't really seen much. If anything, you tend to just get a bit short, would you say that? It's good you can admit about losing sometimes! It helps to know when to walk away.
Online arguments are often just... not worth the energy. Sadly, it's easy to get involved anyway. It's like you tend to lose all cool seeing it spelled out in front of you. I avoid it mostly, even discussions. There's some stuff in Sweet Peas I'd join in with if I could support my argument. I guess I'm not that kind of person. And not good with politics.

Aww thanks. It's gotten a little worse lately, I've been eating too much ice cream with this weather. Time to get back to something healthier. Yes, maybe! Saturn's a tough master to please. But what can you do? Our lights are in Cap anyway. Ahh, is it that bad? of course you won't ea. I'm sure you're in good shape eating this properly! Heh, salads, it's easier when you like that kind of food. I imagine that kind of diet would put some people through withdrawal. You know, I've tried nibbling some greens for lunch after your talk with Muddy. It's not too bad! Don't think I could do it every day, though. Lol people here tend to call it "rabbit food". >_>
Searching the cupboards, right? Haha, sometimes it's just too easy... I wonder how some people can get that big a breakfast through their throats in mornings. Maybe for brunch.

posted August 07, 2013 03:42 PM            

Yeah, I know. Sometimes I want to drop all the hard work, though, thinking "what am I even doing this for?" Thank you! Crossing my fingers it will. Before my Saturn Return, I hope!

Haha, the good thing about dual signs. Getting everything in twos. Ahh... I don't think so? Not that loud, I mean. You seem to do it for the right reasons, but yes, that 11th house one really packs a punch. At us, sadly. Feels like there always have to be a fight or some sort of misunderstanding somehow. Where's the peace?! Lol.

Thanks again ^ Took me long and a lot of googling to really find an interpretation that felt right. Oh, I'd love to have that as my mission. Fighting for your right to party~ Nah, it's probably about being okay with your childlike, playful side and I definitely need to learn to be on my own without doing it to kill time. As for any recent examples, I don't know. I've been talking about this to a training coach a lot and I'm really feeling the urge to be more independent. Easier said than done, though.

^ That's what I was thinking. I don't know why they'd stick to me in the first place, I'm a boring, too sensitive air void! But your Mercury trines my Ascendant, it's a good buffer, and mine is actually in the Aquarius duad. Does feel good! A mentor or some sort? Yeah, that works! Lots of my favourite musicians or actors have something on my NN. Their work speaks for them. Sarah McLachlan's music especially gives me encouragement and a feeling of understanding - she has Venus square Uranus, too.

Sounds like you do have some rapport with him. Shame you don't have that birth time. Wouldn't Moon-Mercury be good... or is it setting something off? Talking about trivial stuff while his NN is pointing at going deeper, that sounds like a tough conflict for him. Not that those Nodes are easy lol.

I've found that cliché stuff can still move you, though, it became a cliché for a reason. Still, yeah, it just... doesn't feel you, does it? You're going to pour your heart out and then you come with that, as if you couldn't come up with anything more creative. If it's really not you, you're doing good by not pushing it anymore. It'll come out when you're ready. Everything you've said here so far feels very real and genuine to me!

posted August 07, 2013 04:59 PM            

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Speaking of compassion, have you ever felt that you’re somehow “responsible” for the sufferings of others? Or does seeing other people sufferings affect you a lot?

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Yes, I definitely have and still do. Pretty sure it's one of the things that caused my back problems. I just kept going and going for everyone. And I knooow! I just can't ignore anyone in need. If someone's crying, I get all, "Should I go over there?" I don't want to get into people's space, but yeah, I wish I could take some of their pain away.

Haha Faith, I'm not that much of a Vermeer fan (or any painter, really, more into musicians), but damn do I love that painting.

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Exact Cancer Mars-Lilith in the 12H (people don't really understand our chemistry)

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Ahh, Muddy, do you happen to have a very bouncy step? That seems to be a very horsey thing.

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Lol what’s with leos and caps and getting married quickly? Extra-cap YTA and his gorgeous leo wife is another leo-cap couple who got married at lightning speed.

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About empathy, I used to feel “guilty” when bad things happened to people. When I was a kid I used to cry and wonder why I had a lot of food and so many people didn’t, why I deserved a better chance... Then I stopped coz I realized I wasn’t doing myself or anyone any good. Now I feel bad for the bad things that happened to people and try to do what I can to help and ease their sufferings, but their pains don’t affect me the way they did before. I’d love to hear your and Rie’s experiences on this matter.

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;_; Now I'm getting upset! No, it's okay. It's one thing to care about everyone's suffering, it's another thing to get paralysed by everyone's emotions. I don't think I used to cry, but I'd choke up and feel just royally bad for the rest of the day, not knowing what exactly it was. Got nauseous a lot, too. Some particularly... strong opinions have gotten me close to throwing up. (I'll keep it tasteful, don't worry!) Does that sound familiar?

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Haha about the telepathy, I think you, Rie and I have it going on lol When I posted my picture I thought “Hmm wouldn’t it be nice to see Rie and Faith too” and the next morning I got to see more of Rie’s photos. I have to say that Rie’s adorable, especially in the second pic. Such a cheeky, flirty smile, and that “look” in those eyes <3 See, I sent my thoughts to you two and you caught them kaka.

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posted August 07, 2013 06:01 PM            

But I did see something else. You have your moon on my Vertex!!! First time someone's put something on there. Definitely felt like I was meant to run into you over here. Maybe my mother has something here, too, probably, but you're the first moon here. Didn't know how much I liked those until it happened!

You know, that could be. The community was pretty big, but not by all means as big as the more popular fiction websites. (I think I said most on this in my last post, blending them together.)

Yeah, I can tell you're a bit of an adrenaline junkie. Hehe. Power rush! Sure, let me know when you're available.

Better luck in the next one! Gotta admit, I'm a little jaded from watching so many of them as a teenager. Not much really does something to me anymore.

Wow, you can do that? Not even annoyed? That's really awesome. Wish I had those quick flashes. Mine are more like an eruption, destroying everything in its path. They used to last over an hour. No, not proud of it. There's a reason I keep anger to myself. Or it's show through hyperventilating. I hated that. True, it never is, except for having a chance to say your thing.

Again, you know what to say. Thanks for being so sweet about it. I think I know that it counts for more than just results, somewhere in the back of my head, but I've been treated so much on result that it just stuck that way. I can't really be truly happy with just trying. The frustration always comes first and I gotta go through that. I'm glad you do see more than that. True, I did know it was the right thing to keep something to myself. It's just something you feel out, you know?

It's how I feel!

posted August 11, 2013 12:49 AM            

Lol speaking of caps and leos. I think there is a reason why there seems to be an attraction between those two signs. Leos are encouraged to shine at the centre stage, and Capricorns (the ones who aren’t so self-absorbed) can clap and look on adoringly.

Oh, I see that writing dark fics serves as an outlet. With your libra risings and virgo influence, I imagine that you can keep yourself in check pretty well, no wonder why you don’t suddenly get nasty.
Ugh, whenever I hear about people like your mentor I get rather annoyed. They never seem to remember that there was a time in which they were young and inexperienced. No one starts out knowing everything, geez. Anyway, I’m happy that those things are in the past now. You found a job that suits you and your health conditions.

Yeah, 6 planets in the 12th house. If my memories don’t fail me, then I think that the person said that he/she had quite a few typical 12th house problems. He/she felt “misunderstood”, which lead to feelings of being isolated and loneliness.

Thank you sweet <3 My moon is on your vertex kaka I can see my charm working ^0^ The feelings is mutual kaka.

Saturn and Neptune is an odd pair. I like to keep a balance between them. I believe that we can find true happiness when we keep our physical/material world and our spiritual world in harmony.

LOl I’ll give you a whole carriage of cookies. From our conversations, I think you and Faith are self-sacrificing, I’m way too self-centred lol. Thank you for saying that I can say whatever I want here, I really appreciate that <3 Truth is I can be very emotionally detached from that part of me, to the point that sometimes when I tell my stories it feels as if I were telling someone else’s stories. Weird.

Yeah I’m way too hyper sometimes. Dangle my feet, playing with my hair, shaking my legs, making faces.... I don’t think my body or my mind ever want to rest. Lol even when I’m asleep my feet and legs still twitch or move – restless legs syndrome.

About the synaesthesia, when I was very little I didn’t know what it was so it felt quite strange. But I kept it to myself and reassured myself that not everyone was the same. I have never given much thought to it, but it does play a part in my life. Sounds often have colours and tastes. Words and number have colours, colours have tastes and sounds.... the 5 senses are all jumbled up. People’s voices also have certain “tastes” I strongly suspect that I was instantly attracted to my husband coz I like the way his voice “tastes”.

With those squares to the moon, I’d like to describe it as the abused little child, stolen youth and trampled innocence. That’s why I like to pamper my moon. Thank you for saying that you can feel a sense of self in what I wrote. To me, my sense of self is sometimes pretty vague. I know what I want and what I rightfully deserve, but at the same time I feel very scattered and undefined.

posted August 11, 2013 03:00 AM            

How lucky to live near the beach <3
And Faith’s picture too. I agree with Rie, it brings a sense of freedom and vastness. My feet are itching to run on that field. IT’s good that they decided not to come back. It would have been a waste to ruin such a beautiful area.

The horse description fits me quite well The one thing I can totally agree is that I despise emotional manipulation and guilt trips, especially when they come from someone I care about. Sometimes I can tolerate it but that doesn’t happen often. In the past when people used that tactic on me I felt extremely used and abused. I felt like they use the affection I had for them a weapon. It’s one of the few deal-breakers.

The Horse despises being made to feel guilty.

Unfortunately, as the Horse is a creature of changing moods he's liable to lose interest suddenly in things he's taken up, whether it's a love affair, a single deal in business, or a whole career. He'll start again with the same determination

These people possess an extremely low boredom threshold and soon get tired of the same people and the same situations. They love their independence and, as soon as they feel a partner is making too many demands or limiting their freedom, they will rebel and gallop off in search of new pastures.

Due to their dislike of inactivity, Horses get involved in many sorts of works outside their chosen trade. Good with their hands.

This is very true. I know a bit about quite a few things. I don’t follow through and learn to master those skills though. Mainly coz I lose interest quickly.

Lol about the moles, it’s more of the position of the moles that make me antsy. The shape of my feet also plays a part. Moles, their colours and positions have meanings and reading them is one part of the chinese metaphysics study.

Strange I don’t have anything in the 9th house and virgo is on the cusp of my 9th house but much like you, I was brought up in an extremely religious family. My husband is also somewhat a devoted Buddhist.

Your story about how you met your husband is certainly interesting. Your relationship sounds very transformative and strong. Well it must be, otherwise it wouldn’t have been able to withstand all the changes. How did he cope with you being not religious anymore?

I like the way you empathize with other people, you are a very sensitive person. And Rie too. It seems like seeing other people’s sufferings bring up great emotional/physical reactions from you. For me, over the year I’ve become more detached. I can still feel people’s pain, but somehow it’s not personal anymore.

Lol RIe we have a mercury-venus square, kaka I wouldn’t have guessed. The moon-vertex obviously is too overpowering for that square to even have any effect lol.
Anger is one difficult thing to deal with. Although experiencing anger is natural, no matter how you deal with it, it still doesn’t feel quite right. If you keep it in, you risk getting all sorts of problems. If you release your anger, then you risk doing something that you might regret. If you try not to feel anger, you risk turning a bit apathetic. If you try to release your anger in a less destructive way, then another question still remains “What is a healthy way to release anger?” Lolz trying to do the right thing really isn’t easy. I don’t know, I guess just do what you feel like doing in that moment and try not to offend the laws. Kakaka. I’ve become more detached, so my anger doesn’t flare often, although I do extract my revenge when I feel like it. But at the end of the day, those people really don’t matter, their lives, their opinions are just insignificant and irrelevant so they don’t leave a mark on me or the state of my emotion.