posted January 21, 2019 01:59 PM            

Lunar eclipses always make my period arrive earlier, usually 2 to 3 days earlier, this one was no exception, it had the added bonus that all my PMS symptoms yesterday were 3x worse than usual on an emotional level, feeling a lot better today. I tend to be sensitive to hormonal changes in my body I think bc my moon rules my 8th and squares my AC but I could feel yesterday the impact of this in my mood in a VERY pronounced way, kind of dark (very 8th house actually) and the eclipse was falling in my 8th.

Overall January has felt kind of heavy to me emotionally and I am thinking that is bc of the build up effect of the lunar eclipse...I mean in my case the eclipse falls in my 8th house so this could be why this month has felt heavy, there has also been a lot of concern around wanting to make progress getting rid of debt. I have also been thinking a lot about the passage of time, life and death and how my parents will pass away some day leading to me driving to work crying over this on Wednesday this week, 4th house ruler is Mars in leo in the 8th conjunct venus which rules my 5th, it also ignited a desire to have a baby but I don't feel comfortable going there until I get rid of debt. The eclipse definitely stirred up my 8th house it seems.

I was also hornier than usual this past weekend and tried something different with my partner to spice things up so very in line with Leo in the 8th and the eclipse conjuncting my angel/eros in the 8th.

The eclipse is suppose to be in effect for the next three months so maybe my finances, trying to get rid of debt and spicing up my sex life with my partner will be more of a focus.

posted January 21, 2019 10:07 PM            

Since uranus squared the lunar eclipse, my guess is that it will shake up the house it falls in and bring clarity around that house and the goals you want to focus on in the next 6 months. The eclipse is at Aries point in Leo so this eclipse its about movement, creating and starting something up. I guess the question is if it will shake you up into action or shake you up by forcing change into your life? or will it just bring you a pleasant surprise? a blessing in disguise?

Hopefully we take action towards our hopes and dreams (Sun in aquarius at aries point), take some chances and start something up, creating a new beginning (Moon in Leo at aries point) that supports those hopes and dreams (Sun in Aquarius at aries point). Hopefully this eclipse is about rewarding those who take a chance on making their dreams a reality. Fingers crossed.

To hopes and dreams coming true!

In honor of Martin Luther King Jr I will share a quote of his that fits this luner eclipse theme:

"Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase."
Martin Luther King Jr

posted February 04, 2019 02:14 AM            

So far, I've caught myself being a bit of a jerk toward a specific person on Discord and I'm far less accommodating, but at the root of this behavior is I consider her a hypocrite. She wants people to understand her and she won't return that understanding. In other words, she wants things from other people and she doesn't want to give them in return. She plays the victim and gets hurt over so much that I've begun to find her toxic and draining. The main issue is this woman and I are part of a mostly scattered community. There aren't many places available for people like us to go, which means I can't just cut her off. She'd only whine if I blocked her anyway.

I'm not always mean to her, but sometimes I just ignore her completely. There are moments when I don't care about anything she says and I keep talking. If something upsets her, sometimes I will just keep talking about it. It's because she has like a million things that she doesn't like to talk about and she makes everything about her. If she doesn't want to discuss something, she'll complain if someone ignores her and keeps talking about it. She has no hobbies or interests and she throws a fit whenever she doesn't get her way. Most of the time, I'm respectful of her limits and I change the discussion topic. At other times, I just want her to leave the chat temporarily until the topic has changed naturally.

My temper has been rising too. The phrasing in this post alone is not typical for me, especially my usage of "Whine" to describe someone's behavior. It's very rare for me to say that about people, but this woman has the unfortunate pleasure of being the one to bring it into my vocabulary. Never in my life have I ever met someone so infuriating. While I limit my communication with her, there are still moments when I want to be talking to people on that Discord server and I don't want to start drama by bringing up how much she gets on my last nerve - even in private to the admin of it. She is not always irritating me or driving me up a wall and I also haven't seen her breaking actual rules. She just guilt trips people that ask her if she can move her negativity to the more appropriate channel.

Honestly, it's not my place to want that woman out of the server. She has just as much right to be there as me. I'm just forced to take the high road every time there's a problem with her, because she's incapable of doing this herself. It's stressful, however, to bite my tongue simply to be more mature than her. I don't feel that much more mature than her. This post makes me question that.

After months and months of her constant whining and her even becoming much worse than she used to be, it's just taking its toll on me and I have to vent somewhere.

Pluto is currently square this women's Ascendant in Aries. Well, my Mercury in Aries is conjunct her Ascendant, so Pluto is square my Mercury too and I have more of an issue with her than she does with me. The real issue is when other people on the server are talking and I want to talk in the chat yet she's there as well. She's always in the chat. This woman has no life and I thought that *I* lack a life.

In our composite, Chiron is conjunct my Moon in Gemini and she has caused me actual physical pain before. The way she did this was my fault entirely, but that's just what happens when you have to bite your tongue that often and saying what you need to would blow everything out of proportion and cause drama that isn't worth it.

The woman I'm talking about is "dealing" with the Uranus square to her North Node. I put that word in quotations, because she's not dealing with it at all. She's just sitting there complaining about how destroyed she is as though only her feelings matter.

Neptune is back in orb for the quintile to my North Node and I've been unable to think clearly for several weeks now. Maybe Neptune is causing this strange feeling I'm getting. I'm not exactly able to pinpoint what the feeling is specifically. It feels like some awkward cousin of feeling light-headed but without the actual light-headed part.

So far, I think I'm overstimulated, which is an issue, because many of the things overstimulating me are directly impacting my mental health in ways that I cannot change. Climate change, the government shutdown, the whole "net neutrality" situation, and in general, everything now being about money, money, money, and did I say money? Life isn't about having free time anymore. It's about exploiting your ability to work so employers and corporations get more money. Because everything is about money, advertising, and doing a lot of things in as little time as possible as cheaply as possible, it's impacting how I experience my life no matter where I go. There is no escape from this unless I decide to worsen my already damaging isolation and use the Internet as little as possible.

I love Saturn and Pluto transits, but Neptune is the one planet that wrecks me. I never know what I'm going to get with Neptune and I dread Neptune's transition into Aries. The ingredients to a complete disaster are already in my household. Chiron is beginning to transition into Aries again and I believe I'm already feeling its conjunction to my natal Mars in 4th house. My sister has developed serious anger issues and they are much worse than my brother's anger issues are.

posted February 05, 2019 12:58 AM            

With my moon conjunct the south node in leo, every time the moon transits Leo ive been tending to get extremely irate.

posted February 06, 2019 10:22 AM            

My boyfriend and I have outgrown living in a one bedroom apartment. We don’t know where to put stufff any more, and we don’t want stuff anymore!
I cannot for the life of me get people to STOP giving me a MUG for Christmas!!! It’s just funny at this point. Why people thing I have the cupboard space, or think my cupboards are bare....I would rather get socks! Lol

My boyfriend is just asking for a new bread knife for valentines for this reason. Useful and doesn’t take up much space.
And he is going to take me on a mini Whole Foods spree with his amazon prime rewards money.
Pretty frugal valentines for us, and I think it’s good that we both can be mutually frugal for valentines once in a while.

Anyways to get back on topic we both want to have a house be our next step.

My bf and I make close to the same hourly. We both like living close to our jobs. We get the best deals on a house going east of where we live now. Anything west of us is out of our league or not as great of a deal.

Looks like I’ll be the breadwinner next year. I have a great job for not having a bachelors degree yet. So location wise, I have to speak up that the location needs to satisfy my job too.

This is my first year having paid snow days.
Neptune is 4 degrees past my Gemini asc. This is like the I’m out of the tunnel completely career wise part of the transit!

House stuff being up in the air while beginning to prepare for the first steps: I have an empty 4th house. Nothing big is happening in Virgo for a while I think.
But Jupiter is now in my 7th house. So maybe that will help us.
Can I say I feel a difference of Jupiter being out of my 6th house?!

posted February 06, 2019 01:04 PM            

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I cannot for the life of me get people to STOP giving me a MUG for Christmas!!! It’s just funny at this point. Why people thing I have the cupboard space, or think my cupboards are bare....I would rather get socks! Lol

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hahahahahaha

posted February 06, 2019 01:06 PM            

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Originally posted by Stawr:

My boyfriend is just asking for a new bread knife for valentines for this reason. Useful and doesn’t take up much space.
And he is going to take me on a mini Whole Foods spree with his amazon prime rewards money.
Pretty frugal valentines for us, and I think it’s good that we both can be mutually frugal for valentines once in a while.

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posted February 09, 2019 12:28 PM            

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Originally posted by Lerena:
I feel like I've been more aggressive lately, but it's too subtle for anyone to pick up on it. The best way I can describe it is the usual settings for my filter have been temporarily lowered. I'm not as restrained and considerate so I end up being more vocal and more blunt.

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posted February 09, 2019 05:42 PM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
I am a lot like this person you are so dismissive of, I never used to be, and it's very easy to judge when you aren't actually in the person's shoes. I'll leave it at that. But I feel bad for her.

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She acts like she's proud of the fact she's so violent. Her personal hardships and struggles don't cancel out her behavior and how toxic she can be at times. This being said, I've met worse people out there.

I was pushed to the point of venting about her in this thread, because I think Pluto's square to my Mercury is exposing how silent I've been over the past several years. The increase in my aggression is just a sign that I need to re-evaluate my communication with people and not excessively silence myself. If I wasn't so stressed out, I'd probably not have even chosen to post what I did. I'm well aware that I've silenced myself to the point it's unhealthy.

This woman worsens my pre-existing problems that aren't her fault yet regardless I have some similarities with her myself and this is part of my internal conflict. Unfortunately, our similarities are probably why we clash. It's unlikely this is a one-sided thing. She has been close to rage because of me in the past. We've butted heads in similar ways over similar behavior. I won't ignore that I have my own issues as well that significantly worsen the scale of her impact on my mental health.

All this being said, I'm not dismissive of her at all and I'd like to know what I said that resulted in me being viewed in this manner in order to properly explain myself. Just a note beforehand. I've calmed down since the writing of my previous post. I wrote it when I was angry. It's still an accurate reflection of how I feel, but I wouldn't phrase it all like that if I wrote it again. The phrasing makes me sound insensitive only because she pushed me to a snapping point that was reflected in my post.

If I was in her shoes, I'd be devastated and broken too, but there's a limit to how much I can handle hearing about it. As much as she stresses me out sometimes, I don't want her to be suffering and in pain. The problem, however, is she has resigned herself to thinking she's not meant to be happy and the Discord server hears about this all the time and even mid-conversation about something less serious.

posted February 11, 2019 11:15 AM            

What is interesting is that I haven't seeing his show in a very long and I haven't thought of him so is odd I dreamt of him out of the blue BUT his MARS IN SAG conjuncts exact my SOUTHNODE and Transit JUPITER is conjuncting Exact right now my SOUTHNODE and his MARS LOL so there you have it. Since is the nodes of my moon, it makes sense it would manifest in my dreams too.

I also dreamt of my nanny, she was visiting me and it was quite a surprise to me and she looked very happy.

The whole dream had this element and feel of good surprises.

Tr Jupiter in Sag at 19d30
My SOUTHNODE in Sag at 19d41
Grant Gustin's Mars in Sag at 19d21

Essentially Tr Jupiter is between my Southnode and his Mars but everything is conjuncting exact, interesting.

posted February 11, 2019 03:19 PM            

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Originally posted by Einfühlung:
Neptune has been squaring my venus for a year and now I’m really feeling the effects. I feel so lost

Will add more details later

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Are you more idealistic in love? What does your venus rule in your chart?

posted February 12, 2019 01:09 AM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
Are you more idealistic in love? What does your venus rule in your chart?

Looking forward to details...

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Oh definitely. I feel more carried away with love and blind to the obvious red flags that were glossed over with excuses and hope that could have been solved with more communication. My Venus is in Gemini in the 12th house. I guess it rules my ascendant since it’s the only zodiac there, but here’s my chart to be sure. Correct me if I’m wrong lol

posted February 12, 2019 12:30 PM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
hahahahahaha

Congrats on the promotion at work

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posted February 12, 2019 04:03 PM            

But I wasn't crazy, and I didn't need to be kicked while I was down—I needed help. I needed understanding. I needed to feel unconditional love. I needed to not be judged. "
http://nylon.com/evan-rachel-wood-mental-hospital?fbclid=IwAR3GPI6UfUq4ta5Mw2TXpQ0E20kmPLYVIZWGqXJuSSMC5Dv5f1wK6ZqYPkw

posted February 28, 2019 01:59 PM            

Don't worry about the Pluto-Squares. They are not as bad as you would imagine. There are other transits that need more attention when they occur.. You're going to be all right. .. BETTER that all right. You'll see, eventually.
.. Sometimes you have to 'give' these kinds of things the stretching of 'time'.. and you don't notice them until after you have some time away from it. You ought to be pleasantly surprised, later. New sense of mastery can be 'felt'. You'll see.)

posted March 05, 2019 06:17 PM            

Pluto on Asc has increased my obsession with gym &working out. Add to that an extremely sensitive response to verbal and physical violence.

Neptune is also trine my Moon/Venus .So it could be Neptune too.But yesterday I found myself praying (again) for the world.