posted June 09, 2018 07:20 AM            

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Originally posted by mirage29:
Have a better June everybody.

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Hopefully. This year has sucked. I was really sick for two weeks, and this past week has been one of getting my strength back.

posted June 09, 2018 03:33 PM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
I hope so too! Relationships can be so fragile.

This year my mood has been pretty good but in May I met someone and had a fling for about 3 weeks and it ended and I felt heart broken for about a week or two.

But heartbreak leads to reflecting. I am the lover archetype which is essentially a love addict. Even as a child I remember thinking I wanted to have many lovers and experience a big big big epic love story, I was already the lover archetype then and my brain was already seeking to get high. I don't think I will change bc I don't want to change, this is who I am BUT I feel at least now I can label it correctly and understand what is happening in my brain and be more real to myself about what is happening.

^^Maybe this is the gift that transit Saturn quintile my Moon is giving me. A more realistic deeper understanding of my emotional nature, emotional needs and compulsions.

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Aw man so sorry about the heartbreak. I had one 3 yrs ago. Saturn was squaring my Venus. Was upset but also relieved.

Haha when I was little I wanted multiple boyfriends. Boy crazy from an early age.

Oh yes the intensity of the transit has passed. The Virgo nagging drives me mental when I am busting my ass. We experienced for a year me being the bread winner.
And in all honesty I learned that constant overtime makes me very unbalanced and unhappy.
When we were first together I was working part time and doing school full time and part time.
When our roles switched....
I was still cooking dinner while working over 40 hours. And then I would get nagged and criticized about what I’m not cleaning up around the house while cooking. He still had the same expectations of me when I had more free time on my hands.

I’ve been close with many Virgos in my life...(sorry y’all) I have no Virgo in my chart so I don’t understand why it’s okay for Virgos to critique others, but then when I do it they don’t handle it well and express being very hurt by it. It’s like if it hurts your feelings so much then why do YOU do it???

We have come a long way. It can take a long time. I got pushed to the point where I told him he should be making dinner, and he had started cooking for us now.

I can’t really expect a Virgo stellulum to stop being a nagging critic? No, but I can still get my point across and stick up for myself when nessescary

But yes he tolerates working over 40 hours better than me. He has no Cancer in his chart. Though I might be a smidge more of an extrovert than him. I actually really enjoy being able to stay home. It feels good to be able to clean, cook, reorganize, do a home diy project. My sanity needs it, if am always out and around people, I get mental. I have Jupiter in Cancer.
So when I had 3 weeks off in the summer, I went above and beyond. I reorganized stuff he did not know what to with like his keep sakes, and sports equipment, I figured out how to organize my diy project stuff. I even apolstry cleaned the vacuum.

Anyways if I got the time to clean, and his stuff is out where it shouldn’t be...I put it away where it goes! AND I don’t complain about it!!! I like surprising him and taking care of him like that. He doesn’t! I will be bothered if my stuff is out where it shouldn’t be. He doesn’t give a **** how long of day I had, how busy I am, if I have a higher priority to tend to. I’ll come in the door, he will be on the couch and will say “can you please do something about that?” Half the time I’ll tell him off. Recently I’ve brought up the point that I was glad to pick up after him when I worked part time.

So yeah I realize more than ever than I am only a cleaning person by the amount of time I have on my hands. I am not cool with having expectations to clean like I have nothing else going on. A minimum of 42 hour work week sometimes way more. Errands, basic chores, I have dinner with my 95 yr old Grandma every other Tuesday after work. Showering. Laundry. Having a family life and a social life. When I had more of a 40 hour work week. I had certain cleaning routines I could keep up with. And on the breaks, I could deep clean and reorganize. None of that happens now.

Some hard ***** could say there is no excuse and I should spend every waking second in my apartment cleaning until it’s time to go to bed. I am also on my feet a lot at my job, I work with toddlers. I’ve had a heel spur problems since February.

Anyways, I told my stellulum Virgo bf recently that I will never get a job that is over 40 hours again when I job hunt this summer. (One thing I like having a fulfilling life outside of work) I told him that I have not felt appreciated enough by him.
I’ve seen I slight change in him, after that. He knows not to nag about certain things anymore. He randomly brought me home flowers on Monday. He cooked the chicken for once, and he burned it. 😆

But yes he was getting on my nerves this week.and I would say things like “ good, I’m glad you are coming home later. I can do things at home in peace” and yesterday he didn’t realize how tired and sick I was starting to get “when he said he was going to his friends”!after making me so disgusted. I snidely said I was glad he was going to his friends, and told him off about his critiquing is basically kicking someone who is down. And had no affection for him, even though he said he would stop.

And that’s when he got so hurt and said he would do me a favor and not come home tonight. I was upset by this but did not want him beg him to stay. I told him that his expectations are are ridiculous and that he should just get a sex robot. 🤷🏻‍♀️And how miserable I am and that he is picking on me. He tried to talk to me about something else before he left. And I said “no I am not talking to you about anything else if you say you are going to leave”

So yeah I was pretty shaken up by that last night. That has never happened. Part of me wanted to contact him/text him, but part of me did not. So chose not too. And he did come back home last night, and I was glad.

But yes basically my point is if me being domestic is important to you be okay with me staying home and working less.
That is me personally, not everyone has to agree with it. I don’t want to be expected to do everything in an “equal relationship”

Anyways my bf went back to full time...yeah maybe part the push was that I can’t throw up in his face that I work more than him when he nags me, he also recently got a dollar raise at his job.

I recently completed my last full week at my job. Sick of arguing on Fridays occasionally and starting my weekend off like that. I have no plans, get a fever. So much for catching up around the apartment and running errands. I’m suppose to go to the beach with friends on Sunday, I don’t know.

So much typing, having to stay home sick, rest, and having a few cups of coffee means get stuff off my chest.

posted June 15, 2018 11:06 PM            

The funny thing is that he was weird and into kinky stuff and his DC was in aquarius and his moon squared uranus and I liked that he was strange, that is part of what drew me to him (in line with transit uranus in the 5th house theme).

This energy has felt more disorienting than exciting though but I imagine as Uranus settles in this new house it will stop feeling so disorienting and weird. Is like the rules of the game have changed and I have not adapted to this yet.

So uranus has been having its fun with me but hopefully in time I will get use to this energy and get it to work for me instead of feeling jerked around by it.

I finally feel like myself again today. I did learn a lot since I obsessed and psychoanalyzed the hell out of everything that played out; one of the benefits of depression/heartbreak.

posted June 21, 2018 02:17 AM            

Update: so its not over with the Moon on my IC and my Moon in his 8th guy, we met up today and he wants to move in with me and have a polyamorous relationship. Tr Uranus in the 5th square Eros started this relationship, I literally met him when tr uranus conjuncted my 5th cusp and squared my Eros while opposing my saturn, the transit activated a tsquare while it entered my 5th. The opposition to saturn has caused some delays and issues hence why I was under the impression it was over but it wasn't. Tr Uranus in the 5th is going to be very interesting..

Tr Uranus opposing Saturn is also playing out by presenting me with a conflict of staying in a traditional secure arrangement or trying something completely unconventional that will allow me to explore many things I feel curious about.

posted June 21, 2018 09:11 AM            

It was transiting my 6th house, house of health, nervous system, and well being.... among other things.

Yesterday I went for a treatment to help heal one of my vertebrae. I have chronic back pain and calcium buildup on my spine.

The nurse looked at my x-rays, and said something other doctors never said; that the issues with my spine could be pushing against my kidneys and causing extra back pain.
I told the nurse that yes, that was exactly it, and I have had issues with my kidneys recently. (interesting that Libra = kidneys as well).
Anyhow, the treatment itself was painful as it helped "readjust" one of my vertebrae. I have to go back for more treatments. My nervous system has been greatly affected. They say after a couple of treatments, after healing, I'll start to feel the benefits, but the first can be the most painful...

posted June 21, 2018 10:50 AM            

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posted June 21, 2018 10:54 AM            

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Originally posted by Desiring Shadows:
Natal mercury square transiting Pluto
Having to deal with power plays from people who won’t grow up and just want to fight me for no reason.
My transiting Saturn square Chiron doesn’t like a of the extra stress but that is life.

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posted June 21, 2018 10:59 AM            

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Interesting...

Update: so its not over with the Moon on my IC and my Moon in his 8th guy, we met up today and he wants to move in with me and have a polyamorous relationship. Tr Uranus in the 5th square Eros started this relationship, I literally met him when tr uranus conjuncted my 5th cusp and squared my Eros while opposing my saturn, the transit activated a tsquare while it entered my 5th. The opposition to saturn has caused some delays and issues hence why I was under the impression it was over but it wasn't. Tr Uranus in the 5th is going to be very interesting..

Tr Uranus opposing Saturn is also playing out by presenting me with a conflict of staying in a traditional secure arrangement or trying something completely unconventional that will allow me to explore many things I feel curious about.

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You know, this kind of arrangement wouldn't be for me, but if I had more independence, and just felt happier, I can see how just dating would be a good thing for me. I've just been unimpressed with certain things, when it comes to how people suddenly in love, treat others - or as with my sister, when the ring finally gets on her finger, that was when my life became hell. I don't like how other people are deemed unimportant, and that one person is everything. I'm not talking about sleeping with other people, I'm just saying that other people are important - family, friends. The world doesn't begin and end with that one ******* person.

posted June 21, 2018 11:02 AM            

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Originally posted by Lalafortunaea:
Moon was in Libra late yesterday (and today), trine my Chiron and Jupiter.

It was transiting my 6th house, house of health, nervous system, and well being.... among other things.

Yesterday I went for a treatment to help heal one of my vertebrae. I have chronic back pain and calcium buildup on my spine.

The nurse looked at my x-rays, and said something other doctors never said; that the issues with my spine could be pushing against my kidneys and causing extra back pain.
I told the nurse that yes, that was exactly it, and I have had issues with my kidneys recently. (interesting that Libra = kidneys as well).
Anyhow, the treatment itself was painful as it helped "readjust" one of my vertebrae. I have to go back for more treatments. My nervous system has been greatly affected. They say after a couple of treatments, after healing, I'll start to feel the benefits, but the first can be the most painful...

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posted June 21, 2018 11:05 AM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
I'm just saying that other people are important - family, friends. The world doesn't begin and end with that one ******* person.

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You are right and that is healthy and I respect that and believe it or not that is very scorpio thinking. Scorpios will love their friends and family just as much as their lovers. Part of it is because they know that people come and go instinctively do the nature of scorpio and its close connection with death.

posted June 21, 2018 11:11 AM            

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Originally posted by Lalafortunaea:
Moon was in Libra late yesterday (and today), trine my Chiron and Jupiter.

It was transiting my 6th house, house of health, nervous system, and well being.... among other things.

Yesterday I went for a treatment to help heal one of my vertebrae. I have chronic back pain and calcium buildup on my spine.

The nurse looked at my x-rays, and said something other doctors never said; that the issues with my spine could be pushing against my kidneys and causing extra back pain.
I told the nurse that yes, that was exactly it, and I have had issues with my kidneys recently. (interesting that Libra = kidneys as well).
Anyhow, the treatment itself was painful as it helped "readjust" one of my vertebrae. I have to go back for more treatments. My nervous system has been greatly affected. They say after a couple of treatments, after healing, I'll start to feel the benefits, but the first can be the most painful...

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posted June 21, 2018 11:13 AM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
I have Pluto square Mercury, it's been on and off for over two years now. Sometimes, I'm just too emotional and I react to others, but over the past month I've noticed a lot of snippiness in general. All over the place. Yesterday, I said I was done with something, and yet someone kept poking me. a stranger. I checked my transits for the first time in a month or so, and found that Mars is moving to conjoin my own, and square my Moon/Venus/Nodes, and the Moon was around my Pluto, opposing Jupiter (overly-emotional on top of PMS), and squaring Saturn after it moved into my 12th. Now it's opposed my Mercury/Ceres/Chiron/Sun.

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posted June 25, 2018 03:40 PM            

I haven't had the time to listen to it yet. I will in the future. I usually attend their periodic free televised webcasts when I am available. I subscribe to their newsletter.

They keep their ear to the ground on various social topics. Groups, leaders, (and politicians?), come together to share and discuss the problems/progress, while working on solutions.

posted June 25, 2018 11:03 PM            

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Originally posted by Lerena:
The effects of my boyfriend's Uranus transit have kicked in. It's a square to his Venus, but I believe some of the difficulty from the square is being minimized a bit because of how close Uranus is getting to my own Venus. I believe by declination the parallel is presently within orb. Instead of the square, I'm going to be experiencing the conjunction.

I didn't expect my boyfriend to ask for an open relationship though. I know Uranus tends to bring in unexpected stuff, but it still surprised me to be asked that. I said yes, of course. I think it's a good idea for us to have one.

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Every lasting relationship has to experience the square at some point.
Sometimes I think about people who have been married a long time, and what they did during their Uranus square Venus transit.

posted June 26, 2018 12:04 AM            

When things were not retro...a majority of my life basically sucked.

Working at a school I’m off in the summer. I can put myself first. Just got back from vacation. Starting my online classes.
It’s hard to find better jobs that are close at a school that pay better. Which pushed me to get a higher degree.
Caregiver sub for my Grandma. And watching my niece and nephew on Thursdays. So I have some money coming in. To me it’s so worth it, it’s temporary. To experience flexibility in schedule! I haven’t experienced this in a long time.

Maybe I like the retrogrades so much cause I am experiencing Neptune rx in my 10th house. Jupiter rx in 6th house. I am starting to think that this is my least favorite place for Jupiter to be. Then Aqua mars house 10 rx. The universe gave me a break during such a heavy 10th and 6th house time in my life. Thank you!!!

Sometimes I wonder if things are better with Jupiter AFTER the retrograde. Maybe I’ll feel more of the Jupiter luck aspect rather than the other side which is “overexpansion”

I sometimes wonder how easy it will be to move forward and elsewhere with the rx.

All I know is that my situation is not permanent. I wonder, what if I actually don’t find something else by fall? Well the planets will still move on.

I wonder about this Pluto square sun transit going on. The power struggles aren’t going away anytime soon. Do they ever? 😆

posted June 28, 2018 03:12 PM            

Mars Retrograde in Aquarius
Quote - Adam Elenbaas
Nightlight Astrology

Mars has turned retrograde in the sign of Aquarius, marking the start of a long period of Mars also being closely conjoined with the south node of the Moon.

Here's what to watch for:

* The frustration of the will
* A sense of futility and detachment
* Apathy and indifference after a defeat
* Feeling ineffective, weak, or exhausted
* A tendency to become easily agitated or triggered
* The feeling of being forced backward
* Giving up what's been gained or no longer desiring something you fought hard for
* The wisdom of defeat, failure, and frustration
* The education of the will
* The startling realization that you don't care, and that it feels good!
* Finding a more peaceful way to satisfy your desires, achieve your goals, or make your point
* Restraint and discretion
* A healthy level of detachment, not knocking the front door in when the back or side door is wide open
* Patience, tolerance, and observation get the job done
* The need to fight without being "Anti"
* Letting go of grudges or harsh feelings or opinions
* The feeling of being out of control, of choice being taken away
* Shaking a fist at anyone who suggests being calmer, surrendered, and accepting
* Quitting
* Actions not leading to what was intended
* Strong actions get strong responses...not always good
* Easy to escalate, easy to deflate

Stay Beautiful,
Stay Steady,
Stay in Touch,
Stay Strong

posted July 02, 2018 06:43 PM            

Until today I noticed that my views on death have changed a tad. I use to want to live as long as possible. Now I think it’s overrated. My grandma is amazing.
She is basically the only person in the family who is retired currently. That can make it difficult for her to understand why she feels neglected sometimes.

She is a Libra sun with Leo moon. So she needs attention. Sometimes she lets people know it’s not enough. This can be aggravating for anyone who works, has kids, is in school, doesn’t have a maid to clean their house etc.
I am very lucky that my life allows me to put in good effort to see her. She doesn’t complain about me much.
You can’t just simply tell her you are leaving. She will think you are leaving beacause you feel like it, not because you have your own life.
I will say that some family does not put in enough effort, but that’s not my issue.

I have learned so much about my ansestors, and have more valuable memories with her.

But I vent to my sis cause she’s been getting more senile, and I was putting effort into seeing her after a brutal day at work.
Sometimes we feel like she is relying on us to be her entertainment.

So I caught myself having a revelation of if I outlive most people my age of my family, friends, spouse? And I need to depend on all the people decades younger than me for socialization??? Then I don’t think I want to live to be 95.

Maybe it just depends on the elderly person. I love having time to myself. But how much? Some folks definitely like their alone time more than others. And want to live in the middle of nowhere far away from their kids once they retire.

My friends Grandma was the opposite of mine where she told him how much or how little she sees him she understands that he has his own life.
Monday, my grandma freaked out that I couldn’t stay the whole day (I was there from 7:30-12)