posted May 29, 2020 06:49 PM            

*I still haven't received unemployment.
*Working on End of Year Books for my class some more. I do a little bit on them each day, then I do chores or slack.
*I'm out of coffee creamer, I am never keeping it in the back of the fridge, it doesn't expire til June and it turned into a lump! So frustrating. I am too stubborn to go out and I am having my Zevia colas.
*I've enjoyed my slacking and productivity today.
*It's a good day

posted June 10, 2020 01:44 PM            

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Originally posted by Stawr:
Neptune trine Moon
Neptune sextile Saturn
Saturn rx transiting 9th house

*I still haven't received unemployment.
*Working on End of Year Books for my class some more. I do a little bit on them each day, then I do chores or slack.
*I'm out of coffee creamer, I am never keeping it in the back of the fridge, it doesn't expire til June and it turned into a lump! So frustrating. I am too stubborn to go out and I am having my Zevia colas.
*I've enjoyed my slacking and productivity today.
*It's a good day

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posted June 10, 2020 02:06 PM            

Mercury conjunction Saturn, exact at 21:43 (L)
Sun sextile Mercury, exact at 01:03 (L)
Moon sextile Chiron, exact at 17:54 (L)
Moon sextile Sun, exact at 18:23 (L)

I think I like Mercury conjunct my Saturn. I cut ties with someone on Saturday, and wasn't expecting to feel okay, but for some reason I feel good today. I slept, woke up at 6:30am, was showered at gone 8am, and I've spent most of the day outside. The weather is perfect, and I need to get some plants in the ground before the storms arrive.

One cat was at the vet yesterday - he had two nails grown into the pad, and it wasn't good, but I'm glad it was just that, and not cancer, or even a benign tumour, like one of my dogs had back in 2009. Another cat still needs to see the vet, and someone thinks they may have found my cat that's been missing for three years, but I don't think it's him, especially since they're down in Cincinnati.

I have no appetite, but a lot of carrots to juice, so that's next up.

posted June 14, 2020 02:26 PM            

Lately all I see is how ugly he is inside, the anger, hate, narcissism, self centeredness, is like his shadow side has come to the surface and that is all I see. I see him as ugly inside.

Tr Uranus in the 12H square his IC and MC under a degree.

Tr Uranus is Quindecile (165 degree aspect) his Mars conjunct Uranus which is intercepted in scorpio in his 6th house. Tr Uranus is Quindecile Mars exact.

Tr Uranus is Squine his Venus in Leo which rules his intercepted Taurus in the 12H, Venus also squares his Mars conjunct Uranus!

I just told him right now, "you are constantly angry" and he said "you think I like feeling constantly angry?"

He also has pluto and Jupiter inconjuncting Venus which rules Taurus intercepted in the 12H.

I am glad I looked at his chart and transits bc at least I understand better now. His intercepted stuff is been activated intensely by both Uranus and Pluto transits as well as his 12H.

Is like all the stuff he has suppressed and not dealt with is coming to the surface. On a positive note he has been very productive for over a month so his 6th house interception is getting sorted out but he needs to deal with the 12H stuff too that he has suppressed.

posted June 14, 2020 04:23 PM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
Unemployment? You lost your job?

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Temporarily laid off. The parent tuition is where my checks come from. So if the school is closed no parent tuition and no paychecks.

Assuming I'm back in the fall, otherwise I have nannying to fall back on.

posted June 14, 2020 04:42 PM            

One of my best LL friends is having a very hard time. I wanted to invite her up to stay, because we could both use the company, but she's still recovering from covid, after three months, and I don't even know if I've been exposed, if she could catch it again, if my dad has been exposed... I hate this. Someone she loves is on life support, and I can't get down there to keep her company.

posted June 14, 2020 05:27 PM            

I got back from visiting my fiance yesterday.
-It was a very good visit.

Back to my grind now!

Working more on my boundaries with people.

I am enjoying the Gemini energy, working on getting an upgrade vehicle.

During the Venus rx feeling more confident has been a mixed bag. Brushing my hair in the shower has made a huge difference. I like seeing pictures of how I look now.

But I also feel challenged feeling like all that, with inner health issues like my period was a week late. I had it on some of the trip! Feet problems. Plus days leading up to the trip I got constipated to the point of having hemorrhoids. My sister gave me pills and magnesium powder before I left. I left the magnesium powder home, and regretted it.
So frustrated I'm singing the blues like "why does this happen to me!? I actually kind of try!! I often have fruits veggies and even salads daily! I take vitamins! Why is it not enough!!? It's not fair!!!"
So some days on the trip I was insanely uncomfortable!
The day time I was out with my parents. I had fun with them but I also wanted some down time before fiance came home. Plus with all my digestion issues. Some times I wanted to say after our big day when they stopped in "Don't take this the wrong way, but I need you to get the hell up outta here!" XD

I did some no-nos for Venus rx. I actually did buy an item of clothing at the local good will. I find that to be shopping in tune with the current back tracking Venus. It was in my size, something practical that I needed, and it cost 3.99. So I am willing to risk it.

I also bought new hair elastics, and bobby pins.(plus my few bobbi pins I had left are total crap) If I wasn't suppose to around this time, then why did I run out around this time? It's getting too inconvenient to follow some of these rx rules. This feels like the longest Venus rx ever though. I have vain stuff to do.

With all these planets taking a back track in my 9th house I've had my luckiest break in college yet. I got a 98% on my first paper. The week I am on vacation she tells us just to revise our old paper!

I also had to tell my self I don't owe anyone attention because I was away for a week. I felt obligated to someone needy at first but then I decided I am not! I am proud of myself. (it's a friendship that has seriously ran it's course, that I am starting to experience very little benefit from)

Finishing my day with a shower, and hopefully printing some pictures.

posted June 15, 2020 09:05 AM            

One friend of mine on Facebook posted a horrific video.And I was on him. Unfriended him immediately afterwards.

Some others would make juvenile statements and I would just roll my eyes to their insipid views. 🤨

What earthquake will be unleashed within me once Mars goes into Aries? I wonder🤔

posted June 16, 2020 07:46 PM            

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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
Niw I don't know whether its nMars/ transMars parallel or the current Moon in Aries conj Asc ? But I am quite critical of people's comments online.

One friend of mine on Facebook posted a horrific video.And I was on him. Unfriended him immediately afterwards.

Some others would make juvenile statements and I would just roll my eyes to their insipid views. 🤨

What earthquake will be unleashed within me once Mars goes into Aries? I wonder🤔

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This is an intensely emotional month, specially this past week I feel and I think its in part do to the Lunar eclipse June 5th which had Mars conjunct Neptune squaring the Lunar Eclipse and also the upcoming SOLAR eclipse this weekend JUNE 21st on Sunday that has a ton of water, in addition to mars conjunct neptune in pisces, there is also SUN and MOON in Cancer at aries point and mercury in cancer.

posted June 16, 2020 07:58 PM            

so during March/APRIL/MAY there were three supermoons back to back and then JUNE and July we have LUNAR eclipses with a Solar eclipse thrown in there.......

posted June 17, 2020 12:24 AM            

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LIKE SERIOUSLY WTF 2020.[/B]

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Yup, what Hypatia said. The only aspects that can support my sense of WTF tonight square Tr/natal Saturn and tr Mercury opposite N. Moon. In my case it's mostly feeling the heaviness that is going on. Not all has been bad of course but it truly feels like this year (only half finished) has been 20 rolled into 1!

posted June 24, 2020 04:52 PM            

I am getting used to doing sessions over video but don't do phone sessions anymore, I require people use video. I have gotten used to working from home. I am exercising daily and almost done with this show called "the good doctor" about a genius doctor who is autistic that I have enjoyed a lot watching. I feel things are back to normal enough as I can go to a restaurant if I really want to or do take out and I have been hiking a couple times. I don't really need a social life as long as I have the type of career I have as I connect with people for a living. Business for my husband is picking up this month and next month looks great for him. I personally have chosen to not live in fear, I am not worried personally of catching this, I don't think I will catch it and if I do I know my body will beat it. I am taking Vitamin D daily about 5,000 UIs.

I guess I am living in a different reality than many people, I just have chosen to not stress about this covid19 thing and to live my life in peace.

I feel empathy for people who are scared to leave their homes, is hard to live like that and is sad that a portion of people are living in such a high state of anxiety. I get too that people with kids worry more about dying because their kids need them. I get the elderly are at high risk and they worry about catching this. My parents though are good and happy but they live at home with my brother and have each other, they are also staying active at home with trainings and projects and are very cautious. Now the elderly who are stuck in an ALF and nursing homes those are the ones that are hurting bad and are truly at very high risk. They are so isolated and lonely, getting depressed since they cannot gather and do activities in the ALF and nursing home they would normally do and many are alone and don't have a significant other ect, is hard to have depression, loneliness and be worrying about catching something that can kill you.

posted June 24, 2020 05:18 PM            

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Originally posted by Stawr:
During these social distancing times, I have had such little desire to have a social life. Even as things open back up. I wonder what's wrong with me sometimes? Is this the new me?

But then I see that Mars is going to be in Aries for the rest of the year soon. Aries is my 11th house. The house of a social life. So this has been a comforting answer that I am just charging up my social batteries for the rest of the year.

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posted June 24, 2020 08:04 PM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
Maybe it's because you're engaged, you just have some idea of where your life is going? When I take it in chunks of time, it's easier for me to deal with. I know when I'll get out of the house, I know that this isn't forever.

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posted June 24, 2020 09:08 PM            

I will say though that I am not going to live my life scared or worried that I am going to give someone a virus by the mere act of existing and been human, is not my fault this virus exists and every day you are alive you risk dying as the only thing certain in this life is death. I would not resent anyone or humanity if I die of this virus and sit there trying to figure out who gave it to me because I know is not their fault this virus exists and they are just living their life.

Is interesting because death is the most certain thing in the world and simultaneously the most uncertain thing in the world, you know for sure is happening but don't know anything about it.

I would say this, my husband has had a super strong fear of dying for as long as I have known him and the other day he said that if he were to die now he feels at peace with it and explained why he would feel at peace with it and he ofcourse does not want to die but for him to say that is huge.