posted November 22, 2020 08:53 AM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
I have transiting Mercury in the first, trine Saturn in the 9th, and I've just been able to thank a teacher that I had before I dropped out of school. He was the only teacher to acknowledge the bullying that I was dealing with at the time (the reason for my dropping out), even though I lied and said that I was okay, when it was obvious that they'd had me crying when he was out of the classroom.

Thanks to facebook, and a group for that horrible school, I found him, because he was a favourite of the students: tough, but fair. I also have his birthday, thanks to facebook, but I'm too tired to look at his chart tonight.

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posted November 22, 2020 09:24 AM            

I am way more excited about my flight now. I was originally booked through Spirit.

I told fiance that I cannot throw money around to visit him with all the wedding expenses this year. (we usually split the costs) He paid for everything because he is a super money saver and yeah he makes more than me. But during Mercury rx he booked me the cheapest flight available. The type where I fly from Detroit to FL, FL to KS. (STUPID STUPID STUPID) Want a carry on? That's extra money. So I was not all that excited, because I already have enough stress in my life right now. I was going to land at 11:50pm then I have to get a car rental drive for 2 hrs.

Well my mom found something cheaper, paid for it. Non stop flight, and I can bring a carry on for free! I am starting to feel excited about flying now.

With the saggy energy I feel way more optimism. But there is still a lot going on with my 6th house. It is very much a take your work home with you month as a teacher. I just have to bite the bullet with a little getaway in between.

Dec 4th is my new wedding dress try on date. It looks like I'll be doing a door dash brunch before we go to the shop.

I slept at my parents last night, to get some good sleep. (neighbors are very obnoxious again) I took two sleeping pills to finally get some sleep. I'm thinking I might stay the night here before my flight. Because with the people under me it's so bad where it's like if they stay up late then so do I. My social worker friend told me it sounds like child neglect to a T. And that I can make another call to CPS. Maybe I'll do that instead of the cops having to tell them to STFU.

posted December 11, 2020 10:53 PM            

I forgot to take a bath. If I take one by a certain time, I know my hair wont dry properly. So I'll do it tomorrow.
More cleaning.
Yoga for my solar plexus.
And more xmas shopping with mom....
and OHMYGOSH laundry.

My fiance will be here in about a week too <3

posted December 14, 2020 02:31 AM            

I was all weepy yesterday (Saturday). So weepy, I thought it was bad PMS. The moon was in Capricorn, so that was probably part of it (square my Ceres/Chiron/Sun). I had an epsom salt bath in the middle of the night, washed that off in a quick shower afterwards, cried a bit more, and then fell asleep really easily. Today was better- the moon in Sagittarius aspecting most of my chart well.

posted December 14, 2020 04:57 PM            

I have felt its influence very strongly emotionally and physically.

I got my period today and the last 3 days have been AWFUL, I have experienced awful PSM symptoms, I have felt very sensitive, cried a number of times, felt deep emotional pain and physically have felt drained and bad. Like the last three days since Friday morning it felt physically like I was on my period already yet it arrived this morning.

Looking at the solar eclipse it is activating my chart hard core but is impacting me mostly EMOTIONALLY and PHYSICALLY but thinking about how it is activating my chart it makes sense.

The SOLAR Eclipse is conjuncting my Ascendant and Neptune and squaring my MOON which rules my 8th so no wonder I feel so sensitive and am feeling my emotions intensely, basically solar eclipse moon is on my AC which impacts my BODY and it is squaring my moon impacting my emotions, add the 8th house rules the reproductive organs and the moon a women's monthly cycle.

I am in total MOON mode and with the AC involved my Body is in "fu*k me!!" mode..........

Can't wait until his Solar Eclipse influence fades, it has been ZERO fun and all Hell.

Then add my nodal return is happening with this Solar Eclipse.

Too much moon stuff happening.

Felt it was worth an update.

posted December 14, 2020 05:42 PM            

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I’m sorry to hear that. I was thinking about you earlier.

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You are intuitive, I am not surprised, you could sense I was thinking of stopping by here

I also feel this strong urge to see my parents, probably all this MOON stuff and feeling drained emotionally, I know seeing them would help me replenish my spirits. They are the only two people in the world that Truly love me like for real you know, like truly truly truly. "Romantic love" cannot be compared to the love of a parent for their child. I may not be a parent but I have experienced it with my parents and the love they have for me.

Uranus in the 5th thinks romantic love is a joke tbh hahahaha.

I really hope you are doing well and hanging in there, this world is no joke.

On a positive note going through pain like this always helps be more understanding and compassionate bc it reminds me in a very real way that life is not easy and we are on this crazy mess together.

posted December 15, 2020 06:38 PM            

Eclipse yesterday: I thought I wasn't tired, I rolled over on the couch with out setting an alarm.
I woke up at 7:25. Ahh!
My class drove me up a wall today. The director told me to walk away and go get some coffee. That's how bad they were by 1pm. (There is none in the break room that is the point!) Luckily she told me where her secret stash was.
I was going to go grocery shopping after work, but I think it is best to let myself just chill....

I hate these dark mornings so much. It doesn't matter how early I go to bed. If it's still pitch black out when my alarm goes off...my body is just not having it. I need coffee to get out of bed to go get the coffee. I can't take it anymore, I am about to grab some red bulls to make my mornings easier the next few days.

Today Chiron is going stationary direct 04 degrees in Aries. Exactly square my Jupiter Cancer house 2. I pretty much nurture children for a living. I am feeling intense burn out with Covid teaching this year and some of my students are very difficult this year, even the easier ones will test me from time to time. I already feel so done with the year.

posted December 17, 2020 05:35 PM            

God I hope this is not how I am going to be feeling for the next 6 months. I need to pull myself out of this whole. Just talked to my dad and it gave me strength.'

I was just telling my dad that the last time I felt this bad was when I ended things with my ex which also happened during a nodal return.........wait...............

"the body remembers"

is my body remembering the trauma of that break up ? OMFG!

OMG if that is what is happening WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW

posted December 17, 2020 11:39 PM            

This time is not the loss of a relationship that was deeply intense that is knocking me out but feeling isolated because of covid19 and missing my parents deeply and not been able to see them. This nodal return is making me realize that the purest love is the one my parents feel for me and is deepening my love for them making me feel a sense of urgency in seeing them again.

Both nodal returns revolve around feeling the emotion of love intensely, strong bonds and loss, longing, desire to be very close with the one you love. In this nodal return my parents are alive but I feel a deep sense of loss because I cannot see them bc of covid19 restrictions and it makes me feel I am losing them even though they are alive, with my last return I created the loss by ending the relationship that meant so much to me. In this return there is also the fear I will lose my parents and the need to be with them before is to late while still hoping they will be around another 20 years.

IDK I am thinking Moon ruling the 8th and squaring the nodes is a type of karmic trauma response and activates my fight or flight mechanism.

My moon getting activated by the Solar eclipse and my nodal return at the same time means my Moon golden Yod with Chiron and Pluto got activated too.

I hope I don't actually lose a parent, I hope this is an emotional wound and response that is karmic that I need to work through and fully release.

Could it be unresolved grief from a past life??

I need to help my soul heal this unresolved grief from a past life. This goes deeper than this life I think.

Why couldn't this nodal return be fun?! LOL nah it had to be deeply emotionally intense and all plutonic ofcourse. Well I feel hope bc I am figuring out were this emotional intensity from this week is coming from so I don't feel insane any more and feel calmer now.

posted December 18, 2020 12:27 AM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
You are intuitive, I am not surprised, you could sense I was thinking of stopping by here

I also feel this strong urge to see my parents, probably all this MOON stuff and feeling drained emotionally, I know seeing them would help me replenish my spirits. They are the only two people in the world that Truly love me like for real you know, like truly truly truly. "Romantic love" cannot be compared to the love of a parent for their child. I may not be a parent but I have experienced it with my parents and the love they have for me.

Uranus in the 5th thinks romantic love is a joke tbh hahahaha.

I really hope you are doing well and hanging in there, this world is no joke.

On a positive note going through pain like this always helps be more understanding and compassionate bc it reminds me in a very real way that life is not easy and we are on this crazy mess together.

Hope you are hanging in there and doing well

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I know exactly what you mean. I’ve been down, but my SAM-e should be here tomorrow. I’m hoping that will help.

I found waterproof winter boots tonight, bought gloves and a hat, so that I can spend more time outside in the cold weather and snow. I think Venus is now in my second house. Opposed my moon/Venus, conjunct my north node. Saturn is now square my dad’s sun exactly, or almost exactly, and square my Uranus/ascendant.

I think your response is natural. You seem to be very social. Isolation is hard for just about everyone. If you’re used to travelling to see your parents, that’s one more thing that’s different this year. Also, with covid raging everywhere, it’s just natural. 💙 I am freaked out again, to a point.

posted December 19, 2020 04:28 PM            

We know that Saturn entered Aquarius recently but JUPITER has joined Saturn now and Jupiter has left Capricorn!!!!

Guys do you feel it!? I swear those TWO planets leaving capricorn feels lighter.......

Ladies and gentleman we no longer have a Capricorn Stellium! We can breath again hahahahahaha

With the capricorn stellium gone I feel we are finally at the final phase of the hard times we are all dealing with, still more to go but I feel at the final phase which makes me feel calmer when you can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

In March-April jupiter and saturn will no longer be conjuncting, I think we will stop having lockdowns by then with vaccines coming out now, by then people will feel more confident in the vaccines but civil unrest and protests will continue no matter what for one reason or another depending on political perspectives no matter what throughout 2021 bc we will have three Uranus square Saturn aspects play out throughout 2021 with the last one been on December 2021.

So at least we are over the Capricorn stellium with Pluto hump guys! this is good

posted December 19, 2020 04:38 PM            

Ladies and Gentleman open your windows and let some fresh air come in!

posted December 21, 2020 08:34 PM            

I started to feel really depressed yesterday. I've been dealing with it at varying degrees, but it really hit again last night, and I only got out of bed at close to 5pm today. I've been trying to feel festive, and it just isn't working. My dad didn't work weekends this year, and him being around has helped more - I felt good on Saturday, for that reason.

Anyway, I showered, but I might just go back to bed, and see how I feel tomorrow. I was going to try making rugelach, and chocolate chip cookies, but I'm just not in the mood, so I'm going to get lost in something - I finished 11.22.63 on Hulu, yesterday afternoon.

posted December 21, 2020 08:37 PM            

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What is the meaning of Festivus?

RELATED WORDS. Festivus is the name of a secular and non-commercial holiday characterized by the raising of an aluminum pole, the serving of a dinner, the airing of grievances, and the demonstration of feats of strength.

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posted December 22, 2020 12:54 PM            

I fully healed over past woes, now my energies will mostly be on myself unless others are true. Wishing to help others however ..

Tr Reiki (0) trine natal Reiki
and wearing my Lapis Lazuli often, been listening to all truth revealed within me and many secrets of others (in all walks of life) are known now,
Tr Moon is trine very tight Neptune.

posted December 24, 2020 10:02 PM            

I too am crying today again, the daughter of my nana (lady who worked for us when I was a child and took care of me) said merry christmas to me on facebook and I felt this intense pain and started to cry, again intense emotions took over me and all it took was the first baby I ever held in my arms to say in spanish Merry Christmas. I haven't seen my nana in many years and feel guilty about it and worry about her especially during these times so I took a moment to respond to her and ask her to give my nana a big hug for me and tell her that I love her.

This is not going to be a magical Christmas and it shouldn't be, how can we pretend?, if you are lucky enough to be able to gather with family then do enjoy it but otherwise just do what you can, I had some eggnog with brandy and we had some honey ham and plan to watch a Christmas movie, I just spoke with my family via video. I am aiming for an okay decent enough Christmas and am allowing room for sadness in there too.