posted February 28, 2020 03:06 PM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
Sounds awful!!!!!! I think you are experiencing some PSTD since you have a history of trauma bc of this near car accident you almost had that shook your sense of safety, this is very common. A lot of people come in bc they are experiencing PTSD due to a car accident and they often have a history of trauma that I feel gets reactivated by the car accident, bringing back all those feelings of not feeling safe ect....

Download Tapping Solutions and do some tapping rounds using the application to help get yourself back to your window of tolerance, right now you are in stress response and in hyperarousal mode.

Or try these two tapping meditations, I think he is amazing and very helpful:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=68m4dY8MJHA

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wplddzIxfSw

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Thank you. I'll check them out when I'm more awake.

posted February 28, 2020 03:13 PM            

Aries23 - fingers crossed for the interview on Monday.

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Originally posted by Stawr:
Woah...I just noticed something. I notice that Chiron in Aries is squaring my Jupiter in Cancer house 2. I knew this was going on but didn't think of how it has been adding on to the intensity I face in 2020 so far. I don't pay too much attention to Chiron compared to the mainstream planets and moon....

But I've had some real intensity of "I work so hard and THIS is what I have to show for it???!" I don't think I've experienced this mood so intensely. Plus I've never worked as hard as I am now in my entire life, and have much responsibility. I thought it was all the Capricorn gang bang squaring on my sun sign and Saturn return.

My income(house 2) and time at what I do for income...and all I have to show for what I call my home(Cancer) is THIS DUMP!? I feel deprived of domestic expression too. FOR THREE YEARS TO BE EXACT. I make a damn good house wife but the universe has other plans. I am not okay with my living being unchanged (and worse actually cause I have less free time to put into the home) when I have been moving on up in the world.

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I keep forgetting about it, too. It's sextile my Moon/Venus/SN, and inconjunct Uranus/ascendant. Also semi-sextile my Mars, I guess.

The lighting in our home drives me nuts. It was getting to me last night, but I couldn't leave, because the snow was heavy. My dad has been leaving most of the lights off, to save money, but we have these white christmas lights around the ceiling of the living room and the dining room, as well as the fireplace (that doesn't work, otherwise it might be cozy), so those lights are going back on tonight. The kitchen is cramped, too, and looks like it was an afterthought, once the house was built.

posted March 01, 2020 02:01 PM            

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Aries23 - fingers crossed for the interview on Monday.

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posted March 01, 2020 02:36 PM            

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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
I really appreciate this

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posted March 01, 2020 05:53 PM            

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Originally posted by teasel:

Aries23 - fingers crossed for the interview on Monday.

I keep forgetting about it, too. It's sextile my Moon/Venus/SN, and inconjunct Uranus/ascendant. Also semi-sextile my Mars, I guess.

The lighting in our home drives me nuts. It was getting to me last night, but I couldn't leave, because the snow was heavy. My dad has been leaving most of the lights off, to save money, but we have these white christmas lights around the ceiling of the living room and the dining room, as well as the fireplace (that doesn't work, otherwise it might be cozy), so those lights are going back on tonight. The kitchen is cramped, too, and looks like it was an afterthought, once the house was built.

It's been so cold, even my snow dog is ready to come indoors, after a while. He usually sits where he is, and pouts, or wags his tail and moves s l o w l y towards the back door, before sitting in front of it, instead of coming indoors.

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posted March 01, 2020 07:12 PM            

I feel happier and lighter. Jupiter is now taking Saturn's place squaring my Sun sign. So I know that I will still have some challenges and difficulties. I'll have to look up interpretations for Jupiter square Sun.

During this phase my travel will be more local. I'll be visiting my BF who will be about 2 hours away by driving instead of flying. I am totally okay with that. I got to fly from the Midwest to the southwest to see him and it was awesome. But I am ready to save up some money and see him more frequently. <3

I have so much work from home to do today I have to take a day off from college course work. I am so over doing this while being in college. It will be over early June!!

posted March 02, 2020 02:32 PM            

Currently I have Leo ASC w/ Ruler in 3, and that I take to explain why I've been so self-expressive and talkative, just generally 'open', recently. Lots and lots of other bits about "Leo" are true too.

posted March 02, 2020 04:27 PM            

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Originally posted by ULT12:
I've changed my mind about [b]Solar Return Charts. Up until recently I thought they were a load of wishful thinking & bollocks, but now... Dear God.

Currently I have Leo ASC w/ Ruler in 3, and that I take to explain why I've been so self-expressive and talkative, just generally 'open', recently. Lots and lots of other bits about "Leo" are true too.

Next year (Nov2020+) I have Scorp ASC w/ Sun-1 tightly-ish conj ASC... I wonder how that's going to be.[/B]

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I was the same as you and this past year or two have changed my mind about Solar Returns! There is definitely something to them.

posted March 02, 2020 07:42 PM            

My uncle is doing better. I don't think I need to worry.

My bf just called me, his grandpa is in the hospital now. I'm going to try to visit him at the hospital tomorrow. My bf might have to leave his job site earlier than planned. I think it's interesting that my bf is going through his first year at a new job that pays much more and is having a family emergency with a grandparent. I went though the same thing last year.

posted March 03, 2020 04:35 AM            

Well I did my best in the interview. And I just realized something. It came to me as the interview was progressing.

Pluto transiting the 10th is asking me to change something fundamental about the career aspect of my life.

Even as I thought I did by changing fields, it is asking for more. Something more definitive I guess.

As I was sitting there in the interview chair, there was no giddy excitement like there was before. Even (dare I say) a little boredom.

My mind kept telling me "oh gosh. Not this whole thing again." And that to me seemed odd because this is the natural process of getting hired .No?

And that's the issue that Pluto has here, it does not want the "natural" process anymore. Not when its been linked with trans Jup by conjunction and BOTH closing in on my natal Uranus by parallel aspect close to exact.

Trans Uranus is in my 1st and separating aspect with natal Pluto in the 7th.I also think that there is something to infer about this energy too.

Maybe there is a severance with the old momentum(Pluto) invested in relations with the public (7th). A time to refrain from trying to impress powerful(Pluto) others(7th) and embrace rebellious (Uran) me(1st)?

The natural process of hiring was to be obeyed to the letter all those years before. But is it still to be obeyed now? Even when so much has changed and I am not the same as I was before?Am I still going to let others decide how worthy I am?

So I don't know where my intuitive guidance system will lead me. I am open to taking cues to wherever it says I should go. Even if that is "crazy".

posted March 03, 2020 02:54 PM            

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[b]@teasel and hypatia238

Well I did my best in the interview. And I just realized something. It came to me as the interview was progressing.

Pluto transiting the 10th is asking me to change something fundamental about the career aspect of my life.

Even as I thought I did by changing fields, it is asking for more. Something more definitive I guess.

As I was sitting there in the interview chair, there was no giddy excitement like there was before. Even (dare I say) a little boredom.

My mind kept telling me "oh gosh. Not this whole thing again." And that to me seemed odd because this is the natural process of getting hired .No?

And that's the issue that Pluto has here, it does not want the "natural" process anymore. Not when its been linked with trans Jup by conjunction and BOTH closing in on my natal Uranus by parallel aspect close to exact.

Trans Uranus is in my 1st and separating aspect with natal Pluto in the 7th.I also think that there is something to infer about this energy too.

Maybe there is a severance with the old momentum(Pluto) invested in relations with the public (7th). A time to refrain from trying to impress powerful(Pluto) others(7th) and embrace rebellious (Uran) me(1st)?

The natural process of hiring was to be obeyed to the letter all those years before. But is it still to be obeyed now? Even when so much has changed and I am not the same as I was before?Am I still going to let others decide how worthy I am?

So I don't know where my intuitive guidance system will lead me. I am open to taking cues to wherever it says I should go. Even if that is "crazy".

I feel like by doing this,I will be honoring my natal Uranus parallel both these planets. And that trusting inner guidance is very much in keeping with what each actually represents from a fundamental level.[/B]

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I got goose bumps and my crown chakra got activated as I read your post, when people speak from their wise mind this happens to me, that is happening a lot to me lately, is like my body/instincts is letting me know they are unto something and in the right path or correct in their theory, going were they need to ect...

posted March 03, 2020 08:03 PM            

I get to pick up my boyfriend from the airport at midnight, and then go into work at 8am due to his family emergency. God where is MY RING!? I feel like I have to bend over backwards for him a lot for just being a girlfriend. I think I am going to make him drive me to work tomorrow. lol

With Mercury RX I feel like a lot of communication issues are being worked through/resolved at my job.

It's also the final week of this online class, and of course my job is super demanding.

posted March 03, 2020 11:21 PM            

Transiting Saturn in Capricorn @ 28'27
My Capricorn ASC @ 28'12
Also transiting Jupiter trine Sun

I was pleasantly surprised when my graduate school of choice extended an invitation to interview for my program, today. It makes a lot of sense that it would happen today...I've steadily worked very hard to obtain the resume, credentials, and background needed to be accepted to a program like this. I applied only 2 weeks ago so I feel like this is a very good sign that things are moving in my favor. I'm very hopeful that I interview well, I'm accepted, and I'm able to move forward with my career in the coming months.

posted March 03, 2020 11:29 PM            

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[b]@teasel and hypatia238

Well I did my best in the interview. And I just realized something. It came to me as the interview was progressing.

Pluto transiting the 10th is asking me to change something fundamental about the career aspect of my life.

Even as I thought I did by changing fields, it is asking for more. Something more definitive I guess.

As I was sitting there in the interview chair, there was no giddy excitement like there was before. Even (dare I say) a little boredom.

My mind kept telling me "oh gosh. Not this whole thing again." And that to me seemed odd because this is the natural process of getting hired .No?

And that's the issue that Pluto has here, it does not want the "natural" process anymore. Not when its been linked with trans Jup by conjunction and BOTH closing in on my natal Uranus by parallel aspect close to exact.

Trans Uranus is in my 1st and separating aspect with natal Pluto in the 7th.I also think that there is something to infer about this energy too.

Maybe there is a severance with the old momentum(Pluto) invested in relations with the public (7th). A time to refrain from trying to impress powerful(Pluto) others(7th) and embrace rebellious (Uran) me(1st)?

The natural process of hiring was to be obeyed to the letter all those years before. But is it still to be obeyed now? Even when so much has changed and I am not the same as I was before?Am I still going to let others decide how worthy I am?

So I don't know where my intuitive guidance system will lead me. I am open to taking cues to wherever it says I should go. Even if that is "crazy".

I feel like by doing this,I will be honoring my natal Uranus parallel both these planets. And that trusting inner guidance is very much in keeping with what each actually represents from a fundamental level.[/B]

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With Mercury RX I feel like a lot of communication issues are being worked through/resolved at my job.

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That has happened a bit for me too, only not with anything work-wise. I hope I'm not speaking too soon.

I don't know if the moon is already in cancer, but I'm feeling emotional tonight. Very disappointed in primary results for my candidate, and very disenchanted. I have a bad headache, too, so I'm going to try to sleep.

posted March 03, 2020 11:50 PM            

For example, I got into an argument with my best friend yesterday. She said some shocking things that quite frankly made me question why I was ever friends with her to begin with. I was upset for a little bit, and then I thought to myself...she's not my person. She's not a part of my pack. We're not meant to be friends, so why am I trying to force this? She's been looking at me more and more like I'm crazy, each time I tell her about something major going on in my life. It occurred to me that she can't handle some of the darker things that I've had to deal with recently. She's very sheltered and has a lot of strong judgments about people. I need people in my life who don't flinch when I tell them about something that has bothered me. So it's not really fair to her or myself to waste time trying to force a friendship when she can't understand where I'm coming from.

posted March 04, 2020 12:16 AM            

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It's weird because everything else in my life is still a complete mess, but it appears to be getting better the more I let go and stop trying to control it.

For example, I got into an argument with my best friend yesterday. She said some shocking things that quite frankly made me question why I was ever friends with her to begin with. I was upset for a little bit, and then I thought to myself...she's not my person. She's not a part of my pack. We're not meant to be friends, so why am I trying to force this? She's been looking at me more and more like I'm crazy, each time I tell her about something major going on in my life. It occurred to me that she can't handle some of the darker things that I've had to deal with recently. She's very sheltered and has a lot of strong judgments about people. I need people in my life who don't flinch when I tell them about something that has bothered me. So it's not really fair to her or myself to waste time trying to force a friendship when she can't understand where I'm coming from.

If that's what Pluto/Saturn crossing over my ASC is about, I can roll with that. Even if it means letting go of long time connections to find new ones. I would like to be accepted for my authentic self and not who people want me to be or who I feel like I need to be around them. I feel like I've been filtering myself or only showing one side of myself to certain people.

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posted March 04, 2020 12:29 AM            

Its interesting bc earlier today I was thinking about how I am over my ex-boyfriend and feeling annoyed it took me so long to get to this point were I am 100% over him and was thinking about how he was special but not the one and then I thought well nobody is the one, people come and go and you get to enjoy them for a while...I am rambling lol....the point is that how you talked about your best friend reminded me of my reflection earlier on my ex. I feel some people take your wings or make you feel you cannot spread your wings and fly.......

posted March 04, 2020 12:36 AM              

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Hard work paying off, congrats, and good job StubbornVirgo.

As regards friends, etc. Just remember when Planets are conjuncting the Asc and in the 1st, we take on their energies more overtly and strongly than any other time in our life.

Saturn and Pluto are not known to be particularly loving, aware, or expanded energies. They are symbols that are closely tied in with fear, ego, and selfishness.

I remember when I was under T. Saturn in my 1st and T. Pluto squaring my N. Saturn (ruler of my Sun and Mercury and co-ruler of my Venus and Desc.).

I was the slowest vibratory version of me that I have ever been. That is why it felt so heavy, not because of all the outer testing and challenges (there was plenty), but because I chose to align more with ego, separateness, and selfishness than with Love more often than I care to acknowledge. My ego was extra active and reactive during that time.

My Spouse has latish Cap Rising (around 24*), and I've been seeing her dark side getting stirred up more and more. Hopefully so that she consciously works on it, rather than just being unconsciously reactive and blaming everything on everyone else. Shes been cutting off and out people left and right (unusual for her). Some of it has been necessary and helpful, and some probably not.

There is a fine line between being one's authentic self and becoming overly intolerant of others. Love sees the lack in light in others, but accepts them nonetheless, unless they are truly being abusive or betraying deeply.

posted March 04, 2020 12:52 AM              

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Stubbornvirgo this sounds phenomenal! I love it. I like how you are framing the impact of this transit so far, I am happy for you.

Its interesting bc earlier today I was thinking about how I am over my ex-boyfriend..

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You've mentioned him a number of times recently, and how you are completely over him.

If you were truly and completely over him, would you still be talking about him?

If he was your Twin Soul, I'm not so sure that we can ever truly and completely get over a Twin Soul connection. At best, the feelings can subside and go into the background, but there seems to always be a part of self that feels connected to them, even if it's no longer strong and overwhelming.

I tried for nearly 7 months to put H. behind me, and while the ache did subside, it didn't fully go away. And I have Aquarius Venus--ruler of my Moon. Normally I tend to be fairly detached to people.

What I'm saying is, that's its ok either way. There is no need to fully and completely get over someone that clearly was important to you at one point, and probably has a Spirit connection to you. You don't need to judge yourself for it. It's not a "weakness" on your part.

It just is what it is. But, he was too slow vibratory for you, and so your Spirit prompted you to move on. It happens. Your Soul growth is more important to our Spirit levels than even strong connections.

I was artificially keeping my Twin Soul's heart open, but she needed to go and do that on her own and internally. I feel that is one of the deeper reasons why we separated, so that she could go do that independently. She is now vibrating at a pretty fast rate. I can tell the difference in her energy in her photos.

She really is and has been going through the transformation that my spouse's dream outlined about and for her.

If you and Ray are Twin Souls, then the best thing you can do, is to focus on yourself and on raising your vibration, because we tend to have an unconscious influence on our Twins. You can make it easier for him to raise his vibratory levels by raising yours.

posted March 04, 2020 01:23 AM            

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You've mentioned him a number of times recently, and how you are completely over him.

If you were truly and completely over him, would you still be talking about him?

If he was your Twin Soul, I'm not so sure that we can ever truly and completely get over a Twin Soul connection. At best, the feelings can subside and go into the background, but there seems to always be a part of self that feels connected to them, even if it's no longer strong and overwhelming.

I tried for nearly 7 months to put H. behind me, and while the ache did subside, it didn't fully go away. And I have Aquarius Venus--ruler of my Moon. Normally I tend to be fairly detached to people.

What I'm saying is, that's its ok either way. There is no need to fully and completely get over someone that clearly was important to you at one point, and probably has a Spirit connection to you. You don't need to judge yourself for it. It's not a "weakness" on your part.

It just is what it is. But, he was too slow vibratory for you, and so your Spirit prompted you to move on. It happens. Your Soul growth is more important to our Spirit levels than even strong connections.

I was artificially keeping my Twin Soul's heart open, but she needed to go and do that on her own and internally. I feel that is one of the deeper reasons why we separated, so that she could go do that independently. She is now vibrating at a pretty fast rate. I can tell the difference in her energy in her photos.

She really is and has been going through the transformation that my spouse's dream outlined about and for her.

If you and Ray are Twin Souls, then the best thing you can do, is to focus on yourself and on raising your vibration, because we tend to have an unconscious influence on our Twins. You can make it easier for him to raise his vibratory levels by raising yours.

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I dont believe in Twin souls, it makes sense you do with mars and saturn both squaring your Neptune. I think is false, I always felt hesitancy to believe in it actually, it felt wrong, and now I feel 100% sure is false and yes I am over him as in not interested in been with him or reuniting, like it just doesn't matter anymore. It doesn't mean I forgot him, I am not interested in been with him but he is a part of me like many other people in my life will live on in me, I have venus ruling the 5H in the 8H conjunct Mars which rules my 4H, I let go of people but they are still alive in me and I remember them from time to time, it doesn't mean I want to get back with them.