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hypatia238
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posted January 20, 2020 11:30 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for hypatia238     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I want to start a new Mood Log for 2020 as Pluto starts to enter my 2H house and its journey through the 1H comes to an end, I feel compelled to let go of my old Mood Log thread and start fresh.

I hope you all join me in this journey towards continued self-reflection and gathering data of how transits impact our life and mood (e.g. mood, life events/transitions, personal growth).

I will attach old Mood LOG thread here for reference: http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum24/HTML/237288.html

Mood Log for today:

I felt a shift today, lighter and this huge sense of relief today since I woke up, re-energized. I think Sun entering Aquarius and leaving Capricorn is the reason why. Add that Sun in aquarius at aries point is opposing my angel conjunct EROS. I feel today new life entered my body/soul and that feeling of been in love with life returned. Transit sun in aquarius is energizing my Eros applying. This heaviness that I feel has been dragging on since at least December feels like it went away. Maybe is bc there were way too many planets in capricorn at a time forming a stellium so it feels lighter now that the sun is no longer in capricorn.

It could be that aries point energy of new beginnings coupled with the energy of aquarius that promises change that I am digging and then add this degree activates my Eros and Voila!

ADDED LATER on March 23, 2020:

I just realized something this morning. I opened up this thread January 20th and on my opening thread I stated somewhere in there!

"This heaviness that I feel has been dragging on since at least December feels like it went away." Jan 20th

^Well first case of Coronavirus is recorded to be December 1st!

Also I discovered yesterday that January 19th-20th there was a Saturn Septile Neptune aspect at play by about 1 degree, the 20th though the septile was slightly tighter just under 1 degree orb.

I wonder if I was inspired to start this thread bc of this saturn septile neptune, something felt lighter that day and like I mentioned in the original post a heaviness went away that had been dragging since at least December which coincides with the onset of coronavirus outbreak. I felt some kind of shift spiritually that day, a clearing and it could be explained by the saturn septile neptune perhaps.

Worth mentioning.

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posted January 21, 2020 12:15 AM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I've been feeling lighter lately. No astrology is causing it, but Jupiter is definitely correlating with it. It's still very closely conjunct my Mercury (ruler of N. Node, Jupiter, Mars, Saturn, 2nd and 11th Houses), and will be directly conjoining the Sun/chart ruler, soon.

Meanwhile, Saturn and Pluto are starting to fade more and more into the background as they move away from my Sun, and from a square to N. Pluto.

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posted January 21, 2020 10:24 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for teasel     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
The Sun is trine my Moon/Venus, so I thought I'd be feeling really good, but I've been a bit tense - I guess I'm feeling the Sun square my Uranus/ascendant more.

*edit. And I feel better now.

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posted January 23, 2020 09:54 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Aries23Degrees     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by hypatia238:
I want to start a new Mood Log for 2020 as Pluto starts to enter my 2H house and its journey through the 1H comes to an end, I feel compelled to let go of my old Mood Log thread and start fresh.

^This. I think you are manifesting the effects of trans Uranus conj your Sun Hypatia.Especially that "feel compelled" part.

Uranus can "compel" us to start something new. The same ol' same ol' doesn't have the appeal anymore-this even for steady, fixed Taurus.

It's as if we are chewing on cardboard-no matter how many times we "salt" it.So we have to start on a clean slate.

Uranus in Cap 17 opp my Moon in Jan '93 and later squared my Asc in Aries at 20 Cap in Dec '93 the same year I started a new school.

Uranus in Aries squared my Mercury at '16 degrees in Jan 2016 and later conj my Asc at 20 Aries in Dec '16.The same year I found out about my biological father.

Interestingly, trans Jupiter squared my Mercury on the 1st of August 2017 at 17 Deg Lib. This was the time when a new opportunity presented itself.

It was a brief employment stint for 2 months but somehow seemed fated because of how instrumental and impactful it was in my decision to start anew later that year.

Jup would later square my Moon/conj my Mars and square my Asc before Oct 2017 that same year.

I didn't like the opportunity and left it later that year -despite being offered something permanent. In this case,trans Jupiter in Scorp was conj natal Pluto in Sco.

That Dec year of 2017,trans Jup was conj natal Saturn & moving to natal Venus in Scorpio. There was an opportunity to study available and I took it.I decided to leave corporate and go towards a career in education.

Pluto at 20 Cap was square Asc in Jan 2019.It had this relationship till Dec 2019(orb of 2 degrees separating).The same year that I graduated.

Saturn was widely conj natal Mercury in Jan 2019. Then it proceeded to square my Asc the same year Dec 2019 at 20 Degrees of the graduation.

There is an opportunity/opportunities afoot for me when trans Jup gets closer to square natal Mercury in Feb, then it'll retro at some point and hit my cardinal T-square Moon-Mars- Mercury again this year 2020.The exact square with my Asc being in Oct 2020.

Could this mean an opportunity for growth or employment ? Jupiter moves so quickly in and around the 9th this year. Perhaps some interaction with foreigners? We will have to prepare sufficiently and see.

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posted January 23, 2020 01:21 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for hypatia238     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Aries23 I agree with what you are saying about Uranus, I have experienced it when uranus was hitting my IC/MC, Moon and Sun and I felt I had to get the hell out of Miami and move across the country to Colorado as every cell in my body needed, wanted, craved and was ready for a big change.

BUT Uranus is not on my Sun right now, I have Sun in virgo at 28 degrees.

I have noticed pluto switching houses compels me too to change, if you look at the discovery chart of pluto and uranus they overlap in some key ways and you can see a mutual theme around change, I do feel Pluto is more about the internal transformation piece ultimately though (e.g. although it can lead to crisis and external things happening to facilitate the internal change, e.g. meeting someone who brings out your shadow side) and Uranus is change that supports your hopes and dreams and manifests in a more external way often.

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posted January 23, 2020 05:19 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Lerena     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Without warning, my sex drive has mysteriously vanished. It's causing issues in my relationship with my boyfriend, but our relationship hasn't been the most stable thing out there to begin with. I dumped him back in September and he was able to get me back. If I dump him again, that's it. It would, hypothetically, be permanent and both of us would be separated for the rest of our lives. If Uranus in Taurus doesn't separate us, it might be Saturn in Aquarius that becomes the final nail in the coffin. Our strained relationship is beyond repair, but I'm too stubborn to just end it without him doing something wrong to justify the final straw.

I feel like I have too many issues to be dating someone right now and he's not even to blame for most of them. He's just adding to my internal conflict by making me feel suffocated and forced into staying with him. I need to take time away from other people to heal my wounds and become a healthier person and I believe he's getting in the way of that.

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I've also noticed that I want to connect with or be closer to nature now. This doesn't mean I suddenly want to go camping or anything like that, but I think with Uranus in Taurus, I've become more conscious of how important it is to protect the environment and I don't want to be separated from access to trees, grass, plants, etc.

I'm still wondering how Uranus in Taurus' conjunction to my Taurus Sun will go.

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posted January 24, 2020 03:23 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Aries23Degrees     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by hypatia238:
Aries23 I agree with what you are saying about Uranus, I have experienced it when uranus was hitting my IC/MC, Moon and Sun and I felt I had to get the hell out of Miami and move across the country to Colorado as every cell in my body needed, wanted, craved and was ready for a big change.

BUT Uranus is not on my Sun right now, I have Sun in virgo at 28 degrees.

I have noticed pluto switching houses compels me too to change, if you look at the discovery chart of pluto and uranus they overlap in some key ways and you can see a mutual theme around change, I do feel Pluto is more about the internal transformation piece ultimately though (e.g. although it can lead to crisis and external things happening to facilitate the internal change, e.g. meeting someone who brings out your shadow side) and Uranus is change that supports your hopes and dreams and manifests in a more external way often.


Wait..sorry.I don't know why I thought you have the Sun in Taurus. That whole perspective was based on that.

In my head, I perhaps had some other person in mind. The post eas about Uranus conj Sun

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posted January 24, 2020 11:24 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for hypatia238     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by Lerena:

I've also noticed that I want to connect with or be closer to nature now. This doesn't mean I suddenly want to go camping or anything like that, but I think with Uranus in Taurus, I've become more conscious of how important it is to protect the environment and I don't want to be separated from access to trees, grass, plants, etc.

I'm still wondering how Uranus in Taurus' conjunction to my Taurus Sun will go.


Uranus on your sun can give you the courage to go after your hopes and dreams and make you crave change and act on this desire for change perhaps, check the house uranus falls in and what your Sun rules to get a better feel of what that change will look like.

Interesting about your observation on feeling more connected to nature...do you lack earth in you chart by any chance? Sun in virgo rules my 9H so I have always felt a connection with nature.

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posted January 24, 2020 02:48 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for hypatia238     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
Wait..sorry.I don't know why I thought you have the Sun in Taurus. That whole perspective was based on that.

In my head, I perhaps had some other person in mind. The post is about Uranus conj Sun


On a side note, I have Pluto and Saturn right on my 2H cusp which is making me feel very Taurus Like lately (along with Uranus in Taurus at the beginning of my 5th house), I feel I understand Taurus psychology and energy a lot more now. I really like 2H action, extremely grounding for a Neptunian like me, you have no idea how much I am changing in what I value and AM totally uninterested in a fantasy world and things that are not tangible or based on reality, 12H stuff. Like I want to work with what I have and build up from there or build something new from the ground up, that is real, not chasing after some romantic ideal. This shift/transformation in me has been going on for about a year but I feel is finalizing now and I am truly entering a new phase of my life with new values.

I don't value romantic love anymore (not bc I am jaded, legit transformation that is all). My views on romantic love are changing a lot, I see it as such a waste of time now lol and as an awful investment or I see romance in a much more grounded realistic way.

Its interesting that the last lover I had coincided with Pluto near my 2H and Uranus at the beginning of 5H and he was a cappy with scorpio rising, venus in aquarius and mars in taurus. He once said, "I don't have a romantic bone in my body." He died at 28 but he was the beginning of me shifting out and into these new Pluto in the 2H energy and did impact me and shake things up, as complex as my feelings were for what we had. Interesting my Pluto through 1H journey ended with the death of a lover I met when uranus entered my 5H. Needless to say after his death I become more like him in some ways but I think is bc the energy in his chart aligned well with my pluto and uranus transits which were transitioning to new houses.

Anyhoo I love how someone can change so drastically in the course of a lifetime and seeing that happen in myself is fascinating.

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posted January 24, 2020 06:58 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Lerena     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by hypatia238:
Uranus on your sun can give you the courage to go after your hopes and dreams and make you crave change and act on this desire for change perhaps, check the house uranus falls in and what your Sun rules to get a better feel of what that change will look like.
I use the Placidus house system. If you believe in intercepted houses, my 3rd-9th house axis is intercepted. The signs affected are Leo and Aquarius so the Sun doesn't rule any house in my chart. Depending on the house system, this is actually not true, but I changed from Whole Sign to Placidus sometime years ago and I don't use Equal houses. In my natal chart, Leo is in my 9th house.

Since I have Sun trine Uranus in my natal chart, I'm thinking Uranus will strengthen the natal manifestation. I've always been a bit of an outcast so it's possible the conjunction will relate to that in some way. Uranus being Uranus though, I'm sure it'll bring changes to my personality that I don't expect.

Considering what you said, it would be nice if Uranus in Taurus' conjunction to my Sun gave me the courage to go after my hopes and dreams, but with the US healthcare system in its current state, I've pretty much given up hope on being a professional writer of any kind. Regardless, Uranus is often extreme with the changes it brings, which means what you said is possible. My Saturn Return chart makes some interesting aspects to my natal chart too that further strengthens that possibility, but I won't truly know what changes Uranus in Taurus will bring to my Sun until the conjunction begins or is within orb.

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Interesting about your observation on feeling more connected to nature...do you lack earth in you chart by any chance? Sun in virgo rules my 9H so I have always felt a connection with nature.
Actually, Earth is overwhelmingly dominant in my astrology chart. It's my strongest element and I've always appreciated things about nature and understood the importance of protecting it. I'm just more attached to nature compared to in the past.

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posted January 24, 2020 09:27 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for hypatia238     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by Lerena:
[QUOTE]I use the Placidus house system. If you believe in intercepted houses, my 3rd-9th house axis is intercepted. The signs affected are Leo and Aquarius so the Sun doesn't rule any house in my chart. Depending on the house system, this is actually not true, but I changed from Whole Sign to Placidus sometime years ago and I don't use Equal houses. In my natal chart, Leo is in my 9th house.

Since I have Sun trine Uranus in my natal chart, I'm thinking Uranus will strengthen the natal manifestation. I've always been a bit of an outcast so it's possible the conjunction will relate to that in some way. Uranus being Uranus though, I'm sure it'll bring changes to my personality that I don't expect.

Considering what you said, it would be nice if Uranus in Taurus' conjunction to my Sun gave me the courage to go after my hopes and dreams, but with the US healthcare system in its current state, I've pretty much given up hope on being a professional writer of any kind. Regardless, Uranus is often extreme with the changes it brings, which means what you said is possible. My Saturn Return chart makes some interesting aspects to my natal chart too that further strengthens that possibility, but I won't truly know what changes Uranus in Taurus will bring to my Sun until the conjunction begins or is within orb.


What does the healthcare in the US have to do with you not been able to become a writer? I am confused....

Interesting your 3H and 9H are intercepted and you want to be writer, I feel that when Uranus enters that intercepted axis it should shake things up and help you with your writing, I know you have mentioned often you feel stuck with your writing. Well Uranus I feel will unstuck this for you so I feel optimistic for you!

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posted January 25, 2020 12:51 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Lerena     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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What does the healthcare in the US have to do with you not been able to become a writer? I am confused....

Interesting your 3H and 9H are intercepted and you want to be writer, I feel that when Uranus enters that intercepted axis it should shake things up and help you with your writing, I know you have mentioned often you feel stuck with your writing. Well Uranus I feel will unstuck this for you so I feel optimistic for you!


I am currently on SSI, which means I am classified as disabled and on a fixed income. If I try to become a writer and I'm successful enough, they could cease my benefits and my healthcare coverage as a result. This could mean I end up making enough money to lose my benefits yet not enough to consistently afford healthcare. I take psychiatric medication to function normally and without it, I'd be unstable. This is a problem I haven't looked too far into, but I don't feel like my experience level is anywhere near close to professional at this time. Later on, this might change.

I hope you are right about Uranus making me unstuck.

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posted January 25, 2020 02:00 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for teasel     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I'm trying to figure out how I'm always late, no matter how early I get up. I've been awake since before 9am. I need to do something about my distractions. Make a couple of small rules, for a little while.

My anxiety was up a bit, with the Sun square Uranus/ascendant, even with the Sun trine Moon/Venus mixed in, but that's normal. I was feeling really good the week before, so I need to make juicing more of a habit, once the snow goes away.

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saturn square moon ---

"This can be a positive period to reorder your life and priorities. Simplify, reduce stressful, unnecessary, or outgrown activities or involvements. Learning to say no in a positive way; finding a balance between what feeds and sustains you inwardly and emotionally with the "have-to" in your life. Discovering what isn't working so that you can make changes. Learning some emotional independence."

it's been just like that. i've actually never been happier, and i was even kinda scared about this transit coming... plus pluto and jupiter following too. hope nothing bad happens lol

i've been confused because it seems like it would be a bad time. but i think since i have saturn contra-parallel moon, and saturn trine venus and opposite mars, that i thrive with hard saturn transits? idk, i've had some that were bad times but i was less mature in those periods. just shows how people are always changing and hopefully growing in response to their environments

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posted January 25, 2020 02:56 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Stawr     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I have a lot going on with my 9th house right now AND I LIKE IT! 22 degree Capricorn to 16 degree Aquarius is my 9th house.
This early degree Aquarius energy shift is refreshing.
The Sun, Moon, Mercury, Saturn and Pluto are all in my 9th house right now.

As many of you know I've had a rough couple of weeks. My original plan was to take my last class in the fall. So I could have a more enjoyable summer.
But then I am getting so tired of working being completely drained at the end of the day and doing my college work in my free time and going back to work the next day.
I am sick of my bosses attitude.
I am sick of not being able to keep up with chores at home, and having to pay to do laundry or going to my moms to do it. I really feel like I can't focus on my next place to live until I am done with school. I decided to take two condensed 8 week classes from June-August together at the same time. I will be on summer vacation and watch my nieces and nephews two days a week.
I care more about being done and moving on than having an easier summer.

I applied for the spring graduation ceremony today! I am beginning to feel less stuck slowly but surely.

Other transit I have going on today are
Venus sextile Neptune
Venus trine Pluto
Chiron square Jupiter

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posted January 25, 2020 03:00 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Stawr     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
How could I forget. Saturn is exactly conjunct my Saturn now. Happy Saturn return to me!!!

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Originally posted by teasel:
I'm trying to figure out how I'm always late, no matter how early I get up. I've been awake since before 9am. I need to do something about my distractions. Make a couple of small rules, for a little while.

My anxiety was up a bit, with the Sun square Uranus/ascendant, even with the Sun trine Moon/Venus mixed in, but that's normal. I was feeling really good the week before, so I need to make juicing more of a habit, once the snow goes away.


i tend to do that too! i've realized it's because i actually don't want to do the thing i'm running late for, cuz i'm never late for things i'm excited about.
otherwise it's subconscious procrastinating. like sometimes i'll get nervous about the thing i'm going to (or driving because i hate driving) and i channel it into worrying if i'm bringing everything i need and i keep forgetting everything and going back and forth compulsively. and i don't even notice i'm doing it.

it helps if you say out loud that you need to leave NOW. lol and grab your keys and walk out without thinking twice about it. that's the only thing that's worked. and it feels a lot better too.

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posted January 25, 2020 03:03 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Stawr     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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saturn square moon ---

"This can be a positive period to reorder your life and priorities. Simplify, reduce stressful, unnecessary, or outgrown activities or involvements. Learning to say no in a positive way; finding a balance between what feeds and sustains you inwardly and emotionally with the "have-to" in your life. Discovering what isn't working so that you can make changes. Learning some emotional independence."

it's been just like that. i've actually never been happier, and i was even kinda scared about this transit coming... plus pluto and jupiter following too. hope nothing bad happens lol

i've been confused because it seems like it would be a bad time. but i think since i have saturn contra-parallel moon, and saturn trine venus and opposite mars, that i thrive with hard saturn transits? idk, i've had some that were bad times but i was less mature in those periods. just shows how people are always changing and hopefully growing in response to their environments


I have been dreading this transit too. I have a while to go with this. Since I have Scorpio Moon conjunct Pluto. I feel like the Saturn squares are blessings in disguise.

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I have been dreading this transit too. I have a while to go with this. Since I have Scorpio Moon conjunct Pluto. I feel like the Saturn squares are blessings in disguise.


yeah don't dread it! embrace it especially if things are going well, i was worried cuz things were going well and i was like well f*ck, is everything just going to fall apart for no reason? but no that's silly. unless you were lying to yourself i guess. i think the outer planet transits call for honesty and if you're doing that, you'll be ok

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posted January 25, 2020 10:48 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for hypatia238     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
In my natal I have:

Serendip in Aries @16d42 Happy accidents
Bless in Aries @17d51 that leads to a blessing
Pholus in Aries @18d35 and a turning point

Interesting. Tr Atropos is activating this stellium right now and trining Transit Bless on my Vertex/antivertex axis and that forms a grand trine with my southnode in Saggy actually.

I did have a particularly strange day Thursday that uplifted my spirits tremendously and I was not expecting it at all and it really took me by surprise.

I had THREE different clients spontaneously declare their appreciation for me and the services I have provided to them, telling me I am making a difference in their life etc and then after my last session my supervisor out of nowhere showers with me with positive feedback not knowing at all about all the feedback I had gotten that day and saying I should win a world award and then hugged me, it was insane, I get feedback that is positive yes but 4 different sources in one day is not normal, is like the universe was pushing for this to happen, the universe really really wanted me to get this message that what I do is valuable and is making a difference and to continue in this path. It was weird. One of those things that you know a higher power was at play.

Pay attention to asteriod Bless guys, I feel there is something to it, specially if connected to the nodes and vertex axis when activated via transit.

Also, transit Angel is exact on my natal asteroid name (first name I go by).

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posted January 25, 2020 10:59 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for hypatia238     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I have Aesculapia (resurrection, revival, miraculous come back) square my exes Venus forming a tsquare with my Pholus/Bless/Serendip stellium and he was someone that I never truly got over all the way, like I could not think of him in a long time and somehow my feelings for him would always resurrect out of nowhere to some extent in spite of not seeing him and been far away and this was the case for over a decade, sometimes this revival would happen in the dream world through astral travel experiences with him. We had a very powerful pluto stellium in the 12H coincidentally in our composite that included Aesculapia that falls on his natal Venus which I feel helps explain how hard it was for both of us to let go fully of each other with this revival/resurrection theme happening in a very 12H way (psychic connection, astral experiences):

Composite
Aesculapia in Libra at 21d28
Valentine in Libra at 23d16
Pluto in Libra at 25d36
Mars in Libra at 25d36
Sun in Libra at 26d37

All this Trine:

Composite Athanasia in Aquarius at 22d44 (Tr Uranus hit this exact day we met).

Athanasia is the Greek word for "immortality". According to the website http://markandrewholmes.com/athanasia.html , the astrological significance of Athanasia seems to mean "that which lasts forever or which nobody can take away from you".

His Venus in Libra at 21d41

I always felt that I was his and he was mine and on a soul level we would always be connected and belong to one another and that nobody can change that or truly take him from me or him from me. That was something that I always felt at a gut level, that our bond was truly unbreakable and something that would live on forever across time and space.

His Moon in pisces conjuncts Athanasia and conjuncts my Moon in Pisces too.

However, I NO longer have feelings for him, something has shifted permanently I feel this past year and I wonder if is because TR PLUTO is squaring our Composite Libra Stellium while it semisextiles Athanasia, my feelings for him are dead, its like that square from Pluto to the 12H stellium woke me up from this spell or slumber lol and now I am 100% sober, no longer trapped in this 12H of ours with him, free from it.

Add pluto on my 2H cusp is super grounding.

We met while Pluto was transiting my 12H allowing to me to surrender and fall in love completely all the way like I never again have been able to in my life.

Yes I did experience true unconditional love at a soul level and the whole falling in love truly all the way thing BUT Neptune/12H stuff definitely has a shadow side!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL like I feel conflicted about venus been exalted in pisces bc is this love as real as it feels based on something real or on a fantasy! Now Venus in Taurus makes sense to me, that is love based on reality, not a fantasy. Again really digging pluto in the 2H, very grounding.

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posted January 30, 2020 05:00 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for teasel     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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i tend to do that too! i've realized it's because i actually don't want to do the thing i'm running late for, cuz i'm never late for things i'm excited about.
otherwise it's subconscious procrastinating. like sometimes i'll get nervous about the thing i'm going to (or driving because i hate driving) and i channel it into worrying if i'm bringing everything i need and i keep forgetting everything and going back and forth compulsively. and i don't even notice i'm doing it.

it helps if you say out loud that you need to leave NOW. lol and grab your keys and walk out without thinking twice about it. that's the only thing that's worked. and it feels a lot better too.


Yeah, I'm trying to get back to getting in the shower immediately, having my clothes ready the night before. Don't pick up my laptop, or check anything on my phone, until I'm showered, and boiling the kettle for a hot drink.

It isn't always that I don't want to go, but that sometimes applies.

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posted January 30, 2020 05:05 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for teasel     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I kind of hit an emotional wall last night. Instead of going out, I hid, cried a bit, and watched Grey's Anatomy on netflix. Nights like that are like my own personal new moon, where I go dark for a while, and am okay within a day or two.

Saturn and Pluto are exactly squaring my Ceres/Chiron/Sun in the sixth house. Jupiter is opposed Saturn. Mercury sextile Chiron. Moon squared Saturn and opposed Pluto.

My lunar return will be in a few days. A couple of friends have been talking about them, so I'll try to remember to check every month. This month, it happened on the day I started juicing (January 6th). Venus in the 6th house, in the chart. I felt good.

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posted January 30, 2020 05:08 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for teasel     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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[b]However, I NO longer have feelings for him, something has shifted permanently I feel this past year and I wonder if is because TR PLUTO is squaring our Composite Libra Stellium while it semisextiles Athanasia, my feelings for him are dead, its like that square from Pluto to the 12H stellium woke me up from this spell or slumber lol and now I am 100% sober, no longer trapped in this 12H of ours with him, free from it.


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That's interesting, because Saturn and Pluto are squaring the composite Venus and Chiron that I have with someone, right now, and will square the Sun and then Mars. We're talking about once a week, and are kind of being careful around each other, you could say.

I'm glad that Pluto is doing something good for you, though.

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posted January 30, 2020 06:08 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for hypatia238     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by teasel:

That's interesting, because Saturn and Pluto are squaring the composite Venus and Chiron that I have with someone, right now, and will square the Sun and then Mars. We're talking about once a week, and are kind of being careful around each other, you could say.

I'm glad that Pluto is doing something good for you, though.


Pluto is death and helps you outgrow what you no longer need, and everything that I needed to learn from that relationship I have learned so yes it makes sense in my case that this Pluto transit is leading to the death of my feelings for him and any fantasies I may have been holding unto connected to him since we have a huge stellium in the 12H.

In your case maybe you two are meant to reconnect so you can integrate the lessons that brought you two together in the first place. Pluto is about death and transformation so the reward usually comes after a death/ending that leads to a lot of self-reflection, increased self-awareness and transformation through integration.

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