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posted October 01, 2016 06:42 AM            

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Thanks Teasel.

Sometimes I know but deny it to myself. Sometimes I don't know at all why I feel things. Sometimes it's in between.

This is.... I suppose in between.

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posted October 01, 2016 10:23 PM            

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Bumping into your ex 2 days in a row in public...awkward. I just ignored him & pretended I never met him.

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posted October 02, 2016 03:19 PM              

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heavy

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posted October 03, 2016 06:54 AM            

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*editing, because I feel like __. I swear, any hope I had is gone.

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posted October 03, 2016 03:57 PM              

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@teasel,

Don't say that.. I missed your post, whatever it was, but I can imagine you must be feeling very blue.

I don't even know what I can say over the internet that can be of use to you, it all sounds so useless. I can't be there in person, but please just find something to occupy yourself till the feeling passes. *Any* distraction, even a random TV show.

It's not over yet. Whenever you're exhausted, take a break, drop everything for a while - but don't give up. You're a brave Aries, remember? You'll get through this, have some faith.. **hug**

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posted October 04, 2016 09:30 PM            

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Feel like smoking one...Haven't done that in a while. These days I feel...Lonely.Sad.Anxious. I honestly don't know what's wrong with me, it's like a combination of things, I can't pinpoint what it is exactly. I hate feeling this way because I'm usually a positive/optimistic person, I know this is just a phase that things will eventually get better. But I feel a bit depressed.

I was always used to being on top of things in my life, to be in control of everything and this year I feel like I'm not on top of things in alot of areas of my life.

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posted October 07, 2016 01:22 AM            

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I hate when people don't do their job and then it spills over into my job, and it makes me look like I'm not doing a very good job.

In essence: do your effing job!

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posted October 07, 2016 05:10 PM            

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Teasel, are you ok?

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posted October 08, 2016 01:49 AM            

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I'm pretty sure I already have a target painted on my back, but you know what? I don't care. Those that matter, don't see me as a threat and those that do, probably don't matter.

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posted October 08, 2016 01:45 PM            

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I'm okay, thanks florence. Still depressed, and getting over a cold.

SV: are you talking about work?

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posted October 08, 2016 02:01 PM            

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Yeah, unfortunately. I uncovered the "problem coworkers" over the past few days. And they all seem to see me as a threat because of my education/credentials.

I'm just glad I have a good relationship with my supervisors (knock on wood). If they (the problem coworkers) continue to gossip about me, then the higher ups can ask me directly about it.

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posted October 10, 2016 10:51 AM            

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SoundCloud's crappy bit-rate format is driving me mad. I tried converting an MP3 to 128 kpbs format using Audacity in order to compensate for this but it turned out even worse!!! This is one of those moments where I want to scream out in pure frustration; the fact that I have to pay for a pro-membership to replace the upload without losing all my likes and exposure for the track itself frustrates me furthermore!!

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posted October 10, 2016 11:32 AM            

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I used to use 192 bit rate. Sometimes 192 VBR. (192 baseline - variable bit rate)

However, it's been years ago now since I've done any of that. I can't remember what I used to use. A program that required a download of the LAME Engine to work.

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posted October 10, 2016 11:46 AM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
I'm okay, thanks florence. Still depressed, and getting over a cold.

SV: are you talking about work?

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Hi,

I'm glad you're ok that you could reply but I'm sorry you're still feeling depressed.

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posted October 10, 2016 01:05 PM            

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I'm a Sagittarius, right?

Well, there's this psychotic Sagittarius on this other forum, not this one, that's provoking and stalking me. Crazy b*tch!

She's also a Pisces Moon. I've always had a tense relationship with Pisces Moon, me and Pisces Moons have never worked out.

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posted October 11, 2016 01:17 AM            

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Originally posted by florence:
Hi,

I'm glad you're ok that you could reply but I'm sorry you're still feeling depressed.

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Thank you. I slept all day today, because I was too depressed to get up - and then my dreams depressed me. I made sure to take my SAM-e, and some B-12. I've forgotten them lately.

I might be taking a forum break (and facebook, and other things) for a while. Just a heads-up, so nobody is concerned. I keep trying, and then can't resist visiting, or joining in somewhere, but I need to buckle down and get a few things done.

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posted October 11, 2016 01:20 AM            

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Originally posted by Sulkyarcher:
I'm a Sagittarius, right?

Well, there's this psychotic Sagittarius on this other forum, not this one, that's provoking and stalking me. Crazy b*tch!

She's also a Pisces Moon. I've always had a tense relationship with Pisces Moon, me and Pisces Moons have never worked out.

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I think I might know who you mean, if it's another astro forum. I don't visit often, but if it's the same one, she kept insinuating things late last year/back in January, too, and then again in June. I finally just told her that she was wrong, and should stop. I'd had a guy doing the same thing to me, and finally got him to stop.

I don't understand it - it's happened to me more than once over the past six years - but those two do it regularly to other people. I visited recently, and saw people calling them trolls, and telling them to stop following them around. So at least I know it isn't just me, this time.

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posted October 12, 2016 03:45 AM            

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I hate forgetting stuff.

Melatonin in, good night LL.

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posted October 12, 2016 12:35 PM              

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Being stuck in a room with my student that has NOTHING in it except a desk 6 hours a day. 😞😩😒

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posted October 13, 2016 04:20 AM            

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I feel too intensely. Sometimes I wish I was emotionally numb. I don't want to feel anything.

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posted October 13, 2016 04:57 AM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
Thank you. I slept all day today, because I was too depressed to get up - and then my dreams depressed me. I made sure to take my SAM-e, and some B-12. I've forgotten them lately.

I might be taking a forum break (and facebook, and other things) for a while. Just a heads-up, so nobody is concerned. I keep trying, and then can't resist visiting, or joining in somewhere, but I need to buckle down and get a few things done.

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The reason I was asking actually, apart from this thread, is that I had a dream & when I woke up I thought of you. I know, thats weird probably that I did. My dream .. It was the silhouette of a woman in a window. Not much tangible other than that.

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posted October 13, 2016 05:45 AM            

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"How did you know you could trust that person?", "How did you know you could do abcdfj?"....etc... you ask again and again. And frankly I'm tired of repeating myself.

It's simple really you only need to test it/try it out and see how it goes. Reveal your soft spots, the one who uses it against you is someone you should not reveal your vital organs to.

Wanna know if you could do something? Try it.

Maybe it goes differently for you, Idk. But since you asked, I answered.

You think a lot, but it doesn't do you any good, from what I can see. Trying to eliminate risks, that's funny to me. Good luck with that. I'd rather work on strategies and back-up plans.

And what's exactly this "trust" thing you're talking about? There are different levels of trust. Are you looking for lovers? Sworn brothers? Partners? Someone who holds your hands through all thick and thin and sacrifices their all? Talk about misplaced expectations.

Geez I thought you were good. Well I still think so. And you really are good. But you're greener than a grasshopper, it's damaging us both.

I know for a fact that we deal with things differently. But I thought we might be able to find a neutral ground. I was apparently wrong.

Woo what a satisfying vent.

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posted October 13, 2016 06:02 AM            

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Originally posted by florence:
The reason I was asking actually, apart from this thread, is that I had a dream & when I woke up I thought of you. I know, thats weird probably that I did. My dream .. It was the silhouette of a woman in a window. Not much tangible other than that.

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Interesting. A friend of mine said she woke up and thought my mum had died, the night she did die, in July.

I have an Uncle that's dying, and a sick cat. I don't know about a window - although I took a picture of the city lights from the hospital window tonight.

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posted October 15, 2016 10:58 PM            

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Crazy how I used to love you...Now I feel nothing at all. It's weird but it's like I finally woke up from this spell I was under. The weirdest feeling ever...I look back and think...WTF was I thinking.

I just don't look at you the same way I used to.

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posted October 16, 2016 12:52 PM            

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This presidential election in the U.S. is driving me nuts. I actually turned off my Facebook until sometime after the election. It's really irritating. I kind of want to run for president next time just to see what kind of ridiculous things that they find on me.

I am also ill. My chest hurts so much.
Yesterday I used my Keurig to make hot tea. Hot lemon/ginger and green tea. It hold 80 ounces of water. I emptied two of them.

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