posted July 18, 2013 12:51 PM            

Mood swings are exhausting.

posted August 01, 2013 11:48 PM            

I feel screwed over.

I am feeling mentally unprepared.

My guy I'm in a long distance thing with, it was impossible for me to go out to where he stays this summer. I was able to last year almost the whole month of Jully and almost two weeks for xmas.

Some of you may of read my posts about me explaining that his friends where once mine, but want nothing to do with me cause I got with him, instead of this other guy in the group. So if any of this is confusing I go more into here... http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum27/HTML/001104.html

Well anyways I assumed that when my guy wanted time off, he wanted to see everybody. But he told me months ago that he wants to fly me out there to see him again. Honestly that sounded even better to me, and was impressed that was his first choice. That meant one last time I could spend with him with out worrying about his dumb friends attempting a way to plot to get me out of the picture.

Well his work made it impossible for me to come out there this July. Then he let me know that he decided that he is just gonna come home for August. I was so upset, that I called my sister when she got off work like "He's screwing me over!! He promised all these quality things with me. Now I have to share him with his friends that want me outcasted!"

I just wished he would of never promised all of those things to me...I assumed it would all go this way to begin with. I just wished he would of never gotten my hopes up.

Because now he is in a place where he is trying to make everyone happy. That means just me sometimes, and that means sometimes just his stupid friends that act like they are in middle school.

So anytime he just wants to hang out with them, I'm going to feel like crap, and betrayed.

It just really sunk in today that I have to share him now. Maybe I'll know how to handle my feelings better the next few days. Because of that I wasn't very talkative on the phone today.

I can't help it, some of his friends are HORRIBLE people. I only have a problem with them because they have a problem with me.
But I told him that I support him being friends with them, but I also finally let him know all the s*** they talk about us being together.

He still wants to plan a trip with me and his family. I'm getting anxious if that's even going to happen. Even if it's only a few days, at least he is sticking to his word.

When he talks about his friends joining some fun. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO! How can I act like I'm happy when I feel like I can't trust any of them!? So I just get really quiet.

I am still so angry over the things they have said behind my back.

posted October 09, 2013 03:08 PM            

Don't provide unsolicited criticism of me unless you expect nothing less than a full and vigorous defense, and don't complain about myself being hyper-sensitive or over-reactive if you choose to launch scud missiles. In my case, I don't do equi-reciprocal responses. My responses are uniformly exponentially correlated to any scud attacks.

posted October 09, 2013 04:48 PM            

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Originally posted by YoursTrulyAlways:
Don't kick a dog unless you are prepared to be bit.

Don't provide unsolicited criticism of me unless you expect nothing less than a full and vigorous defense, and don't complain about myself being hyper-sensitive or over-reactive if you choose to launch scud missiles. In my case, I don't do equi-reciprocal responses. My responses are uniformly exponentially correlated to any scud attacks.

Like a dog that is kicked, I never bite lightly, and I give zero consideration as to who is on the receiving end, whether pauper or Queen of England, without regard to gender, race or orientation.

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posted October 09, 2013 05:11 PM            

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Originally posted by PixieJane:
Walk it, don't talk it.

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posted October 09, 2013 05:29 PM            

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Originally posted by YoursTrulyAlways:
Don't kick a dog unless you are prepared to be bit.

Don't provide unsolicited criticism of me unless you expect nothing less than a full and vigorous defense, and don't complain about myself being hyper-sensitive or over-reactive if you choose to launch scud missiles. In my case, I don't do equi-reciprocal responses. My responses are uniformly exponentially correlated to any scud attacks.

Like a dog that is kicked, I never bite lightly, and I give zero consideration as to who is on the receiving end, whether pauper or Queen of England, without regard to gender, race or orientation.

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I'll have what he's having

Meg Ryan

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posted October 09, 2013 05:40 PM            

I could not figure out how to handle things. I could not feel out what was happened and you need to figure out what is going on UNDER the surface because that is where the real #$#$ is.

So, I just existed numb and tried to live doing normal things but it didn't matter where I was, who I was with or what I did. It was all the same gray. So, I went into the house and did as little as I could. I gave up because why try when grey is the only result.

Now, I know I have to go out more and my desire to be a background singer is what is forcing me to do this, as most things are not that interesting to me.

I would love to sing with someone and for people. I would love to experience that. That is about the best high there is that is not bad for you.

My point in writing this here is that I needed to get my boundaries back before I could go out again.

People are petty and jealous and lie about it. That is the nature of people, me and everyone else.

If you don't know the rules, you will be eaten or have to escape like I did.

I learned to stand up on here. I have had to do so and I finally took on all the people who harassed me and learned to beat them down.

So, now I can go out

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posted October 09, 2013 07:32 PM            

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Originally posted by Randall:
They are not very good friends. Maybe it's time he sever those ties.

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Yeah, his friends wont pull that anymore...cause he called them out on it. And they are all loyal to each other. And they don't want to take my guy or their other friends side. And they know how bad it will make them look now. I get vibes that the girl in the group feels guilty about it. I think that they kind of learned their lesson. Even if I hang out with them and have a good time. I will never consider them real friends after that.

I am not on good terms with his much older guy friend. I snapped at him. He has a DUI. And was insulting and making fun of the way I was driving. I ignored him the first time. But I took a note of how rude he was being. But he did it the next time he rode in my car..I hinted to my guy that I was on the verge of letting him have it. Then I left and came back, they where talking about me. So I was like "HI!" my guy tried to humor the situation like "speak of the devil!" then his friend started going off like "women and their driving" Hell no...I said "and I wont SAY ANYTHING ABOUT YOU!, because you're his friend." My guy starts freaking out like "Stawr, he's joking!" And trying to explain to his other friends "she doesn't know that he's joking!" Ummm I know my guy would like to think that...BUT PLEASE! There was no tone of humor or friendliness when he made comments to me. He sounded like a tool. And I told them "I will try to calm down, but do not phuck w/ me!"(TYING TO WARN THEM.) His friend continued to make a rude comment. I WONT STAND FOR THAT. So I went there and said "you're one to talk" under my breath. (his DUI) I was trying to calm down cause I was freaking my guy out. But I am going to stick up for my self! But yeah they both heard me. The rest of that night my guy kept asking me if I was okay. The tension in that room between me and his older friend...! Saying it could be cut with a knife was an understatement. His friend left earlier that night. Coincidence? His friend has avoided me since. I even saw him at my college we looked at each other and none of us said hi.
But for the sake of my guy if the situation occurs, I will apologize to this friend of his...but I have to be in a good mood. Cause I am not assuming at all that he has the maturity to apologize to me, so I can't be in an edgy mood.

posted October 11, 2013 12:26 PM            

Lots of crappy stuff happened to me but i cannot stand how people air their dirty laundry online so i am going to pretend Saturn is NOT on my sun.

There is nothing worse than people sitting on the pity pot and i decided long ago, get a therapist if you want to deal with your stuff and not burden others with it

posted October 13, 2013 04:43 AM            

I love my boyfriend, but he makes me angry and vice versa. I think I am too emotional for him and he is too cold for me.

Why are we still together? Even though I know I hurt his feelings when I get angry at him, I am still running my mouth anyway and never hide my feelings.

I wish he'd break up with me sometimes. I love him, but I will only cause him pain.

I can't stop. It's unrealistic to imagine that I'd suddenly be caged like this.

posted October 13, 2013 10:42 AM            

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Originally posted by MetalAphrodite:
I feel very ****** off and angry.

I love my boyfriend, but he makes me angry and vice versa. I think I am too emotional for him and he is too cold for me.

Why are we still together? Even though I know I hurt his feelings when I get angry at him, I am still running my mouth anyway and never hide my feelings.

I wish he'd break up with me sometimes. I love him, but I will only cause him pain.

I can't stop. It's unrealistic to imagine that I'd suddenly be caged like this.

Caution: the fire is hot.

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posted October 13, 2013 10:43 AM            

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Originally posted by redshoes:
Saturn is on my Sun ---- ewwwwww

Lots of crappy stuff happened to me but i cannot stand how people air their dirty laundry online so i am going to pretend Saturn is NOT on my sun.

There is nothing worse than people sitting on the pity pot and i decided long ago, get a therapist if you want to deal with your stuff and not burden others with it

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posted October 13, 2013 10:45 AM            

Send me a pic of you and him, if you want. You don't have to be together in the pic, obviously.

I can see things in pics.

My e mail address is on my name in the Mods. You can copy my e mail address and send it from your own e mail. That way works best for me.

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posted October 13, 2013 05:58 PM            

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Originally posted by redshoes:
Are you fire and water Metal?

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I have a lot fire and earth in my chart. My surname is earth and Idk if pearl would be considered a combo of earth and water, but that is my birthstone and middle name.

posted October 13, 2013 06:56 PM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
Metal Aphrodite

Send me a pic of you and him, if you want. You don't have to be together in the pic, obviously.

I can see things in pics.

My e mail address is on my name in the Mods. You can copy my e mail address and send it from your own e mail. That way works best for me.

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I'm trying really hard to understand him, but I feel often that the only thing we have in common is love for one another.

posted October 13, 2013 07:31 PM            

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posted October 13, 2013 07:47 PM            

Here is my venting:

Holy crap, being creative is such a dual edged sword..it is always "..that was great, you are awesome..!"

Meanwhile, what is the "next" creative project and outcome that is ever on my mind.

To my way of thinking, never grow stale, it is a point of pride for me that I do not repeat a story/vignette/observation.

Say it one time, then I'm done

posted October 13, 2013 11:27 PM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
I didn't see the e mail, MA

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posted October 15, 2013 12:21 AM            

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Originally posted by MetalAphrodite:
I forwarded it again. Maybe it ended up in the spam/junk folder?

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posted October 16, 2013 05:19 PM            

As an outsider, I feel really overwhelmed by all the arguments happening in Sweet Peas threads. Yes, I've been reading along for months and every time I want to reply to the topic, it has turned into such a huge argument either my reply gets snowed under or I feel like I'm stirring things up even more by bad timing.

It's really bad and no, not just a case of me needing to "toughen up". Okay, I'm sensitive, but that's why I've stayed out of any threads, despite having a lot to say on the arguments. My life is very hectic, so I just can't stick around for hours replying back and forth, which means whenever I have the time to reply to something, it's evolved into an argument - or so it seems these days.

Not asking people to slow things down for me - really, I'm not - but I hope you guys would understand that it's alienating some other members.

I wish I felt comfortable enough to join in, but I don't. Given the complaints I've seen in threads, I may not be the only one who feels this way.

It's sad to see someone post a thread about their problems and not much later, it turns into an argument. I get that everyone has the right to join in and say what they want, but I imagine it's tough for the OP to see their thread go to hell. I don't think it feels good to feel like you've stirred things up unintentionally.