posted October 16, 2016 01:28 PM            

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Originally posted by DopGang:
This presidential election in the U.S. is driving me nuts. I actually turned off my Facebook until sometime after the election. It's really irritating. I kind of want to run for president next time just to see what kind of ridiculous things that they find on me.

I am also ill. My chest hurts so much.
Yesterday I used my Keurig to make hot tea. Hot lemon/ginger and green tea. It hold 80 ounces of water. I emptied two of them.

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I agree. This election is ridiculous.

posted October 16, 2016 11:54 PM              

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Originally posted by DopGang:
This presidential election in the U.S. is driving me nuts. I actually turned off my Facebook until sometime after the election. It's really irritating. I kind of want to run for president next time just to see what kind of ridiculous things that they find on me.

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Originally posted by DopGang:
I am also ill. My chest hurts so much.
Yesterday I used my Keurig to make hot tea. Hot lemon/ginger and green tea. It hold 80 ounces of water. I emptied two of them.

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posted October 17, 2016 12:15 AM            

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Originally posted by DopGang:
This presidential election in the U.S. is driving me nuts. I actually turned off my Facebook until sometime after the election. It's really irritating. I kind of want to run for president next time just to see what kind of ridiculous things that they find on me.

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Why bother to find anything? They can make something up and people who want to believe it will, and those who don't won't. Probably wouldn't be too hard to get people to believe you're a hideous space reptile.

Snopes has been putting in a lot of extra work these last few months, but I don't know how much of a difference it makes. Throw enough BS, and sooner or later something will stick, regardless if it should or not. Social media is being so abused that I'm wondering if society would be better off if it was completely banned. (Don't worry, as long as it makes lots of money, and won't make even more money by being made illegal, then it's here to stay, for better and for worse. Right now we're seeing some of the worst.)

Others have thought along the lines of running as well. I saw this recently:

posted October 17, 2016 12:26 AM              

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Originally posted by Electro DGX:
I don't know how to love myself. All I ever do is seek validation, trying to build up the self-worth that was stolen from me thanks to an emotionally abusive and neglectful family. I think the fact that I can't even trust my parents with my problems speaks for itself.

Why do I hate myself so much? I was told so much that everything was my fault, so that's probably why I loath myself every time something goes wrong. I'm not okay, I'm broken. I need help.

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You're not broken, you're just tired.. Of all the guilt. Don't let that guilt (piled on by others), reach such crippling levels that it becomes despair.

It's hard not to take it personally, when they say it's your fault. But hey, you know what - it's *not* your fault. If people keep hammering that into you, they're probably projecting their own insecurities and unhappiness with life. A lot of times, people are looking for something or someone to blame. That doesn't mean you have to take it.

Any time you feel negativity come off of them, it's more about them than you. Try to insulate your thoughts from that negativity. It's not about you, it's not because you fall short in any way. It's just the way things are - sometimes people need to vent (like we do on this thread). But they don't have Lindaland, so they vent (on)to people in real life.

Next time you feel like you're getting an unfair slice of blame, take a step back from the situation. And you'll see more often than not, it's that unhappiness inside them that needs to come out. And it happens to find its target in you.

I may be way off base, but that's been my experience with such folks so far. I'm sharing this because it's no use putting your self-esteem through such a battering because of other people's issues, right?

posted October 17, 2016 12:44 AM            

I've only known one person who was spurred to become better by verbal and physical abuse that replaced teaching by her family when she asked to learn something (and her family didn't want her to learn at all so intentionally tried to destroy her self-confidence and make her scared to try, as opposed to others who seem to think they can somehow shame kids into magically gaining full proficiency rather than learning it slowly, and gaining proficiency through practice). She was determined not to be spineless like her mother and looked to learn outside the home, and slowly did, and has exceeded her family in skill now, and she hates them now and they now fear her rather than her fearing them. I say good, they deserve it. Unfortunately, her achievement didn't liberate her from the problems they dumped on her and she became addicted to risk, adrenaline, and drama which has affected her life in terrible ways. Always expecting an attack, she attacks first over imagined slights, and sometimes just "does it first."

posted October 19, 2016 01:19 AM            

Fast forward to now, I am capable of having acquaintances & talking to people but it's like hard for me to REALLY get close to people....I have been told that I am a very likeable person because of my personality but sometimes I feel like people don't like me for who I TRULY am.

It"s like not alot of people know the real me...They just like what's on the surface....I am capable of having superficial connections out of politeness but lately I have been so sick of superficial that I considered deleting alot of people on FB because its all superficial.....I would probably keep only 20 friends on there if it were up to me.

I do have a few close friends and they are the REAL ones. I am thankful for them. And then there are the guys I dated & whom I loved...they saw the real me, I opened myself up to them & they managed to love me & I did give part of my soul to them...

But this thought in the back of my head
..people come and go...Nothing is permanent, nothing lasts forever..so this sadness & loneliness i currently feel won't last forever. And I take comfort in that.

posted October 20, 2016 01:05 AM            

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Originally posted by MillyX:
I hate when I feel like people don't truly care about me. I know it isn't true but it's like a thought that stuck with me ever since I was young. I was neglected as a child . My mom couldn't really take care of me so I had to bounce from one family to another & I got ignored alot. Alot of my needs weren't met, I wasn't the biological child, the adults that 'took care of me' only did because they felt sorry for my mom but there was definitely no love or care. I have always felt like an outsider....& that I didn't really matter.

Fast forward to now, I am capable of having acquaintances & talking to people but it's like hard for me to REALLY get close to people....I have been told that I am a very likeable person because of my personality but sometimes I feel like people don't like me for who I TRULY am.

It"s like not alot of people know the real me...They just like what's on the surface....I am capable of having superficial connections out of politeness but lately I have been so sick of superficial that I considered deleting alot of people on FB because its all superficial.....I would probably keep only 20 friends on there if it were up to me.

I do have a few close friends and they are the REAL ones. I am thankful for them. And then there are the guys I dated & whom I loved...they saw the real me, I opened myself up to them & they managed to love me & I did give part of my soul to them...

But this thought in the back of my head
..people come and go...Nothing is permanent, nothing lasts forever..so this sadness & loneliness i currently feel won't last forever. And I take comfort in that.

The feeling of impermanence is a scary yet comforting thought.

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posted October 22, 2016 12:28 PM              

No such thing, I assure you.. *HUG*

posted October 27, 2016 11:50 AM            

The thing is though is that I can't sleep unless I'm tired. Otherwise I will just lie in bed as my mind takes over and drifts off. I need to stick to a routine and make myself do it, whether I want to or not.

posted November 01, 2016 09:43 PM              

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Originally posted by Electro DGX:
I keep going to bed late and going to school tired all the time, especially since I have to get up at 5:30 in the morning for school and go through the whole day until 3:00 when it ends (it starts at 7:10). Perhaps this is why I feel like crap all the time; I'm dealing with sleep deprivation.

The thing is though is that I can't sleep unless I'm tired. Otherwise I will just lie in bed as my mind takes over and drifts off. I need to stick to a routine and make myself do it, whether I want to or not.

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Go easy on yourself..

Hey, you know what.. one of my friends used to play soccer - a LOT - (even if he was just by himself) to exhaust himself so he'd fall asleep. Or he would do an insane number of laps or something like that. I dunno if it's a certain type of insomnia or just a sleep pattern, but maybe if exhausting yourself works, you could try that? Any physical activity..

posted November 01, 2016 09:46 PM              

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Originally posted by hannaramaa:
Literally have grown-a$$ adults arguing with special needs kids at my jobs. I know special needs kids and LD / ID / ED kids have personalities like anybody else, but really? They're also ornery af. It comes with the territory! I wasn't surprised and it's my FIRST year doing it. Some of these adults have been at it six or seven years! DUDE! Don't quit your day job because you're terrible at this, and it just brings out my Mama bear instincts wanting to protect my kids from stupid people who take everything personally.

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Not sure I understand this, but..

posted November 02, 2016 09:47 AM            

I'm a nurse. In the past I worked in environments where the patients had contagious diseases, some were dangerous. Then, with my other works, and various other reasons, I reduced it to casual work, to volunteer work, and eventually stopped all together.

This morning I expressed interest of going back to nursing. The conversation got longer. He said he was concerned about contagious diseases. Then somehow it just took a weird turn, and he asked that if there was an epidemic, would I volunteer to continue my duty. I didn't answer. He said that my life is now no longer just "mine" anymore. To which I answered that if there wasn't enough healthcare professionals to help to contain the disease, it would spread and affect the ones I love anyway.

He was quiet. And then stood up and went outside. This was the first time ever.

The thread in astrology 2.0 has some key words that trigger deep parts of my mind, despite the thread being about something that is quite different.

Now I just keep thinking and analyzing the conversation we had. It's not that he doesn't understand. And I get his side as well. It overwhelms him and he doesn't know how to response.

posted November 02, 2016 02:26 PM              

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Not sure I understand this, but..

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posted November 03, 2016 12:54 AM            

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posted November 03, 2016 01:33 AM            

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Originally posted by StubbornVirgo:
I needed this gentle reminder. Thank you for posting it, teasel.

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posted November 04, 2016 11:09 AM            

Maybe I should just let it go freely, let it all out for once.

posted November 04, 2016 05:40 PM            

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Originally posted by Electro DGX:
Saturn makes me want to put a cap on everything: my anger, my emotions, my face.

Maybe I should just let it go freely, let it all out for once.

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How do you mean?

I have trouble sleeping, too. I can't sleep, unless I'm exhausted, or I take something (and even then that doesn't guarantee anything).

posted November 04, 2016 05:55 PM            

Saturn is frustrating.