posted September 10, 2019 10:13 AM            

Had an incredibly physically agonizing day from sonics yesterday. Inhumane!!!! .. Rm took me to a steak-n-shake to get away from it. Had some of their homemade soup. When we got back home?? OMG!!!! there was not a single spot in this whole apartment that could bring surcease from pain.

They started up again this morning around 7:30am, as USUAL.

To have to deal with this constant level of PHYSICAL-level of suffering is hardly fair. I can deal with many other levels of existence, but when it comes down to the physical wearing-down with nerve-pain .. this is a WHOLE other ballpark. UNFAIR grounds.

I believe there are folks who are interested in me. They might find it surprising how 'flexible' I can be after being approached.

I know they are there-- I'm not sure of 'who' they are at this time; JUST that 'they exist.' Who are 'they'/'these'?

I have NO monetary resources to work with.
Can't work unless I've got a GOOD HOME -- just the way it works out with me. I am (after years of battery!!) way too sensitive (physically) to Environment.

I DO recover an amount of health WHEN these have been in balance. So that's the GOOD news. But right now, it's just 'too much'. I NEED a Recovery-Chance.

Environment is KEY.

I have a LOT to offer.
I am very willing to train.
I am a Learner and love to grow.

If people have been following my posts at LL, and they have a solution to my dilemma here, I would WELCOME their Direct Contact.

At this point, I feel at the extreme-PRESS of my physical tolerances.

I've continued to post in faith that there are folks out there who 'get' (understand) me. I feel as though I'm in a cave. Can't always be on the computer to listen to Everything. I NEED to rely on OTHERS' evaluation of what would be proper and ideal in this situation.

I have good ethics, and morals.
I would 'need' to be able to adhere to these careful-codes.
I trust that folks already know, and that they care.
I am so Grateful, thank you for you Fine Understanding.

Again, Direct Contact .. is the way.
Some folks already (for years) have known my email and even have my landline phone number on their records.

I DESERVE a good place to live-- and, to be very Useful in the lives of Others. When the sonics are over-the-top, I SUFFER physically MUCH MORE than a 'sentient' being should.

Okay...
Seems that when LL went through its computer server CHANGE, it disconnected older threads and posts from Notifications. Also, yahooAccounts are 'acting up' and flubbing.

I'm going to try opening a new thread in Knowflakes Forum (WITH yahoomail) to see if THAT will engage a Contact/Notification once more.

I REALLY "should" have a googleaccount.
I want some advice before doing so.

Yahooomail sent me an Anniversary congratulations on Aug 30 for having been with them for 16 years!! wow. They have been my ONLY account.
{{They day in 2003, had Mercury that JUST stationed RX!! and Mars was retrograde too. LOL. Was just-after a New Moon in Virgo 4+, and several years before my interest in astrology came around.}}
Since they are flubbing now, maybe it's time to get other emails.
Thing is?? I would need help-advice on 'how to' coordinate ALL the emails together, to funnel these into a Primary account.

I STILL can't afford an e-phone!! LOL
There's a hole in my 'experience' with that.

I have a 'bama-phone that has text abilities.
That's my emergency cell {for hurricanes, etc.}. It is NOT hooked up to Internet because I cannot 'afford' it.

I've got my volunteer job to go to today.

A few weeks ago, someone there showed me something about icons on my texting cellphone, that OPENED a whole new 'capability' for me. There was NO WAY I would have figured that out all on my own. I had NO idea that the phone DID that.

I am a very bright person.
I need a phone&'puter guru! LOL
I am VERY teachable, and VERY willing and eager to Learn new things.
I WANT to be Useful, and to enjoy my life (without needless physical pain.. *argh*).

I LOVE to Do Good for Others.

posted September 11, 2019 08:48 AM            

- … msn.com/en-us/news/video/
live-news-coverage-from-cbs-news/ar-BBmYvYY?
ended

- http://www.astro.com/astro-databank/Terrorist:_WTC_(2001)

(music) September 11, 2001 - Tribute and Memorial (Barber Adagio for Strings, Leonard Bernstein; posted by Craig McAlister on Sep 11, 2009) [9:55] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QUmkJR9Hwoc

"A slideshow tribute to the events of September 11, 2001.
Focus is on people, their connection with the towers, past and present, and not simply a play by play of news footage.
Communicating the full range of expression from terror to sacrifice, compassion, and sacrifice...as well as the ways in which people responded as friends, neighbors and as Americans.
Set to Samuel Barber's "Adagio for Strings, which was played at Ground Zero during the memorial service the same week as the tragedy."
~quote yt

posted September 17, 2019 12:21 PM            

Okay. I've been in pain here, DAILY, for years!
I need a relocation.
Haven't been able to zone-in on 'where'.

I am a Christian, and I've never made that a secret about myself. If Jesus repulses you, then naturally, we are not a match. I believe there are others who are Christ-friendly, and who would be willing {from their Heart} to step-in.

REALLY need help at this point.
This is physical agony day-after-day, remaining here. I can barely 'think' beyond the immediate-blocks in my immediate-world. This is sooo narrowing of ANY kind of Future.

I want to ADD to Others who are Making A Difference, in some way.

I live with someone right now that is so incredibly detached and into himself-only that my regular world-needs are not met. He could have chosen to HELP me, and 'fend for me here, and it's like myself 'as a person' does NOT COUNT. My efforts are all going into the up-keep of HIS world, without input or Value being ADDED 'as a person' into mine.

This situation I'm in has been a complicated 'trap' ..

I had a very revealing phone conversation with someone the other day. I've been here for 12 1/2 years {Jupiter-return}, and the person I live with hardly-BARELY knows me as a person and personality!!

If I were found unconscious, he would be able to 'identify' my body--- that's ALL!!! LOL!!

They asked me for emergency contact (oh ugh, him???), and whether I have a Living Will??

I would NOT TRUST him at all to give the right-information about me(body), with an ability to make decisions on MY behalf. Quite FRIGHTENING, is that the regular world regards 'him' as the ONLY living-person that would be knowledgeable of my affairs, as he is involved in my daily life. This TRULY scares me a LOT!!!

We went into the supermarket the other day and the grocery-bagger called me his wife---- at which point I {surprisingly} SHARPLY and vehemently drew the line on that and said that I am NOT. .. There is NO benefit here outside of a roof over my head. I don't have resources, otherwise.

{Not going into v-job today because have an eye-doctor appointment, for some testing.}

Most of the 'hood "thinks" we are a couple.
Yeah, we live together. His family regards me as his 'maintenance person.' That's it. I've poured my "caring" into someone that could NOT care-back. He "received" some very good years of mine. I do ALL with Love and Personal Attention... that I never received-back.

I'm a dedicated and very-committed loyal person.

I deserve Others who want to pitch-in (All-in) as 'readily' as I do, with Others. I'm not into tight titfortat-accounting consciousness?.. Right now, I don't function on that level. That 'you owe me' all the time, deficit-thinking, is not beneficial.

When everyone willingly is 'Heart-forward' and pitches-in from what they can do, there's a Beautiful Meld of Abilities. Across the Width, EVERYTHING and Everyone gets covered and things Flows 'as it should'.

I am good in a team or group, which wants to function to 'Do Good' in this world. Yes I have limitations physically (sensitivity) (age?..64), and inside me I feel young.

I have a WEALTH of Life Experience,
WITH Enthusiasm and Caring,
that I'd LOVE to share from.

Until I'm out of here,
out of torturous situation
and time-stealing sand-pit,
I can barely think to 'plan' anything with specificity.

I DO need the help and Willingness of outside-people ..
*smile*--
and I promise you that I have inner-awesomeness!???,
and big sharing cooperative heart and spirit.
*grin* haha,

I want to join with a group of Loving positive people, who Value the same.

Need to relocate, build foundation. Live!

I automatically ADD to Others.
Need others that reciprocate and ADD to me, with Love, and cheerfully. *grin*

I want to feel Loved and Accepted and Valued.
Need people who value ME as much as I value and Put my Good Energies in with them, and their activities.

Basically, I believe in "pooling" ideas together, and figuring on ways of making them work.

As I said, I have a width of life experiences.

Am willing to be trained and further educated.
I'm a Life Long Learner!! *grin*

I'm an Honest person, and want others that are the same there. I have good ethics and a good spirit, and want others who do also.

And again too..
I don't consider myself as a 'condemning' narrow-legalistic dogmatic shallow Christian. I love diversity, and getting-along.
I do LOVE Jesus, and strive to live with integrity, honesty, and good ethics.

Treating Everybody Right.
Loving and celebrating each Soul.
Every Life, Every Person --
is Valued, and has Purpose.

Let ME be a Part of that Message,
upholding people the Best Way I can.

I need other people to give INPUT to ME.

How Can I Help?

I'm open to Projects, and other ways and ideas.

I am not a 'one size fits all'???
Sort of a unique individual??
But with the Right Cinderella-SlipperFit,
we have Gold working for ALL of US.

Sorry for my not-seeing, if things are there, and working, and already in place.

If that is REAL???
I thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you soooooooo MUCH.

Gotta g0.
Leaving this unProofed.

posted September 17, 2019 05:28 PM            

My statement about Jesus (above post) is meant in a wide-and-general way. The word 'you' ..is not meant personally. {I've seen some "hate"-speech recently.. It wasn't geared towards you-personally.}

Thank you soooooo much for your birthdata, and for birthdata of 'S'. I relish the chance to look over your chart (finally!!!! yay! LOL).

In the email, you described some of the {shocking} narrow dogmatic language and behaviors he has been battering you with.

There's a difference between spewing intellectually-scripted religious rhetoric, and being a REAL Christian. Baby Christians have a lot of zeal, and haven't yet "digested" what Walking In Christ means.

*~

I had a coworker in the early 1990s who told me what a "Christian" told her after she suffered the loss of her brother to suicide. It was sooo repulsive and in NO way represented Jesus and His Teachings.
{-- so hurtful and insensitive.}
She confided that to me because she knew I was different than that!!

By judging the whole belief system, through a shallow unempathetic hurtful action by one, OR, perverted behaviors by clergy, does harm to the Good that is offered.

Humans.. ?? *bheart* *heart*

I KNOW that there ARE Christ-Friendly folks out there who follow my posts. I don't jam religion on people. Maybe that's my 'uniqueness'? It's part of what I have to offer.

I have enjoyed delving into other people's faith system, and getting much inspiration (including spiritual growth) from listening to others with my Heart's Spirit-ears.

There's Beauty available in the Sharing.

Like Ellen! generally says,

BE a Good Human..
Stay Kind, Listening,
and Patient with one another.

The sonics are better for right now {couple of hours!! .. oh gosh-- celebrate small things??}.

Thanking Folks for being patient with me!!
It REALLY gets sonic-intensive in here most times now, on a DAILY basis.. I get so worn and sore inside-- but collect myself later.

I'm looking Forward to Better.

These many many days go by,
so slowly,
and so fast.

With ALL MY HEART, I wish EVERY Reader The BEST Life Possible.
I'm flattered that you still come back! *HEART*

Truly, Love you sooo Much.
Send you Blessings.

May you Stay Safe
May you Prosper with your Businesses
and
In Your Health and Life.

posted September 24, 2019 01:03 PM            

Women's groups were on a campaign this month with flyers reminding women to get cancer-screening for breasts. I was genuinely glad for their reminder. Was overdue for it by several years.

So I had the routine non-invasive health screening last Friday. I did perfectly fine, they were very efficient and well organized. Dressing gowns were pink cotton-flannel.. feeling warmer and more cozy up against the skin.

My experience was very good.

Then omg later... (personally).
The experience of going into to that place with huge image-screening machines subconsciously retriggered fears that I had suppressed from young childhood.

On my ride home, I began feeling a rise in the sense of 'fear' in me as I remembered other tests that I "should" have been looking into before.

Then, there was this terrified angst that blossomed and rose up to the surface, and once again I was facing the welling of emotions, bright images, memories, of events of the past.

'Fear' was still quite nuclear. It jumped back UP in me, doing what I've heard someone describe as an 'Amygdala Hijack'.. whewwww o.m.g.

(semi-humor) One of the reasons I AVOID going to doctor offices is that I prefer to stick my head in the sand???!! yeppers!! LOL
..
Nah.. Actually, there's a "shortage" of doctors in this area. They are ALL just way too busy.

When I go for required blood checks two to four times a year (thyroid), the doc doesn't make inquiry into how I am. Barely speaks. Just reads.
Keeps his eyes on the computer screen, then renews scripts. He's "too busy" .. takes shortcuts.

So I did a "medical asteroids" check after I got home.
WOULD you believe.... a number of the key asteroids involved in the original-trauma were being triggered? .. Yup. I made a hardcopy of those transits, to place in a folder of the other astrological finds I had searched years ago.

Repeating self for those who are new to me--
Incident---
When I was 4 yo, I had surgery to remove my tonsils and adenoids. The did the procedure DURING a Full Moon Aquarius {Sun cj my Pluto e.o.H8}.

At this Full Moon--
The doctors had 'botched' the anesthesia.
.. I had had an out-of-body 'AWARE' experience DURING the surgery where I was hovering and watching over the doctor's left shoulder.
After the procedure they discovered I was hemorrhaging, {placed my body on shock-blocks according to the copy of the report}.

I was 'sense'-aware during parts of the procedure. When they rushed me back into surgery to stop the bleeding, I 'felt' what they were doing to me!!!!
..
Aug 1959-- Cliché was that 'little kids don't/won't Remember'??? BS!! because I DID.

Silly, but still makes me shake inside..

So. Present Day.
I called that hospital after I got home and settled a bit. I wanted to 'ask' if they had any kind of needs-support for adults who have a morbid fear of anesthesia {I described}. The woman contacted the department, while I waited a long time on the phone. She said they ONLY do that in Pediatrics. Not for adults.
.. We talked for a few more minutes.
I found out she gets migraines and had just had an MRI for it. I was able to steer her to some of what I had learned were 'triggers' for those. She hadn't been aware of that, and thanked me very much.
{We had had a 'mutual' exchange, I figured.}

The anesthesia department is a contractor for the hospital. They use the hospital facilities. I had been told before that they are just way "too busy" to take extra time that any patient would need that. No considerations for {emotional} care.

They need to consider the need for respecting adult clients/patients who have had trauma with anesthesia, or other medical procedures.

Doctors and medical personnel need to be Kind and Compassionate and take extra time with clients who have a legitimate need for it.

The woman I had spoken to said that this fear happens more than people realize.

posted September 26, 2019 12:52 PM            

quoting contents of newsletter
You are cordially invited to the second installment of the
2019-2020 Conversations at The Carter Center series.

"Standing Strong Against Attacks on Human Rights"
Date: Wednesday, Oct. 16, 2019, 7-8:15 p.m. EDT
Location: Cecil B. Day Chapel, The Carter Center
453 Freedom Parkway, Atlanta, GA 30307
Cost: Free

In many parts of the world, repression is on the rise and freedom on the decline. But brave human rights defenders continue to fight for equality and fair treatment for all. Hear what participants in our Human Rights Defenders Forum have to say about the state of human rights across the globe. Learn what they’re doing to protect and promote these rights – and how you, too, can be a defender.

If you are unable to attend in person, we invite you to watch the live webcast on our website.

Reservations are not required for the webcast.

Panelists:
* Memory Bandera of Zimbabwe, director of programs and administration for the East and Horn of Africa Human Rights Defenders Project and co-founder of the Girl Child Network Zimbabwe and Uganda

* Hafida Benchehida, Algerian senator and a founding member of both the Algerian Women's Parliamentarian Network and the Arab Women's Parliamentarian Network

* Claudia Virginia Samayoa, human rights activist and founder of Unidad de Protección a Defensoras y Defensores de Derechos Humanos in Guatemala

Moderator:
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{If you go in person, you have to Register}
Seating is first come, first served.

NOTE:
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____________________________
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posted October 01, 2019 07:30 AM            

Happy 95th Birthday, Pres. Jimmy Carter (Oct 1) :

- http://www.astro.com/astro-databank/Carter,_Jimmy

He's having another Jupiter Return.

Many Blessings, to a Man who leads in Performing Good.

May God Bless You with more Good Health,
With Favor and Ease,
And Increase your Years, your Joy,
and Effectiveness to Do Good on this Earth.

An Inspiration to Many... For Decades.

posted October 02, 2019 10:31 PM            

- http://www.astro.com/astro-databank/Sting

I had loved what he did with the reinterpretation of Medieval music by John Dowland (1563~1626). Gorgeous and sensitive rendering!

Quote..
"For me, it's music of self-reflection, which leads to melancholy, which is different from depression.
Depression is a terrible, clinical disease, where melancholy is actually a beautiful, useful emotion."
~ Sting

(music) In Darkness Let Me Dwell (Dowland; Sting & Edin Karamazov; Songs from the Labyrinth) [5:17] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EBJkb5wrw-Q

more up-beat
(music) Come Again (Dowland, Sting & Edin Karamazov; album Songs from the Labyrinth) [2:43] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d4EmIPY8yqY

Here's a ~more contemporary song he was noted for writing and performing.

(music) Fields Of Gold (written by Dusan Bogdanovic, Gordon Sumner=Sting, & ?Edin Karamazov, Lute) [3:41] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bcvF6SI0A8s

posted October 03, 2019 11:22 AM            

In a side kind of way---
this post today comes from an angle of DV, and is in the wake of this topic.

I am dealing again,
with extraordinary sonics today again./././.
ooo,mmm,ggg….
This really really hurts!!!
I can't get away from it.... omg.
There is NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT.

I feel vulnerable, scared, and unable to find a space right now, on this earth, that I 'know about', that would help me.
Sooo tired too today.

I SEE... that there are folks out there in the world who practice Kindness. I really really really hope there is Kindness that will be extended towards me. Please...

HOOD NEWS
So Yeh. Next wall. Her 'baby-daddy' is BACK.

..the one that had been arrested for prying open a back window to get-in every single day {that she 'claimed' was against her will and she couldn't help it??}.
DV. He had brandished a gun with threats, and her mom witnessed that and called the police to have him arrested.
She was to have executed an injunction that had been set up for her to 'DO'.. but hadn't {because she 'loves' him??? ~oy}.
.. He's a drug dealer/leader in a criminal group {?pimp?-- even Rm noticed.. which was amazing-- ? I think she had propositioned him?}.

{{Baby-daddy had been staying with a new group of people who had moved in several months ago, caddy-corner from this place. They were raided by a team of police cars and squads that blocked our streets, and were arrested. {?Traffiking?? Certainly they were OBVIOUS drug dealers.
"Happens" that he wasn't 'caught' in the arrest of a number of persons living in that apartment.
I noticed he was later jimmying the slider doors ?window? to that particular apartment, even though residents had been evicted and contents emptied.

So what happened next???? …. ~duh.
Next wall allowed him back into her life-- He got her stoned-out heavily. She's an addict. Can't believe they did it in the car, just before pulling out for a ride. Sooo freakin' high!!!.. The 5 year old was buckled in her safety seat. She took-off for their ride (driver)-- they were BOTH in that stoned-out state of consciousness-- with a young CHILD in the backseat.

I haven't 'heard' any big fights yet.
We have a huge wall mirror. One time Rm and I thought it was going to fall down from things they threw against the walls before.

So.
.. Baby-daddy has that gaming equipment/music he runs. Percussions of these permeate this apartment and is sooooo keenly-excruciating to my senses and the nerve-system. It can go almost the entire 24 hour period of the day.

.. Maybe the ordinary human hearing sense can't perceive it--- but I feel all the tiny razorlike-sliced-edge superbassbeat-percussions.

.. And the "shaking" of this entire environment is chattering my floor, and shivering my chair right now as I try to type this.

I tried to even go into the back of the home (where my bedroom is)… but alas, they own a whole-home system !!

So, I cope minute by minute.
I have NO WHERE to go.

Trying to hold self together.
This is extraordinary.
I'm getting older..
This has been incrementally getting worse year after year, month after month here. It's like Kryptonite... and really inhumane that I be subject to it.
I pray I don't get into a medical event.
It's been wearing and wearing on me.

Hunkered down...
Hope GOD has a Plan in all this!

I want to remain on this earth.
I want to be Useful.
I want to be accepted into a wonderful Home.
I want my body to catch-up on some Healing it would need at this point.

I'm anchored in Hope.
God Loves Me!!!
He Knows the people who Love Me Back.

haha. get ready get ready get ready!!!
Ain't gonna let this get me down.
There IS help available...
Thing is? IT will have to find 'me'.
I don't 'know' what's out there for me,
in "Possibility Realm."

_______________________________________
My favorite song for this topic...

October is Domestic Abuse Awareness Month

You don't need to be 'hit' to leave a 'scar'.., or be abused

(music) Evangeline (Little Big Town, live) [4:34] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dzzdf7rerfg

Protect The Women

(topic) Today’s Takeaway: How To Leave An Abusive Relationship Safely (DrPhil Show, Nov 2, 2018) [3:48] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UJ6tBc_ymHo

- www.loveisrespect.org

posted October 03, 2019 01:10 PM            

NEWS - Medical Event
(topic) Bernie Sanders Hospitalized (WISH TV, posted Oct 2, 2019) [0:31] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GcMmL2MyiJE

Asteroid Astrology
Look at the following correspondences between natal and mundane transits, for date of event Oct 1, 2 , 2019.

"Heart Blok Surgery" {medical}
10, 3063, 4278, 2540, 7149, 3029,

10 Hygeia {health},
3063 Makhaon {surgery}
4278 Harvey {the heart}
2540 Blok {blocked arteries}
7149 Bernie
3029 Sanders

Venus Libra 22+ Return that day {arteries?}
tMercury Libra 29 {News, conveyance}
Saturn-Pluto Capricorn square {narrow-constriction, need to stop, breakdown and renew and fix}

Announcement came as
Moon entered Sagittarius
conjunct natal 'Sanders' 0.34 Sag.
He has natal Makhaon {surgery} Cancer at 29.03. Cancer natural ruler of Moon.

Transiting Sun Libra 9+
with transiting Bernie conjunct at 5+ {highlight on Bernie Sanders} --
directly across is transiting Sanders r Aries 12+

t Hygeia 10+ had just turned retro {going back for anything missed} in Gemini,
He has natal Hygeia Gemini 7.33. {health}.

Interesting too is one of his stances is on issues concerning GOOD Health Care in our Country {USA}.
{His Hygiea Gem is in USA 6th House {a health house? .. I'm not as well versed in 'mundane' astrology houses yet, sorry}.}

tJuno {spokesperson, advocate} in Virgo was in-between
his Sun Virgo 15+, with NN Virgo 22;
he has Neptune Virgo 26+ close to USA Neptune Virgo 22+ with his NN there. "H9, a Universal" Health Care Advocate who proposes to have USA equipped with something comparable to systems in other countries.

His Hygiea {..health} is conjunct USA Uranus {change} 8+ Gemini in USA 6th-taurcusp.

He wasn't aware of his symptoms until they became urgent.
tMoon opp natal Uranus Gemini 0.21 {trigger}
transiting T-Square aspect with
tMars Virgo 29.03 {Mars rule cutting, surgery, square stressors}

tMars in Virgo had also been crossing his natal Neptune Virgo {Virgo can be health-related, Neptune about hidden problem that Mars helped surface?}.
tMars Virgo 29+ quincunx {health-stress!! aspect} his own natal Mars r Aries 23+..
He has an Aries Moon {unknown time}.

tNeptune Pisces {unrealized unawareness of his symptoms until then?} happening to his natal Harvey {heart organ}.

tMakhaon r Pisces {surgery, microscopic detailing} travelling near natal Harvey,
making a square {trigger awareness, incident with}
his Hygiea Gemini {health}.

t Sun {also, represents the heart?} in Libra was trine his and transiting Hygiea.

The longer I look at this chart, the more I see. oh no..
Will end with this.

Natal Blok {blocked} 19+ Sag.
Natal Ceres 26+ Sag.

Transiting asteroids in Sag tell it --
Harvey{heart} 23+ Sag,
JUPITER Sag 18+ {received 'expanding' balloon stent in arteries}
Blok{that were blocked} 15+ Sag {sag is political journeying too?}
Moon {the public} had entered Sag making 'public' the news on his name, and what happened to him.

^^That's a loose description!
There are other aspects going on with his chart.

posted October 05, 2019 10:42 AM            

I heard he will still participate in the next debate. I'm glad-- because it makes the others sharper to hear and consider his point of view.

Many ideas, when you present them all together,
makes the Best working-idea come to light.

That's part of the "purpose" of our style of government-- put all the parts together to find the Third.

* Nice Home Surprise--
The landlord here chose 'us' for receiving a new stove, and some new blinds for front window. Arrived yesterday.

Our old stove was from the 1970s! They complimented me on its upkeeping and condition. So, we have an updated one now, with new fire-safety features to it.

Endeavored to keep those front blinds as clean as I could. They were very very old. Became 'friable' -- as the uv rays from the Sun cause the slats to naturally breakdown and become easily brittle. I had been needing to place oversized white foamboards panels behind the blinds at dusk to cover 'missing sections' for added privacy.

* New End-Unit Neighbor Moved In--
New neighbor is a very devoted Christian Spanish family. He owns his own maintenance-type business. Bumper-stickers about God-- that's how I got to approach him. Can't wait to meet their kids, eventually. I saw three bicycles on their patio.

* Other--
Still dealing with the kryptonite from other-wall! ughhh~sheesh !! It's simply purely awful to my health here.. to be subjected to this /torture/ all of the time.

* Rougher News for me--
Somehow, someway??? .. I must have pulled and stressed-out my right hip and WOW!!, lightning-pain when I move the wrong way! It's almost like a frozen Charlie-horse, stiffening parts of my body. Hard to sit and move. Especially hard to get up. Had to butter my body with topical-anesthetic cremes and patches.

So.. gotta go move my body now?
Wha''' Yikes!!!
Applying Mars square Mars!
Being careful as I can.

posted October 07, 2019 02:17 AM            

I don't like Mars square Mars. Mars is going to conjoin my Pluto, oppose Jupiter, and then move into my 12th (unless he's there already, some people use whole sign houses, or equal house). I'm not looking forward to the full moon, and this thing with Bernie is one thing that's had me worrying about my dad and my own future again. Just this fear that I'm going to lose it all soon. I don't like it, so I'm taking something to help me sleep, and trying to get things done around the house. I spent time with my dad this weekend, and we went to the movies tonight (it was just what I needed). Tomorrow, I'll try to clean things up around here, and do the dishes, so that dad won't do it when he gets home from work. I'm also having dizzy spells (have had them for two weeks now), but I'm okay.

posted October 07, 2019 12:08 PM            

RE Neighbor and 'Hood---
Yes thanks, I hope my neighbor-experiences DO better, UNTIL I can move. Actually, I get along super-well with folks in this neighborhood. Have a very good reputation here. I smile and wave at everyone, and it Makes a Difference-- really does. I think it improves morale.
I don't stop to engage in conversations--
some don't speak same language-- but nearly everyone relates to the face and greeting from a cheerful warm and friendly person, day after day.

One of my favorite families {and lovable big dog} has relocated last weekend. I was really glad I found out and could hug them, before they left. Lots of Love every day when we saw each other. She was one of those neighbors who fed the feral cats in the 'hood. I used to donate cat-food to thank her for doing that. The cats do an important job in the 'hood, with negating mice-population, and.. chasing squirrels! -- {Runnnn little squirrel, RUN!}. LOL.

That's something which Counties need to consider as a Natural Solution--
* Some sections have problems with too many feral cats?
* Other sections are over-run with mice?
Therefore, why don't they relocate the over-supply of cats TO the places overrun with mice?? Common-sense.

RE frustration sonics {dry humor}---
Like what happened in the past few months with TWO households (within a baseball's throw from here), hope SWAT comes back for some that they missed in their sweep!

The longer that Law Enforcement takes to act {{on what's been soo 'obvious'}}, then, the deeper and more-efficient their sting-op is sure to be, for the benefit of the extended community.

When Law enforcement ACTS on the collection of "facts" they gather, they are EXTRA efficient. In courts, it becomes more-likely that the criminals get a conviction. Pulling out 'networks' by the whole Root! They do an awesome and conscientious job here. *thumbsup*

I've prayed for officers when I see them.
I approach and express my gratitude towards them for the great job they're doing (in my community). Have said to them how I realize their lives are in peril all the time... so scary. *tears*
The stuff you see on TV involves these real-people who put their life on the line for us as they leave their home each day!

Thank you for helping to Keep Us Safe. heart:

*~
So. The sonics are awwwfullll again today. harghhh.

I want to stay HEALTHY and Strong.
When I leave this earth, God-willin',
I want to leave in GOOD Health!! ROFL
Jesus??? Beam me UP??!

*~
RE-- Injury late last week--
Pain in hip and back ARE improving with speed, after a very severe-pull/charlieHorse ~whatever!
Could barely move this body without repercussions over the weekend.

Today is Monday.
I'm doing really well healing from that. Was tough finding a way to sleep as any wrong slight wrong-movements brought pain, but am definitely on a MEND now!! Hurrah.

Thanks sooo much for all who have been sending good energies. You have no idea how much I appreciate your good vibes.

So Teasel! …
I came across a really charming and useful video yesterday.

This woman might share some easy great advice for you -- and your dad, since it's wonderful that he has you to take Care of him, too.

This is actually a routine I've had for decades!

(topic) How To Keep a Clean House -- 4 Easy Habits (Grandma Grandpa Griffiths, posted Jan 8, 2019) [6:21] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YZt3_uKQETg

posted October 08, 2019 02:22 PM            

Not one-spot in this ENTIRE apartment was unaffected.

I had to call-in and leave message at my volunteer job---- to say that I CAN'T come in today-- AS a result!

Skull feels soo tight--
head {and inner-organs} just-raw from the constant 'vibrations' and hard-beats.

The way to diminish suffering,
is for me to use the distraction of making my post here.

Been trying to type this for HOURS now!--
attempt to steer my attention away from pain-stimulus,
and will try to get into some interesting-study,
or music,
in an attempt to make posts (for people), which make 'good sense' for the day.

Heard a vidder who said "Pray To GOD"
for your Source of Help.
God Knows Resources,
and Knows what you need BEST.

(semi-humor) ..
Welp,
considering that if "GOD" was behind the prompting of the landlord to give us a "surprise new stove" the other day,

then.....

I have double-down in FAITH and Prayers
that
1) GOD CARES, and
2) GOD ALREADY KNOWS.
(humor) AND!
3) Reads ALL my LL posts--
and is my Biggest Fan!

*~ sooooo.
Just to say, so folks know what's going on.

Rm is here again all day.
Not going out today.

Won't advocate for me.

It's not that he is void of care inside---

It's that "he-himself" isn't "being bothered" by their system next-wall.

So (self's-logic)
if HE isn't being "bothered"..
then in HIS own fair-assessment and with his FAIR inner-conscience--
he perceives 'no good reason' {motivation} to go "bother THEM*--
THIS is something--
pertaining only to MY body's defect and sole-fault?

ahhh the 'humanity' gap?
{simply not "wired" for it}
which is not his fault?

He cares about Utilities that work,
for sitting in his comfy chair,
to enjoy playing with his techs
while in front of TV watching various programs of his liking.
Oh. And, going to fridge.
That "simplicity" makes HIM Happy.

hmmmm. Come to think of it??
If I had THAT--
without woofer gamer-neighbors, cars-motorcycles, from hell[/b] --
I'd be [I]hilariously happy too!!

I like making posts.
I like studying and researching.
Want a nice clean Beautiful simple place I could enjoy.
For the rest of my life.

omg... Jawdrop
*They just got WORSE* ??? .. oh no.
Gotta get off the keyboard!!!
whewww…

In Bright inner-spirits,
In Good Gentle Inner Spirits---

Hoping you all have a good day.

posted October 10, 2019 10:10 AM            

- http://www.who.int/news-room/events/detail/2019 /10/10/default-calendar/world-mental-health-day-2019-focus-on-suicide-prevention

That World Health Organization link has informative videos to watch.

I want to personally praise both of Princess Diana's "UK Royal Couples" for their bold and consistent work. 'Good Performed' by these individuals not only bring awareness among the citizens of their own country, but in extension, the rest of the viewing world.

(music) Bridge Over Troubled Water (perf by Katie Melua) [3:09] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FygQ7I7tetU

Resources
- http://www.wikihow.com/Take-a-Mental-Health-Day-Without-Feeling-Guilty

- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/World_Mental_Health_Day

(topic) Prince Harry and Ed Sheeran team up for World Mental Health Day tune (The Telegraph, Oct 10, 2019) [1:27] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9krBK5Zp1yI

The Power of Love!
(topic) Most-Rev Michael Curry’s stunning royal wedding sermon: ‘Imagine a world where Love is The Way’ (Maclean's, posted May 19, 2018, this vid has various excerpts from the sermon) [5:50] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nwIg2lWO528

posted October 10, 2019 01:17 PM            

Last evening..
I surprisingly found myself spontaneously fall into very-DEEP Prayers over a situation --- of the deliberate "set-up" for the needless slaughter of vulnerable "abandoned" unprotected human beings, in the Kurdish regions of Turkey.

My heart suddenly broke for these!!!!

May God Gently free and receive their soul-group with Rewards, Rest, and Compassions..

May God bring "Justice" --- over this needless loss of lives, and the unknown consequences that follow.

Their population had struggled so hard for over a century. They have been known as being helpful cooperative allies in protecting the USA (and other countries) from the growth of terrorism groups.

Promises that had been in effect, and which were made to these struggling allies have been dishonorably vacated and these allies BETRAYED... leading to the eventual annihilation of this people-group.

*tears* … May God have Strong Mercy …

For the US Soldiers, The Troops ---
You had personally blended your lives in with these villages of REAL people--
You got to KNOW them, and live among them "personally."

You knew that your *soldiering presence* among these people did the Service of holding *that* KEY part of world in better-stability.

You were in a 'delicate' situation which worked to-the-benefit of the USA and other Nations over the years--- in efforts to help keep the World a little more free from attack.

Your presence in that part of the world suppressed the growing and strengthening of terrorist groups--- The people you lived among, were active and helpful TOWARDS that end.

I've briefly seen writings and articles of soldiers who are grieving, hurt, and affected by this!!!--

For our brave Soldiers and government-diplomatic workers -- "obedient" under direct-orders to stand back to "allow" innocent human carnage--

Dear Soldier!!.. It wasn't YOUR decision.
God will BE the Just Judge!
Prayers for you...
And thank you for your sensitivity!!
War and the 'ego' things involved in WAR just suck.

MAY the Spirit of God WITH Healing Consolations
wipe away any war-pain within you.

All Soldiers--
May you have surcease from the internal-wars that fight within self from having Served.

For that People-Group--
May God Gently receive the souls of the physically dead,
and quickly Heal those wounded that remain.
May you have Good and Safe cities and places to Live.

GOD is their Keeper, and will be the Righteous Judge in all of this-- with Spirit to bring "Correction" in those that don't fear God {i.e. .. own a conscience}.

May Spirit Heal OUR Collective psyche and soul …
And bring Greater-Effectiveness with Practical Plans to Efforts.

God Heal and Bless "The Peace-Makers"
and
Protect the "Peace-KEEPERS" on this Earth.

Thanking those that make Concerted Efforts for Peace in and among Our Nations.

- http://www.algemeiner.com/2019/10/07/trumps-abandonment-of-the-kurds-should-scare-e veryone/

- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kurds

Stay Safe, and Stay Blessed Everyone.

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There has been a glitch in this thread.
IT HAS LOCKED-UP ON ME.
I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO MAKE ANY POSTS PAST THIS PAGE, 118.

SHOWS THAT THERE'S A PAGE 119,
WITH NO ACCESS TO IT.

THIS MAY BE THE LAST POST (PAGE 118) I COULD MAKE ON THIS THREAD.

IF THIS PROBLEM HAS NOT RESOLVED ITSELF,
I WILL OPEN A NEW THREAD FOR "GOOD PERFORMED" AND MAKE IT PART II, OF A CONTINUING TOPIC.

SORRY FOR THE INTERRUPTIONS, IN THE MEANWHILE.

I'LL WAIT A FEW MORE DAYS.

BLESSINGS..
mirage29

Would leave a LINK here to the new thread so people can find it.