posted July 10, 2014 06:57 PM            

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Love,

posted July 10, 2014 07:47 PM            

Tevya, in musical Fiddler On The Roof, said this of his eldest daughter's marriage to a 'poor tailor' Just look at them! They're so Happy that they don't even know they're miserable!

Hey Ellyn, your "Happiness" wish-post here helped "turn a new page." Brand new leaf? I love the symbolism.

Page 6 - It was a dark and stormy night....!?

posted August 07, 2014 07:09 PM            

I have had soooo many turn-arounds happening for me! Many discoveries since "that dramatic third week of April 2014."

I want to plan some "quality" time here this weekend for writing and posting many "realizations"... This late-bloomer is blossoming-- both inside, and out!

As I presently have Progressed Sun, Jupiter, Mars, Descendant, Vesta, and Pluto "ALL IN LEO" now! I've joined the Honorary Leo Partayyyy! !!

Yes...

I love baseball analogies. Used to use them quite a lot. I idealized my dad (and mom). One of the best contact-times I had with my dad happened in a left-handed way: as a result of my brothers' sluggishness and disinterest in receiving the valuable coaching he tried to provide them. [My father was celebrated as a sports-coach in the community when I was growing up].

One day I was standing there off to the sides when dad was practicing baseball with them (boys-only club, I was a daughter). I was crouching there, punching-in my leather glove. In my imagination, as my brothers lazily put their gloves up to catch, I saw each ball come to the glove. At batting practice, I was out in the field, chasing after those balls with pep-and-enthusiasm, trying to make a 'worthy' throw back to my father. Then It happened. In order to 'shame them' my dad started to practice with me, while they looked on. Pretty soon, with actual practice-chance and time at bat, my father 'liked' me. I got included. "Slugger-Number-Seven" was what he'd say each time I'd come at bat. Now *I* was giving the boys their exercise. They'd be the ones to chase balls while my dad was pitching them to *me*.

I'd get coached that I 'try' too hard, trying to kill-the-ball. I needed to 'allow' the ball to come to me. Not be before or behind it. I needed to 'allow' that ball to meet the sweet-part on that wooden bat.

Father said, In the end, it's not whether you won or lost: it's how you played the game! I believe the same can be applied to life. I can try to accomplish many things, and maybe fail at many... But in my Heart and private thoughts, I've not lost a thing if I did all with loving intention. Don't know what you can do unless you try....

"I am a Child of the Universe, and I have the Right to BE Here"

(music) Put me in Coach Song (John Forgerty) [3:51] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=04KQydlJ-qc

posted August 07, 2014 08:23 PM            

I've been doing my Homework! And I thank you LOTS and LOTS for all the encouragement. Sheesh... I was able to hook-up with exact info I needed 'for looking'. Things were muddled until 'the right moment' and right-person were in front of me! haha

(This is SUCH a cool story, and lots of 'philosophical' musings abound! I'll do details this weekend, hope-hope! Hey, I hope *looking* ~~ At least to say, it's my "intention" to write! )

SO!!!.....I needed new glasses for a long long time, and FINALLY gathered up the funds-- major purchase! Really, I was asking around... With no optical insurance, I had no "real" idea what new glasses and lenses were going to cost me now. (Last was 7 or 8(?) years ago.)

WELL!...
I got the lense-Quality prescribed to me by separate opth-doctor.
The optician allowed me a *courtesy* discount.
That DISCOUNT "equaled" The Price of the CellPhone!!!
__ (metroPCS, 20-dollar phone, with activation and one month service-- unlimited talk and text, no contracts!)

So now... My new glasses should arrive a week from now! I will be able to SEE ~~ oh, YES!!!

Doctor re-check appointment yesterday earlier-morning went well too.
My thyroid is STILL very-much "too low"! He's 'increasing' my synthroid...
(I say THANK GOD!!!!!! My body-energy was striving to keep up.)

When fainting and hitting my head, April 23, 2014 just after 11:05pm edt, I sustained a 'strain' injury to my right shoulder to neck, down upper right arm. Since it didn't completely resolve all on its own, I will be going for Physical Therapy. Will attend a 'sports-injury'(????) clinic for physical therapy... name references the "spine" (omg, hahaha, LEO is all over this Healing of the Past!~~~ REF my post above^ ~~ o giosh, I love astrology!! (Anyway---- more stories about that later too!!!!!)

(Been in my 2nd Saturn return, which is opposite my 6th house cusp Taurus (where gemmy-sun is), with Taurus on my 5th too [plac], which 5th House is LEO natural House, where my Venus Taurus is and opposes Saturn. My 2nd House (venus-house) cusp is Cappy (Saturn natural ruler)! My Saturn says NO! to my Venus all the time.... NOW, she's on the rebel-move, and while Jupiter transits Leo, she's 'learning' to be "5th House"! Needs to loosen up, get daring! roarrrr!

posted August 08, 2014 11:40 PM            

I watched the eliminations on America's Got Talent the other night... I love 12-year-old Mara's comment to the judges when they asked her "why" she should be chosen to go up to the next level. She said something like 'because I worked really hard' and 'I'm not ready to quit now'! The other act said they were promoting the love of music. Mara said she wanted it, crying because (I suppose) she thought the opera-singers would be a more sophisticated choice? The judges decided to choose her and passed her on to the next level! *jawdrop*

Astrologer Anne Ortelee does a special work where the 'degree' of the personal planet 'equals' the age of development. My Venus Taurus is 12.38' (12 1/2 years old)... like Mara!

(music) Unconditionally (Mara Justine, AGT 2014 Quarter-Finals) [4:38]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GQsPID_iIVs

posted August 09, 2014 12:00 AM            

(music) Strength, Courage & Wisdom (The India Arie) Lyrics [4:52] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xsfKpnHEk1A

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posted August 10, 2014 11:02 PM            

(music) Right Here Waiting (Richard Marx) [4:22] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S_E2EHVxNAE

posted August 11, 2014 12:49 AM            

I think about shadow-work a lot. The wrestling forces of dark light dark, on the inside and out. I think about the danger of taking chances, and I get in my own way doing so.

(clip) You Don't Fear the Unknown! (Teal Swan, June 21, 2014) [11:57] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WD5aB25xsl4

(clip) How To Open Your 7 Chakras - As Explained in a Children's Show - [10:05] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=02FkMr21xOA

New Beginnings and A Fresh Start!

posted August 13, 2014 03:53 AM            

Actually, I've had a very busy day, inside and out.

Got a full night's rest, and had dreams. Doing astrology and discussing asteroids... There was a hue of pink-coral orange in overall atmosphere of the dream. Started to awaken but the ambience was so pleasant-- working hard, stress-discussions that were not harsh.. mostly overall pleasant.

I had listened to Doreen Virtue's video on Sunday (as is my custom). In the liminal state as I was coming to greater awareness I heard her speaking to me to at least (if can't remember the dream) write down one descriptive word. That word was "Happy." I wrote down 'happy' in my notes.

Started preparing coffee. Went to front door and opened it to find a big box. A wonderful poet-friend sent me a box of clothes and shoes that her mother-in-law was giving away. Twenty-nine pieces. Overall the 'hue' of my new clothes were pink-coral orange. Tried them on... fit like they were made for me. So beautiful, so romantic.

Poured water over coffee grounds. I was feeling sort of 'jammed' but not knowing the reason yet. Then the phone rang. It was the optical place... My new glasses had just arrived! But there was a thunder storm, and she knew I ride the busses. It was better to wait until tomorrow (today 8/13) to come in to get them fitted.

I was in Heaven... Then it struck me. Robin Williams. Robin Williams died yesterday (8/11). Grief. Terrible grief... I use his work on my video urls here, especially pertaining to my dreams of rising from ashes. The grief began to come in waves. I prayed.. Why-questions. But I had already begun to be 'worried' about him, at the closing of his TV Show Crazy Ones. There was 'something wrong'.... I could just 'sense' it!

My roommate was gone for the weekend. I didn't have the television on... just the 'bliss' of having the apartment 'to myself' ... was so rejuvenating! The neighbors had their music-stuff on a little too loud Friday (first day), so I cleaned and sorted and organized. Got the place refreshed. Then I sat for my "gourmet banquet" at the computer, waiting for 'inspiration'.... Full Moon in Aquarius 18.02 (Sun Leo). Just 'go with the flow' anywhere it leads me. One weird thing flows to another. One asteroid search to another.... So absolutely splendid! My searches led me back to the story of Kundry, and Parsifal, and the Knights of the Round Table, and Courtly Love. My Gemini Sun had asteroid Kundry visiting. My natal 558 Kundry is 28.48' Cancer conjunct my Jupiter Cancer 27.23. I was having a majestic visit by traveling Venus in Cancer. In the 30th degree Cancer I have Cyane (best friend of Proserpina {cj my Sun} before the abduction by Hades), Kalm (calm), Vishnu (Hindu god of preservation, a force that would preserve the cosmic order), Archimedes (upward or downward spiraling), 571 Dulcinea (from Don Quixote).

Mercury was crossing and stimulating all kinds of images and feelings-- past life-type things, mayan and Egyptian and renaissance, alexander the great. Past lives (multiple) in nunneries, in cloisters, forming communities, many lifetimes, many many many... It's sooo asteroid Kafka~~ surreal. I just observed it. These degrees form quintiles to my Sun (and a ring and touch-off to strange transits now overall).

Mercury crossed my father's name-asteroid which conjuncts Priestly (anesthesia, pain control, numb-out {which he did, and I did}) to 44 arc-seconds. In same degree is Euterpe (muse of music, rejoicing well, giver of delight, to please), Redqueen (alice in wonderland, the evil queen that alice had to face {{I still have never been able to view the entire story, resistance I must look at}}{asteroid Alice Gemini 10.02, near a host of VERY interesting cripple-type asteroids, restrictions}...

Dam. I could delineate all this for HOURS right now... but I must go rest (or I won't get my glasses because of more storms tomorrow... not enough sleep-- I want to get there without my clothes and hair dripping wet-- I could go on Thursday 8/14. I'll see how things go. Roommate will be here tomorrow during the day {at least to his plans... oy! I need and want a good rounded schedule... no more ***** -footing around all his nonplans... he's got more vacation coming up last week of august into September). I ramble... trying to stay awake to finish this.

ANYWAY... The Big Thing was "finding" asteroid 12820 "Robinwilliams" in my natal 8th house ON the cusp of 9th House LEO 25.56.59 placidus.
asteroid 12820 Robinwilliams LEO 25.31'57"
--conjuncting degrees of these planets/asteroids...
Melpomene (muse of singing, tragedy, drama), Part of Fortune-Pluto, Don Quixote, Haumea (childbirth, reconstruction of the Soul, Self-healing); Spirit, Guinevere, H42/Zeus, 763 Cupido; Apollo (brickwall, slow-learner, going against the odds; song, music, the arts)

Robin Williams has his name-asteroid on his Ascendant in Scorpio, 12th House Side.... I am so amazed. .... ..... .... ....

His Sun is 28.13 Cancer... on my Kundry (who served the Redknight, and the Courtly knights of the Round Table in Arthurian Legends). His asteroid Psyche 29.29 conjunct his Sun Cancer, conjuncts MY Dulcinea...

(music) Dulcinea (Man of LaMancha, Peter O'Toole, 1972) [3:30] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ayz50HeFJUU

I have songs to add to this post. More delineations... but I have to go to bed. Pressure in my head, headache, from stress I'm sure. Gotta go Chill!.... under warm blankets.

(clip) My Captain! My Captain! (from Dead Poet's Society, Robin Williams) [1:49] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MoJTW0t63pc

Life goes on. Live it! ..... *heartsmile*

(music) Bridge Of Light (Pink, Lyrics) [4:02] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fBUe9PXNnqU

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