posted November 26, 2015 09:59 AM            

(music) Be Thou My Vision (hymn, lyrics) [4:22] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xF737HIwbyM

posted November 26, 2015 02:22 PM            

I'm {{so sorry}} for your loss. Doesn't matter how much we think we're 'over it' sometimes, there are layers to mourning. It's okay to cry. Crying brings down Blessings and honors their memory.

May their soul's angel-company be there to comfort and Communion with yours today--, and for the Holi-days ahead.

And for those living with sadness or depression during some REALLY tough-times this year. Stay. Stay with us. Walk the Road a LITTLE bit Farther. Always, always Hope. May special Angelic Forces BE and remain with you. Please Feel CARED for....
{{YOU Are Loved and Not Forgotten}}}

Don't give up. NEVER ever give up.... Feel the Etheric Hand of firm grounding support right now, being extended to you.

May your tears become the water on The Rose that Blooms in desert places. Though you may feel alone (even celebrating within your crowds), let me remind you... That You are NEVER ever truly Alone.

{{You, are Hugged~~ Stay Safe. Stay Safe.}}

posted November 28, 2015 04:43 PM            

For me, Christmas is MORE than just a holiday 'for the religious'... It's a time of incredibly True Beauty in people and the environment that surrounds with all the holiday trimmings. We Share ALL that is Worthy inside and about being a Human Soul walking among those with a living feeling heart.

Some people feel like nobody loves them, or falsely that perhaps nobody even likes them. Maybe I look at others with Rose-y lenses? But when I see a Human Being, I think of human evolution and Potential.

(music) Go Lovely Rose (Eric Whitacre, w/lyrics) [4:28] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p7nf1agjkBU

The Christmas Spirit (to me) is the Light of Christ Consciousness made alive in our gestures of loving sharing giving and exchanging-- Even sharing of smiles, friendly greetings, and knowing-looks among strangers we meet.

When you think about it, Christmas traditions and rituals help reaffirm things to the Human Soul and psyche. Many young wishes and intentions get renewed for Peace on Earth and Goodwill each year, even amidst the graveyards of many losses that come as we grow older. The older I get, the more-important the Christmas-memories.

Christmas is bittersweet. But we can be reborn each year, as we spend time stoking that sacred fire at the Core in our Heart, and hopefully getting to share that with someone else special.

...to discover the part you play, in something larger

I return again to look at my Prenatal Eclipses from Scrib'd, who quotes Rose Linehan: Where two prenatal solar eclipses occurred since the last lunar eclipse before birth, the individual (and his / her PE generation) has the responsibility to share two lessons with humanity.

My Placements---

The Solar (FULL MOON) Pre-natal Eclipse I had was on January 8, 1955, 7:44 am EST. Moon 17.28 Cancer. (Annular)

Sun 17.28 Cap H2 {quintile Juno 4+Scorp h11, biquintile Pluto; sextile Saturn; quintile 29 Pisces}

MOON 17.28 Cancer in H8 conjuncts:
77 Friga Cancer 17.1
VESTA Cancer 17.25'39" .... Dedication, Devotion, The HEARTh.
46563 Oken Cancer 17.30'3" 'Soul Evolving, The Divine Love Within, The incarnation of Love within each one of us'
4804 Pasteur Cancer 17.30'33"
48575 Hawaii Cancer 17.43' ... Multiculturalism, racial diversity
F.S. Wasat in zodiac Cancer 17.53' Partnership, compromise

For fun, I also have
5457 Queen's at 16.10 Cancer,
20002 Tillysmith 16.49 Cancer disaster warnings, 'no warning' {Henk Middleraad, astrologer}, to apply rarely-needed knowledge {tsunami}

And,
11121 Malpighi Cancer 18.06' medical sci researcher discovery: lungs; blood/hematology; study, microscope
6130 Hutton Cancer 18.15' commanding attention or respect; the present being key to the past; deep Time, things that are Ancient or evolve over a long time
12861 Wacker Cancer 18.26' ~eccentricity :laughing:
h56 Selena/WhiteMoon 18.34'
33154 Talent Cancer 18.43'

My Prenatal Lunar (NEW MOON) Eclipse (annular) happened ON
:santa: Christmas Day, December 25, 1954, 2:33 a.m. EST.
NM Capricorn 2.59' in my House 1 (sag-asc).
North Node was Direct 5.31 Capricorn. Mercury was Capricorn ~2.22'02"

The degree of my Equatorial Ascendant is Capricorn 2.06.

The asteroid I have in 2+ Capricorn is 8770 Totanus (which I playfully call The Sandpiper ... after the romantic movie).... and a certain line of poem, And aren't we ALL God's Children, little Sandpiper and I?

The Sabian for the Full Moon in Gemini
(GEMINI 4°): HOLLY AND MISTLETOE REAWAKEN OLD MEMORIES OF CHRISTMAS.

KEYNOTE: A longing for the pre-intellectual state of consciousness.

Happens that during Christmas Week 2015, transiting Venus will be in Scorpio again and RETURN to its PNLE Christmas-Venus-Scorpio 21+ position!

Coincides with my Juno-Scorpio Return...

The astrosky is pretty gnarly today, and I'm just making notation here that I am still open to suggestions on possibility of a successful restablishing out of state relo.
Willing to stay in-state-- willing to trust guidance from persons who have my back on this, and know things that it's not possible for me to see right now.
Still wanting education towards certification (for me). Still open to whatever vocational counsel is available.
Relationship with rm has been good right now; many many improvements on the relationship front.
Gnarly-fridge, woofer/muscle-vehicles, and OTT partiers have biggest physical health dilemma problem for me here.
(I do well when they stop, and body starts recovery-- can take a few hours to over a day for body to reset.)

(~almostfunny) STORY-- On Mountain Goats and Feathers!
I have breathing problems around heavy mildew, peonies/tri-liliums, and feathers! -- Discovered that during Christmas of 1979 while taking care of some ornery goats up 3,000 feet in the Nevada-Cascade Mountains for some friends of an rm of mine at the time! His father had passed and they needed to make a month++-long trip to settle the estate.

So, I wound up being a dog, cat, fish, and Goat-sitter for a while. (Mean!~ Those goats can be sooo mean! LOL)

In the cabin, I slept on down-sleeping bags and comforters-- (not 'realizing' these were filled with feathers). Thought I had come down with a bad case of *cough* dying~pneumonia-- Couldn't breathe, and it was growing worse by the day!

I managed to get a message through a ~weird telephoning system to a good friend. Sooo blessed that she drove the six+ (or more) hours to come help take care of me. (Such a loving soul!) It was she who made the connection to the feather-allergy! *duh-ME* Got rid of the feathers, and ~I Lived!!

*Serious?, but it was so dramatic because I was all by myself with no neighbors around for miles! (Now, that can be good OR bad! LOL) I took my everyday responsibility for those animals very seriously. Then, there was the need to keep that stove stoked with wood so the cabin could stay warm.

~Hey, goats weren't very understanding about needing to get up a little later on a Sunday morning! LOL! Persistent little grouchy-souled beings! ---

I have loads of many stories and insights that came about through having that adventure-episode in my life. Learned so much about myself, and the kinds of things that are important to living life.

I wish the Spirit of Cheer and Goodwill during the Season of Christmas could remain kindled in each person's Heart all year through.

The World needs that now, more than ever... :bheart: :heart:

posted November 30, 2015 04:44 PM            

I am still wishing for a future where I can have a job doing something I soooo love, surrounded by friends who are like 'a warm and safe-secure family' to me. I blossom in that kind of atmosphere. I contract when I think I'm all by myself without fellow hearts.

(Talking through shaking-atmosphere here): I want PERSONALLY to feel 'secure' EVEN IF things all around be chaotic.

As others have seen, I can go through a LOT of things, and have been like a cat who lands on her feet. And, in that last tumble I had, I was 'injured' (traumatized-fear).

I DO want to make a leap for it, AND AND AND AND, I want to know that I'll be Safe. I want to see that there are many Good Things in store.

I Believe (have a witness-within) that there is something I'm 'supposed to do'. --- That God has me here for a Reason I have yet to fully uncover for myself, but I feel it breathing on me!! LOL.

I understand that there are folks who see 'it' in me, that I haven't quite understood on one level of mundane living? Yet, at the same time I feel stronger and broader than at ANY other time in my existence. I need some real-people around me who 'see' this and know how to get me in touch with it for myself.

~Weird here, because I'm sure AND semi-not sure of what I'm doing. As you see, I rock back and forth--- but that's because things reveal themselves more and more with each passing day.
*she says, as an EVIL DARKWOOFER-car is jamming outside in the parking lot. *

This place isn't good for my health, and PART OF MY PROBLEM is that I'm having a hard time imagining (WHILE IN THE THICK HERE) that there can be any kind of place that would be physically better for than this--

*smile* The answer that that question above is OF COURSE THERE IS!! omg!!! This is the way I LIMIT myself. I go by what my body feels----- and I think my body will feel MUCH better when it's in a good place somewhere ELSE than here.

Even if my rm and I are getting along way-better than we ever have.... And I know that we will miss each other very sorely when we part ways. There's been a new level of understanding between us two. We've 'come accustomed to-each-other's-face.(song, LOL)

I WILL miss him.... and I'll worry about him with my leaving, because I think he'll get depressed, and that's not going to be good for him-- I want him to 'continue' living with the more healthy-choices he's begun to make in his life....

I think 'what it is' is that I would feel 'guilty' for his decline--- and I'm such a caring person that I wouldn't want that to happen to him. These are my open thoughts, and my feelings. I want my future-possibilities. And, I don't want to feel sad for him.... He WILL get over it, I know that. But I guess I'm trying to climb over the clench that is there for me.

When I care about people, I do it thoroughly! (oh no). It's soooo hard because it's like they are still a part of me. I would still want to have a friend-connection though. No butcher 'cut/hack/saw-off limbs' --- just the mellow bittersweet 'letting go'.

There's a stepfriend I have that I am very deeply fond of. It HAS been mutual. If we need to let go at this 'final' point, then I do understand. I would hope that you wouldn't hackoff any limbs about it.
I feel a draw towards you (but that could be from the psyche connection we have). I'm feeling confused because I would have made that choice, but there's 'something else' that has an over-ring to it. I don't understand the whole thing.

Personally I think that part of it is that you like to drink 'koolaide'.... LOL. Oh gosh, do I sound crazy? ~Of course I am!! In all the very BEST and kookiest ways! Anyways, just letting you know that I DO CARE deeply (and you already have known that) and I don't think it's been that much of a secret.

Lots of rooms and feelings in this-Gemini's Heart.

I've not been sure 'where' to jump... I'm open to seeing what the week has in store for me. I desire feedback and further counsel on that. I don't 'see' all the options, but there are people who understand a lot more of what's out there for me.

I 'feel' the new atmosphere as though it were an outfit I'm wearing in a place I'm supposed to Be-- It's cordial, and warm, and productive and bright future ahead. Cinderella's corner hearthstone dreams. Ashes to Beauty.... and taking everyone WITH her.

In this vision, I am Happy... and I serve the Higher Good as I radiate.

posted November 30, 2015 10:22 PM            

I would not be suitable for anarchistic groups. I find that to be scary. I mean, I don't mind people who practice free-speech and if they bad mouth the government (stuff like that). But we all have to actually live and get along on top of the land here.

Again, I was so disturbed by the conversation I 'happened' upon. Gave me chills to think that some people really-truly want to shred-up our Country like that and reduce it to nothing... God, that makes me want to go have a strong cry right now.

So, I wouldn't be good for people who want to be extremists and create anarchy and hatred so that lands and governments fall.... I don't think like that.

~creepy-Disturbing...

posted December 01, 2015 04:44 PM            

Today is Bette Midler's Birthday
--- What a fabulous person!
http://www.astro.com/astro-databank/Midler%2C_Bette

Feel like this song today!

Changing song..... I like what one of the Voice coaches said-- you have to really research the words and why the song was written. Sometimes I just love the melody, but I 'hear' different words. I'm a 'melody' person.... There are a few REALLY good songs out there that *rollseyes* I think have the wrong words. *sigh*

posted December 01, 2015 08:07 PM            

There was an 'electric' grand fire trine with Uranus Mercury and the Leo Moon for a while. eeks! The doc is within walking distance here. On my way there, it felt like the sidewalk was tilting! I hadn't put my silicone earplugs in and WOW was sound magnified (going by a construction site).

Are there Ascension symptoms still? or what! sheesh!

She recommended having my ears/hearing checked. So, will make an appointment for that. *crossing-fingers*

I just don't know what to think. Tried to explain to her that it's not being around a lot of loudness-- it's a 'certain' very-specific quality. Frequency? woofer-whatever?, I haven't been able to pin it down.

Some people have a hard time understanding the difficulty-- and I get so frustrated because their understanding seems to keep throwing out babies with bathwater. It's NOT the loud of it. Maybe a hearing specialist will be able to figure it out. Wouldn't it be wonderful to have a solution for this.

So anyways..... I have NO plans on being a sick person. In fact, you'll probably have to sit on me to get me to 'do nothing'. (oy, that's like 'punishment'!)

So again, this has me thinking future once more. I generally stay pretty healthy, and recover from things quickly (my Taurus 6th), but I can be pretty pathetic if I am down with something (~albeit, thoroughly brave!)

Oh! and I want to mention that I HAD already tried a nanny position in the past. Turned out to be a germ-disaster for me. They kept reseeding me (and each other) and I went sooo far downhill that the doctor was concerned.

(And it wound up sadly too, that the 'couple' who had hired me got into domestic abuse and I had to leave immediately, for my own sake as the police advised me. That was my Christmas 2006(?). The man had threatened to hurt me in order to get at his wife, and there was evidence. Can you believe?
... Poor kids had been through so many nannies, and were used as pawns. The family was getting close to needing special intervention. I'm sure that followed shortly.
... I think of those kids from time to time, and ask their angels for strong protections. They are teens now~~ sure hope they're alright.
... And the amount of pay I got was laughable. I wasn't a good business person because my Heart was involved. I loved those children, and they weren't getting the care they needed from the parents. This was a Labor of Love to them, on my part. Sometimes I'm too compulsive about the work I do-- I can't do a half-way job. One of the reasons I have to have people watching for me, and making sure I don't get into situations where I'm just used (like in that family).

I mean... What if I moved, and there was something going on physically with me (e.g. compressor-woofer thing) that I had to have accommodations for? How dedicated is that Heart towards my OWN well-being? I know that I'm the kind that sticks-by and takes care of other people... but would you be there for me 'just in case' there's something with me-first and not a you-first situation... just askin'.
.... Shades of remembering that temporary health-thing I went through when I was in my mid20s, and I was told no by the monastery only around 12 days before the 'wedding' (initiation).

(.... There were also shades of remembering some of the physical side of abuse I'd had by my mom growing up (even though I STILL say that my brother had it MUCH worse than me-- but I 'watched' everything).
The nurse-aides at the office today were at wits end with employees not showing up for work, and of out of control kids crashing into frail senior bodies.
The moms/caretakers were remaining oblivious and let the kids be kids.
Then I got into a private convo with the aide, and I think her frustrations must have unconsciously triggered some of my memories there. Recalling how my back was used as a punching-bag, and it caused my pee to turn red a few times... With the medical concerns expressed in my Zangdaning post, I made a sideways parallel to that this day.
I hadn't realized that there were still tears to be spilled from that. Children... )

Wondering, would you work as hard as I would. Feels very vulnerable with my saying this. Like I've said before, I'm a team player, and I work my butt off not always thinking about *** -for-tat compensation. I find joy in the work and a job well-done. How conscientious are people? What happens 'if'?.... Is there a full commitment towards my/our success from the group or whatever. Covenants, then contracts. What's really Real?

Stress.... it does nasty things to the body, I know. My 6th House Sun wants to know! *grin*-and- sadface ...

The energies are shifting so fast right now... wow. So different, strange, strained.

Must be that olde Saturn bearing down on my ascendant... yuck.

I'll have to come back with some CHEERFULNESS later, telling about an interesting Christmas convo I had earlier today with a stranger.

Some strangers are not so strange....
Everyone has something Beautiful about them, if you look considerately and carefully enough.

posted December 02, 2015 06:17 PM            

(music) Ring My Bell! (Anita Ward, 1979) [3:19] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kU9faERbno0

Been feeling like a judge on The Voice who has to decide between equally awesome contestants.
*throws down scissors!*

I had a job in the past that entailed helping separated (and I emphasize the separation-aspect by using the word separated, as in a chasm), separated departments slowly get to become re-acquainted with each other.

The miracle came within a month, where the heads of departments started actually TALKING with one another without them needing me there to referee (as the third). They could directly settle work-problems between them-- and I was proud of them for doing that because they EACH had to be the-bigger-person to do that.

(Something from my past that I was proud being associated with.) I helped everyone cooperate. My method was doing the flower-to-flower Gemmy thing. Eventually the atmosphere felt safer, people feeling less-threatened and more okay to get along--

My 'presence' usually~generally does that in groups and neighborhoods-- although there have been some very deep vile exceptions, too. *ahem* 'Still have two sore memories in particular: DEEP hatchet-scars' in my back. I HATE office politics!

I'm not into the dog-eat-dog competitive-slicing and backstabbing within a workplace. Duh! Right now I'll say it. If I'm there to 'work'? I'm there as part of a cooperative, interdependent team members oriented towards the same ends and goals. I like to be helpful (and Kind) to my peers without it counting against me, either.

I still hold that deliberately despicably mean-people, just SUCK! They'll suck the life joy creativity and productivity out of the atmosphere.

Toxicity! The gift that keeps on recreating itself! ... No excuse! Leave it at the door (~permanently actually, it's better for your Health, c'mon)!

Not talking about griping though~~
Hell, I like having 'friendly' gripe-feasts! Especially when it's done out-loud and on-purpose! No personal attacks. It's very creatively cleansing and can produce good solutions with surprising results.

Keeping things positive, and trying not to burn-out my gemmy radar-sensory system.

(The 'hood was GOOD TODAY! hurray--- yessss! Body feeling much better today. One of the guys who always tries to work on his engine finally gave up and called a tow-truck. *O blessed-sigh of relief* LOL)

Here's your violin-music, Randall!~~

LOL

posted December 02, 2015 11:11 PM            

Our composite Sun is Cancer 23.45' H5
Our Progressed Composite Sun now Virgo 23.48' H5

We have composite Moon Sagittarius 3.42'
Our progressed composite Moon Virgo 10+

Our composite Ascendent is Pisces 10.11'
Prog comp'Ascendant is GEMINI 7.46'16" (my sun 7.50)

Our Davison Chart is 14 January 1954
Davison Sun Capricorn 24.25'
Davison MOON GEMINI 4.47 (Last Full Moon?)
Davison Ascendant 16.08 Virgo
Davison Descendant 16.08 Pisces (tChiron)

Davison IC Sagittarius 15.30
Davison BML 13.08 Libra ON H2 Cusp 13.25 (tBML-tMars!)

tPluto 14+ Capricorn is e.o. our Dav-H4 Sag

We had a long talk tonight.... I felt a bit jolted after I 'decided' on a direction I'm thinking about. Looked over the chart... Then asked HIM how HE feels.

We had been approaching this for a long time. I had seen the 'sting' that happened earlier this year in him when I talked about leaving. He went through a time of looking really depressed. (Tore me up.)

When I broached the subject again tonight, saying that the offers I thought had been withdrawn may be back ON again, he seemed 'genuinely' excited for me. Then he started using the language of 'if it feels right to you'... Then I said, I don't know 'how to tell' what I 'feel'. And he instantly KNEW what I was talking about. (Hey~~ he's been living with me this long, he DID learn something about the way I communicate.) He used the same language that others I've been watching have used. This is where I felt so 'inadequate'... not 'knowing' what 'feelings' are. He helped me a lot tonight.

He said NOT to worry about him at all, incase I was concerned about leaving him behind. He actually acknowledged that I had brought him through a very difficult period of time in his life!
(When I arrived, tPluto was ON his natal Chiron Capricorn-rx 6.41 H7-sag28+; his H8 is 17 Capr-- I took him through his Saturn Libra Return, which was very harsh for him, and saw him through some major health problems and surgeries.)

Anyways... barring any other interceptions right now, I've been praying sooo hard, and spent MUCH intensive wringing on this for months and months now.

I wish to discuss opportunities in the SoCal region still. And needing to make 'snips' (which like I said I wished to stay in touch with 'all' and not exclude-- I like to connect people), then right now I lean towards my Davison Christmas Day Partner. Willing to discuss different options... So much to consider.

posted December 03, 2015 01:15 PM            

Don't be discouraged... Have Strength, Great STRENGTH. YOU are Loved. *If you were here right now, I'm Holding you.... Feel it! I'm here* (and I've got a phone, a listening ear, and a warm Heart.)

Wishing ALL of us GREAT Breakthroughs.

We're ALL in this Together... NO ONE gets Left Behind who doesn't want to BE left behind.

Chris, you have been a part of my soul and are important to me.

(music) Fear Not This Night (Asja) [4:59] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uL_aRqmGHyk

posted December 03, 2015 02:22 PM            

4278 Harvey (medical, Heart) http://www.spiritofmaat.com/archive/aug4/secrets.htm
"Sacred Space of the Heart" ... Heart Consciousness

My placement is Aries 18.17' in H4 aries
quintile SN and Mercury H7
quintile Chiron-rx Aqua H2capr

conjunct 31 Euphrosyne Aries 17.09 "graced by joy, mirth"
conjunct 3671 Dionysus Aries 16.24 "sacred spouse"
conjunct 318 Magdalena Aries 15.48 http://www.metahistory.org/MM/WhySheMatters.php

tHarvey right now trines 9+ Aries
my 8990 Compassion- 8273 Apatheia look at the cruelty that must end - 389 Industria.
(And I have posts above or on last page of some of my Aries asteroid placements that are stimulated by these transits.)

transiting 4278 Harvey in Sagittarius at 9+

tHarvey Sagittarius 9+ has passed and is IN degree of my BML, 567 Eleutheria, F.S. Antares...

The tSUN is in Degree of my Sagittarian Ascendant 11.30.
(My chart's H1 birthday? LOL)

So today, while I logged onto astro.com, I spied an article written by a Charles HARVEY, originally published in the Autumn of 1981. I wept for the Beauty of the thoughts contained within it.

The article is on the 'fascination' of the hobby of astrology as "being in fact one the master keys to the New Age."

Charles Harvey (1940-2000)
..."Charles Harvey became synonymous with the attempt to restore astrology's credibility and to rescue it from its associations with fairground fortune-telling." http://www.astro.com/astrology/charles_liz_e.htm
http://www.astro.com/astro-databank/Harvey%2C_Charles

QUOTING:
And this is of course astrology's great power, for it is the language, the algebra, the symbolic logic, which deals directly with the workings of these principles, archetypes, and powers, which substand the universe.
It studies and traces out the laws and processes of the high gods, those processions from the ONE, those ideas and ideals in the light of which the universe is created and sustained throughout all its levels of unity and wholeness.
. . . .
In terms of man's relation to the One we can see that astrology can have a vital role to play in encouraging us to the contemplation of the 'high gods' themselves as the root and source of all manifested things. These principles are after all the self same gods of all polytheistic religions. And it is fascinating to note that now as astrology begins to come once again more closely in contact with its real origins, there is appearing an immense upsurge of awareness amongst astrologers of the very great value to be had from the study of comparative religions and mythology when it comes to really understanding and using our astrology.

At the present time I know of no less than five major works in preparation on astrology and mythology by leading astrologers.
Most recently the A.A.'s publication on Planetary Symbolism (2) is an indication of the powerful movement to re-establish contact with what are after all the very roots of our being.
In its more formal sense we can see the future developing a new astrolatry, of which Leslie White wrote so eloquently in his recent article (3), the development of a devotional worship based not on superstition but on a true reverential awe. /endQuote

(article) A Language for A New Age (Charles Harvey, 1981, The Astrological Journal; posted Dec 1, 2015 Astrodienst) http://www.astro.com/astrology/aa_article151201_e.htm?nhor=164118107&nho2=427832

posted December 03, 2015 08:04 PM            

May solutions come forth! God, show us what we need to do, and give us the strength to stand for what is Right.

Freedom... is not a license to practice evil, but the Right to do Good. ...

posted December 04, 2015 09:41 PM            

And WOW!!!!!!! What a Beautiful Day!!!! This past week Feels like a REAL Santa-Day for me, filled with Gifts!

You know how I recently did the post above on ECLIPSES-- the prenatal ones and post-natal? .... Well, this morning I logged onto astrodienst (as I usually do) and THERE IT IS!!!! They added these to their drop chart choices--- same place you choose which asteroids you want to see. {{THANK YOU!!}}

Like I had said before, I get instincts for things that I'm not realizing are MY INSTINCTS! Have had a really hard time separating out (or identifying) the incoming-pulses. Generally, I 'feel' them IN or WITH my own physical body, and I can mix up what actually belongs to 'someone else' (in a meta-way of speaking). It would be sooo keen to be able to tell the difference. Aha, once of these days, I'll be able to ~~ I just know it!

There was another life lesson I learned also back somewhere between 1989~91. (I'd have to check my journals, and I went to look at my stack of bins. I have the wrong years labeled on the outside of some boxes because of all the sifting I've been doing.)

Lately I went in my room to really clean very well for most of the day. I got it accomplished. But right now, the space is just sooo crowded that to take everything apart to 'look up' the exact date, would feel ~demoralizing! LOL.

I 'like' tidy, and in-order! And yes, I can ALSO make a perfectly awful-looking mess with papers, books, and charts all over the place! Like archeology, I KNOW 'where' it is, and if anyone 'disturbs' the stack? ~well omg!! It's like losing Memory!

Well, you astrologers know the sort of mess that I'm talking about! Like a HURRICANE hit it! LOL!!! I mean, messes are good! They can DEFINITELY increase Creativity (I know that first-hand... If you 'saw' me right now, you'd see the little-messiness I can generate around the computer (gets cleaned up before rm gets home).

I'll tolerate the mess for a while, but then there's a point where it gets counter-productive. I have to declare paper-book-astro-chart bankruptcy and put it all away, to restart again on the NEXT exciting idea I get! LOL. Then I'm the tazmanian daredevil once more. Big Mess, Too Clean, Big Mess, Too Clean! LOL

So... Going back to topics.

TRUST MYSELF...
The Story I wanted to relay above is about the time I was all-the-way devoted and involved at a church I belonged to. During Easter, our church would put on a big Easter Egg Hunt which the City FULLY approved of. We had many thousands of people come out to these festivals.

It was Good Friday, and I had the day off (officially) from work, but went ahead to drop my very young girls at the day care so I could finish up paperwork, then met a friend at a nearby restaurant for breakfast.

The rain was torrential, and we were to have this grassy Easter Egg Hunt that next day! The Hunt was the 'senior project' of the graduating class of Bible College associated with our church back then (that college is gone).

I was in my car on the way out of the restaurant parking lot when I felt this strong nudge to take a different turn. It wasn't something that was 'in my head', it was 'a nudge'. I could have overrided this nudge easily with my mind-intellect, but I suspended that, and went on with following the tiny-nudge.

Torrents of RAIN!! Looked like it would NEVER stop. It's the kind of rain you'd expect to last 3 or 4 days straight (at least, in THAT region-- Here in THIS locale, it deluges for 20 minutes, then the rain is OVER. Happens on a daily basis during warmer months).

My nudges took me past the girls' daycare and to the church. I thought, I'll just go in, chat with a few people to see what 'it' is, then go get the girls and go home.

I went into the building and started doing my gemmy-butterfly thing, being all-social. People were asking what I was doing there, and I said that The Holy Spirit was nudging me.

Heard a familiar voice in the background, and a head popped out and greeted me! It was that of one of my coworkers from work! She had come to help with creating posters for the Egg Hunt tommorrow. She was a *ahem* commanding-type person, and ~suggested, I know what the HolyGhost wants you to do!~~ Your supposed to work on these posters with me!

Honestly, I WOULD have done that? but it didn't quite ring-true. So I told her I'd be back to help her if I didn't find out 'what' I went there for today. Never had a problem rolling up my sleeves and getting into a project.

I continued my journey. The first-year Bible College students where on break between classes. I had MANY friends in that class, and 'we' all wished that I was in there taking classes with them, too.

Then we heard the minister-pastor of the second-year students come from the hall into the sanctuary, and she announced that there was going to be Intercessory-Prayers immediately for the 'situation' we had with the torrential rains interfering with the Egg Hunt tomorrow. (It would have been the first time in years that the Hunt would have had to be cancelled because of rains. Also, there was the matter of all the microphones and speakers running through puddled pools of water.)

One of my friends shouted something like this to the minister! HEY, The HolyGhost told {name} to be here right now, and she doesn't know 'why'! ... The minister tilted her head to the side, and had a strange look to her, then she waved-strongly at me to COME! (Wow! ~~ Didn't go over too well with some of the students there because of pride-mostly, but if there was something that I could do, it was at that time to DIG into the prayer-realms.)

We prayed all the strong-prayers you can imagine! Loosing!~binding!~commanding!, ALL of it! LOL ... After a good sufficient time, the actual Pastor/C.E.O came in. He said it would be {OUR} fault if the rain didn't stop, and puddles didn't clear in time for the hunt event to go through the next day.

(This declaration was said meanly, and totally-seriously on his part. He could be a very HARSH and cutting man.... He meant complete business with these students. They HAD to pull-off this miracle in-the-Real, or they'd actually get ~punished. ----
Does that sound like something from a past-lifetime scenario?~~or wha'???!! LOL)

I FELT like speaking-up! I WANTED to tell them ALL not to be afraid. I had actually had an open-vision that morning between the daycare and going to my workplace to finish some papers there. I was stopped at a LONG traffic light. It was raining torrentially. The light was Red. ....

As I gazed past the red light, I began to feel as though The Sun was really-really bright IN my eyes. I physically noticed I had started squinting, as though it were.

Then I saw it, "in my Mind's Eye." The Sky was a bright brilliant Clear Blue, no clouds, just the shining Sun. This went on 'sub-Consciously' for me. I didn't 'recognize' the thought/event, UNTIL this particular-moment in the prayer-room, when I repressed inside me the utterance I wanted to make IN that moment-- because I was TOO afraid of what other people would think.

Actually, to give myself credit--- it may have been the wiser course of action to have remained silent, as these students DID have their pride, and that the minister really WAS the boss of them. -- I was just the guest, 'a fly on the wall'....

So, things were, as it 'had' to be for me, at that time. But I remember how FEROCIOUSLY I wanted to Comfort the Hearts of my fellow prayer-warriors, and to assure them against the threats of defeat. I had not wanted to be disrespectful. My Heart's motivation would have been to Comfort and Encourage-- (based on the open vision I'd seen of Blue Skies). 'We' had done our work; now it was Time (as they say in religious circles) for GOD to show HIMSELF up. This was His Event, ultimately.

Ending of this story?.... During the early night morning hours, a strong wind came. The sunrise revealed great big puffy clouds and a brilliant blue Clear Sky inbetween. The rains had miraculously stopped, and the winds dried the grasses and grounds enough for the Hunt Event to take place. (This really felt like it was miracle... And this memory became part of what I know I have.)

So anyways!!!! One of my challenges has been to identify what my instincts are. (And I'm adding TWO TD Jakes books to my Santa Want Reading list-- his book on Instincts, and Destiny.)

When I won that Free Astrological Reading (thankyou Dorothy!!! You were soooo Right-On!), I was advised to hold off making any decisions until AFTER the transiting Sun crossed my Ascendant at 11.30 Sagittarius.

And many of you know how 'scrupulously' honest I tend to be.... Part of that WAS my 'instincts' to pursue a line of actions (actually nonactions?). THIS MORNING, after I 'played' with Astrodienst's Eclipse-Feature, AND being nudged to look at Fixed Stars associated with my Post-Eclipses, this followed a SERIES of steps that brought me to certain charts of loved ones.

Then, I did some of my other morning-listens.

I am SOOOO lovingly thrilled to find out that my 'instincts' were Correct.

I had been advised not to make some declarations in too-fixed of a manner, and I did it. I made the preliminary-says a 'tad' in advance. Now, because I DID that, I was BLESSED by the message of my Davison-Christmas partner.

To him--- Omg, you actually would not believe 'how much' you have blessed my life, in SOOOOO many ways. Do not hold any of what you said in any kind of peril. You are SOOO BRAVE, and Courageous. You are doing the Right thing, and I admire that about you. After you get your life together, I want you to remember that a twelfth-house Sun will NOT go to your detriment. President Carter is an 'example' to you of a 12th House Sun. It was not without challenge---- but with that Sun's position, YOU have the POTENTIAL of being a very-Bright Light for Humanitarian Purposes. YOU Are Awesome, my brother. Don't you let ANYONE talk you out of what YOU want to do in life. Be 'careful' who you let-in to your world, especially right now. I CARE for your Soul... Keep On Course as MUCH as you can. Always course-correct. You Can Do IT!

In the midst of my out-loud incredible-conversation with my rm, I explored 'why' I would choose certain ones, between my Adventure-options.

(He had assured me that I was still free to stay as long as I need to; he's caring like that towards me. And, he GAVE me the Peace of Mind that he will be Fine!... He's looking forward to moving up where his relatives live. He cares that I have a good place to be when we part ways.)

The way I had made my INITIAL preDecisions, was based on Pharrell Williams' coaching on The Voice (song "Happy"?).

Whenever HE had TWO equally-worthy choices in front of him, I've noticed that he SAYS he chooses the ones that HE feels he could impact 'the most'--- not that they were 'the better' singer, but choice was based on where his life and talent--'what HE has INSIDE of HIM'-- could do 'the most' Good for someone.

Earlier, I had MADE the decision to drop the SoCal destination in favor of the Unseen Option that was offered.

HOWEVER, there was just something NOT-Quite "DONE" yet with residuals over my decisions about the other two 'dancing' partners. So I FACED IT squarely inside me (~astro-punning???? big T "square" that's been prominent in my chart??). I knew I needed to SETTLE this, once and for all. I was having such strong attractions there that I couldn't seem to settle or break from.

{{{And for all-ones involved too... omg, I send out biggest blessings to your lives! You are uber-saints of patience and understanding EVEN with your not-knowing 'everything' that was happening.

None of us really understood what the Plan of The Universe was.... But "It Is GOOD!" ... ALWAYS, it is Good. Such Angels in my Life!! SURELY, there is GOOD Karma-Seed in this for every individual..... Including my VERY BRAVE Christmas-Friend. YOU ARE Awesome!!

What a Beautiful Gift of HONESTY you released this morning.... You are soooo gracious, broad, and Kind. ALWAYS been a Gentleman to me. You've got Class!

Of course, I 'release' you, as you express a need to concentrate on taking care of yourself, exploring INNER life more than anything right now (your P-Chart!). You ARE doing the Right thing by your excavations and work in therapy. Including, The Good you'll be doing WHILE you interact with groups involved with 'those' kinds of things. omg, soooo ~Rich!! I don't know how well you know that! ... Maybe that's the Beauty of my being older. I've watched Life unfurl. It's TOUGH as hell, but there are the small sweet spots. Hang on to those like collections of lily pads and flowers. And BTW, you are VERY psychic--- Use that for Good (looks like a challenge or temptation to walk on the darkerside ahead---KEEP AND CULTIVATE a default to using your Freedom, to Do Good. You ARE a Good Person.... You prove that, by your honesty. ....

BTW, F.S. Unukalhai is ON your IC now. You MUST take Good Care!! GOD is with you. Believe--- and your H12 Sun will have sooo much Shine on the Collective. That's where we both work, energetically. H12/H6.... Illuminating The ..... LOL!!!! It's OUR Job! You actually spoke The Truth there. Now you'll find out HOW it was.... Oh gosh, I'm JUST SO EXCITED for you! Man--- Your Potential is soooo awesome. I am soooo honored that we at least got together in the etheric-realms. My life and Your Life PROVED it! Think about that for a long time..... You'll SEE what I was talking about.

There are two asteroids that Eric Francis of PlanetWaves uses for 'dissociation' and for 'PTSD'.... With your chart you are right on track. And I thank you for your Openness. Through other videos you made months and months ago, you helped me perhaps 'prove' the asteroid I use for the 'Enlisted Man'... I haven't seen anyone else use it. (Joe Biden's chart worked with it too, at the same time).

Do NOT give up your astrology--- you are very gifted at that. I would like to see you get your Certifications, and learn to be that kind of counselor. WOW, just ALL OF IT!!! It Flows~~~ You WILL Be Awesome. I have 'concern' about the characters you might meet at some of your other-job places. PLEASE, be VERY careful for yourself.

I STILL want to offer my Hand Of Amicitia to you--- The asteroid of Friendship!!-- mine, on your Sun! With Excalibur in my next degree! ... My Sun on your North Node. Our Chirons trine, WITH my Hygiea too in Libra 10th. I 'might' be able to pour some rays into your life.

My sixth-house Sun is A Servant Spiritually. By association, JUST by 'being there' for people, I 'initiate' FROM my self things that I know-without-knowing. It's like being a Channel... I love the EdgarCayce Affirmations, .... Being a Channel Of Blessings to Others, now, today, to Those I Contact In EVERY Way (including internet).

This is and HAS been one of my Ideals since decades-past. It FILLS my Soul. ..... You have been a Blessing to me, and a Blessing to Others with your life. Continue to Pour... You ARE a Good Person. Don't ever let anyone (including your self!!!) talk you out of that.

Highest Salutations, and May The GREATEST BLESSINGS pour into you and from you, with EVERY ENDEAVOR.

Remember that THIS LIFE, is your BEST Life! YOU can Shine. You ARE a King and a Prince among People. It's DEEP in your Soul, and you attracted my Sun and Soul to 'find' that out over these past three years.

It, has been VERY Good. And with a little-humor here---
Yeah~okay! *gum crackles*, so you killed me in that lifetime,-- but guess what?...
(warmly) You helped RESURRECT my life 'this' time. Because of you, your attention and your Love, I am Winning the Battle-of-Walls with my natal Saturn-Scorpio Opp Venus.}}

You know, part of the 'purpose' in my life is to UNcover what is 'hidden'... includes other people's talents, purpose, and even the Truth.

We are living in SUCH SPECIAL TIMES. This is a tiny-tiny portion of what my Light is. And I am sooooo humbled. *bawling my eyes out* I'm humbled in a GOOD way--- not in a poor self-esteem way.

I've SEEN what GOD can Do--- I am soooooooo Grateful. I am Grateful TO EVERY Life associated with mine right now. It was the Right Time, Right Place, Right Blessing to Have......

*God, I Love You, and YOU are sooooo GOOD, to me*

Laughing!!! 'scuse me!? I think I hear a song and melody Breakout Cue--- Praising God and thanking Creator for EVERYTHING.

(music) Gospel Medley (Destiny's Child) [3:30] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=azd1s292F6c

Be irrational, no limitations... make that your starting point! {{hugs to Jennifer A}} (and RL)!!

Yes, there are Times when your approach to problem-solving works better when you begin from the point of Idealism (heh heh, my Saturn works WAY too-well in my chart). Gotta Dream, THEN you ground it. DREAM, then you ground that... until the proverbial donkey climbs up from the bottom of that well. You've given me some of the Best Advice--- sooo grateful. *Heart* *grin*}}

For that other stepdancing-partner in SoCal... You are also a very fine and talented BEing. You've said words that you want a relationship, but your vibes aren't matching up..... Time Heals. It's okay.

The nights after I made me preDecisions, my INNER-body (emo-physical realm) felt some of the worst sustained stinging-feelings I've ever had gone on for 'that' long of a time. That was 'resonance' from the psyche-realms speaking to me. ....

New Moon 19+ Sagittarius on December 11th looms. It's in my First House. New starts. New Beginnings.

I'm going back to allowing some friendly-mentors to enter my life, and help guide. Come in with some good SOLID leads and advice. Time to get my Life going in Best Trajectory. My instincts WERE working 'for' me this past year. I pray that scripture from Psalms that says 'The Lines have fallen for me in Pleasant Places'... That God brings me some FUN as well as more stability in re-planting my own life again.

(In my long long-term, I DO "LOVE" to study Astrology and would like to include and develop that within my long long-range plans.)

I've been looking at my Parts of Fortunes, and Fixed Stars, as well as my planets and points and asteroids.... and I'm laughing so hard here 'reading' all the things listed in my 11th...
~WHICH I will delineate in a later-posting.

Beautiful Venus enters Scorpio tonight... I have Scorpio on my 11th and 12th House cusps.

The 11th HOUSE is the natural house for------

posted December 05, 2015 10:07 AM            

(music) It's Who You Are (AJ Michalka, lyrics) [3:53] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kGcOe6zMDLY

We Can Do This!

Stay in the Protection of Love-Within, and you Radiate~Ping it to the Atmosphere, automatically...

Solid Harmony-Peace in the eye and midst of the Storm. God/Source is our Shield.

posted December 05, 2015 10:35 AM            

You Stay Alive.... Be in Peace HERE, on this Earth. Like Jodie Foster in movie Contact... We DO Make It!

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One Family, Supporting and Resonating in Loving-Communion with One-Another...