posted January 11, 2016 05:44 PM            

And, --- Did you ever settle that debate over whether LL is Pink? or Purple...

I think the answer is ~BOTH.

posted January 13, 2016 12:29 PM            

(music) The Light Of A Million Mornings (Philippine Madrigal Singers, lyrics) [6:07] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mF_RvzH_IlM

posted January 13, 2016 05:59 PM            

(And, Everything here has been quaking~shaking again~~ actually it's been like that a few days now, night and day, except for brief hour or two in the dark of the early morning hours.)

I'm just describing one experience here, that I've been going through. I've been saturated. My brain feels all sore-stuffy in some way, and catching up on work seems impossible (especially with those percussion beats going on right now ugh!!!!! omg~really?! is that ~NECESSARY??? sheesh.. just ~ugh!)

I know there's also a steep chance of my misinterpreting what I'm hearing said towards me, so maybe it's good that I'm behind on listening-homework until it falls-in easily.

I'm going to trust that some people are truthful when they tell me to only-chill, and that everything is going to work out to be more than all right. (So, I'm going to take that at face value, and flow till I am reached tangibly.)

The Old Man of Reality speaks with my New Man of Possibility. I'm held in a psychological suspense between the two...

Old Man New Man

(music) Old Man (Neil Young, Harvest) [3:31] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SYUgGs9IStY

Praying....
May there be constant little Victories and encouragements for everyone struggling with the Details of inbetweens. Sort it out, Lord! Clear us. Sort it all out. Amen

posted January 14, 2016 12:02 PM            

And I know that I'm a Magnet, and Blessings Chase me down...

(music) Are You Ready For A Miracle? (Patti LaBelle, gospel) [3:45] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BD1FYDOM4Ts

posted January 15, 2016 04:43 PM            

He's been acting a 'little too' nice recently, and it's BECAUSE he takes actions WITHOUT making proper plans that 'support' his decisions. (I think I'm the opposite.. ugh).

He does things, then leaves ME to mop up after him... and somehow I manage looking like the bad guy in it. That's screwed. And yet, I feel that part of me that is TOOOOO responsible. I take responsibility for other people's actions, and I'm not given the resources to take care of him IN that. Always forced to have to spend my time and my limited financial and physical-power resources to 'take care of HIM'. It's like ~gurl?? What are you doing???
ADD: {{AND, He DOES definitely "deserve" to have someone looking after him while he has this done... We 'live' together?? and have been together a LONG time. And it's a very GOOD thing that I CAN be here to help him with that. His daughter and relatives live far out of state, and are busy. ... See how torn I am???? I want to 'take care' of him AND to 'leave' at the same time!! *throws hands UP* }}

I guess I'm just being 'the responsible one' all the time. ~duh. I can just cry and cry and throw up right now. (Part of that is from the local-gnarl.) But this is draining. I need uplift, and to maintain cruise altitude.

Next... LOL

We had power outages today. And yesterday I spent a LOT of time cleaning because I know I'm not going to be able to DURING rm's vaca... and he's going to have that surgery. (innerfrustrated arrrrghghghghghgh!)

Also means that the TV will be ON 24/7 ADDING to the gnarl. (Sorry if I'm sounding negative right now, I just feel like crap... but at the same time do have an element of a kind of calm bright smooth cheer in it. Note to self-- keep that! lol)

A few days ago, I decided to look into a part of astrology that has always held a curiosity for me. I did a deeper digging into Vedic astrology. WOW. For people who are detail-oriented?? This has loads of potential there.

I found the Nakshatra of my Vedic Moon 2.08 Virgo (regular astrology is 24.56). It's in the Nakshatra called Uttara-phal-guni.

I know there are multiple videos out there on my Vedic Moon Virgo, and I only listened to one person so far, and IT IS Powerful! I see the parallels between what I've seen in regular natal charts, 'highlighted' in HD by stars and asteroids.

Again, as I've stated so many times before... It's as though my fingertips keep swiping at the balloons, or the string on the light-bulb in the dark closets. It's like I can sense and feel it, but have YET to wrap that string or cord around my finger to give it a hard yank. But it's THERE. All the things ARE in their place. It's just a matter of being able to discern EXACTLY 'what' IT is.

And it just makes me feel sick to know that 'it's there'... without my being able to GRASP it COMPLETELY. And I feel in such SORROW for that.....

Anyways.... *boohooing'... telling self, 'get over it'... but hey, 'be nice' now. Things run their courses AND I will NOT be forgotten, NOR disappointed. I have a future that awaits me~~~ And it ain't where I'm living right now. NO way, I WANT to move, and move ON. I am soooo sorry that 'I don't know HOW to reach out "properly" perhaps.' It sure woulda helped if someone were 'here' and tapped my should and pointed ~'where'. But I just gotta keep going on like THERE IS a "GOOD" future, because to think of the other alternative (staying here) is NOT good for me 'in the long run'.

So.... I HAVE been having flashes of ideas. What I tried to do before with wanting to share my idea, I figure now, wasn't being pitched to the right person. I need to contact the old original magi, somehow, to 'see' if my idea has ALREADY been implemented BY them.
{At times I see my work gravitate around women, somehow... but I'm not going to narrow too far, because I feel my work impacts MORE than just women. I have to laugh because I keep thinking about Dix, and her work, and how WELL it just generally fit-into my chart as a whole... No wonder I walked some parts of that corridor of life. Revisiting purpose, revisiting pieces of something I had already known, in order to ADD to it now, in the present-future. As you see, I still swirl with wheels within the wheels... LOOKING for 'how' it ALL connects, and with WHOM it connects, for real.}

Sometimes I feel my ideas are just too-simple PLAIN and obvious, and I try to stretch towards what's harder and more-complicated. (inner arrrgh) I have NO idea if they already have my ideas. It would be nice to find out. ...... Laughing because, it SURELY FITS my Vedic Moon aspirations... sheesh~ o help. Get me out of here!!!! puhleze, and I DO agree, to be AT the Right Time. ~~~ (VERY VERY humorously: before I ~die here, would-be-nice, ~okay??? I would die P!SSED OFF, and ~really, that wouldn't be good for ANY of us. LOL *ahem*)

Of course, as you read this, I'm still thinking astrology (using action to hunt down Vedic meanings of my positions now) and more 'astrology' education.

Also fits in with those old magi, and with my suggesting a Service that will prosper MANY in a way that would 'help' relieve 'suffering' in the world, and make this world 'safer' literally. And would help others to keep it safer for ALL. .... *crying crying today* (awww, I get soppy when my head is all glucgk.)

I am willing to 'do' what Flows. To trust people to help me go through the correct doors for my life.

It will be interesting for me this next week, while rm is on vaca, to try to look up more of my Vedic/sidereal meanings of my chart. I think this will be something 'fresh' for me, as well as Advancing my educational needs. Maybe will make more 'more' qualified to apply to something astrological-like in my future.

I ALSO would like to meet some Christian Astrologers...

{SideNOTE!!!! I just really Kindly want other astrologer-peers out there to KNOW that 'I am Different' from some individuals who use that as a 'brand' for themselves. I want to draw a clearer line of distinction between 'politico-christian' views as opposed to having a genuine Love for Christ, and for a Love for all humanity, inclusive....) e/1-16 614p

Resuming paragraphing....
I want to meet and just be with some TRULY(genuine) Christ-Centered (and Christian) Astrologers... especially the Magi-level ones. The ones who operate on a level of Revelation (not talking about the Book of, but an actual-type of teaching/learning-- if you ARE one of those then you just understood what I said). I just KNOW you're out there!! Come. Forth.! LOL ...

With all the chances in the Universe, I can't be the only Worshipper in this-here astrologically Beautiful world. In a way, I sense that layer, I sense it. I want to know WHERE you are, and how to reach you. We've got incredibly Beautiful work to do, for the Lord GOD.

And maybe there are Elevated Christian preachers (by elevated, I mean revelation-level that is freak-flag out-of-your-box level) that can view astrology as merely a 'tool' people use in order to pursue the patterns and INCREDIBLE World of Cosmos that Our God has made for US, so we can be even-more Adoring of Him, and THANKFUL to Him for the Clues He gives us, every day. It's ALL about HIM, and How Loving and GOOD He is towards us who Believe.

e/1-16 615pm

...

(music) Windmills of Your Mind (Peter Grant) [3:01] http://www.youtube.com/watch?hl=en&feature=related&v=dLx83xXKmPA&gl=IL

posted January 16, 2016 11:59 AM            

Found out rm is not having surgery any time soon. He's just going for impressions and measurements this week. Any oral surgery won't be until weeks from now. (heh heh, without saying anything, I see the potentials.)

I don't share that much of his astrology with him because I don't want to unduly influence him one way or another. He's teaching ME how astrology works just by my observing what he does.

Anyways, his Part of Fortune is 25+ Capricorn in H8. That's where my Ceres Capricorn is. And my Part of Fortune is also H8, and conjunct my my Pluto. ... So, I guess that~Part works! LOL

He said something to me today that I found valuable. Unusual for him, because he usually keeps totally to himself. Very very rare when he offers a comment.

(I mean, can you tell???? I live with someone and it's like I'm in my own insulated-bubble typing away here?? ... Okay.) LOL

(humorously) And it's Time for the 50+ year 'old faithful' GE refrigerator gnarly-- with its high-pitch insistently-pressing compressor {ruining my hearing}-- to just QUIT finally one of these days?!! LOL We've had other things quit and have to be replaced?, and it's saved us money on the electric bill!!

Sorry. *ahem* Rm said he's noticed a huge difference in me from the time I had moved in until now. He said that I stopped having (what he called) volatile shifts in my energy once I really 'understood' that I was welcomed to 'stay'.

For years, ...I've been prepared to bolt at a hare's trigger. It doesn't help that there are things in the environment that are VERY uncomfortable (painful) for me, that I can't escape, and which we don't have personal-control to remedy here.

The hugest obstacle has been the land-manager who deliberately refuses us service (sorry to say). It actually drives down the value of the property.

(natal Mars square my IC/MC??)

I commented back to rm that it's been emotionally better for me since rm found the loophole and the land manager stopped being able to keep an over 'holding threat' and shattering my sense of building any safety. I needed that to stop, in order for me to begin to make order for my life again.

It made all-the-difference when I opened up to rm about the threats the land-manager had made to me on a personal-level (won't say it here, but it was dastardly). (Remember a few Christmasses ago?, when land-manager pulled that sleezeball 'eviction-scare' on BOTH of us???) That's when my relationship with rm started to improve because I shared things he didn't know was happening.

This had an eventual growing direct influence on helping me 'settle' a part of me that had constant emergency-alarm levels inside. That level went from being a 9+ to about a 2 to 3, sometimes rising to about a 6, on a scale of 10 being highest.

(I've been through a lot of trauma, especially after I relo'd to this state. That was about 6 months before the time of 9-11, and most people know I have similar chart to USA Sibley. My relo been rocking and rolling! Unpleasant, and simply sheer-terrifying because I was 'all alone' going through it. No support.

Thinking generally on my life today, now I surface again, needing to learn a new set of life skills, which have changed over the years with the advent of computerization of most things. I feel smart, and very dum at the same time.

Rm and I had gone to visit a Best Buy (computer techy place) to get a back-up battery for our computer (with all the power outages we've been having locally).

We asked a tech about Windows 10... It's like the computers haven't changed, but their philosophies are changing. They've decided to try to get everyone up-to-speed at the same level, so that they don't have to keep putting out little-fires all the time. (So that makes the computer world a whole lot more friendly for me. I'll HAVE to let go of what I 'thought' I knew, in order to start again there. I'm sure my 'instincts' about computers are still intact. My instincts have to run on a newer understanding of info-management.)

In the older-world understanding, there was ALWAYS a 'gimmick' to everything. And the person 'usually' got screwed in the end. (I ~HOPE that's changing!) That's a lot of the hesitations I feel-- having some rather more direct-knowledge of how that was accomplished in the past. Stealth. Creepy-corrupt advertisers.

I securely know that the effect of ME has been Good for the area 'Hood. I've helped make it a Better area. The people genuinely like and accept me here, so that all works for Good in the real estate business locally. It's important to have the feeling of good-will among the peace-loving law-abiders. The land-manager has been in a tenuous position of needing to just accept of me being here, "for ~now".

... haha, I'm still intensely chewing on these little bars of my cage!! LMAO!! *Heart* Keeping things a little more on the optimistic side, because I can do gloomy equally well -- *well, maybe NOT?!* LOL Moving right along...

A ripple, makes a wave.... BE the Change.

posted January 16, 2016 09:38 PM            

A dance song for the round and round, ins and outs of growing.

((btw Randall, I want to remind you that I respect your relationship with Charmaine...
Please never take any of these songs as directed at you, okay? ... Just making soft and sure. )

It's all about Love~! ... self and other

(music) Upside Down (Diana Ross) [4:07] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RrsGnz5QfLg

posted January 18, 2016 02:48 AM            

(clip) "We Shall Overcome" (Martin Luther King, Jr.) [2:27] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=130J-FdZDtY

(clip) "I Have A Dream" (Martin Luther King, Jr; subtitles) [1:31] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MgYzJGmBXU8

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posted January 18, 2016 05:53 PM            

My head had been wrapped around some of the 'social work' type degrees active in my chart.

Sometimes I wonder (IF you were to believe that there is such a thing as past-lives) how much of an energetic tie I had to Dorothea Dix and her work of Reform in the late 1800s.

Certainly, I (not only have the astrological chart, but) have had in my life the volcano energy of a social reformer....
And when I DID take 'all that potential' and tried to 'ground' it here in this locale?, I was abused by them-- what I want to say is that 'they had their chance'! I'm done with that track, here.

And a long long time ago, there had been talk about 'how easy' it is to get a back-door degree in Social Work. It was a farce, a laugh. There are soooo many incompetent workers in that system. I do NOT wish to be thrown in that pool of vipers. Disgusting. Use people, without being required to have a Conscience.

I'm STILL glad that I didn't go that route then in my life. That whole system of EASY back-door educational (empty) degrees needs Revamping and Reforming soooo badly.... NO Integrity in it.

They damaged me, and some knew about it and did NOTHING. It's Over. They should never profit from me, any kind of way. My health and all parts of my life were harmed through their deliberate neglect. My dues are PAID here, with that.

It's ONLY by GOD's Grace that I survived it.

My mind takes me (MercuryRX Capr degrees/asteroids) back to all the times IN THIS LIFE that I have protected Other people's rights, Other people's money, and did not have a reciprocated-experience in this (in my life's past). (What evoked these thoughts from me was something an LL'er remarked to me.)

I hate it when my head starts to rolodex through the negative-files? ... But there was something Deeper for me to see in it. I had been too forgiving and glossing over soooo many of the 'damages' that happened to me from my being a Worker, and invested in people, while remaining too trusting of a person.

Some people complain that the government takes their taxes?

Well, I've got some LEGITIMATE gripes and stories about HOW some of YOUR tax money (AND mine) was SWIPED away by folks working in government offices, or/AND these so-called LLC type charitable local organizations. (I've had the satisfaction now of knowing that some of these 'who used me' at the start of this thread, were caught and got arrested. But that didn't 'help' me solve my problems.)

One of the ways these agencies have worked in the past, is to make sure that the so-called client is sufficiently 'vulnerable enough' NOT to be able to 'do' anything about it, on their own power. This ESPECIALLY applies to ones have not been watched-over by any relatives or through the attention of interested friends. ~Fie!!

I was thinking about the 3 years of back-payments I had been due from one east coast state in the USA. When it came time for the government office to cut ME that check I was 'owed' and they held in their coffers so long, I was sent a Letter declaring that from that point on, if they 'owed' anyone ANY past-monies (re disability checks).... Then, they DIDN'T have to pay it!!! "BECAUSE *they said so*"....

*(JAWDROP?????)*

Yes, this ACTUALLY happened to me. And it was WRONG.

Then my thoughts went further.... I thought about my ex2 husband at that time. Where was HE~~~?? Why didn't he step in and CARE for his Wife, and MY/our Finances?

We were legally married, and he didn't (nor HIS family, and not MY family) care-enough to SEE to it that I was represented and there would be consequences to those who worked against my interests.

<<I'm deleting many many paragraphs here, before original-posting it. My Cosmic Alligators are chomping at their bits.>>

Anyways.... *breathe* For today, I've been being presented with a rolodex file of all the EGREGIOUS rip-offs done to my life, especially economically. *They USED me and had dug a pit for me, as reward.*

God will repay.... evil for evil, and Good for Good.
(Sun on my asteroid Hammarabi at 27+ Capricorn, now just moved to PapaCosmas 28+ Capricorn.) God Hears my suffering, knows all my afflictions, and I trust He Knows how to cure my situation. .... (And it's going to be BETTER than I EVER anticipated. God is Elegant and He's lining up just the right people and helpers for my life.)

I present these older hurts and memories (not posted) for God to Heal and wipe tears from.

I hope, on Martin Luther King's Birthday, that it won't be only for a few selected-groups who have all rights protected....

posted January 19, 2016 06:47 PM            

Amazing results in me when I get to have those little refreshment period of times:
~~like a good night's sleep, and when the 'fridge behaves, the 'hood is good, the jets finish take off and landing traffic, the tielonol starts working on your head(after all that~~ LOL), have taken a good brisk walk outside, and now the rm is gone... After some chores, I sat down to a treat of a couple random vids.

I just HAD to lay almost all listening aside for a while, as things were triggering, or would just run-off without being able to really understand and consider what was being spoken.

I reached a kind of 'saturation' I guess. Too many exasperations climbing into huge frustrations?? LMAO now, but not so much 'then'.

I truly feel a sense of Joy within me--- especially after the floods of frustration start settling. Too much reality. Too tight. Too narrow. Too long...

Okay... Let's get into some Imaginings fired up here. If I felt better, had the money, ~~ how could fantasize a bit here?

I had heard about the building project that Nico is trying to start. Nico, you are truly SUCH a good person.
And Tim H, I think you have Potential~~
Gotta think of a way to get those two to collaborate somehow?.. hmm. Maybe two buildings.
...*unbuttons her long Quality wool coat with fluffy warm soft collar, removes sleek leather gloves* Slides open a drawer of special wood table located in her grand library room.
Removes a pen and her checkbook. She knows it contains $Infinite dollars that she gives for humanitarian causes. Now. Show me more of what your plans are.... and "How much do you think you'll be needing for that?"

(One of my past lives??? For sure!!! LOL)... I was ~so used to doing that!, yes. Generosity! Me, Senators... and Dix and Barton.

*sounds begin: bells, a harp playing glissandos, chimes, time, rolling back, the air is charged with a hushed excitement*

It's....... *** A Woman ***

Narration follows:

Women. Great Women. We Own. We Rule. We Care.
We are Powerful force on the Earth, with the Highest Natural Business Acumens, Seeing easily into situations with devastating Penetration & Insights, Serving Humanity as a Well-Connected Group-- with Wholeness and Exceptional-Qualities specially-filled with Joy Compassion Kindness and Mighty Grounding Super Solidifying Bendable STRENGTH.

And actually?.... It's only a ~small thing to say that this is what we do. WE, as a Force, do Bankroll and Provide for the World!!!

Giving Birth: to Children with Dreams, Imaginations... Building Reaching Wrapping and Clothing them with Empowerment

posted January 20, 2016 03:17 PM            

1975 was proclaimed as International Woman's Year by The United Nations. (International Women's Day is traditionally March 8th, every year.) For International Woman's Year, Helen's song was chosen for theme-song.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/International_Women%27s_Day

I was a Sophomore, then Junior that year in college. Had taken Women's Studies courses during those years. I had also had an interest in women in aviation. Had the thrill of greeting women who had finished the Powder Puff Derby women's air-race one year (I have the Letter of Thanks from Airport for that somewhere in my files).

Tried to get my pilot's license, passed ground-school, but chickened-out when it came time for taking the plane up for my first solo. Landing, the rush of the ground coming up at me, would overwhelm my senses, so I HAD to stop... Both for that reason, and that the gas-fuel prices skyrocketed... Priced me out of that opportunity since I had to support myself through college.

heh heh, pilots have landing-signatures? My landings were always marked as coming in too hot-- they could spot me. But wow, I was 'so' poetically inspired by those experiences in the Blue Sky. Flying is an 'addiction'... Every time I saw a crystal bright deep blue sky, my blood boiled. I wanted to be up there. Later, I wrote one of my favorite short stories about this experience, paralleled with the story of a friend who was dying of leukemia.

I was also one of two students appointed to a University committee that began a celebrating women's month, which from there became a national observance.

(music) I Am Woman (Helen Reddy, 1975) [3:47] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MUBnxqEVKlk

THIS coming Women's Day, on Tuesday March 8, 2016, will carry the international theme of 'Make It Happen.’

Also happens to co-incide with a SuperMoon NEW MOON(8:54pmEST) & Total ECLIPSE(8:57pmEST) in Pisces 18.56' here on that day, culminating during the evening hours here on the East Coast of the US.

In the USA-Sibley Chart, the tNN Virgo will be conjunct h22 Lilith(i) (interpolated, 'Natural Perigee') in Virgo 21.46'58" ... which is conjunct the USA NEPTUNE Virgo 22.25'.
Virgo-interc in House 9 Leo cusp (trop, placidus).

tJupiter Virgo still retrograding (Mar 8th), in 21+rx Virgo will be in a conjunction with the USA BlackMoonLilith at 19.28' Virgo and 571 Dulcinea {the Potential waiting to be 'actualized' inside the Woman-being treated by the local men as a worthless ***** &slave (DonQuixote RE-assigns her role, as dignified and deserving of adoration, respect and proper-Love)} at 19.56' Virgo H9. 4015 Wilson-Harrington {energy or desire to question, or reject--ref m.a.h.} 18+ Virgo.

tNeptune Pisces 9.50' in USA H(3) is past nCeres-rx 8.41 Pisces and in degree of 7066 Nessus-rx 9.0'4". Will be at 4580 Child-sr at Pisces 10.24. Issues having to do with Compassionate(pisces-ceres) nurturing and care, expressed through creating Networks that link together friends & associates(Ceres H3), and feelings of helplessness and powerlessness(Pisces,neptunian).

Nessus is a shadowland, having to do with ghosts and issues that are still the 'unburied corpses' (ref. Z.Griga).

tPluto Capricorn in USA H2 (Values, Self-Worth, Self-Esteem) will be sextile USA Nessus.

NESSUS descriptions by LL Glaucus(Raymond Andrews) Aug 4, 2010 www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum24/HTML/204991.html

quote:

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In a TMA June/July 2013 article, page 25, Melanie Reinhart says this about Nessus:
Theme: "The Buck Stops here."
Healing the trans-generational legacy of relationships poisoned by betrayal, abuse, lack of forgiveness.
A karmic cycle ends with transcendence.
Death of false ego-image.
Historical, racial, religious issues relating to specific collective themes (like migration owing to poverty, famine, war, natural disaster).
Releasing futile endeavours, situations which "burn" for a long time.
The capacity to witness the shadow side of life without reacting emotionally, so the Right Action becomes possible.

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Eric Francis (PlanetWaves) describes Nessus (disc 1993) as being a planet that addresses 'the healing of abuse patterns'.

posted January 21, 2016 11:43 PM            

quote:

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Originally posted by Randall:
One of America's (many) disgraces was that women were considered property for legal purposes.

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"It's a man's world,...
but it wouldn't be nothin' without a woman,
or a girl" selah.

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posted January 22, 2016 11:00 AM            

But mostly, I want to say this. No matter what's happening in my life-- it's like this deep inside me: Always....

posted January 22, 2016 12:52 PM            

How else would I want to round the corner to 1,000 posts except to be CHRISTMAS-Hearted!

...

They know that Snow... is on its way! LOL

Wishing all safety, warmth, and Snow Angels guarding and protecting you!