posted February 13, 2017 08:08 PM            

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This thread posts relatively fast despite being so long.

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I've learned better timing at halting the posts just before they poof, then resubmitting with disabled smilies. It's a nice surprise to come back later to find that the colorful smilies have been activated.

*grin*
I Believe God's Hand and Energy is IN and ON this thread. *Heart*

Although, some little devils still get caught in the details? (laughing). Some of my edits don't stick, and the autocorrect can decide to change words all by itself!

In my last long-post, it replaced the word "smooshed" with smoothed? *gives up* ~ O well! :laughing: I hope the autocorrect muse feels "useful"? I don't want to discourage her. She's actually helpful, more often than not.

Volunteer job...
I've been feeling anxious all week about going to my Volunteer job, tomorrow.

I KNOW that last week, there had been some harsh and breaking kind of transits... which added to strangeness and was there in the discouragement that followed afterwards.

I'd had a day of harder calls to handle. Then add that I had stress with missing office support personnel (usually 'someone' is always present). This did not help their newbie-recruit anchor solidly in her training. For some of the calls, (I believe) I did okay.

But~~~~ oy!

The hard ones I didn't know BECAUSE I am only superficially familiar with the vocabulary words.

Crushed my sense of competency....

HOWEVER *grin*-- Had it been an office dealing with astrology, or religion? I believe it would have been no sweat! :heart:

So.......

Gotta woman-up, suit-up, get my make-up back on! I'll pretend last week didn't happen like that, and go in and TRY it again!

(music) Pick Yourself Up (Fred Astaire & Ginger Rogers, dancing clip from Swing Time, 1936) *music*

I suspect that some of the 'rawness' I feel in my chest is from the (emotional) care-impact from what went down at LL, culminating the last week.

Letting go with all of that, to the best of my ability. I realize that I have a different set of Standards and Values than they do. *They* made it clear that they wanted a more homogenous group. Gently, it is better for me to take the benchwarmer position again, rather than trying participating, to fit-in. I'll be "asked" if they want me in again.

I'm reverting back to posting about transits and their effects here in THIS thread, once more. Been doing it all right-here anyways, for several years now.

Several LL'ers say they follow this thread.

If they're into more intermediate-level astrology, then, they will have these pages of reports I've been making for a few years, to compare dates to transits.

I'm very happy I created a core and central thread here, rather than scattered all over LL. Makes the astrology-transit component more convenient. And it's been useful to have a majority of stories about my life in contiguous posts here--

Anyone into transit-astrology might derive beneficial research data, by searching back for dates-- (I know I've deleted many posts, which now I see I should have left, for the history of it!)

If folks have the added advantage of knowing my chart placements and houses, then they get even more detailed-information on how planet energy works.

I've been posting in Astral Realms forum more (analyzing dreams). And I love my poets and Creatives over in YellowWax forum.

So.... What's happening with me now?
(partially)

{No astro delineate.}

I'm feeling kinda burned-out from overwrought emotions, right now. Headache has been a constant, with mild body-aches too (yesterday and today). I feel....... ~tired, still inner-cheery (of course), and kind of somber, all at the same time.

I have a feeling of 'defeat' that comes on, with a sense of overwhelm-- YET clearness. (Yes, a zenny BOTHiness.)

At times, there's a sense like a superthick glass ceiling, and on the other side of that, a dense grey fog. Will it be possible to break-through this?

My spiritual connection (on the inside) has been (surprisingly in a way) very good. (But the word 'good' is not 'the word' I wanted there).

When I call out to spirit(God), I can sense it being 'effectual', in a way, instead of having no sense of whether or not my prayer, my intention, even got off the ground. Strange.

Thing is? there is such a fog out-there. I don't know (see) the place that the energy went--- except, a (positive, good) sense that it is (and was) in the state of Received, and Kept. My Call is not lost or in vain. It is accounted-for.

Trust. Trust that it IS Happening.

That I am dearly loved and cherished by real-people reading this thread.

That I shall NOT be abandoned, NOR die, but am scheduled to be Affectionately and Lovingly Helped, in ways that are ABOVE and Exceeding my own Expectations.

I want to be able to laugh when help arrives. I will rest from these pages, with a sense afterall, of how silly it was for me to be caught in such nonsense and terror, worry and turmoils.

:angel: ...

The other day, I found a really unusual soulful Aretha Franklin song. Its wail and invocation, is accompanied by an unusual pan of the camera in the visual. Cool.

I feel that it partially fits the almost-melancholy, grey heavier stress energy I've felt now for a number of days.

posted February 17, 2017 09:49 AM            

Wow... what a hard worker I've been. I really really tried to dig down into understanding people's charts. I wanted sooo badly to give people the best they could get. It would be like I 'knew' what the significant things were, then there would be this 'halt'-- like suspension. I knew and had a sense of the whole chart, but couldn't bring it to speech. (Hence, it's good when you learn the keywords? LOL)

Nah.... Sometimes I feel like I've done this before. It's like I know it without words.

I do want to go on with astrology. I've attended more (free) online events. It's like when I listen to them, I 'feel' on their same level. That 'understanding' without words. I WANT to Contribute to this.

I've had experiences in my life where I had a familiarity with the nuts-and-bolts, but had not become a master of it. I 'happened' to be placed in rare positions, of being WITH the professionals, who indulged me by performing, or allowing me to be the 'fly on the wall'... and I chanced to make a 'suggestion'... And once they got over the fact that I was not as nuts-and-bolts knowledgeable (or important) as they, they found my suggestion was valid, and useful.

I want to do that. I want to be as 'the fly on the wall'... to listen, to take in what's being said, and for ideas to float up to my consciousness, that would be valid and useful for people (in astrology/philosophy) to use.

Of course, I want to keep learning astrology, systems of astrology. I'm good at looking over and 'sensing' systems and have a way of coordinating them. (Thinking about past jobs I've had. I 'coordinated' depts!, and had no inner-clue that I had done exceptionally, till much later. I guess that's where mentoring would have stepped in and told me 'what' I was doing, that was so natural. It really would have eased my mind and worries to have had feedback.

Confidence has been my difficulty. I have deep confidence within. Then there's an area of fog, chaos, confusion; then there's the outside evidence of what I HAVE done. I haven't sorted out enough rivulets in the fog yet, in order to nourish inner-confidence that is expressed more solidly on the outside. And that's where mentors and teachers can help connect me more with that, through insights and feedback about my abilities and gifts (that maybe I'm not even aware I use, as it's so natural to me).

I want to adventure and leave here and be a part of a good solid team. Going back to that 'layer' of fog, confusion, I will add 'fright and terror' ROFLMAO!!

I have a large impediment BECAUSE of being 'behind' about living in the world of today. I've been here almost for a decade, and before that, had about 15-20 years of intense fear baked into me.

I have needed a person (group) who were INTERESTED in my success, and for them to have inputted into my life in the most personal ways. I think I have lived my life inside some plastic, and I did it so well, that people thought I 'knew' what I was doing, when I was doing the 'fake it till you make it', and I WAS making it, and it would flush out of my mind because I didn't realize I HAD it all along.

This feels surreal, with my saying this (above paragraphs) today. I HAVE been willing to go. To leave here and start my life again. I'm just blindsighted in a way. I reach out to the ether, and I have no idea what's on the other side of it. I guess I have reacted to the stinging monsters in my memory. The things that have gone wrong, boiling like a stew in a cauldron. Time to skim and dump some of that.

Some of the fear I've feeling (and denying) is NOT conducive to good health... oh noooo. haha. Does rotten things to your digestive track, to BE in such worry and turmoil.

Part of that is that I KNOW, should things continue down the fear-track, that I would not be alive (in a body) for too much longer as my body would go down quickly. I have a lot of vulnerability, and without support and a way to take good care of myself, I would not last too much longer.

The other thing with that too, is that I am WAY too shy. I shrink shrink shrink when it comes to asking for my own needs to be met. It's like I'll default to OTHERS all the time, even to my own peril. (Please don't allow me to do that?) I need OTHERS who will look diligently after MY needs, TOO.

In the immediate world... I feel that vulnerability (with my body). And another thing, my head has this kind of 'whelming' thing that happens to it when there is too much sensory coming IN to it from normal everyday (like marketing) flood. There are various points where my head is clear, yet, in a suspense, and doesn't know how to clearly sort out what's coming TO or AT it?

I was thinking back to the days when I took flying lessons. I passed flight ground school (and that was the days before handy computers). I was fine with everything EXCEPT, I had 'ground rush' when I had to land the plane. You have to switch radio frequencies, do things to flaps and tabs, AND deal with the visual of the ground flying up to your FACE sooooo QUICKLY. It was inundating! Flooding and semi-panic state that is just below conscious awareness.

(I heard later on, that other student-pilots have that same reaction. That's the point where some quit?... I know I did, at that point. The instructor had me pull the plane to the side of the taxi way. He started getting out of the plane. I said to him, WHERE you going???? He said, Take her up!... I completely PLUCKERED. No way. LOL)

I'm smiling inside too. Pilots can be known by characteristic take offs or landings? My "landings" were pretty unique? I always came in 'too hot'... and maybe too high? There were electric utility wires (telephone poles) surrounding the field. I didn't want the little-feet of my wheels getting tangled in those. I'd have to DROP that plane fast, after I cleared the wires! LOL

(Oh yeah, just being weird here... Amelia Earhart and I had some chart similarities! Doesn't mean a darn thing, but I thought I'd just 'add' that in there! haha. I used to have a flying buddy who DID have their license. We were going to fly in the Powder Puff Derby. She was a remote blood relative of Ms Earhart. .... We didn't get to fly in the derby, as 'men' were breaking up the 'women's' air club, and we had to suspend being a woman's air race. At least, I have GREAT memories of being in that last race. I was on the little welcoming committee that greeted each pilot at the end of the race. I brought each woman a glass of Iced Tea. I felt VALUABLE!!! haha. so cute. I admired them sooo much. I remember Snoopy! The GIANT stuffed Dog, being the FIRST airplane to finish. Snoopy's Grandmother's plane was the first to land that year.

Anyway... I digress.

I want to thank Kaypacha for his webinar series he's embarked on. I can't wait to hear Rick Levine later on today. I WANT to be with innovative people studying cosmology. I'm excited about what might lie ahead in the interpretations and discerning of the Times. There's just 'something in me' that feels I have a contribution to make. I'm not certain what that is, but I'd love to be a fly on the wall, and let things come to me, and maybe float some excellent ideas for people, eventually.

Those are my higher ideas and some of what I want to be involved in.

As far as making my own way, material wise? I am stuck. I am way behind on things. I would need to almost be babied for a while (which I HATE admitting, but, one small step at a time, and I'm sure my GOOD instincts would kick back in, and I'd remember 'how').

It just freezes and stalls me when I hear I MUST do everything all by myself. Some people think that others don't appreciate UNLESS they do it all by themselves.

That doesn't apply to me. Maybe? A few persons have projected that, because it was true or HAS been true for THEM (either because it is true for them personally, or, they knew others like that).

I come from a vastly different set of circumstances and situations. God has refined me. I am incredibly unique. I DESERVE an excellent break. "So what" if I have to be babied for a small bit. Yes, that might embarrass my pride??? LOL. I have to catch up in some areas. I am not being manipulative to say that.

It is just blunt truth that I have certain deficiencies 'because' I wasn't poured-into at proper times in my life. (It was a neutral moot blame, because people couldn't know what was going on within me-- I HID so well the fact that I was living in so much inner-terror, ALL my life).

Please don't compare me to other people (or to your own known self-tendencies) that you automatically blanket-"assume" that of ME. You don't know ....

So.... I'm going to post this, without proofreading. I chicken out of saying sooo many things. Sometimes it's pride, sometimes I'm just in a blurrr....

I'm not sure what's going on in the astro communities. Many of them are closed-gates to me right now, due to fees. And as I understand, there are also changes going on with technology and social media. FB is changing very much. (humor) I am IN a Cloud when it comes to nuts-and-bolts. It's like I'm afraid of the buttons?????? omg..... LOL!!!!!!! ROFLMA. Too much information?????? LOL

I'm a VERY capable person in sooooo many ways. And in others?, I neeeeeddddd assistance! LOL

So... I haven't been feeling too well recently. That's part of my 'presence' having been missing here. I DO Love my People, sooo much. And I Uphold you whom I've seen are still 'relating' to me? ha!

Maybe's there's still HOPE for me, afterall!!! because you Believe. ...

I deeply deeply thank you, and appreciate everyone in my virtual life, soooo much. I look forward with joy and anticipation of meeting and being with you all some day.

(music) Because You Love Me (Celine Dion, lyrics) [5:05] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nq8TasNsgKw

posted February 17, 2017 12:13 PM            

Nothing like standing in the shower, and having ideas come back to me.

There was a point I wanted to share a long time ago.

Part of it came to me long ago, but it was revivified when I was listening to a yt of Sting and archival musicologists who were discussing ancient music and the composer John Dowland. (I love music from that era of time, and I especially loved Sting's input to interpretation, with his lutist friend.)

I was listening to the lecture and hearing some of the music in the background. I had my chunk of rosequartz near me. I 'just happened' to "touch" (hold) the stone without really being consciously aware of what I was doing with my physical hand.

Suddenly, it was like I had a kind of transport'ation to a layer. It was BOTH very clear, and, other worldly? While they discussed the history of Dowland and the Times, I could sense and see it and inbody it. ~weird. I mused over what was happening that hour of time. (It was a long vid.) I mused 'how' I could now be conscious 3D AND feel 'the earth' connection to annals of time, through what the stone was saying. It wasn't talking. I was 'there' and 'here' at the same time. It was impression, it was knowledge without the words. I was 'living' the rock informing me. I KNOW this sounds soooo bizarre! haha. But I'll leave it to my higher consciousness mystical type folks to interpret that with solid grounding.

Sometimes I think people think I'm a flake, when I actually am NOT. I like things "real." And, I 'happen' to be able to incorporate pieces of meta-intercosmic (haha, tVenus and tMars in some of the weird-degrees, the Meta and Interkosmic and Industria-Compassion (asteroid) degrees in my chart... And also some of the deepest most profound love and cosmic-dedication that I have (with asteroid Magdalene Aries also coming up for cool transits, especially after tVenus finishes her retro travel).

Those first several degrees into my 4th House Aries 2.30 can be tight and difficult sometimes, depending. I notice migraines that do crop up during transits to IC ... which also can alter perceptions? But hey, I'm solid on some of these. I'm older now, and I've been through it TOO many times. I have Comparison-Inner-data Experience! I'm not going to talk myself out of what IS liminal reality.

There is a 'reality' (I think they call it nonlocal) that has a realness that is a parallel-real to this one, which belong to my fingers wiggling and pressing keys on this keyboard. BOTH are real, at the same time.

And to the degree that the meta is real to the hard physical world, so GOD IS also, to the Meta.

Some people can't perceive the Meta world because their brain is not wired for it, or they are so boxed into the hard-physical world and have not had awakening experiences yet, that Informs them that this Other Universe exists in parallel.

In a similar way, some people don't perceive GOD yet, because they haven't found that part inside them awakened to see/feel the Meta-spiritual of the Hard-MetaWorld...
just sayin' *grin*

Oh yes. Being ~weird does have its advantages! So does being Older. I've got Experience!!! LOL

And using regular vocabulary words, in a slightly different syntax and strung-sentences MIGHT be able to stimulate some Meta-folk minds! We KNOW the difference. ROFL
I know some astrologers who probably laugh! Go ahead.... I know what that is! It's my SN-Mercury. Cut me a break! The astrologers long ago SAID how some people with that use speech in a weird way? Like, they make up their own language? ....

What I have to say to that is---

Let Those who Have an EAR, HEAR what I am Saying to the Collective. {paraphrase-there}

Anyways.... One of the things I had wanted to say before, (then chickened out of my post recently), has to do with tUranus Aries, and the way it configures my chart.

I forgot that it is not only forming a giant Cardinal-sign Grand Square (including Neptune, Uranus, and Ceres), AND that it trines my NN-GC and Pluto (and all the cosmic?-Birthing asteroids there), but it ALSO is going to be in sextile to my Merc-Gem that whole time!!! yay.
My Merc Gem also sextiles my Pluto H8(cancer).

With tUranus opp my natal Neptune Libra while trine NN-GC AND natal Neptune SEXTILEs the NN-GC--- during the long squares natally to my Uranus Cancer H8 (that's pretty cosmic for Uranus?? LOL),--- with the amount of cosmic-GROUNDING that I REALLY 'do' have, ..... I might be able to add my ~weird to others, and help discover some of the mechanisms behind telepathy, and faith, and things like that.

I would be able to do this, BECAUSE I have Life Experience training. This is a very confusing transit when you have it during your youth years. I've lived a LOT of life, on metafields, both inner, and experienced (job-wise even) on the outer.

The reason I said this, is not only do I have Virgo (with my Moon) in my 9th(leo), where I can sense and analyze (God's Higher) systems, and love analyzing techniques? but maybe I can bring some of that DOWN to earth-level word communications, too? (my Aquarius H3, with pisces there).

With my Neptune in H10 Libra....
Neptune is also 6th chakra? ... Imagination. My InnerVision, my InnerImagery EYE. I tend to excel in that?
(with my Mercury Gem trine Nep, trine H3aqua?)
I also have the Mars-Cancer (a bit shy there) trine my Nep... which can ADD to my abilities to perceive and act on those perceptions, albeit very inwardly. (You can read the volumes of my mind, right??? LOL)

When a person tries to look at the night-sky stars, many times, you have to 'see' with your peripheral vision. If you try to look smack-on a star, you can't see it. You 'perceive' the star, and 'looking within' you can imagine the whole.

I think that telepathy-things operate on that kind of level. You have INNER Eye. INNER imagination (which would be like the night sky). If you try to perceive messages smack-on, it escapes.
.. You need to use a peripheral innerEYE vision??? haha, ~weird again.

(Hey, tSun is in the last degree of Aquarius!!! It's my last chance and job (tVenus on asteroid Industria Aries) to love (and be paid for!!!???? LOL) being ~weird. Well, at least, to be hugged and loved and cherished for it! tSun has been trine my Merc and Neptune for a few days.)

So why am I not able to act on it? *sigh* That's the process of learning. And, needing help in the material world. People. (And being there with them, and being loved, and given constructive loving kind caring feedback.)

So, I'll finish this thread-appearance today with some songs that mean a lot to me.

But first... **BREAKING NEWS** (not Fake) ROFLMAO!!!!

Local NEWS item....
(my H4 Aries home-environment and "real estate" transits?)

Just saying, that our 'hood will be having road-crews repaving our streets and parking spaces. That means VERY heavy equipment!

I might either BE here at LL, with earphones glued to my head and music going to help me direct and focus my attention AWAY from the distraction, or, go find a (maybe) more comfortable space somewhere out in the outside community.

I have my Volunteer job, steady, on Tuesdays.

I think the construction equipment will be in the 'hood for Tuesday and Wednesday---- in case you don't see me!

TODAY, there are some posts I want to respond to later-on here at LL. I have some things to do right now, but, I'll be back! ...
'hood-environment willin'!!!

Songs...

(music) Hurry! It's Lovely Up Here (Barbra Streisand, from On A Clear Day You Can See Forever) [3:00] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8l2fsxJWE88

(music) On A Clear Day (Barbra Streisand, clip) [3:07] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nz5DLO8fclA

so much Love.... so much Love

What a Beautiful World we have OPEN ACCESS to, through sound and Hearing.

ty to composers, like Eric Whitaker... {{JustBreathtaking!}}

(music) Sleep (Eric Whitacre, lyrics) [5:46] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bxjWNJU8rNE

EDIT ADD....
I'm not even going to "try" to fix my communication mistakes in this post today.

OMG!!! I have tSaturn Sag SITTING across from my Mercury Gemini.

I REALIZE that I can be misperceived.
But I ALSO realize there are people who LOVE me, and get worried when I don't "show up" here.

I am going to Trust YOU Completely with my Words!
People who look to criticize me, will do that.
People who LOVE and Accept me the Way I Am, will laugh, like, those who take prank vids of someone trying to come out of anesthesia!

haha, The tSN going through Pisces, is ON one of my anesthesia asteroids. .... uh .... if that makes sense???

sheesh!!!!!!!! So I have a handicap? But I SINCERELY really really hope you are WITH me, In LOVE.

I'm not going to stay upset about needing to edit for clarity!

posted February 20, 2017 06:59 PM            

People who Understand my message and my innerspirit 'get it'.

Right now these transits are giving me a hard time to communicate. To form language around my thoughts. OR, it gives me the awkward illusion that I'm not.

I had a long post here... then suddenly noticed the moon had gone void, so I'll save what I have to say for later?

TOMORROW (Tues, and Wednesday), there are going to be roadcrews huge diesels repaving our roads and parking spaces here in the 'hood.

Today, I got 'visual' migraine (the kind with rainbows!) It's been a VERY long time since I had any of 'those'. Sometimes I lose the ability to see for a chunk of time. I'm so disappointed. This visual effect is now added to the acoustic-type I usually have now. (Gotta be all that planet action over in my H4 Aries, WTIH tSaturn ON my NorthNode-GC TODAY and tomorrow and for a few days...)

I'm "supposed" to have my Volunteer Job tomorrow--

I have no idea how that's going to work out if I get the rainbows going DURING that small slot of time. Otherwise, if I were on an actual job that I ALREADY knew and was well-familiar with?, I would type around the rainbows, OR, just go take a break for a few hours to nourish myself.

When the headaches get to that point, it's almost like I can lose my orientation in the 3D world, too. Feels surreal-spacey when I have the triple-combos.

I may 'pop in' for quickies, but not spend Quality time at LL.

posted February 24, 2017 07:29 PM            

This song has been playing in my head for the past few days.

posted February 25, 2017 03:10 PM            

(music) Mister Rogers' Neighborhood Intro {{laughing}} [1:30] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_4nI7AgUKwk

Speaking of H4 Aries and my 3rd House Aquarius (intercepted Pisces) 'hood!...

The road crews are trying to finish up. They are doing re-touches with the asphalt sealant and next will finish drawing the parking space lines.

In the mean time (LOL), two of my (better) neighbors (4 units in this row-cluster) are Moving!!! oh hurray (for them), and oh no (nervously, for me).

The one adjacent had another birth event. The newest baby born is male, so according to the rules, you are (eventually) told you must have separate rooms for male and female children. This family is moving to a larger end unit on the other side of this (small) 'hood.

Then the neighbor on the end unit next to them, has had continuing problems with 'things' (like roaches) that continue and are NOT being resolved by management. (Treatments not working, and they are tired of dealing anymore with them-- they have younger children). And they mentioned conditions in the 'hood atmosphere in general. They've been here 7 years. (The mega-foghorn-woofer rec-vehicle guy is parked basically right IN their windows. Shakes the whole building here. He has a supernasty temper. And next door to him, the cops have visited close to a handful of times to break up DV fights over the past few years-- I wrote last page(?) about having someone recently pound my door, looking to use my phone to get assistance).

There is an increase in drug-sales (especially again, same units involved... it's like they move some out, and then the next ones renting do that SAME thing? hmmmmm ~weird?). And with sex trafficking (not proven, ~but????).

haha! Do I sound like TV neighbor Mrs Kravitz????
I DO like to mind my own business--- but some people make that pretty hard to do, sometimes.
ref! Kravitz
(topic) Gladys Kravitz Freaks Out (TV Bewitched) [0:49] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mdFctlvB3w

There has been more gun violence. A body was found shot close by here. It's so freaky to be watching the news and knowing exactly where 'that' is?

Then there were two news helicopters a few air-blocks away, with a police stand-off.
(Man upset, DV, no one hurt)

On the bus yesterday, there's a legally-blind guy I talk to who usually has his walking cane. I commented that he didn't have his stick? He said he was mugged the other day (just down the street here). He says that using his stick 'advertises' that he is weak, which he thinks makes him prey to being mugged. ... This usually more-positive soul made the comment next that this is a terrible world we live in now.

Normally I would have said something to him-- but I just held silence after that comment.

And I Held Space for Peace.
I Held Space. Just, Anchored-Space....

We were outside. While I sat there in the silence with him, this song went through my head, and I 'prayed' it for him, and held this in my Imagination for everyone.

(music) What A Wonderful World (Louis Armstrong) [2:16] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bkTLIO2zanM

Even though all these things happen...

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Oops. Phone just rang. It was rm.

One of his sisters was found unresponsive ... She's still alive. BP very low.
Earlier this week had something break free in her carotid, which caused one of her eyes to be half-blind.
It was a fortunate thing that her younger (grand)niece had tried to make communications with her. It saved his sister's life.

This Pisces eclipse is happening to rm's 10th House.
(1+Pisces MC, and SN approaching his IC/Virgo).

The 10th House is where eclipse is on Sunday Morning here... Rm's 10th House Pisces is also related to 'News of Deaths.'
(Alan Oken, Houses of the Horoscope, p.157.
10th House People, Places, and Things.
"Death of brothers and sisters.")

OF COURSE, I never share 'bad news' kinds of info with him. That would be irresponsible of me. ... I might share 'after' the fact, sometimes-- but if there's Hope somewhere, I'll emphasize that! I'll look for the 'good' that is happening and point it out.

One of the advantages of knowing transits, is that you can Pray, in a more targeted way sometimes. It also is good for validating intuitions that didn't make sense UNTIL the event or the news.

The tMoon, and tMercury is last degree Aquarius approaching his MC.

He has a very late Gemmy ASC (28+).

tPluto has established itself in his H8 Capricorn now.

tSaturn is quite near his 7th House Sag 28+ DESC.
It's just below the line right now, and will go on a retrograde cycle at 27.47 first week of April.
He had an eclipse to the degree of his Sun ON his last birthday first week of September.

Wow.... Center yourself, Mirage! That's right, *breathe*

I myself have NOT been feeling really well. My gut is a mess (from extreme-longterm worrying? My body betrays me). And doesn't help when you have migraines either (stomach digestion gets messed up with that too). I MUST keep IN my mind that THIS is 'temporary'.... .

I've started something new--- I spend time in Good COUNTER thoughts and images now, to compensate self for any kind of forgetting and sliding down a bit.
*I feel Good. I feel in TOP Energy Form.
I feel the fantastic energies of the cosmos in my body and psyche and I feel Wonderful. This is fantastic... And I spread it IN my myself, and, out INTO the World*

Since this is a report-post though,
{I honestly feel sick every single day, more than I get reprieves. I've been getting into the presence of mind to stop and NOTICE the times when my atmosphere is Good.}

I allow Good to imprint itself in my memory, so I can draw on Good and allow the pixels to spread through my body while asking God to make this into Healing Energy for my flesh.
.. (It's like those fragrance spays that you spray, then, the chemical droplets each suddenly blooms in the atmosphere).

Yes, it has been wonderful to have a good imagination. I have to stop myself from the negatives and glooms at times. I 'drop' them. I loose my attachment to these.

Every single day, I have to FIND and focus on the Healthiest and most Beautiful things I can find.

So.... I wish everyone the BEST Outcomes for their eclipse in Pisces. (my 'hood! LOL)

Oh I almost forgot....
I am gaining firmer closure emotionally on how much I grieve the loss of my kin, and, my own children.

I had some news that I wasn't the only one who got a Hate letter first week of June 2007. Apparently, Dau2 sent it to others in my immediate family-circle. That letter had slayed me. It came completely out-of-the-blue for my birthday that year. I hadn't heard from her. I started contacting law enforcement, hospitals, searching for her--- then she sent the letter. I spent 3 whole days in a state of shock. (I wrote about that previously.)

When I inquired about 'what kind of person/personality' she had become in life? The oblique answer I received was that she took after her father's side of the family (cold-people). So, that, in a way, was a double message to me. One that actually benefits and validates me emotionally. And there's having the closure happen... which is SOOOOO Blessed for me. Basically (using humor here), Dau2, as it ends up, is a ~beach?! So, she didn't take after me. ... LOL!!!!!

You know, when my kids were baking in my body's oven, I remember praying and standing and believing for them to be Shakers and Movers in this earth. .... But I forgot to add something in for myself!-- that I also wished for CUDDLERS. For babies that liked being held and nurtured and hugged-- for ME (lol).

Both my Dau's were VERY independent, and did not want to be held or rocked. awwwwwww. I was soooo deprived??!! {{*tiny violins* *rollseyes* LOL}}
(Dau-1 Aries, w last-degree Pisces Moon, Aries Ascendant.)
(Dau2 Taurus, w a Cappy Moon conjunct Mars, and Aries Ascendant)

Laughing gently here... Sometimes an H8 watery stellium sextile Moon mommy would like to CUDDLE her babies????...

And then too, God in His Marvelous Plan and Reasoning to have them 'be' super independent individuals--- because of 'what' was to befall them at 1 and 3 years old, and further, into their elementary school years. The dad abandoned them at 1 and 3, and then I went into a massive emotional tumble after ex2 (their elementary years) turned out to be abusive...

I held on the BEST I could, but never had adequately recovered myself....

wow... Those were awful days-- WITH horrendous transits to my chart. Talk about blindsided... Talk about Somnus and Palinarius. Some things, you just don't have control over-- but Pray that the right things happen at the right times... that you will survive it, intact.

Breathe again.

So! tJupiter Libra retro... is going back over my 'WhiteKnight' Libra. LOL.... And I'll claim all the images that this brings Forward in my mind for my Life.

AND, my chart is moving a step closer into some VERY gnarly transits for me-- (especially April???? omg!!!! *eek* AND for the next 2 or more YEARS, as I move through the elder transits, made MORE complicated by chart Grand Square I've written about above(?).)

I'm still looking for some mercy here??? LOL

I am not picky about what or where... As I've said, I'm willing to LEARN some new things. Willing to learn to work whatever is there to have? It's important for me to BE surrounded with Kind and Loving Hearts, and Unconditionally Accepting Friends (to weather my next years).

Was going to close, but stops.
Scribbles. Adds to prayer list.

And God... for someone who enjoys to cuddle?! (but is not generally a 'clinger') --
{omg???!! what she ~said????
hahahahahah *majorly blushing*}

posted February 25, 2017 06:44 PM            

The chords Mr. Heidt elected to use in the Mister Roger's song were superior, and reminded me of this Lauridsen song (below).

He has a Beautiful voice, and I think if someone sang it straight at me like that, I'd honestly barely know what to do?

Softly, so intimate.

I also was ENTHRALLED the other day by the announcement of the discovery of Trappist-1 and Seven earth-like planets.

MyGod MyGod MyGod!!!
And here I am, ALIVE, to hear of such a find. We're Expanding, Folks!!! Discovering new 'hoods in Space!

I have Fixed Star Trappist in my cosmic Neighborhood House (H(3)) at 15.06 degrees of (zodiac) Pisces.

Thread on it in Astro 2.0 by Hypatia--
"Super exciting news: TRAPPIST-1 (sister solar system discovered)" http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum24/HTML/237429.html

- http://www.sciencealert.com/breaking-news-nasa-is-making-a-huge-exoplanet-announcement-right-now

- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/TRAPPIST-1
(check out the action video)

t NEPTUNE is 11(12) Pisces right now.... bending our Imaginations.

t SATURN conjunct the Galactic Center showing us the real forms, putting structure to our Beliefs of 'what's out there'?, so we are validated in our aspirations, with new concrete hopes and ideas for the future.

They say that none of us on earth right now will be alive to see what is ON those worlds? But science is RAPIDLY unfolding, discovering. I wonder if Neptune in Aries a mere dozen years from now will have discoveries of how to jump through portals?

And maybe on the way to figuring that out, we will have developed Medical Miracles as a result. I think that's the reward inherent (intrinsic) in our being curious about Outer Space.... We discover opportunities for managing and curing our Inner Spaces.

Hopefully, Insights will come to cure the Earth's woes as well-- our Body, our Planet? We want to be a Responsible and Fit Group of Cosmic Raiders in a Vast and Amazing Universe.

As we figure out the riddles (cosmically and socially), mastering and handling the 'small' worlds of us, then the Universes are delivered into our hands. Children of the Cosmos!!!!

This song???? (I hope I'm not overplaying it? This swirls through my headspace often these days!)

(music) Cells, Planets (Erika Lloyd, arr Peterson, perf by Avante) [6:15] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sQMOH4C7CAc

Certainly will take Cooperation and Teamwork? We're going to have to start to learn to get along better with our OWN earthly folks, in order to meld ideas together that get us even further --- in ALL Ways? *grin* *Heart*

Neptune enters sign of Aries just before my 71st birthday. I'd LOVE to see what the Future holds a handful of years past that? , The Imaginative innovations in sign of Action and Launchings. Saturn will be in Aries too, giving Control and careful planning and considerations. The North Node will have been traveling through Pisces. Uranus will have brilliance in Gemini.

In all, this is such an exciting and Mysterious time to Be Alive. {God Willin' I'll still have my earth-suit on, and well-renewed? I Hope!}

Music to Celebrate the Newest Addition to our Knowledge of the Cosmos. How Incredibly Marvelous!

To Cosmic Pisces...

posted February 26, 2017 04:13 PM            

GOOD News on rm's sister condition...

If you didn't catch it, while I was writing above post RM received a phone call that his sister had been found at home, unresponsive.

It "happened" that a niece decided to try to phone/communicate with her. No response. The niece PURSUED the matter, and that's how they found rm's sister. She was taken to the hospital and placed in ICU, organs shutting down, still unresponsive.

She came out of her coma this morning!!! yay.

We heard the news around 11:30am here east coast time. (tMercury was exact conjunct rm's MC.)

She's responding to treatment. Had her grandniece NOT pursued trying to find her when she did, the doctors said she would have died within that hour. Her life was saved because the niece Cared.

We lit a candle yesterday, and held vigil for her.

posted February 27, 2017 03:52 PM            

quote:

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Originally posted by Randall:
I see good things in your very near future--long before then.

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I'm gonna GRAB that Promise, Randall-- in its entirety!

BTW, I see that the 'edit' button is missing now.

I saw the thread in LLC2.0 where you said you are working on the codes. That this was temporary.

GOOD! because I ~need that 'edit' button--

I know that V2T is unregistered now.
*sad*...
I'll miss her very much. She had a rare background of both mystical Christianity with Muslim. She was spiritual without being too religious. She added a lot to me at LL. Hard to find practicing 'truly spiritual' buddies! She walked her talk!

I saw she was frustrated and having a problem posting her messages... These were poofing, more and more, recently, and I think she might have thought that others had been doing that to her 'on purpose'? (I'm guessing.)

It wouldn't let her take 'pieces' of the messages, and respond to each point made, separately.

I've seen that happen in my own thread here before--

When I tried to quote my OWN post from earlier years, it wouldn't let me take only 'a piece' (while I would try to delete material I didn't want). Even IF I managed to crop materials?, at a later date, I'd see 'the whole quote' of my previous thread appear in entirety.... (instead of the piece).

To remedy that problem, I'd have to use copy paste (for the older materials) in order TO bring it to a new post.

If I wanted to protect that?, then I would put in fresh Quote-codes around my copy-paste.

With things that V2T had posted before (in YW, and Health&Healing), she had used spotify. I wonder if she might have tried to draft posts on Spotify, then extract and post some of her materials from there?

(I don't know-- I'm just brain storming?)

In the one post that kept messing up (in YW), I FOUND the hidden Spotify codes embedded in a few posts, and I fixed my own work by going into HER quote and removing the 'blind-invisible?' codes.

(I don't know if she read my explaining that to her? It was around Christmas? .. I could have deleted that message, if it's not there.)

I've noticed that I can spot some of those kinds of codes when I use the Quote button for making a new post; then I could back out of it after viewing.

Anyways.... *clapping* So!, I've got my volunteer job tomorrow. I can't spend too much more quality time (even though I might try to!! LOL).

Got my home chores to do! *grin* and it's "~vibey" here today, as usual for Mondays in the 'hood! ~ugh!!!

Souped up car sound systems! (and surround-sound game-systems), rattling my Inspirational world! LOL

Find the Joy ~~~~ Dance it!!

posted March 01, 2017 06:56 PM            

They bought a house! Soooo very lucky for them. Stepping UP. That family has other relatives (immediate) that rent here too. All the rents JUST went up, double the amount proportionately, to the last annual hike.

I wonder if the other apartments associated with that immediate family will suddenly go empty too, now? That would make sense for them ALL to save some money, by living and pitching-in with finances together.

More fun for them too because these ones liked their fiestas! LOL

The 'hood today is the quietest it's been in a LONG time, except for a few hours of repairs on the wall next unit off my computer... which is okay.

Right now... It's sooo quiet.
I Can Do This! *smile*
My head is still feeling thick swollen and numb (headaches), like the wad sitting on top of the skinny stem of Q-Tip type cotton-swab...

Oh. Serious News about Rm's sister....

They found she had breakaway clots go to her brain from an unknown source of bleeding in her body. She had a series of mini-strokes, AND a heart-attack, which all placed her into a coma.

One side of her body is paralyzed. Her one foot turned blue now. She's on dialysis, as her body organs were shutting down.

The person MOST in need of Prayers at this time is her daughter who had found her on the second day. I had mistaken that it was the grandniece, when that was actually her daughter.
*prayers for her*
*right-words be spoken and received by her, at right time*

They'll be looking for a longtermmedicaid type nursing place for rm's sister, until body finally gives up.

She's a Sun-Venus Virgo 13/14+, (with Mercury ahead in a wide conjunction). Has either a late Taurus to Gemini Moon. Was in her Taurus Ceres-Return AS the event happened.

They are a family of Virgos, and other earth element signs.

*

Tell the ones you Love, that you appreciate them, and honor their presence in your World.

So often, we just don't really know what Tomorrow brings us.

..

(music) Up Where We Belong (Joe Cocker, lyrics) [3:48] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KaZ3t_tQxZM

Have A Good Day!

I hope this post reads okay. Hope the EDIT button comes back soon to LL?
.. I will feel more loath to create substantial posts, until it's back.
Laughing, I might have to go back to long-hand snail-writing Inspiration on the paper?
.. Could cause excessive delays? ...

posted March 03, 2017 07:27 PM            

A few days ago they thought she only had 2 to 5 more days to live. They were going to put her in hospice. After they took her off the ventilator, she began to be more responsive. They will wait now to see what to do next.

Rm has made necessary arrangements to go and be with his rest of his family, incase of a funeral.

The family is VERY Irish... and St. Patrick's Day is March 17.

When his mom died, they buried ashes IN Ireland for her.