posted September 23, 2021 03:50 PM            

Tr. Mars on 12th, Retr. Mercury Ac. I had the most terrible headache for the last couple years. Likely it was in the end of the day when I finished all business. Also, I have a tire leakage. I tried to ask for the day-off, it didn’t work. What the difference it makes anyway if it’s probably my last weeks.
I guess Lilith/Uranus, I felt some energy sync with one guy, but I’m tired from these weird connections nowadays. He didn’t pay attention to me before and now when I’m not planning to come to his location anymore, he started to give me attention, but I don’t think it’s a known fact yet.
Before it was something more meaningful and greatly influencing. Nowadays, I feel the connection and these people are turning not good for me or something happens to make it hard to keep interaction quickly.
I started to think I have something like that it with my boss also… Tr. Juno/ Uranus. Maybe, that’s why people landscape is changing often nowadays. I wish it would stop.

posted September 26, 2021 08:57 PM            

Very clearly I feel in my gut a need to develop friendships that are real friendships with depth and real intimacy and a strong connection but non-romantic. I hanged out with my cappy friend today again and had a nice time at the mind body spirit expo.

Tr Northnode in the 5th

I feel the focus will be developing my private practice and working through issues with intimacy with husband, I also feel having some fun and giving my body an outlet to release stress/tension will be a focus (e.g. massages, gym, acupuncture).

I got myself a 20 minute massage at the expo and scheduled another massage for October 10th, I never get massages but I need to really start giving my body love. I will try out massages twice a month for a while and perhaps join the gym.

Pluto ruler of the 11th, Southnode enters the 11th:

I want to be able to talk about anything with someone and not feel they are going to over react to what I am saying by shutting down or exploding or judging me bc I am not matching their conditioned/programmed idea of what is "good" or "bad", is just a conversation and having authentic communication means I will say things you don't agree with or want to hear at times but is just a dialogue that can lead to deeper intimacy of you understanding more who I am and were I am coming from and vice versa instead of me or you hiding ourselves so I/you can continue fostering a fantasy of who we want each other to be.

Are we communicating so you can feel good about your views or so I can feel good about my views or are we communicating bc you are genuinely curious to know who I AM without holding expectations of how I should be or how I should think and vice versa? This is the problem with society, this is why real connection and intimacy are so hard now a days. We are not listening or seeking to understand, we just want to feel good about ourselves and be right and then everyone wonders why loneliness and feeling disconnected are such big issues in our society. There needs to be space for everyone's voice to be heard and for everyone to feel comfortable being themselves or true intimacy and connection will not flourish and disconnection and isolation will grow and flourish. Shaming others for thinking differently than you does not foster safety in communication and without communication there is no connection or intimacy.

I am also trying to figure out the role I play in all this and what I need to change and be more mindful around.

I think everyone has a message they carry inside themselves for the world and I think this may be mine.

posted September 29, 2021 11:26 AM            

To be honest, this (in my opinion) was long in coming. In that I had already started to feel the distance months back. And each time I tried to address the "disconnect", it always felt like I was upsetting the apple cart. And so I let him reach that conclusion all on his own.

Trans Ura in my 1st house and opp Ven/ Sat. Relationships(Ven) and career(Sat) right now cannot be counted upon.They are a little on the "unstable" side.

I can certainly confirm this with my career(Sat). I got a job that is highly inconveniencing travel-wise( trans Ura is inconjunct prog Moon exact). So i get up very early in the morning. Then come home very late at night. Very robotic existence for now ​ .

I feel like a relationship around this time will be built on the same premise i.e it'll feel like an inconvenient situation I can't avoid. Like getting into a relationship with someone I feel very "obligated" to.

It'll also be with someone very different from the people I have gravitated towards in the past. I feel like its the other person that will make the move towards me. And not the other way around.

Anyways, back to the current situation. On his end,the transits were more visceral:

*Trans Mars conj Moon-Lib
*Trans Mars opp Sun-Ari.
*Trans Sun conj natal Moon(new beginnings)
*Trans Mars opp Natal Venus
*Trans Mars is conj the Mc/opp Ic.
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So sometimes the transits are not about our chart. But also about how we are affected indirectly through our relationships with the charts of those we are close to.

On my end...

*Transit Venus conj Natal Ven(Ven return)
*Trans Mercu conj natal Dsc(as mentioned)- widely conjunct natal Mars.
*Trans Moon is widely conj natal Moon and widely opp natal Sun.

[Edited] I just realized that natal Mars and Venus were BOTH triggered. In that Venus rules the 7th and Mars the 1st. And so this was indicative of relationship stuff(7th) affecting me(1st).

posted September 29, 2021 11:50 AM            

Transit Gemini north node conjunct my natal Mercury (stationary retrograde). I joined a choir last week and I really like it. The average age exceeds mine by decades but it’s such a fun group. I do feel a bit out of my league so I’m starting singing lessons soon too. Really looking forward to it.

posted September 29, 2021 09:32 PM            

So sorry to hear but is also really nice to see you!

Interesting it happened during your Venus return but is crazy how much MARS was activated for him, makes me wonder if he will regret the decision since mars is sometimes impulsive and you add that uranus is involved it could be a temporary break.

posted September 29, 2021 10:36 PM            

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Originally posted by PlutoWasHere:
Mercury retrograde isn’t troubling me at all. I’m actually getting stuff done and making a lot of progress with my to do list. My Virgo Moon is very pleased. Transit Libra Mars conjunct my natal ASC must be helping me.

Transit Gemini north node conjunct my natal Mercury (stationary retrograde). I joined a choir last week and I really like it. The average age exceeds mine by decades but it’s such a fun group. I do feel a bit out of my league so I’m starting singing lessons soon too. Really looking forward to it.

Transit Aries Chiron is still close to my DSC and transit Sagittarius Juno is lingering near my natal Neptune. I’m letting go but it still hurts. I’ve buried a lot of my pain during our relationship and it’s burning to come out. Next week is going to be tough because it’s my first one alone with the kids. The week after, I will be all alone and probably is going to be even more difficult.

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posted October 01, 2021 12:06 AM            

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Originally posted by PlutoWasHere:
@Aries23Degrees
A big hug for you! Even if you could see it coming, the end of a relationship is never easy.

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posted October 01, 2021 12:24 AM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
@Aries23Degrees

So sorry to hear but is also really nice to see you!

Interesting it happened during your Venus return but is crazy how much MARS was activated for him, makes me wonder if he will regret the decision since mars is sometimes impulsive and you add that uranus is involved it could be a temporary break.

It also seems he ended things while Mercury was retrograde.

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Always a pleasure hypatia238 😁

He says he got "triggered" by something a close friend said that got him thinking.

He is Aries Sun/Libra Moon and so (unlike the typical Aries Sun) his Moon tends to dilute the more self-directed qualities when it comes to decision making. People tend to influence his thoughts.

Nevertheless,the split was amicable. It was likely this way since we both have Libra influence ( his Moon and my Mars). And when we spoke, he said he largely appreciated how "adult" we both are in handling the situation.

The irony ofcourse is that I feel like lingering sexual tension will always mark our attempt at "friendship". As i suspect the attraction might increase because we are "restricted" from doing anything with each other.🤣

#btw , i found an old email Mom she wrote to someone-talking about me. In the email she explicitly put my tob and it threw me a little bit of a curve ball.

According to that tob, Taurus is rising right at 6 degrees 💁🏿‍♂️. I don't know how to evaluate that given that she's always not been certain of the exact time when I enquired.But here she states it with certainty 🤔.

posted October 01, 2021 12:27 AM            

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Originally posted by GalacticCoreExplosionV2:
Aries23Degrees, sorry to hear about the break up. Hope you feel better soon.

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posted October 02, 2021 12:13 AM            

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Originally posted by Librapurr:
Aries23Degrees, sorry, I hope you overcome it soon, it might be a retrograde situation.

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posted October 02, 2021 12:20 AM            

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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
Always a pleasure hypatia238 😁

He says he got "triggered" by something a close friend said that got him thinking.

He is Aries Sun/Libra Moon and so (unlike the typical Aries Sun) his Moon tends to dilute the more self-directed qualities when it comes to decision making. People tend to influence his thoughts.

Nevertheless,the split was amicable. It was likely this way since we both have Libra influence ( his Moon and my Mars). And when we spoke, he said he largely appreciated how "adult" we both are in handling the situation.

The irony ofcourse is that I feel like lingering sexual tension will always mark our attempt at "friendship". As i suspect the attraction might increase because we are "restricted" from doing anything with each other.🤣

#btw , i found an old email Mom she wrote to someone-talking about me. In the email she explicitly put my tob and it threw me a little bit of a curve ball.

According to that tob, Taurus is rising right at 6 degrees 💁🏿‍♂️. I don't know how to evaluate that given that she's always not been certain of the exact time when I enquired.But here she states it with certainty 🤔.

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If you have Taurus rising then venus in Scorpio conjunct Saturn would rule your chart. If you have Aries rising then Mars in Libra would rule your chart.

Second house ruler for Taurus rising would be mercury in??? but for Aries rising it would be Venus in Scorpio conjunct Saturn.

Which one fits more when you consider the 2nd house rulers?

Taurus rising is stubborn and tends to have voluptuous lips and large head.

Aries risers have lots of energy and are always on the go but Mars in libra would tone that down perhaps.

posted October 03, 2021 01:34 AM            

Friend reaches out to invite me to her wedding next year.

Cappy friend reaches out

Aqua friend I haven't talked to in a few years reaches out today

posted October 03, 2021 09:10 AM            

So I have been talking to some people...who also agree that my condo place just giving me spray and not getting a real professional exterminator is unacceptable.

My husband and I talked to the man we are renting from that we need a professional to take care of this. He said he has to go through HOA board and that they are too busy, and that he can't get a company to come out.

posted October 03, 2021 12:36 PM            

"Maintaining your property well: If your cockroach problem is a pre-existing issue specific to the apartment or the apartment complex, then you should be able to break your lease. If the cockroach problem is caused by you, however, then you probably won't be able to break your lease."

posted October 03, 2021 02:18 PM            

When southnode was in my 12th, I was gaining a lot of insight specially around transgenerational patterns/issues, it widen more my perspective of my family system and ancestors, when northnode was in my 6th I was working super hard and making career changes.

Now with southnode in the 11th I have a lot of friends reaching out to me and I am reconnecting with a lot of friends and with northnode in the 5th the focus will be building up my own private practice but I am also working through my issues with love addiction that are left over, I feel transit uranus through my 5th has done wonders with this but now with nothnode there I feel it is targeting what ever traces are left of it, there is also a chance that during this transit I will get pregnant but I am not actively pursuing it.

posted October 03, 2021 03:18 PM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
If you have Taurus rising then venus in Scorpio conjunct Saturn would rule your chart. If you have Aries rising then Mars in Libra would rule your chart.

Second house ruler for Taurus rising would be mercury in??? but for Aries rising it would be Venus in Scorpio conjunct Saturn.

Which one fits more when you consider the 2nd house rulers?

Taurus rising is stubborn and tends to have voluptuous lips and large head.

Aries risers have lots of energy and are always on the go but Mars in libra would tone that down perhaps.

What are your thoughts on the potential of being a Taurus riser?

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I am ok with it. I am not favouring one over the other really. I just want to get to the truth.And thought i had.

I still think Aries is accurate. The Tau Asc one I have yet to follow. All uncertainties will be revealed (in time). I have no rush to settle this. Will just let events unfold and reveal what is likely.👌🏿