posted September 11, 2022 01:54 AM            

Going through some difficult times. The sun is hitting his spotlight on my SN, heritage stuff is coming up. I've learned somethings in my dream state.. I'm also adopting Vedic for my chart analysis on things like this.

posted September 11, 2022 04:41 AM            

We went out to get pizza, and ate a bit in the van, by the light of the dollar store sign. We were outside mum's office that she rented for a few years, before she started working out of a home office in 2002.

posted September 11, 2022 04:41 AM            

We went out to get pizza, and ate a bit in the van, by the light of the dollar store sign. We were outside mum's office that she rented for a few years, before she started working out of a home office in 2002.

posted September 11, 2022 08:31 PM            

yes sh*t hit the fan for scott with his dog who has lymphoma and this in turn has led to him shutting down and needing space, I feel this week has definitely challenged our relationship and we shall see how things evolve.

That being said I don't think that is the main influence of the full moon on my life, its definitely a part of it, it has disrupted my relationship forcing a certain pause and we may come back from it and continue or it could break us but mercury also rules my northnode and I am finding myself making some pretty big decisions today about my life's direction.

I will be eligible to get my Florida license through endorsement October 2023. I have decided that since I have separated from my ex that as much as I like Colorado the best thing for me is to move back to FL and be close to my family and support system. My parents are getting old and I really should try to take advantage of the time I have left with them. Also it would be beneficial for me to look for a new partner close to my support system. If Scott and I make it to then he can come with me to FL since he has expressed he would like to move back there but I am not feeling super confident that things will evolve like that with us at the moment but you never know.

This means I will most likely move back to Florida sometime in 2024 and is precisely that year when transit URANUS travelling through my 5th will square exact my venus which rules my 5th and MC and my mars which rules my IC in the 8th. This move will mean I will move my private practice to another state (5th house and 10th house stuff) and that I will probably purchase property in FL and move back to the state I grew up in (IC ruler stuff and 8th house stuff).

So yes in 2023 I will focus on preparing for those changes coming up in 2024.

posted September 13, 2022 04:20 AM            

Mars on IC is a good time to be emotionally vulnerable/transparent. One is braver(Mars) when it comes to facing deeper feelings (Ic). But it is also a time where one can be triggered into being defensive and combative.

Transit Nep in 12th is contra parallel to Trans Sun-6th. Extreme sensitivity to food or drink.Heightened potential for sickness or losing vitality energetically.

Transit True Node contra parallel Trans Sat in my 11th house . You are in no mood for small talk with friends.And may altogether avoid company. This unless the company wants to talk about more serious issues.🙏🏿

posted September 13, 2022 10:47 AM            

Transiting Moon in Tau today is contra parallel and opposing her natal Mercury/ Sat conjunction too.

Typically when trans Moon forms an oppositional aspect to our natal planets,we tend to self doubt. When Merc/Sat are involved (especially in her case) we may be very self-critical and severe in our self-analysis or self-appraisal. And this was no different. I had to let her know to ease up on herself.

Trans Sat is opposed and contra parallel natal Saturn. I actually think that this transit is helping her come across more self contained and controlled.

posted September 13, 2022 08:11 PM            

NN trine Neptune h8 (exact)
NN square NN (exact)
NN square SN (exact)

trine Neptune
"You can be a visionary and prosper through activities linked to Neptune. Spend more time in the arts, cinema, photography, or portrait painting. Design, decorating, and dance are other attractions. "
I saw a scary movie last night and that really triggered flashbacks and weird synchronizes and night visions.

posted September 16, 2022 03:04 AM            

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I completely forgot that my little sister has Asc in Gem. Mars was transiting her 1st house today by conjunction and parallel aspect. She was in a high pressure interview where she feels she didn't do well.

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posted September 16, 2022 04:50 AM            

Maybe Pluto transiting conjunct my 8H Moon, exacts early next year

I’ve been betrayed too many times to count in my life so far; would be happy if that chapter and the remittent memories closed behind me eventually. Heal a persecution complex. I find peace in solitude but I would like broader security and new experiences

A lot of my helpful, careful behavior is actually a coping mechanism from being highly sensitive.

Sometimes I don’t like having an 8H moon. For imagination’s sake, I’d prefer, to assume, take everything and anything for granted (if not just at face-value). I look around me and am in awe of how locked into this dimension, it’s māyā, people seem to be, sentimental and make-believe, a self driven by narratives. I’m happy for others in this regard, that meaning is tactile, injected into impressions that resonate secondhand (currency), images given a life of their own. On the other hand, I can’t help but derive a sense of life (joy) itself by sympathizing, *paying* attention, courtesy to relate-subconsciously, vicarious shoes (let’s dance). With 12 different houses, I know this m.o. isn’t in fact the case for many.

I think the thing that worries me the most are expectations (of relating), seeing these ghostly projections illuminating the path before others and knowing I’m not necessarily doing that, since I’m walking in the dark. Like a moth to the moon surrounded by artificial light.

I wrote down recently, “please don’t expect more from me than kindness—I don’t have anything else to offer”

natal Moon in 8H is considered a death state. I’m considerate about life/death/rebirth, not attachments. Suffering is not only a given, but an illusion. The bigger picture is how *perfectly* insignificant things can be.

posted September 16, 2022 09:29 AM            

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Originally posted by vansio:
Depending on the degree of her Gemini Asc, if it’s Taurus in sidereal (likely), having the 7L of business transiting in her whole-sign first house, this might actually be good omen for getting work (new contract), yet the Rx period might create a delay. Let us know how it goes. Though, Aries would then also rule the 12th. Any chance the interview is with an multi/international company? The co-lords of her sidereal Aquarius 10H are Saturn and Rahu, transiting the 9th and 12th house respectively.

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Thats interesting🤔. So in sidereal she is Taurus Asc and ruler of the 7th is Mars(Sco). So the transit of Mars in sidereal Taurus would be in her 1st house.

Mars also rules the 12th(Aries). Yes. And so there should be a connection with the 12th in some way. Maybe an international company? Maybe a connection with the ocean(12th)? Foreigners? Or water? I get that.

This was a government post. But get this. The department was called "Department of water and sanitation"🤷🏿‍♂️. For real. I don't make this stuff up. So maybe that's the Mars ruling the 12th and Rahu in 12th house connection?

In as far as it being an international company? No . So perhaps the sidereal 10th house in Aqua ruler Saturn in Cap 9th is indicative of something else?

My thinking is that the 9th house could be learning or acquiring knowledge? Because it is an internship. And with Saturn there, she is going to be trained by government(Sat). Maybe someone who is an elder or someone in authority?

posted September 16, 2022 12:22 PM            

Feeling at cross purposes. Feeling trapped. Being give a choice to stay with the old or move towards the new. Intense frustration. Denial. Being pulled in different directions. At a crossroads. Unfinished business. Driving ‘hunger’ for something but perhaps not knowing what will satiate the feeling. Clues."

posted September 19, 2022 09:55 AM            

It's getting ridiculous how long it's taken to get my wedding album. My wedding album is finished. He ask's when I can pick it up. I give him some dates. He doesn't reply.

But then he sends me an email from a different address asking me to give him a good review.

I've been communicating with the photographer since April. I thought that was plenty of time to have it done by anniversary. (June 25th) Okay how about husband's Birthday. (Aug 5)

I really like the photographer, but this is getting beyond ridiculous.

posted September 19, 2022 10:24 AM            

I'm feeling very British today, so I'm making the two different scone mixes I've had in the cupboard, because I'm starving. I also have some potatoes in the air fryer, that were started first.

posted September 19, 2022 01:43 PM            

This weekend I got some perspective and am feeling more chill now. Relationships are hard, dating is hard, this is the human experience and I just became single truly like 4 months ago so I need to just chill and take it easy. There is no need to attach a sense of urgency to our love life, love is fragile, we need to chill. I think I am connecting to that fall energy in a way.

Tr VENUS conjunct exact my DC ruler Mercury in virgo in the 9th yesterday and today- getting perspective.

posted September 19, 2022 08:32 PM            

Please don't tease me with a good time!

posted September 19, 2022 08:46 PM            

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I've spent more time at the ADHD sub, but it also makes me cry at times. The other day, I was crying a lot. I've just someone say something I can relate to, again: "The crushing feeling of constantly disappointing everyone I care about, including myself."

When I'm actually feeling more together, more organized, I kick myself for not being this way all the time, and that starts a spiral that doesn't get me anywhere good.

I can't remember where I saw a comment that told people to walk into every social situation, thinking that people really like you. That you will be more relaxed and open that way. I rarely feel that way, even around people who have never shown me that they hate me. I've reached the point where I assume people will dislike me eventually, if they don't at the moment, so what's the point? I don't always care, it was just something that came to mind.

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