posted November 29, 2022 01:59 PM            

I have mars 11th afflicted and I feel like I cannot fit in any group or society generally. Sometimes, I find it liberating. Sometimes, being a black sheep is too hard for my Libra.
Life is generally a chain of rejections and falls. Every time you do or say something you can run into it. And it gets worse every year.

Before there were 3 popular reasons for rejection and discrimination : race, gender and maybe an appearance. Now it’s politics, healthcare and many subcategories. Insane, how some people so serious about them.

I was taking for work with a woman and we got into astrology somehow. It turned out she had a sister who was esoteric and astrologist who she hated.
First, when she started to talk about her sister I thought it was gonna be in my favor and it turned to be the opposite... (It was a while ago, but still an impressive example how things work out for me).

About dating, I didn’t approach anyone myself. But I think it’s not an actual issue. Because I see people might not match on many different levels. You like each other appearance, but you cannot get on the same page with anything and mostly awkward silence. ( for me the last one would be a deal breaker).

About sport, I think it’s a manifestation of American dream. A guy from poor background could get a lifetime opportunity of wealth and fame, but sacrificing health that what stays on background. Probably, peer pressure is a big factor to keep going as many getting one injury after another. (a negative side of brotherhood).

T. Brady is a freakish machine and super soldier. He got all money in the world already. But he can’t stop before he gets health problems. He is like soldier what so used to “on and ready mode” so he cannot come back from a war to normal life. I heard Gisele had enough and filled for divorce.

posted November 30, 2022 05:56 PM            

So my mood is no-nonsense, direct, what's-the-need-get-it-done. My energy has been almost relentless for a week now. I took it easy for a couple days as the stiffness and stagnation was still being cleared out, but for three days now I've been cleaning house, re-ordering and re-organizing to make things less moisture/mold prone during this wet autumn. Cleaning is not one of my favorite activities in spite the fact I can do it pretty well.

I am really glad to have this Mar-Rx transits square natal Pluto/Asc. It has helped me a lot. I also look forward to the other Rx transits and Direct ones it will be making (MC, natal Mars). It will come back to the square with natal Pluto in March, not long before spring begins. So these hard Mars transits are going to give me a lift all through winter.

I have found that anxiety/uncertainty is lessened when you simply find the course of action to be taken and just get to it. I'd rather sit quietly and focus, read, etc. But this is what must happen in my life now and I'm embracing it.

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posted December 01, 2022 11:07 AM            

Are you still divorcing your husband?
I have some questions for you, well-intentioned but I am unsure if I should ask here or open a new thread.

posted December 02, 2022 02:28 AM            

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Originally posted by Librapurr:
@Aries23, I mean not only dating, but general life experience. Many times when you want to get something you need to overcome a rejection.
I couldn’t tap into my Jupiter with Scorpio transits, they really dragged me to Pluto. Small things started to trigger and I was dwelling on past negative experiences. Somebody blocked me out of the blue while I thought we were having somewhat interesting conversation. I didn’t know that person anyway why I cared?

I have mars 11th afflicted and I feel like I cannot fit in any group or society generally. Sometimes, I find it liberating. Sometimes, being a black sheep is too hard for my Libra.
Life is generally a chain of rejections and falls. Every time you do or say something you can run into it. And it gets worse every year.

Before there were 3 popular reasons for rejection and discrimination : race, gender and maybe an appearance. Now it’s politics, healthcare and many subcategories. Insane, how some people so serious about them.

I was taking for work with a woman and we got into astrology somehow. It turned out she had a sister who was esoteric and astrologist who she hated.
First, when she started to talk about her sister I thought it was gonna be in my favor and it turned to be the opposite... (It was a while ago, but still an impressive example how things work out for me).

About dating, I didn’t approach anyone myself. But I think it’s not an actual issue. Because I see people might not match on many different levels. You like each other appearance, but you cannot get on the same page with anything and mostly awkward silence. ( for me the last one would be a deal breaker).

About sport, I think it’s a manifestation of American dream. A guy from poor background could get a lifetime opportunity of wealth and fame, but sacrificing health that what stays on background. Probably, peer pressure is a big factor to keep going as many getting one injury after another. (a negative side of brotherhood).

T. Brady is a freakish machine and super soldier. He got all money in the world already. But he can’t stop before he gets health problems. He is like soldier what so used to “on and ready mode” so he cannot come back from a war to normal life. I heard Gisele had enough and filled for divorce.

For me, hockey is between soccer and ice skating. Maybe, because I did the last one I didn’t find it as violent as football where the whole game about bumping and pushing each other as I see it.

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I hear you👌🏿

I am seeing that blocking "out of the blue" incident as a Mars in 11th outcome (especially when afflicted). People you are in groups with can suddenly go rogue on you because perhaps they consider you too aggressive? Or "hot to handle"?

I realize that we are not the experiencers of our Mars. It translates very differently to others than what we think. More aggressive (I think). This even when in neutral signs Libra or Tau-especially when a contentious topic rises.

I met a dude whom I thought was insanely hot. But because I know I experience feelings of lust first before like. I have learned to practice restraint and get to know somebody 1st.

posted December 04, 2022 01:26 AM            

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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
Trans Merc is opp AND contra parallel Mars. Both are contra-parallel and parallel my natal Moon respectively. And transit Sun is parallel natal Uranus. Also transit Mercury conj natal Jupiter.

I expect my mind and feelings to be all over the place today. There is a lot of restless energy in orbit ☝🏿

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I sprained my arm cutting weeds. I must have been too vigorous because I am definitely feeling the pain now. Moon was parallel my Asc yesterday.

There is also a rather pushy Sag who is vying for my attention. He is November born.

It surprised me because i have rarely seen this amount of focused reserve with Sag. But he does have Plu/Sun conj and Mars/Pluto in contra-parallel aspect. So🤷🏿‍♂️.

What's more is that Mars is parallel my Asc. He is very much "in my face". And Plu parallel Dsc(which I think will only take effect after we've known each other longer). But I can already feel how overpowering he is.

Would the Sun's conjunction with Pluto(by its extension of its parallel aspect to the Dsc)have the effect of Sun being in 7th & 9th(Sag) simultaneously? I haven't got the answer to that.

Moon is opp and contra parallel my Ven/Sat. So there is an aversion to him (add to the Plu opposition). But what I find surprising is the Sun/Nep/Ura parallel aspect. Like what?

Typically I can tell both apart. But when together like that, it can suggest someone highly unusual. Not the type to keep to schedules and full of surprises.

posted December 04, 2022 03:18 AM            

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Originally posted by chocogold:
@stawr

Are you still divorcing your husband?
I have some questions for you, well-intentioned but I am unsure if I should ask here or open a new thread.

Thank you.

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posted December 04, 2022 03:53 AM            

Being so down on my health with all these open wounds and being retraumatized by my childhood in present day really had me regress into a child and it showed.

But I got younger guesses on my age that I haven't gotten in a while like "I thought you were 22" "you look really young for your age. " "I thought you were a teenager"

I went to a party in the summer and a millennial/zoomer cusp guy there guessed I was 29 and I wanted to cry. I usually get more mid/late 20 guesses. LOL I need to get over myself.

The ex ray guy was like wow you're almost my age. And asked if I like looking young for my age or wish I looked older.
I answered like "Well society puts value on women for looking young, but then not being talked to like an adult is really annoying."

But then I also think how people carry themselves plays a lot into this too. I think I was talking in a more high pitched voice at the hospital too. As like some form of survival. Because I was alone, fragile, and sensitive AF to everything going on around me. So most people be more receptive to me asking for things done kindly.

posted December 04, 2022 04:06 AM            

Woah, he sounds like Gaston from Beauty and the Beast!

That would freak me out, wishing you protection!

Heavy/strong fire people can make me feel hunted down sometimes, and invaded.

posted December 04, 2022 12:49 PM            

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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
I hear you👌🏿

I am seeing that blocking "out of the blue" incident as a Mars in 11th outcome (especially when afflicted). People you are in groups with can suddenly go rogue on you because perhaps they consider you too aggressive? Or "hot to handle"?

I realize that we are not the experiencers of our Mars. It translates very differently to others than what we think. More aggressive (I think). This even when in neutral signs Libra or Tau-especially when a contentious topic rises.

I met a dude whom I thought was insanely hot. But because I know I experience feelings of lust first before like. I have learned to practice restraint and get to know somebody 1st.

After spending time with them, I realized it's only lust. There is no like.So it cooled a lot more. I think that's how I avoid sleeping with everyone. Abd avoid the awkward remorse feelings "the day after".

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I would think you shouldn’t be acting on lust and emotions quickly before giving it some time and thoughts with mars in Libra? Unless, you Scorpio placements overpower it.
It’s often sad to see that there’s nothing behind lust and phantasies. Unless, it’s relief.

When I met somebody I liked I had Neptune to blow fog around a situation so I always needed to wait to see what’ was going on. And often Uranus kept throwing some thing to make situations more and more complicated or to be disappeared In nowhere.

posted December 04, 2022 01:18 PM            

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Originally posted by Stawr:

Being so down on my health with all these open wounds and being retraumatized by my childhood in present day really had me regress into a child and it showed.

But I got younger guesses on my age that I haven't gotten in a while like "I thought you were 22" "you look really young for your age. " "I thought you were a teenager"

I went to a party in the summer and a millennial/zoomer cusp guy there guessed I was 29 and I wanted to cry. I usually get more mid/late 20 guesses. LOL I need to get over myself.

The ex ray guy was like wow you're almost my age. And asked if I like looking young for my age or wish I looked older.
I answered like "Well society puts value on women for looking young, but then not being talked to like an adult is really annoying."

But then I also think how people carry themselves plays a lot into this too. I think I was talking in a more high pitched voice at the hospital too. As like some form of survival. Because I was alone, fragile, and sensitive AF to everything going on around me. So most people be more receptive to me asking for things done kindly.

I asked for a lot of popsicles there to self soothe me. I usually have pretty good gag reflexes, but I was having the pill nurse mash up my pills in my applesauce, after getting off the IV.

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I like that Millennial joke: as a Millennial I cannot be identified by my age in the passport.
I add: anyway, why should I if it’s not court lol

Shortly after my Saturn return, I heard at work people were taking about me that “why does she look like a little girl? Maybe, because she dresses up like that.” I’ve never dressed up too girly, more neutral so that was BS.
I don’t think I look like that anymore, but it’s still nice to have days when somebody thinks I’m before Saturn return.

posted December 04, 2022 03:13 PM            

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Originally posted by Librapurr:
I like that Millennial joke: as a Millennial I cannot be identified by my age in the passport.
I add: anyway, why should I if it’s not court lol

Shortly after my Saturn return, I heard at work people were taking about me that “why does she look like a little girl? Maybe, because she dresses up like that.” I’ve never dressed up too girly, more neutral so that was BS.
I don’t think I look like that anymore, but it’s still nice to have days when somebody thinks I’m before Saturn return.

I hope you get better. People often cannot support something they don’t have an experience with.

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Ugh that makes me sick that your coworkers talk about you like that. What does that even mean!? I am pretty sure you are not shopping in the kids department, and if you are following the dress code rules. wtf.

I really think other people are so into trying to dress like everyone else, to the point where it stresses them out. So if anyone has the bawls to not care, dress mildly different brings out the neanderthal in them.

I think it's also like internalized sexism too. Like women will get mad at women for "dressing younger" whatever that means. Women will want to prove that they are not dressing for men, but will tear other women down to prove a point that they are not dressing for men.

Like do people really think that makes them look good???????

posted December 04, 2022 03:19 PM            

Still very much dealing with these themes though with my Aquarius Mars, Gemini Mars rx in 1st house and my 6th house stellilum being probed back and forth by Saturn and Uranus.

posted December 04, 2022 11:34 PM            

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Originally posted by Stawr:
As long as the questions protect my personal identity, I say "shoot!" (That's the Mars retrograde transiting my first house talking. lol)

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First, I want to start by saying that I mean no offense.
I am mostly a lurker but I have noticed your posts here and there. When I read that you mentioned divorce to your husband, I was not shocked because for the longest time, I rarely read positive posts about your marriage and this goes back to 2021. So again, it was not surprising but sad nonetheless.

Now, my understanding is that you are going through some Uranus and Saturn transits?
Is your husband going through some transits as well?

Personally, my boyfriend and I are getting to that point of engagement and talking about marriage, where we would buy a house, school districts, etc. Both my boyfriend and I are going through Uranus transits. In his case, Uranus is transiting his 7th house and squaring his venus. In my case, Uranus is going through my first house and conjuncting my moon.

These transits have been challenging for both of us. It has been a zig-zag adventure.

Astrology aside, as I am intuiting that it will happen, I am also becoming scared of married life. I fear I will no longer be seen as accomplished—that I would become a shadow of my husband, as well as fearing that I will not be able to accomplish much. For whatever reason, I feel as if I am running out of time and that marriage will remove my identity, my own persona. I wonder if this means I am not ready to get married yet.


I am curious. Were your marriage issues present before you got married? How much do you think the transits had to do with the marriage issues vs. your own personality (as in, an inner reflection you realized after marriage)?
Did you marry for love or primarily for convenience/the sake of being married/ money/security?

Regardless, these are just a mix of rambles. Honestly, this is probably my way of asking what advice you have, if any.

posted December 05, 2022 02:26 PM            

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Originally posted by chocogold:
First, I want to start by saying that I mean no offense.
I am mostly a lurker but I have noticed your posts here and there. When I read that you mentioned divorce to your husband, I was not shocked because for the longest time, I rarely read positive posts about your marriage and this goes back to 2021. So again, it was not surprising but sad nonetheless.

Now, my understanding is that you are going through some Uranus and Saturn transits?
Is your husband going through some transits as well?

Personally, my boyfriend and I are getting to that point of engagement and talking about marriage, where we would buy a house, school districts, etc. Both my boyfriend and I are going through Uranus transits. In his case, Uranus is transiting his 7th house and squaring his venus. In my case, Uranus is going through my first house and conjuncting my moon.

These transits have been challenging for both of us. It has been a zig-zag adventure.

Astrology aside, as I am intuiting that it will happen, I am also becoming scared of married life. I fear I will no longer be seen as accomplished—that I would become a shadow of my husband, as well as fearing that I will not be able to accomplish much. For whatever reason, I feel as if I am running out of time and that marriage will remove my identity, my own persona. I wonder if this means I am not ready to get married yet.


I am curious. Were your marriage issues present before you got married? How much do you think the transits had to do with the marriage issues vs. your own personality (as in, an inner reflection you realized after marriage)?
Did you marry for love or primarily for convenience/the sake of being married/ money/security?

Regardless, these are just a mix of rambles. Honestly, this is probably my way of asking what advice you have, if any.

Thank you.

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No offense taken at all!

Holy yes I am. Also Uranus and Aquarius are very active in my natal chart.

Saturn Aquarius transit 10th house is
sextile my Sun
conjunct Mars
square moon
square pluto
square lilith
conjunct MC
oppose IC

Uranus Taurus transiting my 12th house
Uranus trine Neptune
Uranus square NN
Uranus square SN
Uranus conjunct Mercury
Uranus square MC
Uranus square IC
Uranus oppose Moon
Uranus oppose Pluto
Uranus oppose Lilith

Yes he is, I don't want to look at his chart right now. He has a Virgo stellilum so Saturn in Pisces is going to give him a lot of inner work. If he does it, it will reward his Capricorn stellilum.

I did pay attention that Saturn is opposing his Jupiter right now. That's all I want to get into right now.

posted December 05, 2022 02:57 PM            

Strong couples can get though anything. I use to be impressed with the Saturn survival transits. I feel like Saturn points out anything that is not stable. While a Uranus transit will want more freedom/space/liberation etc.

I think what is very important during Uranus transits is not to make your partner feel oppressed. But also make sure you are putting up with things you want to put up with.

I really thought I could work so hard on our marriage that we would even make it to the Uranus square Venus transit. We would have it at the same exact time, because of our polar opposite Venus signs in the same degree.

I feel like "bad" Uranus transits for people in stable/right relationships can be, this person really needs to get a phase out of their system. But hopefully support and understanding can be found.

That sounds super interesting about your Uranus transits. I haven't experienced any of those yet.

posted December 06, 2022 12:40 AM            

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Originally posted by Stawr:
@Aries23Degrees

Woah, he sounds like Gaston from Beauty and the Beast!

That would freak me out, wishing you protection!

Heavy/strong fire people can make me feel hunted down sometimes, and invaded.

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Lol. Too true. Mars is in the 7th ,so its very often that i feel "hunted down" by people pursuing me. This one is especially heavy going though...🙆🏿‍♂️