posted December 07, 2021 11:26 PM            

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Originally posted by Stawr:
My husband has me feeling so fed up, I told him I don't want to talk to him for a few days...I just can't take another day of being let down or him saying the wrong thing.

Venus conjunct Saturn
Mars Sextile Saturn
Neptune Sextile Moon

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posted December 11, 2021 04:25 PM            

I don't know but I feel moody today and no I am not PMSing.

IDK I should meditate, then have some chili and hot cider and I think that will help me feel more grounded.

I feel that sometimes when too many transits activate your chart at once you feel a bit unsettled or un-grounded..I will keep observing to see if that is a pattern. Maybe hold some of my crystals, water some plants and sage the place a little too, listen to music.

Anybody else notice this?

posted December 11, 2021 09:40 PM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
Hugs girl, man! we love them and they at times really don't deserve us and we want to strangle them. You guys will work through it but sounds good you told him that, sends a clear message which you gotta do at times.

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posted December 11, 2021 10:06 PM            

N. node square Venus
Venus Pluto square Sun and my conjunct Saturn

Of course Venus has conjunct my Saturn before, but Pluto here too... it feels like a new low in my life. (plus moon passing by one of the days)

Venus and Pluto hitting my chart transiting my 9th house has me feeling like my view of the world, my ideas and beliefs have been impacted.

Just the realization that good things do not happen to people just for doing the right thing or being nice...to the point where I think it's harmful to tell that to people.

While I would not stop someone from believing that or preaching that, but if I had kids I do not think I can teach them that after everything I've been through. Not saying I wont let them believe in Santa and such.

I feel like it's healthier to tell someone that you could do everything right and have everything go wrong.

posted December 12, 2021 12:23 PM            

I feel like life has given me more than I can handle, and can't cope right. I had a lot of crap thrown at me last year too. I've been busting my ass for so long, solving my problems for so long...just to get constantly shat on.

I am shutting down so much. Nothing I do seems to stick or work for me. I feel like I can't move.

I can't wait anymore for things to get better. I have not been okay for such a long time.

I want to be invisible.

This is worse than a Saturn return. Being on the other side knowing I can put so much time effort into something...just for none of it to work out.

I hope I can get it all out of my system today...and get though another week.

Another thing not going right can set me off so much right now. And feeling like I can't deal with anything.

While I've been staying at my parents house the longest I've ever been alone is 15-30 minutes, I swear to God.

Since last night I just can't fake being remotely okay right now.

Instead of being productive....I'm just staying in my room...experiencing what's on the other side of being loyal to jobs, an associates degree, a bachelors degree, a marriage, having more time to clean, exercise, yoga, run, water plants....and having so much go wrong to the point of having absolutely nothing to show for it constantly.

I been dealing with it for so long...I feel like all I can do is cry.

If things will get better someday, I just feel like it's too late.

I'm trying not to numb my pain anymore...but then I just cry.

I just want to matter or be alone. I feel so damaged and broken. And not having space to emotionally process. Constantly overwhelmed and overstimulated from BS.

I am trying not to drink and smoke ciggs so much. I might try smoking a bowl. I don't typically do it during the day...but I do not know what else to do in attempt to be able to function today.

Some of my transits include
Moon square Uranus and Neptune
Moon square Jupiter
Venus/Pluto square Sun
Venus/Pluto conjunct Saturn
Saturn square Mercury
Saturn conjunct N. Node
Uranus conjunct Mercury
Uranus square N. node
Chiron rx square Jupiter
N. Node square Venus
True Lilith transiting 12th house

PS I stopped crying after smoking a bowl

I'm going to have to read transit interpretations later.

posted December 12, 2021 12:44 PM            

yep I don't wanna leave my room...and giving my job more attention makes me want to cry.

posted December 12, 2021 06:51 PM            

My grandfather passed away Dec 25 2013 but I was dealing with a huge crisis at that time were I lost everything and had to move back to Florida, I adore my grandfather but is like I did not grief at that time bc I was in survival mode/crisis mode, there was so much going on, I remember grieving years later when his apartment was sold to a family friend bc that final piece of him and my grandmother had to be let go.

In trauma they say the body remembers and I think with grieve it can be that way too, I had put it on hold bc I was dealing with a major upheaval as it was (I actually gained 15 pounds for the first time in my life without realizing it that year) and then with covid going on still last Dec and not been able to see my parents it brought that unprocessed grief to the surface but I feel I am feeling it again this year but instead of feeling super vulnerable and like this big emotional crisis I just feel numb this year.

posted December 12, 2021 07:29 PM            

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Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
I also met someone last night and he asked me when is my birthday, but didn't mention anything about signs. I didn't ask about his, I have never asked anyone, how do you do it? Do you ask straight away "What is your sign" or "When is your birthday?". And then what? "What time were you born? Are you sure about the time?"

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posted December 12, 2021 07:34 PM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
Last December of 2020 I got depressed for like 3 weeks, I remember thinking I feel like I am grieving the loss of someone but my parents are still alive. It was pretty intense. Now is December 2021 and I find myself feeling down again, not at the same level of intensity as last Dec but still it got me thinking....What is going on?

My grandfather passed away Dec 25 2013 but I was dealing with a huge crisis at that time were I lost everything and had to move back to Florida, I adore my grandfather but is like I did not grief at that time bc I was in survival mode/crisis mode, there was so much going on, I remember grieving years later when his apartment was sold to a family friend bc that final piece of him and my grandmother had to be let go.

In trauma they say the body remembers and I think with grieve it can be that way too, I had put it on hold bc I was dealing with a major upheaval as it was (I actually gained 15 pounds for the first time in my life without realizing it that year) and then with covid going on still last Dec and not been able to see my parents it brought that unprocessed grief to the surface but I feel I am feeling it again this year but instead of feeling super vulnerable and like this big emotional crisis I just feel numb this year.

I think December is a sensitive month for me. I now get it when people lose a loved one close to an important date how it impacts those times, its a common thing but hard to really understand until it happens to you. Finally putting all these pieces together is helpful, I think it will help me deal with it, I am just going to accept it and let it pass. Its so helpful too to be able to journal here about things we are dealing with.

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My mum used to grieve the days around the anniversaries of losing her parents. She lost one sister on her last birthday. :/

For me, it's that mum isn't around anymore, neither is my sister, and we're far away from the family that I grew up with. Friends, too. Even with my continuing to avoid anything like gatherings, crowds, movie theatres, etc, I miss the communities where something would have been worked out,

My dad admitted that yesterday, he was feeling really down. We were both exhausted, but he was depressed, too (I finally remembered to take my SAM-e). I wish that I could get some money coming in, and give him a break.

posted December 13, 2021 11:46 AM            

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Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
I also met someone last night and he asked me when is my birthday, but didn't mention anything about signs. I didn't ask about his, I have never asked anyone, how do you do it? Do you ask straight away "What is your sign" or "When is your birthday?". And then what? "What time were you born? Are you sure about the time?"

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posted December 13, 2021 12:07 PM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
I can't remember how I asked the Taurus I've mentioned here. I brought up something about charts, and he gave me his birth time, but I don't know if it was his real one. He could have been testing me, but he didn't say anything that made it seem that way.

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posted December 13, 2021 12:10 PM            

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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
I just cut right to it. Lol

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posted December 13, 2021 06:21 PM            

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Originally posted by Eternal Energy:

Why would he give a false time? I don't think so... And after that, did you see in his chart the man you know?...

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It was very close to my sister's birth time, from what I remember. It just seemed like he could have thrown it out there. I'd told him the birth time, after finding out that my sister's time had been off by about an hour, for years. We thought she was an Aries ascendant.

posted December 13, 2021 06:21 PM            

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Originally posted by Aries Eagle:
Chiron and Pluto is throwing Cardinal sh#t at Aries.. I know, hang in there folks just do what is necessary atm and things will work in our favor very soon.. Trust me we are the winners.

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posted December 13, 2021 07:39 PM            

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Originally posted by Aries Eagle:
Chiron and Pluto is throwing Cardinal sh#t at Aries.. I know, hang in there folks just do what is necessary atm and things will work in our favor very soon.. Trust me we are the winners.

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posted December 14, 2021 03:03 AM            

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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
I just cut right to it. Lol

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lol same. if I want to know, I just ask. you’d be surprised, most people pep up if you ask what their birthday is… as if you’ll give them a present someday anything that resembles special attention *

about birthtimes, it’s safe to assume it’s wrong, unless the person insists, likely tell you how/where they know

lol i write down all birthdays… “oh youre going to your dad’s 60th birthday party on Nov 17….” *inserts X father into astro.com*

*the exception. I asked a lover what his parents birthdays were and he straight up told me he doesn’t remember. funniest lie ever—I must of been grinning. So with that said, you learn to ask indirect questions, like conversation starters, complain or show off your ID photo ~ whatever

posted December 14, 2021 10:22 AM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
Last December of 2020 I got depressed for like 3 weeks, I remember thinking I feel like I am grieving the loss of someone but my parents are still alive. It was pretty intense. Now is December 2021 and I find myself feeling down again, not at the same level of intensity as last Dec but still it got me thinking....What is going on?

My grandfather passed away Dec 25 2013 but I was dealing with a huge crisis at that time were I lost everything and had to move back to Florida, I adore my grandfather but is like I did not grief at that time bc I was in survival mode/crisis mode, there was so much going on, I remember grieving years later when his apartment was sold to a family friend bc that final piece of him and my grandmother had to be let go.

In trauma they say the body remembers and I think with grieve it can be that way too, I had put it on hold bc I was dealing with a major upheaval as it was (I actually gained 15 pounds for the first time in my life without realizing it that year) and then with covid going on still last Dec and not been able to see my parents it brought that unprocessed grief to the surface but I feel I am feeling it again this year but instead of feeling super vulnerable and like this big emotional crisis I just feel numb this year.

I think December is a sensitive month for me. I now get it when people lose a loved one close to an important date how it impacts those times, its a common thing but hard to really understand until it happens to you. Finally putting all these pieces together is helpful, I think it will help me deal with it, I am just going to accept it and let it pass. Its so helpful too to be able to journal here about things we are dealing with.

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I can totally empathize. And it s helpful to put it all down here too

I think last year December was the "great conjunction" year when Jupiter/Sat were in Aqua 0-2 Degrees. It was around my birthday (Dec 21) when they were at 0 degrees. I remember it well. Because never have I ever felt such intense ranges of emotions in my life(at such a short space of time).

But upon reflection I realize that it may not have been these two. They just served as the reference point but not the catalyst.

Prior to that month, my home was burgled into(Nov 5th).This was when trans Mars at 15 Deg Aries was square my Moon/Ic and conj my Asc.

A week later, the geyser leaked and soiled the roof. Again Mars was at 15 Degrees(retro) Aries squaring my Moon/Ic.

I was hot, temperamental, feeling insecure, combative, crying, touchy, emotional etc. The list goes on.

When my birthday hit(Dec 21) I was not free from Mars. It was still transiting my 1st house and tightly square then trans Pluto in Cap. Extreme emotions, extremes in anger. And there was definitely a burst of that with relatives.

I felt like I could either just jump out of my body OR do something unheard of/ impossible by populating a small island with babies through multiple men It was ridiculously intense.

There was strong palpable sexual energy mixed with rage. All the elements of Mars and my body temp was hot , hot , hot. I thought I was going to pass out because of it.

I think if I had been in a car , that would have been the time I got into a hectic accident. Because there was so much charge around me that I just couldn't "release" nor escape from.

When that subsided, things returned to normal. I wasn't "out of sorts" anymore. I went back to feeling like myself again.

As a result, I don't enjoy Mars transits. They feel very extreme. And oppose my Mars in Libra(squaring my Merc and Moon). It just feels too intense. I can't deal.

Transit Mars is nearing my natal Uranus by conjunction. I am a little nervous about that because Mars + Uranus is "sporadic anger"". Or sudden outbursts. Gosh I hope it isn't all too bad. But perhaps its good that I am blowing off some steam? Good for the overall body I think. I just feel sorry for the people around me that will be bearing the brunt of it

posted December 14, 2021 10:24 AM            

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Originally posted by Eternal Energy:

You must be bold! That is soooo good!

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posted December 14, 2021 11:05 AM            

So, what do you think UPS drivers, Amazon workers, etc, might like in little baggies left outside? The mail person - I’m going to leave something for them. I have ingredients for rugelach (two different kinds), sugar cookies, oatmeal chocolate chip (which I’m not keen on - I prefer raisins). Thumbprint cookies. Pumpkin bread. Banana bread. I’m just in a mood to bake, and we won’t be able to eat it all.

My sister used to make a few things. Rugelach, and these half-moon shaped cookies that were soft. I need to get more of a holiday spirit - I was more in the mood, before thanksgiving.

Oh, Taurus moon in my 7th.

posted December 14, 2021 03:16 PM            

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Originally posted by SimplyLuna:
🤣 It's causing so much pain lololol

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