posted April 11, 2022 07:20 AM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
...I remember being a really enthusiastic newbie. I miss that time...

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posted April 11, 2022 07:59 AM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
Sign bashing always bothers me. I don’t know why the feminine-masculine posts didn’t bother me so much. Maybe I just got used to hearing the “you just be jealous” when my prettier sister was getting married, and I didn’t want to be around her douche bag SO.

I not only envy people who really seem to have found a perfect match, but their families love each other, too.

I remember being a really enthusiastic newbie. I miss that time.

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I took some time out and came back. Sometimes you need a break to fully appreciate this platform. That's why it irks me that at times posts like " what sign would make a person buy an iphone?" appear. Or "Are there transits that can be responsible for excessive flatulence?" Etc.

But these are better than the whole "who is the most feminine/masculine?" Etc. 🤦🏿‍♂️ Because these are more about aesthetics ans competitions about whom is the most "beautiful". And little to do with astrological exploration.

posted April 11, 2022 12:56 PM            

All of the talk of a coming civil war, in the form of memes. Another one mentioned collected bullets, when the rest of us were collecting toilet paper. Then the denial over January 6th being anything to worry about. The planned kidnapping of a governor, and mine as well, with executions planned. Absolutely insane. Those guys (re: Whitmer) were just acquitted.

Mercury opposed my Uranus/ascendant. On another forum, democrats are dehumanized all the time. It’s really something. I’d forgotten that I was a member of a site, visited recently, and the entire political forum is… unexplainable. Unless you look at the thread about Aquarians here, abs that’s what it’s like. Every thread.

posted April 11, 2022 02:58 PM            

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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
…Or "Are there transits that can be responsible for excessive flatulence?" Etc…

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Now that’s a topic I actually would be interested in. I suspect Jupiter to be involved. The planet of expansion and a gassy giant. And perhaps Uranus, the planet of unexpected events and shocking experiences. Maybe a mutable sign? Sagittarius? Fiery and unapologetic. Or Pisces? Watery and without boundaries.

posted April 12, 2022 01:33 AM            

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Ceres closely conjoining Chiron, both opposing Brown’s Midheaven at less than a degree, continues these themes, and to my mind is the most striking in her chart. Chiron is the cosmic body associated with the feelings of shame and isolation Brown has written about with such honesty and sensitivity—often, Chiron in the chart indicates our deepest wounds, which (with work) can become where we are most gifted at helping others. With nurturing Ceres on wounded Chiron, Brown is a natural when it comes to supporting these deep forms of healing, particularly those related to the innermost self, family, heritage, and cultural norms. This conjunction speaks strongly about the most ground-breaking aspects of Brown’s work: how do we heal when our deepest wounds are the ones we’re most silent about, even to ourselves? How do we care for and support the wounded parts of ourselves and others?
http://journeywomanastro.com/the-astrology-of-brene-brown/

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posted April 12, 2022 10:39 PM            

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Originally posted by PlutoWasHere:
@hypatia, first a big hug for you. I know this pain as well. I also recognize the feeling of Karma playing out. Transit Saturn has been involved in my natal chart but it’s squaring my natal Taurus stellium. It’s been a long journey and probably started with a square to my late Aries Chiron, next square my early Taurus Venus and we made the decision to divorce when transit Saturn was squaring my nodes. It came to a point where it just was inevitable because I either was going to get divorced or my mental health was going to crash and burn. It still hurts but it helps when I realize that there was a difference between “what could have been” and “what it actually was”. Even though we care a lot about each other we are too similar to give the other what they need. We are mirrors. We both have issues with vulnerability and we tend to walk around the difficult subjects in our relationship. Not out of spite but because it’s so difficult for us. And even though it seems like an act of kindness at the time it has caused us to miss out on a real connection and we grew apart. We were both suffering. I can see he’s more at ease now but I don’t know how aware he is of the underlying issues, he has his Moon in H12. It’s his own journey though. All I can do is lovingly let him go.

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Thank you so much for sharing your experience, it means a lot! LOVED "It’s his own journey though. All I can do is lovingly let him go." That is exactly were I am at. I have given so much so much, too much and I don't have more to give, he has to do the work now, there is nothing more I can do and its finally time for me to start putting myself first.

Transit SATURN is opposing his venus and my venus and our composite venus. Transit SATURN is also squaring his AC and DC angles and it is also squaring at this point more widely but still in orb his nodes, since tr saturn will retro it will square his nodes again exact this year. He has transit SOUTHNODE right on his DC too just sitting there hanging out.

What I am noticing is that SATURN at least on my end is not letting me ignore anymore the reality of my relationship, its not letting me do that neptune thing were I just let it go and pretend it was not a big deal that I have done for so long, SATURN is forcing me to look at my relationship straight in the eye very intimately with my eyes wide open and is telling me You have to do something about this, you can't ignore all this any longer. Interesting enough I think URANUS is playing the role of the liberator, URANUS is saying its okay to LET GO and be free, this karmic cycle has ended,set yourself free" and transit PLUTO entering my 2H trining my SUN and squaring my pluto both exact is like "its okay to want more, you deserve better, its okay to put yourself first, and how could you have settled for this for so long."

Then there is tr jupiter conjunct my MOON, opposing my mercury which rules my DC and northnode, tr jupiter is also squaring my nodes. I think this is making my emotions that I have suppressed come to the surface and is making me understand my moon opposite mercury better, I am toooooo compassionate in my relationships and over think my relationships like crazy, I feel too much and think too much and that is why I stayed in this marriage for so long, why I got stuck. Jupiter squaring the nodes and activating my SKIPPED step MOON opposite mercury is helping me see were I am failing, what is going wrong with (e.g. over feeling/toxic empathy, over thinking and not trusting my gut and taking action, constantly questioning my gut do to over thinking or been too empathic/over feeling). My skipped step is about learning to trust and honor my gut and not be a victim of over thinking and toxic empathy.

But Tr JUPITER activating my DC ruler and nodes may also be shaking things up with my marriage helping me release this attachment, when I move out tr URANUS will be trine my DC ruler which is also interesting.

I found an apartment and got accepted for it and my move in date is May 14th, the idea of waiting until June was killing me. Don't get me wrong, this is so haaaaaaaaaard, like its tough, I am not good at endings but I think SATURN wants to me learn about endings right now. It hurts doing this even though I know is what I need and will be for the best long term for both of us. He will learn about this ending next month after I move out, unfortunately he is not someone I can have an adult conversation about ending our marriage and will not react well and try to manipulate me and I can't allow him to emotionally manipulate me so I have to do this in stealth mode and I don't like it, not my style but seems my chart ruler JUPITER conjunct URANUS falling in the 12th always puts me in situations were I have to plan out changes in my life undercover, very strange.

posted April 13, 2022 01:28 AM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
Thank you so much for sharing your experience, it means a lot!

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Thank you for your kind words hypatia. It's been very helpful for me to open up on this forum. It's been helping me realize how much I have been hurting, that I'm moving in the right direction and that I'm not alone with these struggles.

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
...What I am noticing is that SATURN at least on my end is not letting me ignore anymore the reality of my relationship...

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To me SATURN stands for the strength to make difficult decisions. The kind of decisions were you accept pain now so you can receive the rewards later. In that context it also makes sense to me that SATURN rules Capricorn and Aquarius.

It's been very odd how the astrological energies are matching with what is going on in our life. It's been helpful in understanding the issues I have to deal with. I have MOON square MERCURY myself so I recognize the issues of your MOON opposite MERCURY. I question my own feelings a lot too, pushing my emotions away out of fear of being too demanding.

posted April 14, 2022 12:43 AM            

I've been getting a few things done in advance, so that I won't have so much to deal with, if I wake up depressed. I was worried about my dog, and still am a bit, but I will wake up with much less to get done, before leaving the house for a little while. My dad has taken the day off, so that I won't be alone all day. I've been so miserable over the last two years, I spent both birthdays crying, and last year, I couldn't sleep at all, which made it worse.

Sun conjunct Sun - I wish that I'd been enjoying Aries season more. Maybe next year. Mars should be close to conjunct natal Mars, too. I'm afraid to look at my solar return, this past year mostly sucked. I need to be able to lighten up a LOT, but I don't know if that's possible now.

And happy belated Stawr. I think your birthday is just before mine.

posted April 15, 2022 07:21 AM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
I haven't been looking forward to another birthday, and my head is still in March, but I'm just going to say: happy birthday to me!

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posted April 15, 2022 12:53 PM            

- got sidetracked. My transits,
Tr BML quintile N. Sun
and tr Saturn cnj n. Moon.

posted April 17, 2022 08:18 AM            

28 degrees is when Pluto is finally more than 5 degrees off my Sun.

posted April 17, 2022 01:42 PM            

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Originally posted by PlutoWasHere:
Dear Teasel, sometimes I worry a bit when I read your posts. I know that the future can look bleak when you see all the news, especially when there seems to be so much that we feel powerless against. I don't have any advice for you, but I'm sending you some love from my heart to yours. I'm hoping you'll attract good things soon...

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posted April 17, 2022 02:16 PM            

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I haven't been looking forward to another birthday, and my head is still in March, but I'm just going to say: happy birthday to me! I still have some cleaning to do, laundry to start, the dishwasher to start (after holding the door in place with the broom). polishing the tables, getting the cheesecake into the fridge, and I've just remembered the dough for the doughnuts. I hope I didn't mess it up.

I've been getting a few things done in advance, so that I won't have so much to deal with, if I wake up depressed. I was worried about my dog, and still am a bit, but I will wake up with much less to get done, before leaving the house for a little while. My dad has taken the day off, so that I won't be alone all day. I've been so miserable over the last two years, I spent both birthdays crying, and last year, I couldn't sleep at all, which made it worse.

Sun conjunct Sun - I wish that I'd been enjoying Aries season more. Maybe next year. Mars should be close to conjunct natal Mars, too. I'm afraid to look at my solar return, this past year mostly sucked. I need to be able to lighten up a LOT, but I don't know if that's possible now.

And [b]happy belated Stawr. I think your birthday is just before mine.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nHlzLv_a6bs [/B]

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posted April 18, 2022 03:50 AM            

So after much research with transits and progressions, i have concluded that 21Aries is likely my Asc position. With Mc at 23Cap.

The doubt was offset when I carefully examined the Uranus and Pluto outer planet transits to my Asc. These outer planet transits are very important in verifying birth times. Can't stress that enough

In 2016 ,Ura Aries was retro to conj the Asc in Dec(birth month) that year and I just remember my mental state being unstable.

It was a difficult and disruptive period overall that the subsequent years have been spent trying to reconcile.

That year was the year I found out that the father i had was not my biological father.And upon finding that out, I had a whole new family and world revealed to me (practically overnight).

At the time,Uranus in Aries was retrograding to square Ic/Mc (Family/ Career status) when I got the news. Then later that Dec and towards the new year 2017 March, I met my Father. That time when Uranus had stationed to square my Ic(home/roots) exact.

I was looking for Uranus themes here of disruption/sudden changes/upheavals and shocking experiences etc. And that certainly was. When i view it retrospectively, it was a lot to handle. And I felt very much alone😔

When I decided not to renew my contract at a previous job in 2017, I knew it was the Uranus change that was kicking in. At the time, Uranus was square MC. So that made sense to me. I felt the time with the company was over.

I enrolled to study and graduated in Dec 2019 when trans Saturn/Pluto was conj Mc and square Asc respectively.

Sometimes it can happen that when one has undergone an intense transit, another transit that is not too far behind can be difficult to discern (tangibly) in as far as the "after effects" are concerned.

I thought that it was Neptune in transit squaring my Jup in 9th that has had me doubt my beliefs or have me feeling lost and confused.Upon reflection however,I now know it's Pluto.

In 2020 and on to 2021, I did feel the sense of my tank being "empty" and a sense of apathy towards my life's progress take over.

I was feeling anger towards the unclear direction of my life. As well as jealousy towards those around me whose lives were seeming to progress(and i think i still am).

I think the retrograde motion of Pluto separating from my MC is about CLARITY after hitting rock bottom.Destroying false illusions of immortality and time. And getting down to the bear essentials of what one really wants to do with ones life.

That is something I ask myself quite often lately. I always have ofcourse (Sun sextile Pluto) but it's more intense now.

I am looking/searching for that internal spark to "ignite" and have me focus on what I am really passionate about. To be hungry to live life again.

But I don't think that I will find the answer intellectually or through mental exploration. I think it will likely come experientially. Through some form of crisis, pain or loss.

There is a retrograde motion of Pluto that will go direct in Oct at 26.08 degrees of Cap -separating to my Ic. I sense changes in my home life are afoot as well that may have something to do with that crisis. I can already see that now.

What's more is that the way I differentiate Neptune's transit with Pluto transit is that the former (Nep) tend to involve a spiritual "giving in". A resolute point of view to trust forces beyond oneself and let things be.

posted April 18, 2022 04:37 AM            

I feel like this year and up to 2024, there will be a re-boot for the perspective to shift. Even if it comes through a disruption.